patient

After tossing all night, when Liu Tang woke up, he felt pain all over his body. He moved his hands and feet and was about to get up, but he realized something was wrong.

It was like a basin of cold water poured down his head, instantly extinguishing all his joy.

With his eyes open, he felt pain in his throat, nose and eyes. Tears fell down. He wanted to wipe them away, but he couldn't move.

Can only shed tears silently.

He was too naive to dream of love, how could it be possible?His body is like a bomb that will explode one day.

The room was very quiet, the curtains were drawn tightly, and only the dark light by the bed was on.

The beds in the standard room were found to be 1.5 meters high, not small, but it was still a bit crowded for two men to sleep on the same bed. Shen Wenan turned his body sideways, with his feet sticking out of the quilt.

The natural light is blocked by the curtains, making it difficult to tell what night it is. It seems that even time has stopped flowing, and only pain is spreading.

Liu Tang felt the people around him move, and then groaned slightly. Shen Wen'an supported his head with one hand, raised his upper body halfway, saw Liu Tang's eyes open, and smiled: "Are you awake?"

Liu Tang didn't respond, but slowly closed his eyes.

The long silence made Shen Wen'an feel that something was wrong. He frowned slightly, and reached out to touch Liu Tang's forehead, but he didn't have a fever.

He smiled, put half of his body on Liu Tang's body, and leaned over to kiss him: "What's the matter! Does it hurt? I know I didn't know what to do yesterday..."

"You go!"

"...Moreover..." Shen Wen'an's voice stopped abruptly, and he couldn't believe it, "What did you say!"

Liu Tang repeated: "You go!"

"What's the matter with you! You were fine last night, why did you get so nervous when you woke up this morning!" Shen Wen'an was also a little annoyed, sitting up and staring at Liu Tang.

His movements lifted half of the quilt, Liu Tang's imprinted body was exposed to the air, and his slightly trembling lips made Shen Wenan aware of his depression, his heart softened involuntarily, and there was some pleading in his voice: "Liu Tang, can you stop being like this? Just say what you want, and I'll change everything, okay?"

Liu Tang didn't speak all the time, only Shen Wen'an's nagging begging sounded.Liu Tang bit his lips and dared not speak, for fear that he could not help crying.

After a long time, Liu Tang finally said, "Let's go!"

This was the third time he said this sentence, his voice was not as steady as the previous two times, he was suppressed and trembling, his lip was cut, it was bitten by him just now, and the blood quickly coagulated.

"What's the matter with you? Is there any problem that you can't talk about?" Shen Wen'an got up and walked around the room, very irritable.

"Can't you hear me telling you to go!" Liu Tang suddenly roared loudly, looking at Shen Wen'an with red eyes, "What's the problem? You make me feel bad. I don't want to see you. That's the problem! It's just... ..." Liu Tang turned his head sideways, looked at the snow-white wall, his nose was blocked badly, and finally said, "It's just a one-night, one-night affair, how important do you think you are..."

Shen Wen'an sat on the other bed, with his elbows on his knees, and his hands brushing through his hair, with a painful voice: "How could you do this! I'm serious!"

As he spoke, he rushed to the bed where Liu Tang was lying, grabbed Liu Tang's neck with both hands, looked at him with red eyes, and moved his hands harder.

"Cough cough!"

Liu Tang felt uncomfortable being pinched, his face flushed red, he stretched out his hands, trying to break free from Shen Wen'an's hand, but he couldn't move his body, he couldn't do it at all.

Liu Tang closed his eyes, his brain was starved of oxygen, he was panting heavily with his mouth open, his expression gradually distorted.

Maybe, this is death...

At this moment, Liu Tang breathed a sigh of relief, it turns out that death is not so terrible...

The restraint on the neck was suddenly loosened, Liu Tang panted violently, with his right hand resting on his neck, his brows were still furrowed.

The door was slammed shut, and the room was quiet again.

Liu Tang didn't open his eyes, but he clearly knew——

he's gone.

This is actually not the first time Liu Tang collapsed on the bed.

The first time was a year and a half ago. At that time, he had just finished working overtime. At ten o'clock in the middle of the night, there was no one else in the office. A colleague who went to work the next day found out and sent him to the hospital.

When the test results came out, Liu Tang felt that his world had collapsed, and the whole world was gloomy.

Then it was two months of treatment and rehabilitation. He returned to work again, no longer as desperately as before, and actively treated, but he still couldn't stop the deterioration of his condition.

The second time was half a year ago, when he woke up, he found that he couldn't get up.He called his parents and was hospitalized again.

After being discharged from the hospital again, his parents no longer allowed him to live outside alone, so he moved back home.He also resigned from his job, and his work has always been busy day and night. Even if the work given to him by his boss is not so heavy because of his health, his body still can't hold it.

And then this time.

It's not that he didn't have hope. At first, he also expected to be cured, but the longer he was treated, the more he realized that he was finished.

This is not a terminal illness, it will overdraw a person's vitality in a short period of time, and then die.His life is very long, but one day, he will collapse on the bed, unable to get up again, thinking, but unable to act.

That's what made him feel hopeless.

He has been in a bad mood for the past six months, and it is precisely because of this that his parents agreed with him to travel, hoping that he could relax.

But he was lying on the hospital bed again, in such a tragic way.

Liu Tang felt that the way the doctor looked at him was strange.

That's right, with the traces on his body, anyone can guess what he did before he fell ill. Liu Tang can only comfort himself by saying that they don't know him. After he is discharged from the hospital, he will return to Jiangcheng. Meet his attending doctor.

It's also fortunate that he lives in a single ward, otherwise he might not be able to live in it for a few days.

"Are you awake?" Fei Wenxin came in, holding a bag of fruit in his hand, "You've had such a cool life, I'm exhausted from running up and down, hey! I must find a place when I go back." Get a good massage."

Liu Tang ignored him, went to search the bag, found the dragon fruit and said, "I don't want to eat this."

"Did I buy it for you? I bought it for myself!" Fei Wenxin rolled his eyes at him, grabbed the dragon fruit, and cut open the skin with a fruit knife. "I just asked the doctor and I can be discharged tomorrow. , back to Jiangcheng, do you want to go to the hospital for another look?"

"Look again!" Liu Tang peeled the grapefruit.

Seeing him like this, Fei Wenxin couldn't help scolding him: "Liu Tang, you can't always be like this! You can either have an operation or get a good treatment, and you can always be cured. Don't always be so pessimistic. People who have cancer laugh every day. of it!"

"This grapefruit is quite delicious," Liu Tang said with a smile, looking up.

Fei Wenxin felt that he had punched the cotton. He was not angry, but he always felt aggrieved. He finished eating the dragon fruit in two or three bites: "Okay! You can figure it out yourself, anyway, you live your life!"

"You didn't tell my parents about this, did you?" Liu Tang suddenly remembered and asked.

"I didn't say anything," Fei Wenxin knew Liu Tang's temper. "Don't be like this all the time. If you don't say anything, uncles and aunts are worried about you."

"They should be more worried after talking about it," Liu Tang smiled.

"It's up to you!" Fei Wenxin shook his head, and took out Liu Tang's cell phone from his pocket, "That person called again just now, but I didn't answer it, you can see if you want to answer it!"

Liu Tang turned on his cell phone. In the past few days, Shen Wen'an had made a total of 67 calls and sent more than 100 text messages. He read the text messages ranging from apology to pleas, but he never replied.

He is a patient, and no matter who he is with, it is a drag.

He didn't want to drag Shen Wen'an down, and he didn't want to see his hesitant expression when he learned the truth.

It's better to just cut it off.

Pointing to delete, Liu Tang hesitated again, unable to do so.

"Actually, I think if you still like him, you can call him back. There is nothing wrong with falling in love, maybe he won't care about it?" Fei Wenxin said seeing Liu Tang's uncomfortable expression, "Where is he from? How about I book you a plane ticket now?"

Liu Tang turned off the address book and said in a low voice, "He is from Chengdu."

Fei Wenxin's expression brightened: "That's a coincidence! Where do you live? Shall I bring you over?"

"Can I be discharged early?" Liu Tang asked him.

"Wait, I'll ask." Fei Wenxin thought he had figured it out, and hurried to ask the doctor.

A series of examinations were done and the procedures for discharge were completed.

After changing his clothes, Liu Tang came out and said to Fei Wenxin, "Go back to Jiangcheng first, I can go alone."

"I'll wait for you, anyway, I still have leave."

"No, I can go by myself," Liu Tang packed his things, turned to ask him, "Did you buy the phone?"

"I bought it. I can't reissue the number here. If you have anything to do, just send me a WeChat message," Fei Wenxin said.

He was also unlucky, his mobile phone was stolen just after returning to Chengdu from Mount Emei, and he had been using Liu Tang's mobile phone for the past two days.

After finishing speaking, Fei Wenxin came to his senses: "You really don't need me to accompany you?"

"No need," Liu Tang shook his head, "I will be careful, I will send you a WeChat message if something happens, don't worry!"

"That's fine," Fei Wenxin nodded.

The two parted ways at the entrance of the hospital, Fei Wenxin went to the airport, and Liu Tang went to the station under the pretext of looking for Shen Wen'an, and got on the bus to Jiuzhaigou.

It takes seven or eight hours to take a bus from Chengdu to Jiuzhaigou, and it is already night when we arrive at Jiuzhaigou.

He lived in a hotel not far from the station, and sent Fei Wenxin a WeChat message just before going to bed.

Fei Wenxin was already in Jiangcheng when he received the WeChat message, and was on a date with his girlfriend. When he received Liu Tang's voice, he realized that he had been tricked by this guy again, and he was furious.

After thinking about it, I just sent a voice message to Liu Tang: You bastard!

Liu Tang couldn't help laughing after hearing the voice.

The haze in my heart seemed to be swept away, and the whole person seemed to be a little more relaxed.

In fact, it wasn't. Those painful and happy things were just kept in his heart and locked with a key, just like his previous method.

But the lock will eventually be opened one day, what should come will always come back, escape is only short-lived.

But what about him!

Liu Tang thought, just muddle along!