wild love theory

154.

Xing Wanghai called Qi Qing and said that he was going to find Yang Ou, hoping that he could give him a ride.He is now on the cusp of the storm, the heat has not passed, high-speed trains and planes are all unavailable, and there are very few people who can be trusted. After thinking about it, Qi Qing is still the No. 1 choice.

When talking on the phone, Xu Huansen was also on the side, he poked Qi Qing and volunteered to take the job.

"What's going on?" Qi Qing was surprised, "Don't you really hate meddling in other people's affairs?"

Xu Huansen explained: "I promised Yang Ou that if Xing Wanghai has any difficulties here, I will be obliged to help."

"That's it?" Qi Qing curled her lips, "I thought..."

"What do you think?" Xu Huansen deliberately teased him.

Qi Qing's face turned red and white, he couldn't tell, he thought it was to save my face.

Xu Huansen guessed what he was thinking, hugged him, and coaxed: "Of course it's because of you, you value him so much, how could I stand by and do nothing."

Qi Qing was happy in her heart, but her face was calm, her mouth was not to be outdone, "Did you only use this trick to coax people before?"

Xu Huansen was stunned for a moment, feeling jealous, so he had to smile flatteringly, "How could that be? I think too much. I never talked about love before, so I don't have a chance to coax people."

Qi Qing was too lazy to break up with him, lay in his arms, pinched one side of his face, and warned: "From now on, if you dare to laugh so frivolously at others, I will not forgive you."

Xu Huansen pretended to be in pain, looked down at him, blinked, teasing: "You have no confidence in yourself."

Qi Qing let out a snort, and the two of them had a quarrel after a while.

Qi Qing and Xu Huansen drove to Xing Wanghai's home to pick him up.Xu Huansen was waiting in the car, Qi Qing was afraid that Xing Wanghai had luggage, so he knocked on the door.

Xing Wanghai opened the door very quickly, Qi Qing couldn't help being taken aback when he saw him.

His hair was shaved very short and cut into square inches, and he could see some blued scalp.Xing Wanghai ignored the other party's surprised eyes, calmly took a baseball cap from the closet in the entrance and put it on his head, patted Qi Qing on the shoulder, "Let's go."

In fact, Xing Wanghai didn't have any luggage, only one suitcase, and it didn't look like he was going to travel a long distance.Qi Qing pushed the box for him, Xu Huansen got out of the car, took the box and put it in the trunk.

Xing Wanghai didn't wear a mask, and smiled gently at Xu Huansen, "Thank you, Mr. Xu."

Xu Huansen rolled up his shirt sleeves, waved his hand, and said very proudly: "It's okay, it's a matter of little effort."

The three got into the car, and Xing Wanghai sat in the back seat alone.

Xu Huansen's window glass was coated, and the contents of the car could not be seen clearly from the outside, so after all the windows were closed, even though it was daytime, the light inside the car was still dim.

Through the rearview mirror, Xu Huansen couldn't help but cast a few glances at Xing Wanghai who was in the back seat.

He didn't close his eyes to rest, he noticed Xu Huansen's gaze, and simply smiled back generously.This made Xu Huansen feel embarrassed, so he had to find a topic.

The two chatted one after another, while Qi Qing was driving.

When passing through the tunnel, the interior of the car became darker, almost like driving into the night.

"How did you convince Aunt Ye and Uncle?" Qi Qing interrupted suddenly.

Xu Huansen was slightly taken aback, feeling that this might be a very heavy topic.

Xing Wanghai turned his head and saw his own reflection on the glass, changing shape and flickering.

"In your and their impressions, I should have always been the kind of person who doesn't seem to be able to do such things——

Qi Qing held the steering wheel, opened her mouth with a complex expression, but did not utter a word in the end.

Xing Wanghai stared at his own reflection on the car window without moving, and continued: "Have you ever heard a story about a man who stole a plane. In the eyes of many people, he is ordinary Doing the boring job of unloading one piece of luggage from the baggage carousel and loading it up again, repeating, repeating. He never really learned how to fly an airplane before he stole it, and it was a Bombardier Q400. You have to know that many student pilots who have taken lessons in the simulation cabin are unlikely to be successful in the first flight. On that ordinary afternoon, he not only started the plane, but also showed off at sea level. A difficult flight maneuver.

"He also talked to the control tower and jokingly said to them, if I successfully landed, would I be admitted as an official pilot. He also said that he flew the plane for no other reason than to see Look at that orca, desperate, hump her own dead cub for seventeen days and finally let go... He wants to see where she is now, is she still in that sea area, still alone on the sea level Are you wandering——

"He didn't land in the end. After all, he had never received professional training and couldn't cope with sudden situations. Later, he fell to his death on a small island near Seattle. These days, I always think of him and listen to his last conversation with the control tower... ..." Xing Wanghai's voice was a little choked up, "In this world, neither I nor he is the most unfortunate person. Although we are enduring some unsatisfactory things, we can persuade ourselves not to care, just bear with it Yes. Indeed, life is like this. If you give in a little bit and accept your fate, you can live on. I didn’t like the ice cream flavors that adults gave me before, but I know that in their eyes, it’s not a big deal. What's more, even if I eat the taste I like, what can I change? Adults will forget what should be forgotten. Therefore, I never take the initiative to choose. Even if I take the road of acting, someone will pave the way for me. flat road."

Speaking of this, Xing Wanghai paused, his tone softened, but he couldn't express his sadness.

"Qi Qing, I envy you very much, really. Every time, you are so brave to express your views, confront the adults, and say 'no' to anyone who doesn't like it. When I look at you, it seems that I can see many things. Energy pours out of your body, like the sun, shining in all directions. I'm probably the kind of person who reacts very slowly and doesn't know what I want. So I was thinking, Qi Qing is so nice, He is being himself, he knows what he wants.

"But one day Brother Ou came and said to me, you have to be yourself. He told me that people can have choices, people can also say 'no', people can be inactive, people can also be selfish, don't be a perfect People who are perfect, don't go against your instincts, do what you like. I also want to see that killer whale, even if it will fall and be smashed to pieces. I think, there is probably a seagull hovering on my sea level, and then the seagull dives, There were waves.

"The man who stole the plane finally apologized to everyone in the control tower. He said that he hoped that his behavior would not ruin what should have been a beautiful day, especially those who were concerned about him. They will probably be disappointed. I feel like I'm going crazy all of a sudden. He apologized to everyone, but he forgot to apologize to himself. I think I'm different from him. I don't think I should be sorry for myself. I don't want to let myself down. I want to really own my life." [1]

Xing Wanghai's voice gradually disappeared, except for the shallow breathing, the carriage suddenly fell silent.

No one spoke, no one wanted to talk.

They have driven a long way out of the tunnel, but everyone seems to be still immersed in the dark, lurking in this strong emotion, unable to extricate themselves.

Perhaps, Xing Wanghai, like that man, never planned to land.They go forward bravely, be themselves, and have real freedom.

155.

When Yang Ou received the message from Xu Huansen, he was stunned for a while.Xing Wanghai didn't greet him in advance, and since the last phone call, they haven't been in touch for a while.Yang Ou thought, probably to calm down, this is normal.

The set is busy, and there is no room for him to devote his spare energy to thinking. According to this schedule today, the group of Yi may call it quits early.But in the middle of the filming, a group of Yi suddenly poked their heads out from the monitor under the black cloth and shouted a pause into the microphone.There was no mistake, why did it end suddenly, everyone looked at each other in blank dismay.

Two scene managers came up and whispered a few words to Xu Xu who was under the camera, Xu Xu's expression turned ugly instantly.A group of Yi waved to him, and he walked over in a daze, the two exchanged in a low voice, and finally Xu Xu was escorted away by the field attendant.The eyes of the whole set followed Xu Xu's back, and they didn't know to look back until he disappeared completely.Everyone stopped, and the pot exploded in an instant, discussing in whispers what happened.

A few hours later, there was a rumor that the police had received a report and came to the door.Regarding the content of the report, everyone has their own explanations. Some say whether it is about drug use. After all, the popular search effect of Xing Wanghai has not faded from people's minds; some people pretend to understand, but they are talking about economic investigation , This is an investigation of tax evasion.The latter statement somehow began to spread, and suddenly everyone was in danger.After all, the accounts in this circle are all a mess, and who can be innocent.

Yang Ou sat in his seat, listening to the noise of the set, slowly stood up and walked out.Su Minmin followed him and asked him where he was going, and he answered briefly that he was a little bored and wanted to walk alone.Su Minmin was sensible and only told him to be careful.

The afternoon sun was not bad, and Yang Ou walked a long way without knowing it.

He walked to the church where the first scene and the first scene were filmed, looked up, and saw the steeple, which stood out especially against the blue sky.After weathering, the church is gradually turning gray. It is completely unaffected by the dryness of the Northwest, and moss has formed in the dark corners.

He passed by the door of the church a few times, and there was music, probably in service.Went here today, but very quiet.He pushed open the heavy wooden door, walked in, picked up the last row of seats and sat down.

Sunlight leaks from the stained glass that stands tall on both sides.

Without blinking, Yang Ou stared at the center, where there was a huge cross.

He closed his eyes, as if he saw Qu Hua reading the words from the Bible:

"Owe no one to anything, but count it owed always to love one another, for he who loves another has fulfilled the law. The commandments, Thou shalt not commit adultery, Thou shalt not murder, Thou shalt not steal, Thou shalt not covet, or any other commandment, Love your neighbor as yourself. Love does no harm to others, so love fulfills the law.”【2】

Wu Xiangyu, no, it was Xu Xu, standing indifferently behind the woman, listening to Jehovah's dogma, seeming to sneer.

Yang Ou clenched his fists tightly, and his nails inevitably dug into his palms.

He never thought of harming him, but he was unrepentant and even aggressive.He was forced to the cliff and had to take up arms to defend himself.For himself, also for Xing Wanghai.

Why does love always go hand in hand with greed?

When he loves him, when he is everything, so even his greed can be tolerated.

But he doesn't love her anymore, but he wants to run over, put on a set of shackles, and use his previous love to suffocate him.

Xu Xu bet that he was still the same person who would be timid in emotion, so he was unscrupulous.

Yang Ou opened his eyes, stared at the cross, knelt down, and repented.

He said, "Lord, forgive me..."

He couldn't go on, just knelt on the cold ground, the sunlight shivered on his back.