you are my star

The family has been trying their best to keep this matter from Zhao Xingjian's grandma, but there is no impenetrable wall in the world. After a short time, the old lady still found out.But the old man seemed to be more receptive than the children. She called Zhao Xingjian into her room, hugged Zhao Xingjian in her arms for a while and cried for a while, and then stopped talking about it. She treated Zhao Xingjian as always. Loving, even more than ever.

In the blink of an eye, it was the end of the year again, Zhao Xingjian got Ye Shuya's permission to go out and play with his classmates for a day, but he had to call home at noon, Zhao Xingjian nodded in agreement, put on his coat and went out.

The place I made an appointment with Yu Chong was a small restaurant far away from home. Zhao Xingjian rushed over there at noon, and it was time to eat. I saw Yu Chong in the crowd. He was wearing a long black down jacket and a black and white checked scarf, which the two of us chose together last time. The foot moved restlessly, as if it had been frozen for a long time.

"Yu Chong." Zhao Xingjian called Yu Chong, and then walked forward.

Yu Chong looked at Zhao Xingjian, stunned for a moment, then grinned, his smile was bitter, and his big white teeth were shining brightly, making Zhao Xingjian want to cry.

There were too many people at the entrance of the restaurant, and it was inconvenient to talk. Yu Chong took Zhao Xingjian's hand and took him to an open space at the back of the block. Rubbish.

Yu Chong pulled Zhao Xingjian in front of him, made him face him, looked at him for a while and asked, "Xing Xing, why have you lost weight?" His tone was full of distress.

Zhao Xingjian didn't know why he lost weight, he obviously ate a lot, but he kept getting thinner and thinner.

Before Zhao Xing could answer, Yu Chong hugged him tightly and held him tightly.

Yu Chong seemed to have grown taller again, a full head taller than Zhao Xingjian. Seeing that his chin was resting on Yu Chong's shoulder, Zhao Xing felt a little hard to lift his head.

The two of them were silent for an unknown how long they hugged each other. Zhao Xingjian whispered, "Yu Chong, my neck is sore..."

Yu Chong stroked the back of Zhao Xingjian's neck lightly with his hand, but he still refused to let go of his embrace, but hugged him even tighter, as if he wanted to rub him into his body.

Zhao Xingjian quietly stood on tiptoe, looked up at the sky, the sky suddenly started to snow, and small snowflakes fell on Zhao Xingjian's face and his eyelashes.Zhao Xingjian closed his eyes, quietly felt the familiar smell and body temperature of Yu Chong, and wrapped his arms around Yu Chong's waist tightly.

After a while, Yu Chong let go of Zhao Xingjian.Zhao Xingjian straightened his clothes and said hesitantly, "Yu Chong, my dad is sick."

"What disease? Is it serious?" Yu Chong could hear the seriousness in Zhao Xingjian's tone, and hoped it wasn't some serious illness.

"Liver disease, liver cirrhosis, he drank too much alcohol when he was young, and he is afraid of hard work and angry, I..." Zhao Xingjian glanced at Yu Chong in the middle of speaking, and then lowered his head, "I was still a little while ago. So mad at him."

Yu Chong stretched out his hand and rubbed the top of Zhao Xingjian's head, the soft hair was mixed with cold icicles, it was very comfortable to touch.

"Have you gone to the hospital? Don't be afraid, the liver disease can be cured." Yu Chong comforted Zhao Xingjian softly. In fact, he didn't know whether the liver disease could be cured, but he didn't want Zhao Xingjian to be sad, so he could only say so.

"I've been in the hospital for a while, and my mother said I'll see you after the year. If it doesn't work, I'll transfer to Beijing." Zhao Xingjian lowered his head and said, but refused to look up at Yu Chong again.

"En." Yu Chong was still stroking the top of Zhao Xingjian's head.

"My mother said that I will not contact you again, saying that my father can't be angry anymore with this illness, and I have to wait for my father to recover."

Yu Chong's hand paused for a moment, and then he gave a soft "um" and said, "It will be fine, it will be fine."

The snow was getting bigger and bigger, and it was getting colder. Yu Chong took off the scarf, wrapped half of himself and half around Zhao Xingjian's neck, and pulled him over to kiss him. Zhao Xingjian was afraid of being seen and wanted to hide. , Yu Chong held his head down and couldn't move.

"Don't make trouble with Yu Chong..." During the kiss, Zhao Xingjian pushed Yu Chong away. He was afraid that if he was seen again, he would really lose the chance to meet him in the future.

Yu Chong didn't care, and dragged Zhao Xingjian back, bowed his head to kiss him, and bit his lips. Zhao Xingjian knew that Yu Chong was feeling uncomfortable and wanted to vent, so he simply let him go, only holding Yu Chong's arm tightly, It also seems to be venting, and it is hard.

After being tired for a while, Yu Chong wanted to drag Zhao Xingjian to the hotel. Seeing his stomach growling, Zhao Xing said, "I haven't eaten yet."

"Then go eat first." Yu Chong pulled Zhao Xingjian to go to the small restaurant.

"My mother told me to go back before four o'clock in the afternoon." Zhao Xingjian pulled Yu Chong, meaning that he could not go to the hotel with him, but had a meal together.

"Fuck!" Yu Chong cursed in a low voice, then pulled Zhao Xingjian to kiss him, and then said, "Do you remember what I just said? Li Yiwei from Class [-], Class [-], Senior Middle School, we moved The one from the previous courtyard, if I write to you, I will write to him, and you remember to write back to me and write to him, and ask him to write to me."

Zhao Xingjian nodded, and Yu Chong felt relieved to take Zhao Xingjian to the front restaurant for dinner.

Ever since that incident happened, Ye Shuya confiscated Zhao Xingjian's mobile phone, picked her up and dropped off from school on time every day, and Zhao Xingjian was not allowed to go out to meet classmates alone, neither male nor female. Zhao Xingjian knew that Yu Chong was involved in that incident. People have become a thorn in his mother's heart.

Zhao Xingjian was still in Class Two after transferring to No. [-] Middle School, and Li Yiwei was in Class [-] next door. It was convenient for Yu Chong and Zhao Xingjian to pass letters back and forth. He had been in touch with Yu Chong all the time. It's so big that even people in No. [-] Middle School are talking about it. Li Yiwei naturally knows what's going on, but he didn't expect that his playmate when he was a child, the famous son in the courtyard back then, was actually an infatuated kind, or a The infatuated kind who likes men.

Zhao Xingjian read all the letters from Yu Chong carefully, and then put them away.

Yu Chong said in the letter that the teaching conditions in the private school were very good, and his grades had improved again. Zhao Xing smiled and saw Yu Chong's still crooked handwriting, and then stuffed a newest math test paper into his reply letter.

But most of the time, Yu Chong would write that he missed him, and Zhao Xing also missed Yu Chong when he saw it, but every time he picked up his pen, he couldn't write these two words. He regretted why he didn't tell Yu Chong face to face last time that he missed him too .

Yu Chong has been working hard to catch up with his homework. He made an appointment with Zhao Xingjian. He will be admitted to the same city and the same university in the future, so that the two of them can be together every day and always.Thinking about it this way, Yu Chong felt that the separation and pain at this moment are all for them to love each other better in the future. Sweet.

The day before the winter vacation, Yu Chong rarely slipped under the nose of his father's driver, and took a taxi to the gate of No. [-] Middle School. Before he got out of the car, he saw Zhao Xingjian walking from the school gate with his mother. Seeing himself, he quickly lowered his body, and waited until Zhao Xing saw that they had gone far away, then he looked up again. Zhao Xing saw that Zhao Xing was wearing a large down jacket, which vaguely covered his two stick-like legs, and Yu Chong saw them again. A burst of distress.

When Zhao Xingjian had gone far away and was out of sight, Yu Chong asked his master to walk around to the gate of No. [-] Middle School. He didn't come here for half a year. It seemed that nothing had changed here, and at the same time, everything had changed.

Song Yi was carrying a heavy schoolbag. As soon as he left the school gate, he saw Yu Chong standing at the gate.

Yu Chong also saw her, smiled politely as a greeting, and then turned around to leave.

Song Yi stretched out his hand towards Yu Chong, wanting to say wait a minute, but found that he couldn't open his mouth. He looked at Yu Chong's back gradually walking away, as if he understood something in an instant. It turned out that there are some people that you can only watch all your life. looking at his back.

It was the [-]th of the year, and Yu Chong was still celebrating the New Year alone. He stood in front of the window and watched the lively fireworks outside, thinking about this time last year.Yu Chong often wondered when exactly he fell in love with Zhao Xing. He couldn't explain it himself, but at this time last year, he had already fallen in love with him.Taking out his mobile phone and digging out the familiar phone number, Yu Chong was stunned for a long time, but finally he didn't press it.

Zhao Xingjian still went to grandma's house to spend the new year, and this year brought together a big family, but Zhao Ling didn't come back. Uncle said that she and her boyfriend went abroad, and they might discuss marriage in the spring of next year.That's great, Zhao Xingjian sighed, his sister, who wanted to marry him every day, was finally getting married.

Chinese New Year should be happy, the family seems to have made an appointment not to talk about what happened to Zhao Xing, and even his troubled old lady was so rare that she shut up.

Zhao Haihui's physical condition is still not very optimistic. As soon as winter comes, various diseases also come. Zhao Xingjian never knew that his father's health has deteriorated to such an extent.

Ye Shuya went to deliver dumplings to Zhao Haihui and spent the New Year with him in the hospital.

Lying on the hospital bed, Zhao Haihui said in a hoarse voice, "I used to want Xing Jian to be successful, and even wanted him to be like me, but now, I just want him to be happy."

Ye Shuya held Zhao Haihui's hand and comforted her, "He's become more cheerful recently, and he's put on some weight. It seems he's adapted to the new school environment."

Zhao Haihui also held Ye Shuya back, and said lightly, "I can't bear my brothers and my mother, but the thing I worry about most is seeing you with Xing." After finishing speaking, he coughed twice, and then said, "Shuya, you Don't be so stubborn..."

With tears in Ye Shuya's eyes, she held Zhao Haihui's hand and rubbed it, raised her eyes to look at the fireworks outside the window, and choked up, "I know..."