you are my star

Ye Shuya's condition is erratic. She was much better after taking medicine, but recently her condition is not good. She can't eat, and often can't sleep all night. Zhao Xingjian is worried about his mother and can't focus on her studies. In the second half of the third year of high school, my grades plummeted.

Ye Shuya always took Zhao Xingjian's hand and asked, can I recover from this illness?What can you do if I can't get better?

Zhao Xingjian could only comfort him over and over again, saying that it would be fine, the doctor said it would be fine, and it would definitely be fine.

Ye Shuya asked again, you haven't been in touch with Yu Chong recently, have you?

Zhao Xingjian thought about the letter Li Yiwei handed over two days ago, then lied and said, no.

Ye Shuya could only sigh, then held Zhao Xingjian's hand and said, "Xingjian, mother, please break up with Yu Chong, it will solve my problem, okay?"

Zhao Xingjian looked at his mother's old face, nodded numbly, and broke up with Yu Chong for the first time in the letter, and asked him not to come to school to find him again.

Yu Chong replied that he did not agree to break up.

Zhao Xingjian felt that he had reached a fork in the road of his life, he had to make a choice between family affection and love.He has been suffering from headaches from time to time recently, and when he thinks about things, the pain gets worse. He simply doesn't want to think about it anymore. He just wants to live a faster life, to be admitted to university sooner, and to get out of here sooner.

After school that day, Zhao Xingjian saw Yu Chong again at the school gate. Yu Chong took Zhao Xingjian's arm, pulled him to a corner where no one was around, and kissed him like crazy. Holding Yu Chong's arm, when he raised his eyes, he saw Zhao Jingchen standing behind Yu Chong.

Feeling the momentary stiffness of the person in his arms, Yu Chong also turned his head, looked at Zhao Jingchen for a while, and then suddenly turned Zhao Xingjian's body around, so that Zhao Xingjian turned his back to Zhao Jingchen, and then held Zhao Xingjian again. Kissed her face down, and looked up at Zhao Jingchen provocatively while kissing fiercely.

Zhao Jingchen loosened his clenched fist, then turned and left.

After a while, Yu Chong finally let go of Zhao Xingjian. Zhao Xingjian turned to look at Zhao Jingchen, but found that he had already left.Yu Chong forced Zhao Xingjian's head back, stared into his eyes and said, "I forbid you to look at him, you can only look at me!"

Zhao Xingjian called him, "Yu Chong..."

"Why did you say we broke up in the letter? I don't agree to break up!" Yu Chong said excitedly, and the hand holding Zhao Xingjian's arm unconsciously tightened, "Xing Xing, don't break up with me, I have studied hard now, Just last time we said we would take the entrance exam together, I will definitely be able to pass the exam, you believe me, when we go to the university and leave here, no one will stop us, don't worry, don't break up, okay? "

Zhao Xingjian looked at Yu Chong and nodded slightly, "Okay."

Ye Shuya still watched Zhao Xingjian very closely, and Zhao Xingjian and Yu Chong met less and less often, but fortunately, the end of the semester was coming soon, and the tense and exciting college entrance examination in the imagination was in Zhao Xingjian's hands. Jian's continuous low-grade fever passed away in a trance. After the exam was over and he walked out of the classroom, Zhao Xingjian felt dizzy and fainted.

I was in the hospital for fluid transfusion for a day, but fortunately there was nothing serious.

With a needle still in his hand, Zhao Xing saw a person lying in the ward. He looked at the sky outside the window in a daze, thinking about the questions he had done during the exam. He seemed to have made a lot of mistakes. In the school that Yu Chong agreed upon, it was impossible.

My cousin in my hometown got married. Ye Shuya is in a much better mood recently. She wants to go home and have a look. She originally wanted to take Zhao Xing to meet her during the summer vacation, but Zhao Xingjian refused in the name of a class reunion, so Ye Shuya didn’t force him. He sent Zhao Xingjian to his grandmother, and then went back to his hometown by himself.

It was midnight when Ye Shuya came back, the lights in the corridor were broken, she couldn't see clearly, stepped on a step, and fell hard.

When Zhao Xingjian received a call from the aunt at the door, he ran to the hospital without even putting on his clothes. When he got to the ward, he saw his mother lying quietly on the hospital bed with a bandage on her head.He approached cautiously, until he heard his mother's long breathing, the hanging heart fell back again.

Zhao Xingjian stayed by the hospital bed and sat all night.The next morning, Ye Shuya woke up and saw Zhao Xingjian next to her, she said weakly, "Xingjian, I dreamed about your father yesterday, he said he didn't want me to go down to find him, and said he hadn't seen you yet. He is worried about getting married and having children."

Zhao Xingjian held Ye Shuya's hand and didn't speak.

"Mom, please, break up with Yu Chong. You have been good since you were a child, and you will listen to your mother this time, okay?"

Seeing that the hand was tightened again, Zhao Xing nodded lightly after a long time, "Yeah."

Yu Chong wrote a letter before saying that there is no one at home these few days, and asked Zhao Xingjian to go to his house, and Zhao Xingjian replied and agreed.

He remembered that day seemed to be a Sunday, and it was already evening when he arrived at Yu Chong's house. The sunset was so brilliant that day that the sky turned pink.

When Yu Chong saw Zhao Xingjian, he excitedly pulled him into the room, hugged him for a while, then suddenly took out the standard answer issued after the college entrance examination, opened it and put it on the coffee table, and said to Zhao Xingjian, "Xingxing , Have you estimated the score? Let me tell you that I did really well in the exam this time, as for the university we agreed on, I think it's interesting."

Zhao Xingjian looked down at the answer book that was messed up by Yu Chong, and didn't speak for a long time, not knowing what he was thinking.

"Xing Xing?" Seeing Zhao Xing was dumbfounded, Yu Chong stretched out his hand to get him.

"Ah, it's good, but I'm afraid I won't pass the exam." Zhao Xing came to his senses after seeing this, and continued Yu Chong's words.

"Are you kidding, I can pass the exam, but you can't?" Yu Chong said with a smile, thinking that Zhao Xingjian was deliberately teasing him.

Zhao Xingjian and Yu Chong made an appointment to take the university exam together, which is a school in the south, because Yu Chong said that if we go far away, there will be no one to oppose us.When Yu Chong said this, he looked forward to laughing at the same time, the more he laughed, the more uncomfortable Zhao Xingjian felt.

Zhao Xingjian thought about his state during the exam, and felt that he was not kidding. He lowered his head and said to Yu Chong, "I had a fever during the two days of the college entrance examination, so I didn't perform well."

Yu Chong pulled Zhao Xingjian's body and asked worriedly, "Why did you have a fever? Are you still feeling uncomfortable now?"

Zhao Xingjian shook his head, "It's been so many days, is it stupid to burn it again?"

Only then did Yu Chong heave a sigh of relief, annoyed that he only found out now, and why he couldn't be by Zhao Xingjian's side when he was feeling sad.

Seeing that Zhao Xing has always been good at studying, but he failed in the college entrance examination, although he didn't show it, he must be feeling uncomfortable. Yu Chong knew that Zhao Xing saw that this person loved him to death, so he could only comfort him softly, "It's okay, I didn't take the exam. If you don’t pass the exam, if you want to repeat it, I’ll accompany you to repeat it. If you don’t want to repeat it, I’ll go with you wherever you go to college. Besides, it’s okay if you don’t pass the exam, and you can’t die. It’s a big deal. I will earn money to support you in the future."

Yu Chong spoke earnestly, Zhao Xingjian raised his eyes to look at him, his thin lips parted slightly, as if he wanted to say something, but he still didn't say it, he only pursed his lips lightly.

Yu Chong didn't have that kind of thought at first, but when Zhao Xing saw such a hook, he suddenly reacted, and he stopped persuading Zhao Xing to see about the college entrance examination, and would kiss him when he got close.

Zhao Xingjian turned sideways calmly, and said to Yu Chong, "I might have to go to Beijing for the exam."

Yu Chong froze in mid-air, stunned for a moment, then smiled and asked Zhao Xingjian, "Don't tease Xingxing, didn't we agree to go to Beijing before?"

Zhao Jingchen went to university in Beijing. Zhao Xingjian had always wanted to go to Beijing for the exam. Yu Chong naturally refused to let him know. Now that Zhao Xingjian said that suddenly, Yu Chong was shocked and felt that he was joking with himself.

"I'm not kidding, I changed my mind, I'm going to take the exam in Beijing." Zhao Xing didn't look at Yu Chong, but his words were firm.

"Are you out of your mind? Zhao Jingchen is in Beijing, why the fuck did you pass the exam? Are you trying to annoy me?" Yu Chong suddenly stood up from the sofa and yelled at Zhao Xingjian.

"I'm not sick, and I didn't mean to make you angry. I just want to pass the exam in Beijing. I came here to tell you..." He stopped suddenly in the middle of the sentence. Zhao Xingjian took a deep breath and finally finished the sentence. "Yu Chong, let's break up."

Yu Chong thought for a moment that he had heard it wrong, and when he understood it, he pulled Zhao Xingjian up from the sofa, stared him in the eyes and asked him, "Say it again?"

Zhao Xingjian suddenly thought of Yu Chong's vicious eyes when he said "let's try to break up" that day, and it was no different from now. Zhao Xingjian felt terrified when he saw it, but he repeated it clearly, he said, "Yu Chong Come on, let's break up."

"The reason." Yu Chong said.

"There is no reason."

Seeing that Zhao Xing did not lie, he still chose family affection between family affection and love. He no longer has a father, and his mother's health is getting worse and worse. He dare not make her angry anymore, but it is not impossible to be with Yu The reason for rushing together is that he is just cowardly, and he doesn't want to live such a tangled and painful life.

"Fuck!" Yu Chong cursed in a low voice, and when he was about to say something, Zhao Xingjian's cell phone rang. Yu Chong held Zhao Xingjian's arm, snatched the cell phone from his pocket, took a look, The incoming call displayed on the phone was Zhao Jingchen.

Zhao Xingjian wanted to snatch the phone back, but Yu Chong held his hand tightly, and pressed the answer button.

"Hello, Xingjian, where are you now? Why aren't you at home?" Zhao Jingchen's voice came from the other end of the phone.

"See you, Xing!" Yu Chong yelled, then hung up the phone, not wanting to listen to Zhao Jingchen's nonsense, and threw Zhao Xingjian's phone on the ground hard.

Zhao Xingjian struggled to get away from Yu Chong who was grabbing his hand, Yu Chong pressed Zhao Xingjian on the sofa again, rode on him and grabbed the other person's hair to force him to look at him, then said harshly, "Zhao Jingchen will call you What are you doing on the phone? Are you two hooking up again?"

Seeing that he was uncomfortable being confined, Zhao Xing frowned and said, "I didn't..."

"Break up with me without you? Do you think I'm an idiot?!" Yu Chong became more and more excited as he spoke, and unconsciously exerted force on Zhao Xingjian's hair.

"Yu Chong, you fucking let me go, can't we get together and get away?" Zhao Xingjian originally wanted to say that it was because of his mother that he couldn't continue to be with Yu Chong, but he knew Yu Chong's temper, so Saying it would only make him more stubborn, and now that he misunderstood himself and Zhao Jingchen, it might not be a bad thing, so he simply refused to explain.

"Fuck your mother, it's so good to get together and get together, see Zhao Xing, I have spent more than a year for you, and I have spent my heart and soul. I have never cooked, and today I made a big table for you. I am looking forward to you like a fool." In the future, in the end, your mother came over to tell me to break up, do you still have any conscience?"

Hearing what Yu Chong said, Zhao Xing realized that the large table of dishes at the table next to him had been specially prepared by Yu Chong. He thought it was his takeaway, and felt ashamed and even more uncomfortable.

"Yu Chong, let me go first, let's talk..."

"Fuck you, talk about it." Yu Chong hated these three words the most, he thought it was Zhao Xingjian's perfunctory treatment of him, "You fucking white-eyed wolf, who will comfort you when you are heartbroken by Zhao Jingchen?" ?Who protected you when you were bullied? Who ran to your house to make you hug and cry when your father died? Isn’t it all me? You don’t need me now, and you want to kick me away, want to Looking for Zhao Jingchen? Let me tell you, there is no way!" Yu Chong became more and more hysterical, his whole face flushed red.

The mobile phone on the ground rang again, Zhao Xingjian struggled to answer it, Yu Chong got up and kicked the mobile phone to the corner, then grabbed Zhao Xingjian's arm and dragged him into the bathroom, locked the bathroom door from the outside, ignoring Zhao Xingjian The one who saw it yelled, and said to the inside, "You give me a good reflection and consider whether you want to break up, and then I will let you out."

Zhao Xing saw that the door couldn't be opened after pushing hard, knowing that Yu Chong had locked the door, and kicked it hard a few times, but found that it was of no avail, so he leaned against the door in despair, not knowing what to do.