you are my star

It was already nine o'clock in the evening when the meeting was over. Zhao Xingjian and Yu Chong got out of the same elevator. Recently, there were a lot of project docking matters, and the two of them met almost every day.

Despite this, Zhao Xingjian still felt embarrassed. Yu Chong was drunk that night, and he didn't know if he still remembered what happened that day, but he didn't mention it again after that. Zhao Xingjian felt that Yu Chong shouldn't want to talk to him anymore. It's emotionally involved.

I didn't drive in the past few days, and when I got to the hall, I saw it was pouring rain outside, and Zhao Xingjian's heart began to "chug" again.

Yu Chong walked out while answering the phone, and when he reached the door, he realized that Zhao Xingjian hadn't followed him, so he turned his head to see him standing in the middle of the hall in a daze.Seeing that Zhao Xing was not wearing glasses today, but was wearing a light blue shirt, he took off the suit and hung it on his arm, and the ironed trousers lined his straight and slender legs, Yu Chong hung up the phone and looked at him more Two eyes.

"Aren't you leaving?" Yu Chong asked Zhao Xingjian.

"Ah, I didn't drive. I called a car just now. You can go first." Hearing Yu Chong talking to himself, Zhao Xingjian recovered from the sound of rain outside.

Yu Chong originally wanted to say that I would send you off, but felt that it was too ambiguous, so he nodded without saying anything, turned around and left.

There was no one in the hall, Zhao Xingjian was sitting on a chair, looking at the glass door blurred by the heavy rain, his heart became more and more confused, crackling thunder sounded, Zhao Xingjian's head started to hurt again.

In recent years, Zhao Xingjian felt that his mental state was getting worse and worse.In the two years since Zhao Si was born, he divorced Jiang Nan and took Zhao Si alone in Beijing. Although Ye Shuya often came to help, and later had a nanny to help, Zhao Xingjian still worked day and night to make money. I worked hard, and after a long time, I got headaches, and sometimes I even had to be paralyzed by alcohol to relieve the pain.When he went to the hospital, the doctor said that he was under too much mental stress, and he could take some medicine to relieve it. Zhao Xingjian also listened to the doctor's advice, and took the medicine obediently for two years. After seeing Zhao Si come back and settle down here, the pressure is relatively less.

But the headache is just a small problem. I don’t know since when, Zhao Xingjian always had a nightmare repeatedly, a rainy night, a car accident, a person whose face could not be seen clearly, always appeared in the dream from time to time, one day Zhao Xing Jian broke free from the nightmare in horror and sat up on the bed. He saw the rain outside the window and thunder and lightning. Since then, every time there was such a thunderstorm, he would have uncontrollable headaches and panic attacks.

The phone in his pocket rang suddenly, Zhao Xingjian picked it up, and Zhao Si's tender voice came over, "Dad, are you off work? When are you going home?"

Hearing Zhao Si's voice, Zhao Xing calmed down a little after seeing his heart, "Dad will go back after get off work, have you had dinner yet?"

"Well, I've eaten it. The crabs that Aunt Feng made for me today are delicious, but I can't eat them. There are many more. Dad will come back to eat."

"Well, then you stay with Aunt Feng for a while, and Dad will go back in a while."

After chatting with Zhao Si, the sound of the rain outside gradually became quieter, and Zhao Xingjian felt that his head did not hurt so much.

"Father?" Zhao Si cautiously asked Zhao Xing to meet before he hung up the phone.

"Ok?"

"It's raining heavily outside again, it's raining heavily, but dad, don't be afraid, Sisi is waiting for you at home." Zhao Si knew that Zhao Xingjian was afraid of rain, especially on nights like this when there were thunderstorms. He would lock himself in his room until the rain stopped.Zhao Si didn't know why, but only knew that if he could be with his father, he wouldn't be so afraid.

"Sisi is good, dad is not afraid." Zhao Xingjian seemed to be less afraid after hearing Zhao Si's voice.

It is not easy to take a taxi on a rainy day. Zhao Xingjian waited for a long time, but the car he asked for did not arrive.It's raining again outside.

Zhao Xing saw only one person left in the hall. He raised his head and stared blankly outside, and suddenly saw a blurry figure appearing at the door. The man was dressed in black, as if he had been drenched in the rain, dragging his wet body Walk towards yourself.

Zhao Xingjian stood up from the chair and watched the man get closer until he saw his bloody face.Zhao Xingjian staggered and took a step back, trembling all over and muttering, "Let me go, I beg you to let me go..."

After Yu Chong left, he took another look at Zhao Xing through the glass, and found that his expression was not right, and his state was not right. He thought he was not feeling well, so he wanted to turn back and ask, but when he got closer, he saw him hiding in panic. Own.

Still afraid of me?Yu Chong thought, I haven't done anything recently...

"See you, Zhao Xing, what's the matter with you?" Yu Chong asked him after standing still.

Seeing that Yu Chong's shout brought Zhao Xing back to his senses, Zhao Xing calmed down and realized that the person standing in front of him was Yu Chong.

"No, it's okay..." Zhao Xing saw that he didn't know how to explain to Yu Chong, so he had to stand up straight and pretend to be calm.

"Are you uncomfortable?" Yu Chong asked again.

Zhao Xingjian shook his head.

"It's raining harder and harder. I'll take you back. Otherwise, I don't know how long I'll have to wait for a taxi. Isn't your daughter still waiting for you at home?" Yu Chong deliberately slowed down his tone and asked.

Zhao Xingjian wanted to refuse at first, but he was afraid of staying here, so he nodded and agreed.

While sitting in the car, the two were speechless for a moment.

"Are you afraid of the rain?" After a while, Yu Chong looked at Zhao Xingjian's eyebrows that frowned more and more with the rain, and seemed to guess something.

Zhao Xingjian didn't want to hide it, so he nodded and said, "A little bit."

"When did you start the problem? We used to be together... Uh, I didn't see you afraid of rain when I was young?" Realizing that he had said something wrong, Yu Chong smiled awkwardly.

"Maybe I was scared sometime." Zhao Xing saw that he didn't hear Yu Chong's slip of the tongue. He stared out of the window blankly, and his vague memory drifted back to the rainy night in his dream. He was eager to know what happened that night. , but as long as I think about it, it hurts like my head is about to explode.

Seeing that Zhao Xing didn't want to say anything, Yu Chong stopped asking and turned around to drive seriously.

Zhao Xingjian stopped looking out of the window, and turned his head slowly, but caught a glimpse of Yu Chong's slender hand holding the steering wheel, with a silver ring on the ring finger of his right hand, he was stunned for a moment.

Sensing Zhao Xingjian's gaze, Yu Chong also glanced at his hand, then smiled at Zhao Xingjian and said, "It's for fun."

Yu Chong didn't lie, he didn't even know how this ring got on his hand, it was bought by Tang Rui, each of them had one, after they broke up, Yu Chong never wore it again, he thought it should be Tang Rui this morning Rui put it on secretly while he wasn't paying attention, and he was in a hurry to go to work at that time, and he didn't care about it after a busy day.

Zhao Xingjian looked away from Yu Chong's hand and said nothing.

It was raining and the road conditions were bad, and the wipers couldn't clear the heavy rain that fell on the car windows.A police car sped past from behind, and Yu Chong said indifferently, "It's a rainy day, and I tend to get into car accidents. Fortunately, you didn't drive today."

The place where the accident happened is not far ahead, and the road is blocked now, so I can't get through.Yu Chong had to stop the car, looked at the accident scene outside and frowned, "It's a rear-end collision, it seems that the collision was hard enough, the car in front is deformed."

Seeing what Yu Chong said, Zhao Xing didn't dare to look outside.

"Let's go, Yu Chong." Zhao Xingjian didn't want to stay here for a second, his head started to hurt again, and his heart beat abnormally.

"Ah?" Yu Chong looked at Zhao Xingjian, then at the blocked road ahead, and said to him, "I can't go, it's probably blocked, wait a while."

Zhao Xingjian didn't say anything more, Yu Chong looked at his increasingly pale face, and always felt that something was wrong, so he asked him, "What's wrong with you, Zhao Xingjian? Are you uncomfortable?"

Zhao Xingjian shook his head, raised his eyes to say something to Yu Chong, but saw that bloody face appeared on the car window behind Yu Chong again, Zhao Xingjian couldn't see his expression clearly, but saw him The mouth was opening and closing, saying, see Zhao Xing, why did you kill me.

Zhao Xingjian's face suddenly turned pale, and he was still muttering something, even when Yu Chong called him, he couldn't hear him at all.

"Zhao Xingjian, what's the matter with you?" Yu Chong grabbed Zhao Xingjian's arm and asked him.

Zhao Xingjian stared behind Yu Chong, his eyes seemed to be out of focus, and he kept shaking his head.

Yu Chong was frightened, held Zhao Xingjian and called him, "See you, Zhao Xing, what's wrong with you? Xing Xing, Xing Xing, don't scare me..."

Yu Chong's warm palm finally brought Zhao Xingjian back to his senses. He looked at Yu Chong in front of him, and his fear faded a little.

Seeing that Zhao Xing suddenly wanted to cry and hug Yu Chong, but the cold ring on the other's finger reminded him not to do so, so he had to push away Yu Chong's hand touching his face, and tried to calmly say, "It's okay, just now Not very comfortable, sorry to scare you."

Zhao Xingjian's face was still pale. Although he pretended to be calm, his trembling lips still betrayed him. Seeing Zhao Xingjian like this, Yu Chong still felt distressed, so distressed that he wanted to hug him.

Zhao Xingjian avoided Yu Chong's deep eyes staring at him, and didn't think about the emotion in his eyes when he looked at him. He sat upright on the car seat, trying to make himself look calm, but the tightly clenched fist The fingers have dug into the flesh.

When Zhao Xingjian came home, Sister Feng had just left. Zhao Si ran to the door and obediently helped Zhao Xingjian get his slippers, then held his cold hand and said to him, "Dad, our teacher said that thunder and rain are a kind of It is a natural phenomenon, it is not a ghost, so don’t be afraid.” Zhao Xingjian touched Zhao Si’s head with a smile, and said softly to her, “Father is not afraid.” He thought that he was really worthless, but he actually wanted a child to do it instead. coax.

After Zhao Xingjian took a shower, he shut himself in the room again. The rain outside had lightened, but Zhao Xingjian was still afraid. He closed the curtains, sat on the bed with his knees in his arms, pulled out the earphones, and put his two The ears were all plugged, and soothing music came in, blocking the sound of thunder and rain outside, and Zhao Xing felt much better after seeing this.

The phone screen suddenly lit up, Zhao Xingjian clicked on it, it was a message from Yu Chong, he asked, are you all right?You just scared the hell out of me in the car.

This contact information was added when we had dinner together for the first time.

Zhao Xingjian thought for a while, then went back, it's all right, thank you for today, Yu Chong.

This is the first time they've talked about anything other than work.

The other party did not reply to the message, Zhao Xingjian curled up and lay on the bed, holding the phone in his arms.