you are my star

On her birthday, Zhao Si got up early, put on the pink princess gauze dress that Uncle Yu bought for her two days ago, and sat obediently on the sofa waiting for brother Yiheng to come over to celebrate her birthday.

But before I waited for brother Yiheng, I waited for grandma first.

Ye Shuya entered the room carrying a big box, which was a gift for Zhao Si. She smiled and caught the good granddaughter who threw herself into her arms, and rubbed her head to say happy birthday to her.

Zhao Si led Ye Shuya inside, Yu Chong and Zhao Xingjian came out of the kitchen together, and when they met, the three of them froze at the same time.

"Mom, why are you here? It's not that you don't have time..." When Zhao Xing saw that he and Yu Chong were together again, he kept hiding it from his mother, and Ye Shuya seldom came here recently because of Zhou Qi's affairs, so this Zhao Xingjian never told her about this matter.

Ye Shuya glanced at Zhao Xingjian, then at Yu Chong, and immediately understood what was going on, she said lightly, "How could I know that you two are..." She couldn't continue in the middle of her sentence, He led Zhao Si to the sofa and opened the gift for her to see.

Ye Shuya's reaction made Zhao Xingjian very uneasy. Yu Chong squeezed his hand lightly, then walked over and sat opposite Ye Shuya, and said to her, "Auntie, I was sincere when I met Zhao Xing. We missed it ten years ago. Now, I will never let him go again."

Ye Shuya was angry at first, although she had acquiesced that Zhao Xingjian liked men, but when she saw Zhao Xingjian was with Yu Chong again, she still had mixed feelings in her heart, but she didn't know how to persuade her. Now seeing Yu Chong coming to talk to him again, he felt a headache, so he said angrily to him, "Can you stop saying this in front of the children?"

Zhao Sizheng nestled in Ye Shuya's arms unpacking toys, and when she heard her fierce Yu Chong, he raised his head and said to her, "Grandma, don't be mean to Uncle Yu, Uncle Yu is very kind to my father and me, Uncle Yu bought my fairy dress for me." .”

Ye Shuya heard what Zhao Si said, thinking that Yu Chong had been wandering around this house, maybe she had done something outrageous with Zhao Xingjian in front of the children, she felt even more uncomfortable, she ignored Yu Chong , bowed his head and asked Zhao Si, "Sisi, do you want another mother?"

Hearing her grandma ask herself this question, Zhao Si turned her head to look at Yu Chong and Zhao Xingjian, then shook her head, "I don't want a mother, because I know that Uncle Yu is the father, and the father is the mother, so I don't want to have a mother anymore. "

When she said this, the three adults were all stunned. Ye Shuya broke Zhao Si's body and asked her sharply, "Who told you this?"

Zhao Si was taken aback by Ye Shuya's reaction. She blinked, thinking about that time when her mother picked her up and told her that an uncle came to the house and slept in the same room with her father every day.My mother froze for a moment and told her, from now on, your uncle will be your father, and your father will be your mother. You don't have to worry about your father finding you a stepmother anymore.

Zhao Si didn't understand what this meant. She only knew that Uncle Yu was very good, and her father liked him very much, and that her father would not find her a stepmother. She thought it was very good.

"Say it! Who taught you to say that!" Seeing Zhao Si in a daze, Ye Shuya asked her again, shaking her shoulder.

Zhao Si was frightened and cried suddenly, she had never seen her grandma angry, she was still angry with herself, she didn't know what she said or did wrong, she just reached out to Zhao Xingjian to hug her while crying.

Zhao Xingjian quickly took Zhao Si, hugged her in his arms and stroked her head to comfort her.

Ye Shuya stood up from the sofa, gave Zhao Xing a sad look, then turned and left.

Zhao Xingjian and Yu Chong looked at each other, and they both sighed helplessly at the same time.

Lang Yiheng suddenly called and said that he couldn't come due to something. In the end, the three of them celebrated this birthday together. Because of the special nature of the family, Zhao Xing did not dare to invite Zhao Si's classmates over. He only wanted to find another weekend someday. , I took Zhao Si and her little friends to celebrate again, children like to have a lively birthday, Zhao Xingjian didn't want to wrong Zhao Si.

Although Ye Shuya was unhappy, Zhao Xingjian knew that she had accepted the fact that she liked men, or it was a compromise. Although she couldn't completely agree with Yu Chong, it was better than forcing her to die back then. how much.

At night, Zhao Xingjian was woken up by the sound of rain. The rain was not heavy, but the raindrops "cracked" on the window, which still woke Zhao Xingjian up. He got out of bed gently, and then closed the curtains.

Zhao Xingjian has always felt that there is something wrong with his head, not to mention the headache from time to time, as long as it rains, the headache seems to be split open, he seems to vaguely know why, a night rain many years ago, that tragic The car accident, that bloody man, kept hitting his brain every rainy day.But Zhao Xingjian didn't know who it was, he tried hard to recall, but it was only a blurry fragment forever, thinking again, his head seemed to explode.

Yu Chong was woken up, squinted his eyes to look for Zhao Xing, opened his eyes and saw him standing by the window, so he called him, "Xing Xing?"

Seeing this, Zhao Xing came back from his thoughts and turned to look at Yu Chong.

Yu Chong lifted a corner of the quilt, Zhao Xingjian returned to the bed, took off his shoes and climbed onto the bed, and crawled into Yu Chong's arms.

"Can't sleep?" Yu Chong asked Zhao Xingjian, kissing the top of his head.

"Well, I can't sleep when it rains."

Only then did Yu Chong remember that Zhao Xingjian was afraid of rain, but he hadn't asked him why. Last time he told himself that he was scared, but Yu Chong felt intuitively that it would not be that simple.

"Fear of rain? When did it start?"

Hearing Yu Chong's question, Zhao Xingjian began to try to remember again, but he couldn't remember anything. He nestled in Yu Chong's arms and said in a muffled voice, "Yu Chong, I always feel like I have killed someone."

Yu Chong was taken aback by Zhao Xing's words, and then felt that he was joking, and said to him with a smile, "If you killed someone before, you can still be in my arms now? You should have entered the situation earlier."

Zhao Xingjian also felt that his paranoia was getting more and more serious. He was afraid when he said it, so he quickly shook his head to get rid of the thoughts in his mind, and then said, "I just dreamed about my grandma."

"Huh? What did grandma say?" Yu Chong asked Zhao Xingjian, stroking Zhao Xingjian's back.

"I dreamed that my grandma held my hand before she died and said, "Xingjian, if you really like that boy, go find him."

Yu Chong stroked Zhao Xingjian's hand on the back suddenly, and after a while, stroked it lightly again.

"But why didn't I go to you?" Zhao Xingjian raised his head from Yu Chong's arms and looked at him with wide eyes.

Seeing that his eyes were still so bright, Zhao Xing probably thought of something sad. At this moment, there was a layer of mist, and in the blink of an eye, a wave of ripples arose. He just looked at Yu Chong, right into Yu Chong's heart.

Yu Chong lowered his head and pressed his forehead against Zhao Xingjian's, "Aren't you here to find me now?"

Zhao Xingjian suddenly curled his lips, looking like he was about to cry, he said to Yu Chong, "Yu Chong, I regret it, I regret that I separated from you back then, our ten years are just so missed, and we can never make it up again It's..."

The voice of Zhao Xingjian when he spoke was trembling because of excitement, which made Yu Chong's heart break. He coaxed Zhao Xingjian like a child, and said to him softly, "Good boy, don't be sad, you can I made up for it, and I will never leave you for a moment in the future, and I will make up for you in the next life, okay?"

"Okay." Zhao Xingjian said while burying himself in Yu Chong's arms.The rain outside was about to stop, Zhao Xingjian felt Yu Chong was by his side, it was the first time that he didn't panic and toss and turn in such a rainy night.

It was only at this moment that Yu Chong could truly feel that Zhao Xingjian had really changed.He didn't know what Zhao Xingjian had experienced in the past few years and why he became so sensitive and vulnerable.He asked, and Zhao Xingjian only said that he was used to being lonely and boring, and that without passion, people would become silent.

Zhao Xingjian seldom mentions Jiang Nan, and hardly mentions Zhao Jingchen, which sometimes makes Yu Chong suspect that if Zhao Xingjian really left him for Zhao Jingchen at the beginning, and now Zhao Xingjian has become like this, then the days when they were together, Zhao Xingjian Xingjian must have been heartbroken by him.Thinking of this, Yu Chong felt sad again, and only comforted himself, Zhao Xingjian now loves him.

"Yu Chong." Zhao Xingjian still couldn't fall asleep.

"Ok?"

"Who taught Sisi what you said today?" Zhao Xingjian asked.

Only then did Yu Chong remember what Zhao Si said today, "Uncle is father, father is mother". He also felt strange, how could such a young child understand these things, and he was sure that in front of Zhao Si, he would never Do outrageous things.

"Maybe I heard some nonsense from a kid in the kindergarten." Yu Chong said indifferently, and patted Zhao Xingjian's back lightly while talking.

Seeing that Zhao Xing did not speak, Yu Chong asked him, "Xing Xing, do you think your mother acquiesced to us today?"

"Probably so." Zhao Xingjian said, "She doesn't force me to marry a woman anymore, it's just that she has been unable to figure it out, people of the older generation, but fortunately she has accepted that I like men Now that this is the truth, just seeing you again makes me feel awkward."

Yu Chong sighed above Zhao Xingjian's head: "Then take your time, this is a good start."