How did Xiao Ming die?

Leng Xiaotai and I made an appointment to meet on the rooftop of the Municipal No. [-] Hospital.

I don't know why the site was chosen here, but a hospital is not an easy topic when you think about it.

In the afternoon, the sky became more gloomy, and the picture in the field of vision seemed to drop a shade.I was already in a bad mood, which made my steps up the stairs even heavier.

Rooftop.

Leng Xiaotai sat on the edge of the building, his legs dangling in the air.He looked up at the taller office building across the street in a daze, the bangs on his forehead were blown up by the wind, revealing his beautiful eyebrows.

I approached cautiously, he noticed my presence, patted the seat beside him, "Sit down?"

I shook my head and sat down in a safe place behind him, "It's too dangerous."

He continued to maintain the posture of looking up, another gust of wind made him squint his eyes.

"It was here before, but I was afraid of falling like you, so I sat in the back."

"Is he afraid? Isn't my deskmate a god? How could he be afraid of falling down?"

Leng Xiaotai sneered, "He is afraid, of course he is. He is probably the most afraid of death among the people I know."

"Haha." I laughed dryly, and put the bag in my hand beside him, "The round-trip flight from our city to Capital Airport is at ten o'clock and one o'clock, I guess you haven't eaten yet."

He rolled his eyes and took the bag with a smile, "Oh, you are really too sweet."

In the bag is a bottle of Nutrition Express and Haoliyou that I bought at a small store along the way. When I was in high school, this was the ration I often asked me to carry for him.

Leng Xiaotai opened the bag, curled his lips, "I hate Haoliyou so much, only I like to eat shit like this!"

"If you like to eat or not, what kind of bicycle do you want?"

In fact, I don’t like to eat Haoliyou, maybe I’m used to helping me bring one. When I came out of the small shop with Nutrition Express and Haoliyou, I realized it later.

Leng Xiaotai said that he didn't even eat breakfast to catch the plane. Although he didn't like it in every possible way, he would still endure it 'for survival'.

I told him to go away and give me the bag back.

"You're so fierce today." The beauty pretended to be wronged and complained to me, "Didn't you say that I can be forgiven for anything I do?"

"I'm in a bad mood and I don't want to flirt."

The beauty scolded me for being ruthless, and ate the chocolate pie as quietly as a chicken.

After a while, I asked him, "Why did you ask me to meet at the hospital?"

While tearing off Orion's package, he replied casually, "The taxi happened to pass by, and I suddenly wanted to take a look, so I asked the driver to park the car here."

"Oh... what do you want to see?"

With a chocolate pie in his mouth, Leng Xiaotai said vaguely, "You wait until I finish eating first."

"Oh……"

Although the sky is gloomy, the wind on the top floor is still very willful.

Just when I gave my body and mind to this delightful indulgence, Leng Xiaotai suddenly said, "I once committed suicide here."

"Oh...huh?" I closed my eyes and meditated, and then opened them in shock.

Seeing my surprised face, he quickly waved his hands and said, "I didn't die, I didn't die."

"Nonsense, of course I know you didn't die."

"Uh... I wanted to jump from here that day, but I ran into it."

"He saved you?"

"No, uh... how should I put it." He took a sip of his drink, "We were only in the first year of high school at that time, and I hated it so much, oh shit, I couldn't stand his arrogant look. Then I I thought, how could I not die, but he caught me at the great moment of my suicide! I don’t want to die, it’s too embarrassing.”

"Oh..." I had nothing to complain about, and listened quietly to Leng Xiaotai.

Later, I heard such a story.

Leng Xiaotai's family affairs were discussed secretly by my classmates when I was in junior high school. It is not an easy topic. I am in a bad mood today, so I won't repeat it for now.

The depressed 15-year-old decided to take his own life on top of the 27-storey building.He was standing on the edge of the attic, looking down, when a voice said to him, 'Ah, you're killing yourself. '

Leng Xiaotai was startled by the people behind him, and turned around angrily, "Scared me, what should I do if I die!" '

It was I who leaned listlessly on the railing behind me, complaining, "Aren't you just going to commit suicide?"

Leng Xiaotai was furious and refused to admit it. He said that he just wanted to stand taller and enjoy the scenery.

It was I who ignored it indifferently, and the disdain on my face was beyond words.

So Leng Xiaotai could only bite the bullet and stand there watching the scenery for 5 minutes, his legs were sore.

Later, I asked Leng Xiaotai a question. He asked Leng Xiaotai to hang his legs outside and sit on the edge of the building, and asked him how he felt.

Leng Xiaotai did so, and he said that his legs felt weak, as if an electric current had been transmitted from the tips of his toes to the back of his head, and even his scalp was numb.

After hearing this, I nodded and smiled. He told him that the body's answer is the most honest. This feeling is that Leng Xiaotai's body is telling him 'I don't want to die'.

"He said, when my legs are no longer weak, I can jump." Leng Xiaotai propped his hands behind his back, shaking his dangling legs recklessly.

Facing Leng Xiaotai's back, I felt that his current actions were very dangerous, "Then are you afraid now?"

"Scared." Leng Xiaotai nodded sincerely, "Occasionally, I would sit by the building and let my body remind me."

He tidied up the empty bags left over from the food, and took back the legs hanging outside the building, "You said Xuan picked up a broken test tube, right?"

"En." The reason why I care so much is because I remembered that I was the one who gave me the same test tube that day in the teaching building.

Leng Xiaotai crawled to my side and sat down next to me, "That test tube is my amulet. It was I who used my spiritual power to teleport me here yesterday, and he can't use his spiritual power today, otherwise it would be very difficult for him to make sure that I don't want to lose my life." It's going to make a big fuss on Earth. So he has to use that test tube."

"What's in that test tube?"

"It was for his self-defense by Xuan. It contained Xuan's compressed spirit, but it was very difficult to control, not to mention keeping those men in black alive, and even the whole corpse was hard to guarantee. Unless it was a last resort , I don’t know how to use it.”

"Are you trying to whitewash him? You want to say that the tragic death of those people was not the intention of my tablemate?"

Leng Xiaotai played with the empty bottle in his hand, "If he doesn't use that test tube, but uses spiritual power to avoid the man in black, how many lives will suffer from the abnormality of the earth, do you think I can't calculate this calculation problem?"

As he spoke, he suddenly smiled sarcastically, "Isn't everyone doing calculations like this? If I die, human beings will not be threatened by abnormal ecology, and they will also be nourished by abundant spiritual seeds."

I know that this kind of calculation that takes any party's life as an equation will never be truly fair.It would be unfair to me to flaunt the justice of my death with the righteousness of human beings.

Leng Xiaotai got up, stretched out his hand and pulled me up, "Come on, I'll take you to see someone, but you must promise not to tell me."

This is an intensive care unit, and there is a middle-aged man lying on the bed, who should be about the same age as my old man.

Leng Xiaotai and I didn't get close, but looked at him through the window on the door.

"What happened to him?" I asked.

"Using the doctor's words, he is a vegetable. But from our point of view, his soul state is already very thin. Only the physical tissue can barely function."

"Can't he wake up?"

"kindness."

"Who is he?"

"He is my father."

I was shocked and almost shouted in the hospital, "What? He wasn't...wasn't I the one who exploded from the Big Bang 138 billion years ago?"

Leng Xiaotai motioned me to keep his voice down, and he said, "He was indeed at first, but now Zhen and Xuan are different. Shi Xuan and the others come to Earth occasionally to live, or to find a job and get a student status, pretending to be an adult." Humans live here. But...it is me, he is really human."

"You mean... he was born from the mother's womb?"

"Yes, did I tell you that he wanted to be a human? After he sealed Shi Rong, he fell into a deep sleep for a long time, and when he woke up, he was reincarnated."

"Fuck, is this okay?"

"Listen to me." Leng Xiaotai sorted out his thoughts, "After he was born, he lost all the memories and superpowers of his previous life. Like you, he had a happy childhood, a family that stayed together, and Secondary illness. Until the age of 15, he recovered the memory of his previous life, and his physical condition began to be dragged down by the ecological circle. The five-petal flower wanted to kill him, but he narrowly escaped death several times. At first he was very angry. Understand why this fucking fate befell him, he became the public enemy of all human beings overnight. He just wanted to be an ordinary high school student and be with his family. But...you saw it too, five The petals threatened his family."

I turned my head away and fell silent.

We often use the mind to measure a person's ability to bear pain.The longer the years and the richer the experience is, it fills the mind.

I feel traumatized when I see the dismembered corpse of the man in black today, but it may be normal for a soldier who has experienced many battles; , all the misery and desolation in this world can be seen in a panoramic view.We always say that history is full of vicissitudes, and the memory of those 138 billion years is a heavy inheritance.In three years, I transformed from a 15-year-old boy who vomited like me when he saw a dead body to the calm and indifferent god who kills five of his own kind today.This is not 138 billion years of mind adding 15 years of human experience, but I use his 15-year-old mind to carry the weight of 138 billion years.

I want to ask him, would he suffer from insomnia on the night when he accidentally killed someone for the first time, would he think of his mother in the dead of night, would he... Did I make him sad today...

I want to go to him, I want to see him.