Meet·Lijiang

In the dead of night, the two lay side by side on the bed, Zhuang Zijing gently leaned her back into Yang Hui's arms, and slowly told her what happened today: "I don't think it's true, It's more like a dream, like a dream I've had countless times in difficult times. When I was a child, I saw other people's parents love their children very much, but my mother always didn't give me a good face, and she would be quick when something was wrong. Beating and scolding, I was thinking, maybe I was a picked child, I should have parents who love me. After growing up, my mother always asked me for money, again and again, trying to find a way. But others Parents always try to find a way to buy a house or a car for their children, and I often think, am I her own?"

Yang Hui hugged Zhuang Zijing around her neck with one hand, and held her hand tightly with the other: "You have had a hard time these years."

Zhuang Zijing gave a low chuckle, and continued: "I have thought about getting rid of her countless times. It is best never to see her again. But..."

Yang Hui held Zhuang Zijing's hand tightly, and his voice was very gentle: "When you know that she is not your current mother, those past wishes have come true, so why do you still seem unhappy?"

Zhuang Zijing nodded: "Maybe it's because of the separation. This is not the separation of two people, but the separation of a mother-daughter relationship. For more than 20 years, we have always been in a mother-daughter relationship, although she has done a lot to make people feel better." It is a hateful thing, but after all, she did not abandon me in the most difficult time. In those years when I could not earn money for her and could only become a drag, she remarried and divorced. At least she didn't abandon me at that time. It is also because I am not her own, so it is a great kindness to me that she did not abandon me during those years when she was also suffering."

Yang Hui nodded: "Yes. My child was miscarried before it was born, and my husband had an accident after throwing a child to me. She had to remarry for the sake of living, and then divorced and had to work for the sake of living. She didn't abandon her. You are indeed a kindness."

"So I gradually feel that she is not so hateful, but because she was too bitter, it is inevitable to vent. At that time, beating and scolding me, the person who brought pressure and burden to her, was the way to vent. Now she The reason money is more important than anything else is because money is the source of her sense of security, and squandering may be the only way for her to identify herself after those painful experiences." Zhuang Zijing thought of that poor and hateful person, thinking Thinking about the pain I have suffered in these years, in fact, her pain is hidden behind it.

"So, you don't hate her?" Yang asked back.

Zhuang Zijing shook her head: "She brought me a lot of pain, and I kind of hate her."

Yang Hui leaned his head against Zhuang Zijing's ear, and bit her ear lightly: "But you still remember her kindness."

"Yes." Zhuang Zijing shrank her neck, and Yang Hui's sudden action made her tremble all over.

Zhuang Zijing didn't notice Yang Hui's reaction, and only whispered in her ear: "Yes, you should remember her kindness, she is not a kind person, she is even a bit annoying, but after all, she raised her You, I gave you the opportunity to study, these are kindness."

Zhuang Zijing was afraid that Yang Hui would touch her ear again, so she simply turned around and buried her head in Yang Hui's arms: "In the past, I really hated her more than I was grateful, because she seemed like I couldn't do anything in my life. Like a nightmare to get rid of, it will appear next to me at any time, with its bloody mouth open. Many times, I wish I didn't have this mother. But when I sit in the small town, sitting next to you, I slowly think of her love for me. Just like the comparison between me and you, you don’t have parents, so even if you have good grades, even if you don’t want to, you still have to drop out of school, and although I had bumps and bumps, I finally finished my studies.”

Yang Hui laughed: "So there is nothing to worry about about her. She is a hateful mother, but she is also the mother who raised you. Now that your life experience is clear, let's go and have a look tomorrow. She. This is a farewell and a new beginning."

Zhuang Zijing nodded heavily: "How do you know that I want to go back and see her?"

Yang Hui rubbed Zhuang Zijing's head: "Because your eyes told me your secret. You are a kind person. It is easy for you to let go of the suffering others give you, but it is not easy for you to forget the favor others give you." .Now that you have found your own home, you are afraid that if you don’t want to, there will be no communication between the two of you in the future, so you want to visit her. But you are afraid of her entanglement, so you dare not go alone You are so anxious to find me, don't you want me to follow you in the bottom of your heart?"

Zhuang Zijing raised her head and looked at Yang Hui with a grateful smile, but her nose was a little sore: "You said that, so I know that I came here for such a purpose."

"You don't know it yourself?"

Zhuang Zijing shook her head: "I just think it's unreal, illusory, and flustered, so I want to find you."

Yang Hui stroked Zhuang Zijing's hair with a gentle voice: "That's probably because after your life experience became clear, Yan Yu said that you don't need to be bullied by her anymore, and you don't need to accept those sufferings anymore, but you don't fully agree with it, but you feel that There is no reason to disagree, because you really wanted to draw a line with her so much. So you couldn't figure out what you really thought for a while. In fact, a person's thoughts don't have to be so complicated, and those that bring you pain really need to stay away , you need to resist, but those who have kindness to you should also remember. And after going all the way, you should remember kindness more than hatred, so that people can live happily. Because in this way, you will feel that the whole world is Love yourself, and you have not been abandoned."

Zhuang Zijing looked at Yang Hui, thinking about that girl who is very free and easy on weekdays. When she said this, did she also think of some sufferings in the past: "Remember kindness more than hatred, so that you Happiness, because I feel that the whole world loves me, and I have not been abandoned”

She repeated Yang Hui's words and suddenly felt a little sad. The girl who lost her parents at the age of 16 and became an orphan and was forced to drop out of school probably also experienced unusual pain at that time, and experienced the feeling of being abandoned by the whole world, but until now, she is living so vividly, living out So many life lessons.

Giving kindness to the whole world is not waiting for the whole world to return kindness, but giving kindness to oneself.Zhuang Zijing felt that every time she came into contact with Yang Hui in the past, she was like a tourist walking in the mountains, attracted by the green and free green pines, so she stopped and watched, feeling envious, but at this moment, she really approached Beside her, I reached out to touch the vigorous branches, so I touched her scars burned by time with all my hands, and then I realized that the vigorousness naturally has its painful past.She is a green pine on a distant mountain, but at this moment she is by her side.

Zhuang Zijing was suddenly so moved that she couldn't help herself.

Yang Hui patted Zhuang Zijing on the back: "There are a lot of things, just think about it clearly. It's not entangled or sad."

Zhuang Zijing buried her head in Yang Hui's neck, and nodded lightly: "Then we will go there tomorrow. It's just that we have to go to our new home after returning, and I feel a little nervous."

Yang Hui lowered his head and kissed Zhuang Zijing on the forehead: "Yes, the new family is full of people who have never seen each other, and they are also my close relatives. It is indeed a rare situation. I have no experience, nor I can’t assume what it will be like when you and your family want to meet. So I can only say, just follow your heart. Just don’t have any obstacles in your heart. In this world, it’s always good to have more relatives. They have been looking for you for so many years , and I have been sad for you for so many years. Just like your grandma who has passed away, she has left regrets all her life because she did not see you until she died. So even if you don’t know it for so many years, you are indeed deeply loved by them. For them, you are a part of them. So just let go of your heart."

Zhuang Zijing nodded, as if remembering something, she suddenly raised her head and asked Yang Hui, "Then what if they don't let me come back?"

Yang Hui was stunned: "Is that your intention?"

Zhuang Zijing shook her head.

"That's it. No one can keep anyone else. Everyone has their own life. Even family members can't." Yang Hui reached out and touched Zhuang Zijing's face: "You will be the daughter of the Wang family from now on. "

"The problem is that you're not married yet. Married daughters can't help themselves, but what about unmarried daughters?" Zhuang Zijing smiled softly.In fact, there is still some worry in my heart. If the family does not let her come back, it may be another troublesome matter.

"Then why don't you marry me tonight." Yang Hui gently stepped back from Zhuang Zijing, and met her gaze.

Zhuang Zijing nodded: "Okay, I agree."

Yang Hui didn't expect Zhuang Zijing to be so straightforward, but he was a little surprised: "So straightforward?"

"What else?" Zhuang Zijing looked at Yang Hui with wide eyes.

This time it was Yang Hui who didn't know how to respond: "However, it's not always said on TV or in the books that a marriage proposal is a very grand event. You need a ring, flowers, and a ceremony. And so on and so on. Then dressed seriously, knelt down on one knee, and asked affectionately: "Zijing, will you marry me?"

Zhuang Zijing had already laughed out loud: "Then I pretended to be completely moved, then hesitated, and then pretended to be shy and said: I am willing?"

Yang Hui nodded: "Isn't that so?"

Zhuang Zijing couldn't help covering her belly and laughing out loud.

When Zhuang Zijing had laughed enough, Yang Hui held her in his arms: "What are you laughing at?"

"I laugh at two people talking about it in bed. It's ridiculous. Where did you learn this. In books? On TV? Those are all for show. We need acting too. Is it for someone to see?"

Yang Hui nodded: "If you want."

Zhuang Zijing shook her head, her smile continued: "First of all, why do flowers and rings make people move? Aren't other things more moving?"

"Like?"

Zhuang Zijing was silent for a while, then nestled into Yang Hui's arms, and then said softly: "For example, you just hug me like this. So I feel that the purity and beauty of the whole world are embracing me. This is enough Moves me."

Yang Hui's heart seemed to melt slowly after Zhuang Zijing's emotional words, so she whispered into Zhuang Zijing's ear, "Then will you marry me?"

Zhuang Zijing laughed softly in her arms, then raised his head and looked at her slyly: "But why didn't you marry me?"

Yang Hui nodded seriously: "Yes, I can marry you, it doesn't seem to make any difference. In short, you and I are married."