Renaissance

It's been a week since the holiday, and the family doctor has come several times to confirm that Jin Jingshan is really good and can't be better.In addition to forgetting a person, that is, damage to the spiritual sea, the doctor said that there is also a chance to recover, just let nature take its course.

When the spirit body returns to the spirit sea, will the memory be restored?he asks.

The doctor replied, no, with your mental power, it is easy to reshape a link, and the mental body will probably be able to go back soon, but things like memory may not necessarily be.

"Maybe you will remember it after knocking your head someday." The doctor joked.

His father asked him what he had forgotten, but he couldn't answer. He seemed to be a very important person, but because he forgot, he didn't seem so important.

It can't be said that he has completely forgotten, he still remembers Liu Moye in junior high school.Because this little fat man was not connected with Liu Mo, this memory survived and became the point of intersection between the two.

What was Liu Moye like when he was a child?

Although the special human has a good memory, after so many years, that little fat man's face has long been blurred.Jin Jingshan didn't even ask his name, just called him a classmate.

They are passers-by trapped under the eaves. They are familiar with the time of heavy rain, and they will go their separate ways when the rain is over.

They didn't have any promises to each other, how could they never forget it to this day?

Jin Jingshan squatted down to tease Xueshan, who rubbed against his palm, then looked up at the tree.The lynx looked up, and he couldn't help but look up, too, and saw the branches tremble, and a squirrel jumped from one tree to another.Jin Jingshan looked at the snow mountain again, and it was still staring at the treetops.

This is not mine.Jin Jingshan heard Xueshan think so.

His spirit is angry with him because of another spirit, another guide.

"...It's on vacation now, we'll see you when school starts." Jin Jingshan patted the big cat's head and comforted it, "I'm not going to change partners yet." Xueshan yelled, stared at him, and turned around after a while gone.

You do not understand.He heard the thoughts of the spiritual body again, Xue Shan licked his fur annoyed, but the more he licked, the more irritable he became, this is not what it wanted.Where is its squirrel?So big, why is it gone?

Jin Jingshan couldn't answer Xueshan, he didn't drive away, your squirrel left by himself.He went to the refrigerator to get a cup of yogurt, lifted the lid, and asked Xue Shan to lick it.At this time, I suddenly remembered that Liu Mo always brought him yogurt after lunch.

"You bought me yogurt, and it was yellow peach... well, you don't remember." Liu Mo would also complain a few words, and then looked at him eagerly, "Have you remembered?" Jin Jingshan shook his head , his eyes dimmed, and he looked pitifully at the yogurt on the table.

Jin Jingshan looked at the one in his hand, it was original.

Liu Mo didn't send him any more messages, and he didn't come when he was discharged from the hospital, saying that he was just an ordinary friend, but friends don't always come to see him at a glance, do they?

That noon, Liu Mo also took him out of the hospital. He was bored in the hospital for a long time, like a bird out of the cage.Thinking about it now, Liu Mo really let him go.

He felt ashamed, he owed Liu Moye, he couldn't bear to take away all the love he had given, so he accepted Liu Moye's kiss, promised to hold his hand and listen to him talk about things he didn't remember.

"You are sorry for others, and even more sorry for yourself who liked him." Jin Jingshan agreed with his mother's point of view, and he is working hard, pretending to be good and accepting all this, so that this "love" can get back on track.

He won't reject Liu Moye, but he can't take the initiative.

What his mother didn't understand, but Liu Mo also understood, and told him not to force himself. "How should I put it... It feels like you've worked so hard, and I've caused you trouble." The guide turned his back to him and looked out the window. It was snowing those few days, and the outside was white, and it reflected a pale light on his face. .

"No, you're not troublesome." Jin Jingshan said so, Liu Mo turned to look at him and forced a smile, which was also very hard.

Jin Jingshan thought, it turned out that he was not the only one who had worked hard, but two people who were tortured.

It was still that noon, after the snow stopped, the road was whitened a lot and looked mottled.They walked all the way to the supermarket, and Liu Mo also bought two bunches of candied haws and invited him to eat.

After eating the last hawthorn, Liu Mo also bit off the sugar coating and threw the stick into the trash can. "It's too sour, today's hawthorn." He licked his teeth, showing an exaggerated expression, "I won't eat it! What a bad luck."

"Thank you." Jin Jingshan said.

After a few seconds of silence, the guide reached out to him: "Then give me a hug."

Jin Jingshan hugged him, and the guide hugged Xiao Xiao in his arms, and buried his face in his chest. "I'm still..." Liu Mo also wanted to say "I like you", but Jin Jingshan guessed it. Is it warm in here?"

When they parted, Jin Jingshan's heart trembled, it was sore, as if there were many threads strangling into the flesh in his heart, forcing him to cry.He felt a little regretful, and wondered if he should hug, or maybe a kiss, so that he would know how sour the hawthorn in Liu Moye's mouth was, whether it was as sad as he was.

Or maybe he regretted earlier, and even regretted the phrase "thank you".Maybe without saying that word, without that hug, they would have walked on that road for a while.

"Goodbye!" Liu Mo also took the initiative to say goodbye to him.

Do you think it won't be hard for him?

Standing in the yard, Jin Jingshan seemed to have that hawthorn in his heart, not knowing what it tasted like.But after a few minutes, the hawthorn was thrown into the trash can, the fermented sour made him hurt.

First the heart is sad, then the nose is sour, and finally the eyes are sore.

Unexplained tears, unexplained rain, it turns out that the body has a deeper memory than the brain.How can I still miss it to this day?I will definitely miss it to this day.

But the snow from a week ago has already melted.

The author says:

Crematorium—no more!