Sparkling

Xu Feng is very leisurely all year round, but these two days have suddenly become crazy busy.

In fact, it was not a big deal. Among the poker friends who played poker together, there was a man named Peng Ke, who was the local snake in this area.Coincidentally, Xu Feng asked him for help a few years ago because of family affairs and owed favors. In recent days, he was dragged to help, and it was difficult to refuse, so he left the island for a few days.

The grocery store was also closed for a few days.He was worried that if someone, especially Ye Lin, couldn't find him when he was looking for him, he posted a notice on the door and left him his contact information.

But until he came back, Ye Lin didn't look for him much, and there was only a dry thank you and transfer information in the dialog box between the two.

He asked Aunt Huang at the health center, and she said that Ye Lin had gone home.Xu Feng guessed that the "home" should not be the residence outside the island, but his former home.

On the second day after his return, he went to the stone house.

The lock on the door has been removed, and the broken glass has been cleaned up, indicating that the owner of the house has returned.Feeling relieved, Xu Feng knocked on the door, but the door opened a crack—it wasn't locked at all.

He pushed open a crack and saw the scene inside.It was the first time he saw the inside during the day, but he felt that it was no different from what he saw in the middle of the night a few days ago, it was still the same empty, the same gray and lifeless.

He opened the door and tentatively called Ye Lin's name.

no respond.

Xu Feng kept walking, one step at a time, walked through the empty hall, and pushed open the door of Ye Lin's former room.

As soon as the door was opened, there was a grainy feeling, which was due to the accumulation of dust for too long, and the room was not ventilated and could not be dispersed cleanly.

The mottled walls are dusty, and the walls that have fallen off the wall shell are like large and small scars on the body, densely covering the entire room.And at the corners of the wall, there are messy piles of unrecognizable mattresses, some of which have taken off the wadding, and are covered layer by layer, like a tramp's bedding.

There was a person buried under there, Xu Feng strode over, pulled his shoulders, revealing Ye Lin's familiar face.

His eyebrows and eyes are still vaguely the same as in memory, but the young boy in memory will never show that expression.Numb and gray, his face was thin and bloodless.His eyes were tightly closed, and at this moment he was grabbed, and he woke up faintly, revealing the black pupils underneath, with haze and chaos, and he was neither surprised nor happy when he saw him.

He regained his senses leisurely, saw the appearance of the person in front of him clearly, and seemed to want to greet him with a habitual smile, but in the end he just twitched the corners of his mouth unnaturally, so it was considered a smile.

"Xu Feng."

Seeing him like this, Xu Feng felt a little pain in his heart for some reason.

When he said he was going to leave back then, didn't he look full of hope for the future? The young man who could smile happily while facing the sea breeze with a wound on his face, turned into the look in front of him in the blink of an eye.Xu Feng felt very uncomfortable.

"Ye Lin...what's the matter with you?"

......

There was still only endless silence in response to him.

"Didn't you say you were going to find your mother? Did you find it?"

Xu Feng searched his memory, not knowing where to start. When he spoke vaguely, he found that his cognition and understanding of him were still stuck in the old ten years ago.

He thought he might have said the wrong thing, because Ye Lin blinked when he heard the word "Mom", and his insides seemed a little wet.

Ye Lin's throat choked, as if she wanted to speak, but in the end she just shook her head sadly.

Ye Lin's family members, those who passed away passed away, and those who were separated were separated.He was still very young, but he seemed to be alone, with no relatives left in the world.

A long time after Xu Feng left, Ye Lin stayed alone, and when he came to his senses, the light in the room was already insufficient, and it was dusk again.

He took out his phone, opened the address book, and quickly found a number, clicked on it, but couldn't press the call button.

There is a mark on this number, which is my mother.His mother is his only relative in this world, but now she is not his only mother.

After divorcing my father, my mother remarried and gave birth to a little daughter. She seemed to be living happily.

When he volunteered, he reported the city where his mother lived.As soon as I entered college, I contacted my mother excitedly. Taking advantage of the weekend, I took a bus for two hours and crossed half of the city to my mother's current home.

When he arrived, his mother was rushing out. Seeing him coming excitedly, she felt a little embarrassed, "Ah Lin, I'm going to pick up my daughter from elementary school now, so I have to go out."

His excited eyes froze for a moment, then he smiled again, "It's okay, I'll go with you."

The mother rode a small electric donkey to pick up her daughter.He just sat in the back seat, getting close to his mother's body temperature after a long absence, and there was a trace of timid unfamiliarity in his heart, but on the surface he hugged his mother's waist as if nothing had happened, it was fleshy and very warm.

Mother looked back at him, smiled gently, and told him as she did when she was a child, "Catch it, I'm leaving."

Along the way, the late autumn wind of the northern city brushed against his face, and it was piercingly cold. He was shivering slightly all the way, but he knew it wasn't because of the majestic wind.

When we arrived at the gate of the primary school, there were e-Donkeys and bicycles crowded at the gate, and all of them were parents who came to pick up their children.They parked the car at the fence gate of the elementary school, turned off the engine and waited for their children to come out.

It was the first time for Ye Lin to do this kind of thing. Looking at the parents eagerly looking at the fence gate, she felt a little envious of the children there. They had someone to wait for after school every day. It was great.

The school bell rang, and the fence gate was slowly opened. In the teaching building that the parents were eager to see through, the primary school students finally poured out. They were small, wearing school uniforms and carrying big schoolbags, lined up crookedly. Get in line and be led out by the teacher.

Ye Lin's mother was also one of those earnest parents. She looked eagerly at the children crowded at the door, looking for her own child inside, while Ye Lin was always watching her from behind.

Suddenly she beckoned loudly, calling out to a little girl.

The girl was small, probably a child who had just entered the first grade. She also recognized her mother and ran towards this side through the crowd with a big schoolbag on her back.

"mom!"

The crisp child's voice shouted cheerfully, and the little girl threw herself into her mother's arms.And she also naturally opened her arms to hug the girl back, naturally and very intimately.

The girl raised her face from her mother's embrace, and noticed Ye Lin who was standing at the side at a loss.She was a little timid, hugged her mother's face with both hands and pulled her closer, and whispered in her ear, "Who is this person?"

Mom turned her head and glanced at him, feeling a little embarrassed, but it just passed by.

"Call me brother."

"elder brother."

The girl called out in a low voice, then looked away from Ye Lin, took her mother's hand and acted like a baby,

"It's so cold today, let's buy roasted sweet potatoes when we get home!"

As the girl said, she smoothly climbed into the back seat of the little electric donkey, which has always been her exclusive seat.

Mom also stepped into the car, and only then did she notice Ye Lin standing by alone, looking a little at a loss.

This eDonkey can only seat two people.

Ever since the girl appeared, Ye Lin kept silent, he couldn't speak.

Even in front of girls, he was hesitating whether he should call that "Mom."

Mother supported the car and patted his shoulder with one free hand, "Let's walk back."

Ye Lin smiled and nodded.Under the night when the lights were on, it was hard to see that he was smiling.

On the way home, the girl was talking to her mother about what happened at school today, homework in handicraft class, her classmate’s beautiful braids, being praised by the teacher today, and so on. , Ye Lin had a smile on his face, and listened as he walked.

When passing by the sweet potato stand, my mother bought a big sweet potato, broke it in half, gave half to the little girl, and handed the other half to Ye Lin.

The girl looked at Ye Lin and then at her, feeling a little dissatisfied, "Mom, don't you want to eat?"

Mom smiled softly, "I don't want to eat, I still have to ride a bike. You also have to save some stomach to go back to dinner."

The girl nodded like a chick pecking at rice, while breaking off the slightly hardened sweet potato skin, holding the sweet potato with both hands and handing it to her mother, "Eat it!"

"I don't want it, you can eat it."

"Just take a bite!"

Girls are stubborn.

Mom couldn't help it, she took a bite with a smile, and was scalded.

"Is it hot? Is it delicious? Sweet."

The girl giggled, crisp and sweet.

Ye Lin watched, and gradually felt that the smile on his face was going to stop.

Mom turned to look at him, "You eat too."

Ye Lin nodded, opened the bag and took a small bite, but the taste was like chewing wax, and he couldn't taste the taste of sweet potato.

He led the car to the bus station, where they parted.

Mom apologized, "I'm sorry Ah Lin, it's rare for you to come here so I can't spend more time with you, you're too busy. I'll come back next time when I'm on holiday, and I'll cook something delicious for you."

Ye Lin said yes with a smile and waved goodbye.

The mother rode on the little electric donkey, said goodbye to him, and then talked to her daughter. Looking from a distance, her face was filled with happiness.She started the car, and soon merged into the sea of ​​moving cars and disappeared.

Ye Lin held the slightly hot sweet potato with a bite in both hands, and sat alone on the platform waiting for the train.

Looking down at the palm of my hand, there are lights and shadows coming and going on it, and the noise of cars and horses around me, but I feel lonely like never before.

He waited for the bus for a long time that day, until the sweet potatoes in the palm of his hand were completely cool, he finally dragged his tired body to board the bus.There was no one else in the empty car except him and the driver.

He sat by the window in the last row, leaning his head against the window.He obviously laughed all afternoon, but now he doesn't even bother to make an expression, and looks expressionlessly at the traffic with flashing red lights outside.

Without warning, a drop of wet tear suddenly slipped from the corner of his eye. He was startled, and frantically raised his sleeve to wipe the tear, but wiped more and more tears.

Something was out of control in his mind, and he wiped his unstoppable tears, unable to suppress himself any longer.Fortunately, the roar of the car's motor drowned out his increasingly uncontrollable sobs.

He cried miserably in the car that day, as if he wanted to shed all the tears of the past few years at once.

Suddenly, he thought of the warm and kind big hands that had been haunting him in his dreams, and gently touched his cheeks when they were parting, and the words that echoed in his ears at that time,

"A Lin, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

Ye Lin heard the crying in his ear, it seemed to come from him, but he was far away as if it had nothing to do with him.He whimpered, unconsciously repeating the same sentence in his throat.

"Don't say sorry...I don't want you to say sorry..."

Mumbling to himself, no one responded.

Drown in the roar of the car.

What was lost has been lost, and it was doomed from the moment my mother left Xiaoshan Island.

Ye Lin stared at the screen in a daze.

The screen slowly dims, and he lights up again.Dim and light again, and so on, but did not dial the number.

It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter how bad it is.

He said to himself in his heart, it doesn't matter how he didn't respond, he just wanted to hear that familiar gentle voice now.

I want to go crazy.

He cautiously pressed the dial button.

The screen of the phone lit up all of a sudden, and the mechanical tone rang unhurriedly.Suddenly there was a click, the phone was picked up, and the upright voice at the end rang,

"Hello."

With a formality and a sense of distance.

Ye Lin listened, and suddenly realized that the voice was more unfamiliar than familiar, so he closed his lips tightly for a while.

The voice over there hesitated for a moment, then repeated tentatively,

"Hello?"

Then he heard the sound of running over there, followed by a thick "plop", and the next second, the girl's innocent voice came over,

"Mom, who is it?"

Her voice was a little farther away,

"Don't make trouble, Mom answers the phone."

She seemed to hold the phone a little farther away before she could see the name displayed on it clearly. She let out a hey in surprise, and moved closer to her voice, which became a soft voice.

"Ah Lin, why is it you. I was cooking just now, so I didn't have time to check the number."

Ye Lin smiled silently, "It's okay."

"What's the matter? Why did you call mom suddenly? Are you off work? Have you eaten yet?"

"Well, I'm off work and I haven't eaten yet."

"Eat well, buy more of what you like to eat, and take care of your body."

"Ok, I know."

As long as I hear her voice, no matter how sad I feel, I can still laugh through the phone.Hearing her mother's voice rambling in her ear, even though she couldn't see her, Ye Lin kept smiling, feeling her face was being torn.

In front of him is an empty room that is gradually darkening, but he can imagine that his mother should be in a small and warm home at the moment, with the doors and windows closed tightly, preventing the cold wind from blowing in.The aroma of the food on the stove was overflowing, and the clever daughter was lying beside her and acting like a baby, while she was listening to the long-lost phone call with some surprise and surprise.

When she was talking, the girl's voice never stopped. He heard their voices overlapping, like a cross talk, the girl said, "I don't like to eat this, why do you buy this every time?" !"

She said, "Eat and see, if it doesn't taste good, I won't buy it next time."

The girl said again, "You say that every time!"

Although the voice of Jiaojiaochen is playing tricks, it is hard not to like it.

He could imagine his mother's expression, which was probably distressed and angry, but also sweet and helpless.

After dealing with the girl, she came back to her senses,

"Alin, what did you just say?"

"It's nothing, nothing."

It was an insignificant thing in the first place, but he himself forgot when he said it.

Probably to comfort her that she is fine or something.

The phone call didn't last long, and Ye Lin was the one who wanted to hang up, he couldn't hold it any longer.

After hanging up the phone, his world returned to silence.

I don't know when, the sunset has completely sunk, and the surroundings are dark, and the outside wind blows in, bringing some chills.

Ye Lin blinked in the dark, feeling that his eyes were moist, but there were no tears.

He hasn't cried for a long time.

It would be nice if I could have a good cry right now.

But no tears.