Blooming ruins

"Qin Yi, do you think Ji Moyu really likes you?"

Outside the window, Xiao Muyu had just left with his horse, when Ji Zhexun opened the door and came in.Strolled to Qin Yi's side, but didn't look at him.Looking at the flickering candle, a dark gray moth flew over and turned into a pinch of gray smoke in an instant.

He used his fingertips to lick the remaining dust, and stretched it out to Qin Yi's eyes.

"You are no different from it." She moved her lips to Qin Yi's ear and said softly.Stretch out the tip of your tongue to touch the earlobe, and feel the other person's whole body stiffen as if you were frightened as you wish.

"I will destroy you, just as cruel as you were back then. I will pay you back the pain."

Ji Zhexun suddenly reached out and grabbed Qin Yi's neck, pinning him down on the bed who was helpless.The tip of the other finger moved down from his slightly pale lips, resting on the raised Adam's apple to caress carefully.

"Your biggest mistake is to treat Ji Moyu like a child. He is nineteen years old and has sound mind and limbs. But you coax, deceive, and pamper him like a child. You are actually just afraid that he will grow up and that he will know The truth, lest he know that you killed his mother." The fingernails scratched hard at his throat, watching the pale skin gradually swell and become bright red.The other party just closed his eyes, as if he hadn't heard.

Unable to resist, like a lamb on the chopping board to be slaughtered.

"Ji Moyu fell in love with his master, Wu Lun master and apprentice, this is incest!"

"do not talk……"

The voice was very low, trembling and barely audible.

"The good apprentice you taught yourself, you can't escape the guilt."

The pain in his chest was spreading bit by bit from the bottom of his heart.Want to struggle, want to escape, but was shackled by that person.The current self is like a useless person, at the mercy of others.

"Do you really think he's still so childish now? He's just sober enough to understand that you loved him as a child. So he pretends to be a childish child. It's pathetic."

Footsteps suddenly sounded outside the door, from far to near.Ji Zhexun didn't know what he was doing underneath, Qin Yi's whole body trembled violently, embarrassment filled his brows.

"Call out."

Ji Moyu abruptly stopped at the door, and heard the beautiful sounds in the house, like ice slag piercing the heart.

After a long time, Ji Moyu knocked on the door three times before hearing the voice inside gradually disappearing.

"roll!"

Qin Yi struggled violently to get up, and threw an empty candlestick in her hand and smashed it on the man's chest.Ji Moyu just accepted it silently, sitting beside Qin Yi's bed and looking at him slightly aggrieved.He slapped the man's face with all his strength.

"master……"

She was as dazed as an abandoned child who couldn't find a home, her face was red and swollen.

That palm was merciless, and he wanted to let him go.

In this world, he should go alone.

In this life, he should not be dragged down by anyone.

The man just took his hand and attached it to his wound, his words were full of grievances.

"It hurts... Xiao Mo made a mistake, don't be angry."

You are clearly right!Why admit your mistake!Why not be angry!Why do you show such a sad expression...

The extreme of heartache is numbness, and it is precisely because of numbness that they can calmly act out what they are pretending to be.

Ji Moyu was obviously taller than himself, and his handsome features were still the outline of an adult man, but he still pretended to be the same as before he left that year.Humble and cautious.

"Is it disgusting?" He saw his stiffness and full of surprise and sadness. "Isn't it disgusting for a crowned man to pretend to be a naive child?" Qin Yi coldly sneered, and Ji Moyu could only awkwardly avoid his gaze.

My heart is bleeding, master, can you see it?Why don't you know, what you like is Ji Moyu who has never left Xiaomo, not Ji Moyu who is back now.He will act like a baby with his eyes wide open, and his small body will arouse pity just by standing there.It is the innocence that I can never learn again, no matter how I pretend, it will just be disgusting.

Ji Moyu suddenly grabbed Qin Yi's hand firmly, and pulled towards him, forcing him to look up at him.He looked at Qin Yi, narrowed his long and narrow Danfeng eyes, as if he was a different person.

"Qin Yi, take care. This is Ji Moyu, the Ji Moyu you have never known."

Qin Yi could only stare at him blankly, frightened by his quick transition.The two of them deserve to be brothers, which is the same.

"I'm like this...you don't like it?" He looked at him with a hint of humble pleading in his eyes.

"..."

"You and him are just two people in my eyes."

Qin Yi just watched the man's clear eyes dimming little by little, she lowered her head and was unable to speak for a long time.

What else can I say, it's just two people, heh, what he loves is not himself like this.There was a rust-like taste in his mouth, and he didn't know that his lower lip had already been bitten by himself, dripping with blood.He took the man's hand and placed it next to the other uninjured cheek.

"Hit me to death."

There was another crisp sound, resounding through the sky in the silent night.

"Are you desperate?"

Both cheeks were swollen, Ji Moyu just looked up at him and smiled miserably.

"I love you, look, now I think about my bun face when I was a child." That kind of despair, obviously tried everything, but still can't become the despair of the person he loves.

Tears welled up in Qin Yi's eyes the moment he laughed, but she slapped her backhand again to cover it up.He couldn't let him see it, even if it hurt so much that he wanted to dig out the heart that was the source of the pain.

The man just knelt and sat there obediently, without saying a word.He has indeed grown up, his heart is so painful, his wounds are so painful, he endured them one by one, and can show a flattering smile in front of the other party.

"I'm tired, get out." His hands trembled uncontrollably under his sleeves, and he leaned on the bed, showing a trace of disgust.Ji Moyu wanted to cover Qin Yi with a quilt, but he staggered in embarrassment because his legs were numb after kneeling on the cold ground for too long.She stubbornly tucked the quilt for him, and gently closed the door with pain all over her body.

Ji Moyu leaned behind the door, hoping to hear the voices inside the house.

I love you, but I can't live like you love me.

A drop of clear tears ran across the red and swollen scar, causing a tingling pain.When I was a child, I would quarrel and quarrel when I was wronged, and Qin Yi would coax him carefully every time this happened, but now Ji Moyu would only turn his back bravely and swallow all the heartache mixed with blood and tears.

Closing his eyes, he took a deep breath and opened the door of that person's room.The last time, the last extravagance.

But the person in the room seemed to be waiting for him, sitting quietly by the bed without turning off the light.He looked at him with indifference.

"Qin Yi, Ji Moyu likes you. From childhood to adulthood, there has never been a moment when he didn't like you." The man just smiled helplessly after hearing this, and didn't answer.

"I want to fuck you."

Ji Moyu pulled his wet and messy long hair behind his ears, to see how the man gasped under him after the end.

"Exercising so hard here will hurt..."

The man didn't answer.

Ji Moyu smiled wryly, but with helpless pampering.He felt the coolness on his neck. There was a long sword lying on it. The sharp blade cut through his skin and dripped a few drops of blood.The sword edge moved down slowly, facing the man's chest.

"You're going to kill me, aren't you?"

At this point, he was surprisingly calm, so calm that he could calmly face the sword that was approaching by that person.He just wanted to kill himself.His hand brushed over the man's forehead hair and touched his lips.

He had to lean forward in order to reach him.

The blood stained his clothes, and he sent it forward, but Qin Yi didn't stop.The blade penetrated, but not deeply.

But at that moment, the heart was pierced by him, and he died completely.

At the moment of piercing, even his fingertips could tremble.

It won't hurt that much.

He looked at him sadly.

"Break the master-student relationship."

"Why?" She was as weak as if she had no more strength, but she had a childish and ridiculous persistence.

"Incest is worse than animals."

If you take a step forward and just pierce like this, will it not hurt so much?Obviously your heart is dead, why do you still come here to make up a few knives, and then look at the despicable residue with contempt.

You said you would wait for me to grow up and wait for me to marry you.

You said go home when you are tired outside, and someone will wait for me.

You said that as long as I am willing to listen to you, you will play the piano for the rest of my life.

You said that when I grow up, you will help me tie my hair crown with your own hands.

You said that you would accompany me to watch fireworks and lanterns every New Year's Eve.

You said that when the cherry blossoms bloom again, it will be brewed into wine, buried in the soil, and then dug out to drink when we are old.

Qin Yi, you are a liar.

Holding the sword body, the blood from the wound on the palm flowed down the groove.Standing up and holding the sword flower on the ground, he taught it with his own hands.A cold light flashed across the edge of the sword, and the long black satin-like hair scattered all over the ground, stirring up a layer of smoke and dust.

The sword was dropped on the ground with a buzzing sound.

"Ji Moyu is here to thank Qin Yi for his 19 years of upbringing!"

His knees hit the ground heavily, he bent down, and knocked his head on the ground.

Three muffled sounds.

From now on, Ji Moyu has no home to worry about.

From now on, Ji Moyu has nothing to love but no weakness.

I don't care what people will think of me as a short-haired outlier in the future, it's just a warning to myself not to be so naive and put all my heart and soul into trusting someone.

"Young Master Qin, we are meeting."

He cupped his fists and bowed, and his behavior seemed to change from a yellow-haired child to an octogenarian in an instant.

That youthful innocence was gouged away by that man forcefully and bloodily.

Passing by in a hurry among the crowd, it caused a lot of surprised glances and whispers.

This time, even more confused than before

Back then, he knew that no matter where he was, he would definitely have a home, and someone would be waiting for him to go home.

Not this time, and never again.

Ji Moyu seldom drank alcohol, let alone drink alcohol to relieve his sorrow.But today is different, drunk will feel better than sober.

Alcohol can paralyze the mind.

The empty wine jars were removed one by one by the waiter in the shop, and replaced with full ones

Ji Moyu was lying on the table, drunk to the point of unconsciousness, but still instinctively pouring wine into Qin Yi's mouth...

you liar……

There is poison in the wine, poisoned by oneself.

Remember this pain, the pain of heart spasm spreading all over the body is unbearable.In the future, I will no longer be emotional, and will no longer pay attention to anyone.

Otherwise, the pain will recur again, allowing the toxin to circulate throughout the body.

He passed out, completely drunk.

When Ji Moyu woke up, he looked at the dazzling light outside the window with confused eyes. The 18 years of his life were like a dream, and it had nothing to do with him when he woke up.

I closed my eyes and recalled my childhood like a revolving lantern, and the appearance of my family was no longer clear.

Surrounded by only one person in memory, the person who likes to wear white clothes and looks like a fairy, the man who holds his hand and calls himself Xiaomo.

Ji Moyu performed lightness kung fu and went up to a very high mountain on the opposite side. He sat in the haystack and looked at the mountains in the distance.

Now everything has nothing to do with me, and all the concerns about Ji Moyu in this world have been cleared up.

Now I am wandering alone in the rivers and lakes, anonymous and free.

If you want to overthrow the imperial court and become the emperor, you can become a beggar in the market, or even fall into fireworks and become a male prostitute.

Complete freedom with no constraints.

very empty

so what?

Xiao Muyu, who was dressed in a red robe, looked at the temple of Ranjiao, looking at the misty mountain peaks in the distance, but he was a little lost.

In a trance, he seemed to see a person on the highest peak of the opposite mountain. He was slowly getting up straight and walking towards the mist step by step.

Qin Yi was at the entrance of the inn, surrounded by a busy market.

The cherry blossom tree thousands of miles away should be in full bloom now.

After coughing lightly a few times, he stretched out his hand and folded off the flower branch of an unknown tree in front of him, evoking an elegant smile.

Suddenly, he didn't know that the corners of his mouth were oozing blood.

Waste a lifetime, but strangers.