amber affair

That day, but now, everything seems to be in chaos.

With a bitter smile, his icy blue eyes met the pitch-black phoenix eyes, the corners of Bu Er's elegant lips twitched slightly, his soft voice trembled uncontrollably, and he asked in a hoarse voice: "Why should I ask? I have already confessed I passed it and was rejected, what else do I have to ask? Do you want me to ask him: Echizen, do you like Sanada?"

Don't ask, it's not for ridiculous and pitiful self-esteem, it's just that I don't want to embarrass the child who has always been cherished.Fuji is very clear that the young man still doesn't understand his feelings at all, he just thinks that Sanada is the one he wants to defeat.

However, if he just wanted to defeat Sanada, Echizen's eyes would not soften unconsciously when he saw Sanada.Such longing and longing have never been given to myself, nor to Tezuka.To the boy, I and Tezuka are nothing more than seniors, and only seniors.

Speechless, Tezuka averted his eyes in some embarrassment, his phoenix eyes dimmed.If it is really as what Fuji said, can he still have delusions?Can you still naively think that the young man only belongs to you and only has eyes on you?

If you don't ask, you will be unwilling; if you ask, you are afraid of getting the ending that Fuji expected, Tezuka's chest feels tight and painful, but he can't find any words to refute, so he can only remain silent.Words have never been what he is good at, and even his love for that child can only be expressed implicitly with the help of tennis.

"I'm tired, Tezuka." He tightly covered his eyes with his palms, refusing anyone to see the fragility in his eyes, the corners of his slightly raised lips were filled with indescribable bitterness and exhaustion, and his usually soft voice was hoarse. "It doesn't matter who Echizen likes anymore, the important thing is that I know, that person is not me."

I will still like him and care for him the way a senior treats a junior.Because liking someone doesn't mean you can give up just by giving up; guarding him quietly and watching him grow up all the way is also a way of liking.

"If, I mean, if the person Echizen likes is Sanada, what are you going to do?" You were so dazed that you couldn't see a direction, and the helpless phoenix eyes quietly stared at Fuji who lost his composure. Tsukasa's deep voice was terribly hoarse.

He really didn't know what to do, and he really hoped that someone could give him an answer.Feelings are too profound and difficult for him who has only tennis in his life for 15 years.

"I said, all of this is just my guess. The only thing I can tell you is that the person Echizen likes is not me." The fingers slowly loosened, and the ice-blue eyes gradually calmed down, but there was still a flash of pain, Fuji smiled slightly: "If I were you, even if it hurts, I would make myself feel the pain clearly."

If it hurts, let's go together, Tezuka.

I don't want to be the only one suffering, this is my little selfishness.If Echizen accepts you, I will smile and offer my blessings; if Echizen rejects you, I just have one more person to talk to.Because licking the wound alone is really painful and lonely.

I don't have two weeks to help, I am such a selfish person.

If it hurts, do you have to feel the pain clearly?There was a complicated wry smile on his usually cold face, Tezuka stared at Fuji who was slightly trembling on his shoulders, and sighed softly.

That's right, if you don't say it, you won't have any chance.If he said it and was rejected, he would just be able to stop this delusion that shouldn't have been there, quietly return to his original position, and be his minister with peace of mind.

But, can I really be your minister with peace of mind, Echizen?That liking, that feeling of being carefully kept, that longing for you that has been carefully concealed, can it really be broken, can it be broken?

The black eyes were dazed, the blue eyes were bitter, and they looked at each other speechlessly, only the continuous heartache continued for a long time.When did the summer in Munich get so cold?

(18)

In the evening in Munich, the sunset always has a magical beauty.

Walking with Tezuka in a dense spruce forest behind the nursing home, Ryoma stared at the tall and handsome figure in front of him with his round cat eyes in bewilderment, wondering why his minister turned himself Call out alone.

It's okay to be called out, and from the beginning, he ignored him like this, frowning as if he was thinking about something very difficult, which made the proud and stubborn kitten very dissatisfied.Counting down to ten times in his heart, seeing that Tezuka still had no intention of stopping, he simply stopped heavily, frowned and said, "Minister, what exactly do you want to say?"

His body froze slightly, Tezuka frowned and looked at the golden red sunlight falling from the treetops, sighed softly, and met the golden cat eyes in a blink of an eye.

Not wearing a hat, her dark green soft hair was slightly messy, but the tip of the hair shone with a faint and charming light, confusing the long, narrow and deep phoenix eyes.Raising his hand unconsciously, touching the softness lightly, Tezuka hesitated for a moment, then asked in a low voice: "Echizen, is there anyone you like?"

The cat's eyes widened suddenly, staring blankly at the handsome face with a suspicious blush in front of him, Long Ma was dumbfounded.After thinking about it, he never expected that his minister would ask such a question. He couldn't help but wonder: Is this person really Minister Tezuka who is too cold and serious?

Staring blankly at Tezuka for a while, until the other party looked away uncomfortably under such a stare, Ryoma blinked in confusion, and obediently replied: "Yes."

Because of such an answer, the color of her cold face faded instantly, and even the eyes looked a little dim.Tightly pursing his slightly pale lips, Tezuka was silent for a while, then asked hoarsely, "Can you tell me who it is?"

It doesn't matter who you mention, don't mention Sanada, Echizen!There was a faint expectation in the sad eyes, and the slender fingers unconsciously grasped the boy's immature and thin shoulders, hoarse and hoarse, "Can you tell me, Echizen?"

"Stinky dad, mom, cousin Nanako, everyone, and..." He gave Tezuka a strange look, but facing the minister he feared the most and wanted to defeat the most, Ryoma still suppressed his doubts , count in detail.But at the end of the count, he stopped involuntarily, because he thought of that person, the person who always had a serious expression.

Sanada-senpai, when did you start liking Sanada-senpai?Obviously Sanada-senpai is just someone who wants to win?Such a sudden discovery made the boy's fair and delicate cheeks slightly flushed, and he quickly raised his head and secretly looked at Tezuka.

"Who else?" Tezuka tightened his fingers involuntarily, seeing the boy's slender eyebrows gradually frowning and his cat eyes flickering in bewilderment, Tezuka couldn't help asking.

How could anyone ask such a question?What exactly does the minister want to know?A flash of embarrassment flashed in Ryoma's eyes, Ryoma raised his head and glared at Tezuka, and said angrily: "There is also Karubin!" It's fine to say that you like anyone, even if you are laughed at, it doesn't matter, you just don't want the minister to know that you just found out I fell in love with Sanada-senpai!

"Carubin?" The strange and strange name, which Tezuka had never heard before, was also puzzled, and he repeated it unconsciously.

"It's my cat! Minister, what exactly do you want to say?" Tezuka's shoulder hurt a little, Ryoma twisted his body unaccustomed, his delicate face was full of confusion.

Fortunately, he didn't mention Sanada, the name he was most afraid of hearing at the moment.With this kind of cognition, Tezuka breathed a sigh of relief, and the strength of his fingertips gradually softened.Looking down at the young man's puzzled face, his dark phoenix eyes flashed with a different kind of affection, he whispered: "Echizen, please date me, is that okay?"

The cat's eyes widened again, staring at Tezuka in astonishment, Ryoma opened his mouth slightly, unable to speak for a long time.The minister, the minister who is so serious that he is almost unreasonable actually proposes a relationship with him, did he hear it wrong?

"Is it okay, Echizen?" There was a trace of complicated tenderness on the cool and handsome face, Tezuka bent slightly and approached the boy's face full of astonishment, staring at the golden eyes as clear as water, and said in a low voice: "I like you, Echizen .”

As if startled by Tezuka's suddenly magnified handsome face, the always proud boy took a big step back like a frightened kitten, involuntarily avoiding the longing stare, biting his lips lightly and refusing to make a sound.

He was really frightened, not only because of the sudden request made by the minister who had always admired and followed him, but also because for a moment just now, he took that deep voice as another person.

There are shocks and frustrations, how could you think of that person all the time from the beginning?At that time, when Senior Fuji made a request for him to associate with him, he couldn't help but think of that person, and suddenly wanted to hear that person's voice.

He bowed his head in silence for a long time, until the setting sun fell to the ground and the sky gradually turned into a gloomy dark blue, Ryoma raised his head quietly, and secretly looked at the sad and handsome face of his minister.

"Minister, I'm going back to rest."

Bowing politely towards Tezuka, the always proud Echizen Ryoma fled away, so fast that Tezuka couldn't even reach out to stop him, he could only watch the petite figure leave in a hurry.

The hand, still half-hanging in the air, had no time to take it back, and trembled uncontrollably; the dark eyes were filled with deep sadness and loss.Stuck in place, staring at the direction where the boy disappeared for a long time, the corners of Tezuka's lips raised a curve called bitterness, and his fingers slowly curled back into his palms, piercing deeply into the skin.

My heart hurts. Although I considered countless possibilities at the beginning, I didn't expect that after the boy really escaped, the heart-piercing pain would make breathing a luxury.

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