amber affair

The last long conversation between Budu.The person who always used a smile to hide all his emotions said to him with tears in front of him for the first time: Tezuka, what's the difference between being unable to forget and not wanting to forget?

If you can't forget, you can't forget; if you don't want to forget, it's a self-abuse.But whether you can't forget it or don't want to forget it, it's because that child has long been engraved in your heart and has become a taboo.A touch would turn into a bloody wound.

Raising his head, looking at Ryoma who was eating quietly, Tezuka gently stretched out his hand, touching his delicate and soft face, and said softly: "Let's go back to Japan together during the Chinese New Year, Coach Ryuzaki and Oishi, Miss you all the time."

"Okay, I haven't contacted them for a long time, and call Fuji-senpai back when the time comes." Despite Tezuka stroking his cheek, Ryoma narrowed his cat's eyes, with a faint smile on his lips.

I was overwhelmed when I was confessed, but I no longer feel embarrassed as time goes by.Whether it's the minister or the senior, even after a long time apart, when we meet again, I still feel the same as when we were in school.

Only that person, that person has changed.That person's change was so sudden that he was at a loss, and he couldn't change the situation that he obviously wanted to say a lot, but he couldn't say anything when he picked up the phone.However, he still likes him, even if it is uncomfortable, he still abides by the agreement.In order to win the four Grand Slam championships, in order to wait for him to take the initiative to contact him, no matter how hard and tiring he is, he can bear it.

In the quiet atmosphere, the mobile phone on the table suddenly flickered on and off. Ryoma picked it up and looked at it, frowning.

Without speaking, Tezuka quietly waited for him to finish talking on the phone, then asked lightly, "Is it Yukimura?"

"Well, I said that I came to Germany to watch my game during the summer vacation, and now I want to see me." Thinking of the sudden shock to himself from time to time in the past three years, Ryoma frowned slightly, and looked at it with some embarrassment. Tezuka glanced at it, and whispered, "I told Senior Yukimura the address here, the minister won't be angry, right?"

"No." Suppressing the sadness in his heart, the expression on Tezuka's cold handsome face was still indifferent.Pretending to be nonchalant, he asked casually: "Speaking of which, when Yukimura came to the United States suddenly, he thought he was going to be a professional player."

There was a trace of regret in the golden cat eyes, Ryoma shook his head and said: "I thought so at first, but he can no longer play tennis. Although the operation was successful, he still can't do too much exercise. It's really great. pity."

"Then what is he doing now?" Seeing Ryoma put down the knife and fork and lit a cigarette again, Tezuka frowned, and said in a deep voice, "Stop smoking, it's really bad for your health."

"Minister doesn't smoke? I just saw that you also have cigarettes in your bag." He curled his lips into a smile, raised his eyebrows and looked at Tezuka's slightly embarrassed expression, Ryoma simply brought the lit cigarette to his lips, and said with a smile: "Okay, I will bribe you with one, and don't train me again."

Holding the cigarette that Ryoma forcefully stuffed between his lips, his lips were lightly brushed by slightly rough fingers, causing a trembling numbness, and Tezuka couldn't help but stagnate.Taking a breath silently, meeting the golden eyes full of laughter, he sighed helplessly, and said, "I don't smoke often."

It's just that sometimes when I'm bored, and sometimes I can't help but miss you, smoke can calm me down a little.

"It's the same for me." Holding a cigarette, he got up, leaned closer to Tezuka slightly, and lit the cigarette with his cigarette butt. Ryoma took a deep breath, narrowed his cat's eyes in satisfaction, and smiled: "We are all the same. Yes, Minister."

Staring at the soft lips close at hand, Tezuka suppressed the desire to touch, lowered his eyes and said: "Eat more, I haven't seen you for a long time, and you are still so thin." Always such casual small movements, but Damn alluring, if he could, he'd really want to hold him tight and never let go.

But, I can't.It took three years to get back to the way they used to get along with the avoidance and unnaturalness towards themselves at the beginning. Tezuka really didn't want each other to return to the previous embarrassment.Therefore, even though his heart was beating so violently that his chest ached slightly, he still tried his best to maintain his usual calmness.

"Do you know, Minister, that guy looks a bit like you." Seeing Tezuka raise the corners of his eyes slightly in doubt, Ryoma blinked slyly, and snorted, "You are all the kind with facial nerve necrosis. .”

"Naughty." Deliberately ignoring the little bit of displeasure in his heart, he stretched out his hand to rub Ryoma's dark green hair, and a doting smile appeared in Tezuka's pitch-black phoenix eyes, urging softly: "Eat more .”

"I won't eat, I still prefer to eat Japanese food. If the minister wants to invite me again next time, please treat me to Japanese food." Pushing away the plate, Ryoma leaned lazily on the chair, squinting and looking out the window .

Staring deeply at the exquisite face, Tezuka said with a hint of expectation in his deep voice, "Then next time you come to Munich, I'll make it for you."

"Okay, it's settled." Not caring how much joy his casual answer brought to Tezuka, Ryoma turned his eyes to the entrance, and raised his eyebrows at the slender figure who was slowly walking towards this side , "Senior Yukimura, don't make surprise attacks every time, okay?"

"Little Ryoma, I came all the way from the United States to watch your game, how can you say that to me, I'm going to be sad." With a gentle smile in his purple eyes, Yukimura quickly walked to Ryoma's side , sat down next to him without any strangeness, and nodded to Tezuka who was frowning slightly: "Long time no see, Tezuka."

Long time no see, but you still don't seem to give up.I am determined to win Ryoma. After years of hard work, I can call him Ryoma intimately, but it is not enough. I will keep guarding him until he completely forgets about that person.

"It's been a long time. I just talked about you with Echizen." Nodding coldly and distantly, Tezuka's voice returned to his usual indifference, and he stared at the slender arms tightly wrapped around Ryoma's shoulders with slight displeasure.When did Yukimura and Echizen become so close?And looking at Echizen's appearance, he was simply used to this kind of intimacy.

The purple eyes that were originally gentle and smiling were a little displeased when they saw the cigarette between Ryoma's fingers. Yukimura reached out and snatched the cigarette and put it out, and his soft voice was mixed with a touch of seriousness: "Didn't I tell you not to smoke?" , why are you cheating behind my back again?"

"Tch, Yukimura-senpai, you are still far behind!" Glaring at Yukimura angrily, Ryoma rolled his eyes with a guilty conscience, and whispered: "Don't think that you are a doctor just because you are admitted to medical school! Don't always When I was a child!"

"You are a child who has not grown up! You are not yet an adult, little Ryoma!" Yukimura pinched his puffy face affectionately with his slender and white fingers. Yukimura looked up at Tezuka and smiled: "Tezuka, you Just ignore him, he's just pretending to be cool."

Like a kitten being stimulated, Ryoma jumped up, stared at Yukimura's smiling eyes with slight annoyance, and said angrily, "Mr. Yukimura!" As bad as Senior Fuji!

As if he could no longer remain silent in the conversation between the two, Tezuka closed his eyes forcefully, and said in a hoarse voice, "I still have something to do, let's go first, and move forward."

The kitten who was full of embarrassment didn't care how ugly Tezuka's face was at the moment, and his attention was still focused on bickering with Yukimura.Facing Tezuka's sudden farewell, he raised his eyebrows, then waved his hand casually and said, "Okay, Minister. I'll visit you in Munich when I'm free."

"Well, take care." After finishing speaking in a low voice and hastily, Tezuka picked up his belongings, paid and left quickly.

(52)

Outside the window, the night sky in Tokyo is dotted with snowflakes, and the city, which is almost Christmas, is full of joy in peace.In the room, Sanada was leaning on the head of the bed, his handsome and serious face couldn't hide the loneliness and exhaustion from the bottom of his heart, and his black eyes were quietly staring at the photo in his hand that had worn away the edges and corners.

It's almost Christmas again, and it's almost his birthday again, so I wonder if he's doing well on the other side of the Pacific.Deliberately not contacting him does not mean that he will not miss him, or that his miss has never diminished.

The slender fingers gently covered the sadness and fragility of the face, and inadvertently touched the slightly tingling cheek, and a bitter smile appeared on Sanada's lips.I almost forgot, before I came back, I was slapped hard by the girl who had been pestering me all the time, the slap was really hard, and I was a little swollen.

I never thought that after such a boring self went to college, someone would pursue her and someone would take the initiative to confess.I also tried to accept those girls, but without exception, less than a week after dating, there will be an expected breakup.

The reason for breaking up was very simple and very consistent. They all said: Sanada-kun, you are a person without feelings, even if you dated, you still don't feel like you at all.

How can there be no emotion?It's just that all his feelings were given to that same-sex child, so it's impossible to fall in love with others again.Even if you try to accept those so-called likes in order to forget this relationship, it still doesn't work.Except for that child, no one else could make him really open his heart.

The girl who gave him a slap today was the one who lasted the longest since the relationship.There is no other reason, but the girl has a very similar outline to Echizen, and also has a stubborn character that will not admit defeat.He thought he could transfer his feelings for the child to the girl, but when the girl moved her red lips to ask for a kiss, he panicked.