amber affair

Looking at Longma's back, he hesitated to speak.

Speaking of which, the sudden death of Sanada's grandfather is also inseparable from this child.If Sanada's father hadn't disliked Sanada's father who has been forcing Sanada to go on a blind date, urging him to get married and inherit the Sanada family as soon as possible, the grandfather Sanada who loves his grandson would not have had a big fight with his son and caused a heart attack.

It is no longer a secret that Sanada only has Echizen in his heart.As for why he resolutely pushed Echizen away and let himself bear the pain alone, the clever Liu could figure out the reason even if he didn't ask.

This time I came to the United States, not only to find Yukimura, but also to find Echizen from Yukimura, and let him go back to see the man who was about to collapse.

After a moment of silence, Liu looked at Yukimura with drooping brows and eyes inquiringly, and said in a low voice, "Can I go back and see Sanada? I've already notified everyone, and the only thing missing is you."

go back?What are you going to do?The relationship between him and Sanada has long been unable to return to the friendly relationship between childhood sweethearts because of Ryoma's relationship.Suspicious of each other, far away from each other, there is nothing to say when they meet, what else can be left behind besides embarrassment when they go back?

Looking up at the young man leaning against the window with a deliberately indifferent expression, Yukimura felt pain in his heart.Ryoma, why don't you always have good things on your birthday?Last Christmas, you came back with scars all over your body, and you haven't recovered until today; but this Christmas, the news of the death of Sanada's grandfather came, how long will you be entangled?

Sighing deeply, under Liu's gaze, he walked to the window, gently embraced the trembling slender body, Yukimura said in a low voice, "Ryoma, do you want to go back and have a look?"

"Why do you want to go back? He doesn't want to see me at all." Leaning tiredly on Yukimura's shoulder, his cat eyes half closed, his long eyelashes trembling slightly because of the pain in his heart, Ryoma pursed his lips bitterly. "He must be in pain right now and I don't want to make him sad anymore."

"Echizen." With a little regret in his warm and deep eyes, Liu walked up to Ryoma and sighed softly: "Please and Yukimura come back to Japan with me. Sanada is about to collapse. I think the person he wants to see the most is You. Speaking of which, Grandfather Sanada also liked you the most during his lifetime, do you know that?"

Why are you hurting each other, Sanada, Echizen.Obviously you both care about each other so much, why don't you untie this knot, why do you have to dig each other's wounds, why do you have to have bruises all over your body?

With his eyes closed tightly, Ryoma trembled violently.The serious old man never forgot his kindness to him.The old man never hurt himself because he was also a man. Instead, he always asked half-jokingly with a hint of expectation: Echizen, stay in the Sanada family and work with Genichiro to carry forward the Sanada family's kendo.

I want to stay too, Grandpa Sanada.But Sanada-senpai, he will think this relationship is dirty, so he will push me away, without the slightest nostalgia.

"Echizen, do you know why Grandfather Sanada passed away suddenly?" After staring at the delicate face full of pain and sadness for a long time, Liu finally couldn't help but take a strong dose of medicine: "Grandpa Sanada quarreled with Father Sanada for you. A heart attack will happen suddenly after a fight. For the old man who loves you so much, don't you even want to see him for the last time?"

Opening his eyes suddenly, Ryoma stared at Liu Chen's painful face in astonishment, and bit his lips tightly.There was a faint smell of blood between the lips and teeth, the tingling of the lips was far less than the sharp pain in the heart, Ryoma leaned against Yukimura weakly and breathed hard.

Sanada-senpai, you will hate me.For me, Grandpa Sanada...

I think it's time for me to go back.Even if I still feel sad seeing you, I must come back.For you, and not just for you.

Trying his best to calm down the churning pain in his heart, Ryoma looked up at Yukimura, and said softly, "I'll go back with you, Mr. Yukimura."

(57)

Kneeling and sitting at the entrance of the mourning hall covered in black and white, Sanada mechanically saluted the people who came to pay their respects, and then bowed his thanks in inaudible comfort.The pain has long been numb, and he just opened his unfocused eyes, staring blankly at the black mourning clothes on his body.

If he hadn't heard the argument between his grandfather and father that day, he might never have known that his always serious and staid grandfather would support him.He still remembers that on the way to the hospital, his grandfather held his hand and told him repeatedly until the last moment: Xianichiro, happiness is won by yourself, you must be happy.

Are you happy?He has already blocked happiness out of the door, how could he get happiness.But now, he is burdened with the crime of killing his grandfather.If it wasn't for him, my grandfather, who has always been in good health, wouldn't have said go, just go.

Staring blankly at the people coming and going in front of him, until a slender and familiar silhouette appeared in front of his eyes, his blank black eyes gradually regained their focus.

Echizen...how could it be you?Don't you already hate me, how come you come back?

Quietly looking at Sanada's deathly silent black eyes, Ryoma lowered his eyes, bowed slightly, and offered comfort in a hoarse voice: "Sanada-senpai, please forgive me." Black tells the person that he hasn't had a good rest for too long.Resisting the urge to touch that pale handsome face, Ryoma whispered, "I'm coming back to pay homage to Grandpa Sanada."

As if fleeing, he walked quickly towards the mourning hall.Nodding to the red-eyed Sanada's parents and nurse Asi, Ryoma looked up at the portrait surrounded by yellow and white chrysanthemums, and bowed deeply.

I'm sorry, Grandpa Sanada.If it wasn't for me, Sanada-senpai wouldn't be so uncomfortable, and you wouldn't have left so early.I can't fulfill your wish in this life.Because Sanada-senpai doesn't love me.

After the salute, he knelt down in front of Masako Sanada who was sobbing so hard that he couldn't speak. As if he didn't dare to look at her, Ryoma lowered his head and murmured apologetically, "I'm sorry, Mama Sanada, Papa Sanada, if it wasn't for me... ..."

"It's not your fault, Echizen. Please don't be sad." As her fingers lightly touched the delicate and fair face, Masako Sanada had deep sorrow in her eyes.In fact, he was the one who was hurt the most.Why did he say sorry to himself, did he forget how unforgivable Xianichiro did to him?

Pursing his lips tightly, Sanada Hao stared at the young man in front of him with a genuine mourning expression, finally closed his eyes weakly, and said in a hoarse voice: "Echizen, can you take a rest with Xianichiro? He hasn't closed his eyes all day and night. gone."

Father, it shouldn't be Echizen who said I'm sorry.If it wasn't for me deliberately ignoring Genichiro's feelings, you wouldn't be so angry that you would get sick.However, there's really nothing I can do.I can see the relationship between the two children, but if they continue to be entangled in such pain, when will it end?

With a low reply, Ryoma walked up to Sanada's side, stretched out his hand to hold his arm tightly, his golden eyes looked at Sanada's blank black eyes without moving, and said in a deep voice, "Come out for a walk with me, Sanada-senpai."

Standing up silently, and bowing slightly to the former members of Tachikai University who were full of concern, Sanada followed Ryoma and walked out of the oppressive mourning hall.

The dark eyes followed closely the slender and handsome figure in front of him, nostalgia, sadness, and pain complicated a pair of gloomy eyes.The slender arms hang down by the side, and the hands are clenched into fists, as if trying to restrain themselves so as not to rush forward and hug the person he loves tightly into his arms.

Along the familiar wooden corridor in memory, Ryoma stopped at the door of Sanada's bedroom.Pushing the door open, no matter how surprised Sanada looked at him, he walked into the bathroom, filled the bathtub with water, then turned around and said to Sanada who was leaning against the door and staring at him in a daze: "Take a bath. , you will be more comfortable."

"Echizen." Quickly walking over to embrace the slender and flexible body, Sanada buried his face in his white and elegant neck, took a deep breath of the refreshing scent of his body, and hoarsely said, "Stay with me, just a moment is all it takes."

With sadness in his eyes, Ryoma raised his hand to gently stroke his thick black hair, and responded in a low voice: "Sanada-senpai, I'm outside."

Walking out of the bathroom, leaning against the window, listening to the clear sound of water, the golden cat eyes narrowed slightly, lingering nostalgicly on the familiar furnishings in the house.

Everything is still the same as before, there is no going back, only us, Sanada-senpai.I thought you hated me already, but why do I still have the illusion that you still like me when I see you today?

As if afraid that the person he loved so much would leave suddenly again, Sanada hurriedly stepped out of the bathroom after cleaning up.Fortunately, he is still there, he has not left.He breathed a sigh of relief, his tense nerves relaxed slightly, and his body immediately felt weak and exhausted. He just leaned against the wall quietly, looking deeply at the familiar face in his memory.

He grew taller, shed the immatureness of the past, and became mature.The handsome and delicate face has not changed much, and it still has a charming and alluring aura as before.Even if he deliberately doesn't pay attention, Sanada still knows how popular Echizen Ryoma is in the world of tennis and how many fans are chasing him.Even if he announced his unusual sexual orientation, it did not damage his image in the slightest.

But such a prince who attracted the attention of the whole world is shrouded in a layer of deep loneliness at the moment, and Sanada knows why.

In a blink of an eye, seeing Sanada's dazed look, Ryoma raised the corners of his lips slightly, and chuckled in his usual proud voice: "What are you doing? It's not the first day I saw me, Sanada-senpai." Walking to the edge of the bed, he patted the soft The quilt, the delicate face is stained with a little immaturity