senior [rebirth]

Why is there someone as gentle as a senior in this world?

The light of the winter afternoon shone into the alley and fell on him, even the white particles floating in the air looked soft.Those black eyes seemed to be able to contain everything, and when they looked down, they poured all the brilliance on Lin Xi alone.

He said to Lin Xi, "I like you."

When Lin Xi heard these words, he felt as if his heart was about to explode.

And he never expected that there would be another sentence after the senior: "I hope you don't think I'm strange."

With gentle eyes, steady tone of voice, and an expression that never loses color, Xu Hanlai is not a person who would be troubled by such things at all, so he would naturally say such things casually.

It was because of Lin Xi that he squatted down from a high place and took the initiative to take the burden behind him.

For a moment, Lin Xi didn't understand why such good luck would happen to him, it seemed so unreal, and he didn't even dare to connect.

So much so that he stood on the path behind the school's back door, and after almost a century, he said a little dumbly: "...Why do I think you are strange."

The day before was Christmas Eve, and today is Christmas.

Lin Xi had the most memorable and meaningful Christmas in his life.

So much so that he couldn't recover for several days afterwards.

... He was actually confessed by the senior.

"Li Tengfei, tell me, am I in a dream now?" This was the nth time Lin Xi turned to ask Li Tengfei after noon that day.

Li Tengfei went from being surprised at the beginning to being puzzled later, and now getting used to it.

After hearing it this time, he simply poked his arm with a pen, and it was over: "It hurts."

Of course it hurts.

Lin Xi looked down at the place where his arm was poked, but then said, "Then tell me, are there any dreams in this world where you can feel pain?"

Li Tengfei turned his head in wonder: "It must be a reality to feel the pain. What happened to you these two days?"

"Thinking." Lin Xi withdrew his gaze.

"Thinking about what?"

"Think about whether people are worthy of being with God." It happened to be a recess at the moment, Lin Xi said while drawing a small person on the textbook, and added three beams of light above his head.

"...Why do you have such a strange idea?" Li Tengfei wondered, but he still helped Lin Xi think about it: "I have never seen people and gods appear in the same world, and they can't appear in the same world. It’s hard to say, but if it can appear in a world...then there’s nothing worthy of it, isn’t it true that in ancient times we had a lot of love stories between gods and gods, and advocated freedom, but the process might be tortuous, why ask this?”

Lin Xi sighed silently.

After he finished that sentence that day, he didn't directly take what the senior said. He didn't immediately say that I like you too, let alone put forward ideas such as whether we can be together.

This is not because Lin Xi doesn't like it, but because he doesn't know how to say it.

Lin Xi stayed in the position of silent dedication for too long and was too willing. He even felt that as long as he could interact with the seniors in this way, he would be satisfied. He never thought of being with the seniors.

So when the sun suddenly shone on him, Lin Xi didn't even know what expression to greet him with.

...he had no expectations in mind.

Instinctively, I couldn't accept such a drastic relationship change openly, and I also had a lot of deep-seated uneasiness and a sense of retreat in my heart towards such a change.

Fortunately, the senior is not in a hurry, saying that he is still young, so he can give him time to think slowly.

"Nothing." After a long while, Lin Xi scratched his head and said.

He is still staying at the senior's house for the past few days. Since the beginning of the third year of high school, the time the two of them usually spend together has decreased sharply, and after Christmas, even half of the original time is almost gone.

Xu Hanlai should have made up his mind this time to let Lin Xi think clearly.

Coincidentally, Lin Xi thought so too.

Some things can be done for you, and some things can't.

So he has been forcing himself to think these days, and even wants to be a senior because of the reduced time spent together.

But helplessly, he has never been able to find the self who can frankly accept the senior's confession and accept this relationship at the same time.

If you can't figure it out at the beginning, the relationship will have twists and turns because you can't let go even at the beginning, which is unfair and irresponsible to the other party.

So Lin Xi wanted to think clearly.

Time flies, and after Christmas comes New Year's Day.

Liu Hao did what he said, and he really escaped from school the day before to visit Grandma Dong in the dessert shop. It was rare for the three of them to gather in the dessert shop together.

Lin Xi and the senior also followed, and because of Liu Hao, they became a little closer than before.

The dessert shop is only that big in total, and occasionally even accidentally close together.

Lin Xi instinctively avoided it at the beginning, but later on, she gradually tried to relax herself and deal with these things normally.

And during this process, Lin Xi also felt that the senior was not avoiding him deliberately, but treated him more normally.

But even so, it's a far cry from the past.

It was also at this time that Lin Xi gradually realized that since he was reborn, he has actually been living in the specialness of his seniors.

It's a pity that the authorities are confused.

After accompanying Grandma Dong to close the store, the access control time had passed, and Liu Hao could not go back to the dormitory. It happened to be the New Year's Eve, so he proposed to live in Xu Hanlai's house.

Xu Hanlai did not refuse, and of course Lin Xi had no objection either.

I thought it was the same ordinary chat and snacks as on Christmas Eve, but I didn't expect that when Liu Hao passed by the convenience store outside Xu Hanlai's community, he suddenly carried a case of beer up on a whim.

"I'll go, I'll just say something is missing, come on, brother Han and I drank it last year, this year I'll bring Xiao Linzi with me! The boss has a box!" Liu Hao said.

"A box is too much, isn't it? Can you finish it?" Lin Xi didn't have any talent in drinking. Seeing Liu Hao suddenly asked for a box, he subconsciously worried.

"It's okay, what are you afraid of if I'm here?" Liu Hao said without thinking, "I can kill a box by myself, and your senior is not as good as me at all."

After he finished speaking, he glanced at Lin Xi, suddenly smirked twice, and asked the boss for another box: "The price is getting higher every year, and a small forest has been added this year, so I need another box."

Lin Xi: "..."

He was about to stop Liu Hao's dangerous behavior, but he didn't expect that after the boss threw out a case of wine, the senior walked up to the front without much concern.

He is wearing a light brown down jacket today, with fluff on the brim of the hat.Looking gentle and elegant, plus his appearance has never been a powerful type, it is very inconsistent with the style of that box of wine, but after he stepped forward and picked it up, he looked extremely calm.

Liu Hao, who was taller and bigger than the one in front of him, looked calmer, and the wine box in his arms was not likely to make the sound of glass bottles colliding.

When passing by Lin Xi with a faint scent, the latter subconsciously fell silent.

"That's it, go!"

It wasn't until Liu Hao's voice came from the side that Lin Xi silently reminded the senior behind him as if waking up from a dream.

"There are steps ahead, be careful."

This can be regarded as a rare thing for Lin Xi to speak to the senior on his own initiative and alone in the past few days.

Xu Hanlai heard it, and walked down the "steps": "The light is not good, can you hold me?"

Lin Xi looked up at him.

In Lin Xi's previous concept, this kind of request would definitely be regarded as the senior teasing him, and because of his hesitation after Christmas, the relationship between the two people did not make much progress by leaps and bounds, so if according to the previous According to the law, Lin Xi should be silent at this time and take this as a joke.

However, the cooling-off period of the past few days was still useful, at least this time when Lin Xi faced Xu Hanlai's words, after a pause of two seconds, he silently reached out and grabbed the down jacket on the senior's arm.

Said: "Okay, I will hold you."

Even though the tips of the ears were already showing a slight tendency to turn red, judging from the child's expression, he was really leading the way seriously.

From the corner of the street lamp, Xu Hanlai looked down at the child. He was really patient, and he really liked Lin Xi's seriousness in everything.

At this moment, I couldn't help but slightly bent my eyes, and whispered on the winter night street: "Have you grown gallbladder recently?"

Lin Xi was really a little ashamed, and he was afraid that Liu Hao in front of him would suddenly turn around and see this scene, and he would yell at the side of the road.

But after hearing what the senior said, he still tried his best to calm down, nodded slightly and said, "Well, it's grown a bit."

Xu Han said "Oh, look at the child who is seriously answering under the moonlight, his eyes become gentle unconsciously, and he said: "Then grow up faster, I'm afraid I won't be able to wait."

There was a wind blowing at night, Lin Xi looked at the road ahead, his heart was obviously beating fast, but he still forcibly suppressed it, for a long time, he didn't let go of the senior's hand, he only asked softly: "...why it's me"

On New Year's Eve, the streets are full of traffic, and the small businessmen and hawkers who are still running outside are also working hard.

This sentence was hidden in the wind, so that Xu Hanlai didn't hear clearly at first: "What?"

"I said, why me?" Lin Xi raised his head silently, the street lights shone on his round and clear eyes, he was wearing a scarf today, and he looked very cute: "I have always wondered why it was me What about me? I’m just an ordinary boy, and, why do you like boys, senior?”

This is not a thing that is too well-recognized by the public in this era.

Lin Xi tried his best to search through the memories of the previous life and this life, but couldn't find any clues.

A person who was willing to fight so fiercely with his family for his girlfriend in the previous life, why would he suddenly choose to stop in front of him in this life?

Lin Xi knows many people with the same sexual orientation as him, so he deeply understands that such an orientation can never be formed in a day or two, and many people will fight against themselves after realizing it, so why is the senior?

"I don't like boys." Xu Hanlai really thought about Lin Xi's question after listening to it, and then smiled at Lin Xi with lowered eyes. His voice was very light, as if he could pass through time: "I like you."

"It's rare to see a child as sincere, free of distractions and persistent as you."

He was really persistent, chasing him for several rounds like the only light.

Lin Xi: "..."

He didn't know the deeper reason why the senior made such an evaluation, and he was extremely embarrassed just listening to the surface.

How can I feel so good.

Feeling uncomfortable, he subconsciously withdrew his hand.

Seeing this, Xu Hanlai raised his eyebrows: "I'm going to wrestle."

Lin Xi: "..."

Silently pulled it up again.