As the class monitor, after I helped Mei Can's roommate

"And I just think there's something wrong with Liu Zisi."

"Hey, hey, Ah Bai..." Xiang Qingwu waved his hands in a panic, "It's not good to talk like that."

Anyway, Liu Zisi is also Chi Yu's relative, so it's really inappropriate to say such belittling words in front of Chi Yu.

After Bai Mingfeng said the words, he also felt that he was too tactful, but the matter has come to this point, and the splashed water cannot be recovered. He looked at Chi Yu, waiting for a reply.

Chi Yu did not show an angry expression, he lowered his head, and said softly: "No matter what, I have no other relatives. My uncle saved me. He is the only one who has been with me for so many years. I can't live without him." , I can't live without him..."

"..." After listening to Chi Yu's words, although Bai Mingfeng held back his stomach for questions, he still let out a long sigh. He felt that it was someone else's family matter after all, and he planned to give up pursuing it. He said, "Forget it, maybe I was thinking too much." Yes, you and your uncle..."

"That's not right."

Someone suddenly spoke and interrupted Bai Mingfeng's words, causing the others to pause and look at him together.

Fu Guyuan looked at Chi Yu: "This is wrong."

"Squad leader?" Chi Yu looked at him with a puzzled expression, "What's wrong?"

"There is no one who can't live without someone." Fu Guyuan said, "Relatives, lovers, and friends should all be companions along the way in life, not restraint and control. People who are close to you change your life. the whole person, not the one who divides your life."

The other three: "..."

Seeing that they hadn't spoken for a long time, Fu Guyuan suddenly felt embarrassed: "Ah, am I... too self-righteous, talking like this... oops..."

"No, no, Ah Fu, you spoke very well." Bai Mingfeng quickly encouraged and supported him, and he turned to look at Chi Yu, wanting to see his reaction.

Chi Yu was stunned, as if he was thinking deeply about this sentence, and it seemed that Fu Guyuan's serious expression was too handsome, so he was stunned for a while.

In fact, after listening to Bai Mingfeng's words, Fu Guyuan remembered what Liu Zixi said and did when he went to Chi Yu to get the wristband that day.

Some words of Liu Zisi really made Fu Guyuan feel uncomfortable.

"Chi Yu." Fu Guyuan reached out to hold his shoulder.

"What?" Fu Guyuan's sudden approach startled Chi Yu, and he subconsciously leaned back.

"Talk to Abai, what impressed you when you got along with your uncle, tell me." Fu Guyuan persuaded.

"Squad leader." Chi Yu said softly, "I see, I'll listen to you."

As long as it is what you think, what you wish, I will obey, no matter when, no matter where.

Bai Mingfeng took a breath and waited for his words.

Although Chi Yu is willing to say it, it is still difficult to break through the psychological defense line. After all, those things are all because of his mistakes and irritating people. He doesn't want the people he likes to know when he is so bad.

He clenched his hands tightly, hesitated for a while, and suddenly asked Fu Guyuan: "Squad leader, you want me to tell Bai Mingfeng about these things, right?"

"Yes." Fu Guyuan nodded.

"Then can you..." Chi Yu said softly, "Avoid for a while."

Fu Guyuan was taken aback: "Me? Is it just me?"

Chi Yu nodded.

"Ah...okay..." Fu Guyuan scratched his head, "I see, I'll wait for you outside the classroom."

Saying that, Fu Guyuan stood up, picked up his schoolbag and walked out of the classroom a little lonely.

"Ah this? This?" Xiang Qingwu didn't know why Chi Yu obediently listened to Fu Guyuan's words one second, and suddenly chased him away the next second, his eyes flicked back and forth, embarrassed and uncomfortable.

"Why don't you go to accompany Guyuan, Qingwu, and I'll talk to Chi Yu." Bai Mingfeng said.

"Okay, fine, then I'll go out and wait for you." Xiang Qingwu nodded, picked up his schoolbag and left the classroom.

In the classroom, there was a cool breeze after the rain, and there were only two people left.

Bai Mingfeng waited quietly and listened attentively.

Chi Yu thought about his words for a moment, then spoke slowly.

In his impression, when getting along with his uncle Liu Zisi, he always made mistakes.

Breaking a drinking glass, forgetting where his uncle gave him, breaking furniture, and so on are trivial things.

What makes people even more sad and sad is that my uncle misses his sister Liu Ziqi very much, because there is a photo of Liu Ziqi on the coffee table at home as a memory.

These photos remind Chi Yu all the time of the mistakes he made because of willfulness.

Once Liu Zisi came home from the night shift, smoked in the living room, and accidentally flicked the ash on the coffee table. He was so exhausted that he asked Chi Yu, who was still awake, to help clean the table, and then went back to his room to rest.

Chi Yu carefully wiped the cigarette ash on the table with a rag, and even wiped the dust on the photo frame with Liu Ziqi's photo.

He was actually very afraid of that photo, but he would sneak a look at it from time to time to see Liu Ziqi smiling like a flower in the photo.

He is conflicted because he longs to be forgiven and knows he doesn't deserve it.

After Chi Yu cleaned up, he went back to his room to rest.I cherish one tuan one exchange.

But the next day, something went wrong.

Chi Yu got up early in the morning to wash up, and unexpectedly found that the photo had been taken out of the frame and cut into pieces.

The fragments were scattered all over the place, patched together unevenly, like a broken past.

Chi Yu stood by the coffee table in a daze. At this moment, Liu Zisi got up and walked out of the room. When he saw the scene in front of him, he looked surprised and at a loss, and turned to ask Chi Yu.

"Xiaochi, why did you do this?"

Of course, unable to refute.

"I didn't..." Chi Yu wanted to argue, but when he looked up, he saw Liu Zisi's disappointed eyes.

Chi Yu shuddered all over.

After Liu Ziqi had a miscarriage that day, he saw the same look at his father.

Regardless of whether Liu Ziqi's fall was an accident or not, his willfulness was the original sin, and he was the chief culprit.

"But I really didn't..." Chi Yu tried to refute with the last bit of reason.

Liu Zisi interrupted him: "Okay! You did this kind of thing and you still don't want to admit it, how could you cut out my sister's photo! If it wasn't for you, she wouldn't... wouldn't... "

Liu Zisi looked sad.

"I...I..." The unhealed wounds in Chi Yu's heart were torn open again, with blood gurgling.

Yes, besides him, who else in this family would do such a thing?

Did he finish and forget?

is it?

Did he have a mental problem? How could this happen?

"Chi Yu, you really, really disappointed me. I brought you home to see you as pitiful, but I didn't expect you to be so mean-spirited!" Liu Zisi gritted his teeth and called his name, every word and every word was high-spirited, as if he was right Chi Yu's trial.

"I'm sorry." Chi Yu was inexplicably afraid, afraid of being abandoned again, he had no choice but to apologize, "Uncle, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I won't do this again, I won't, I'm sorry."

Later, after Liu Zisi treated Chi Yu coldly for a few days, he finally chose to forgive him.

This incident made Chi Yu question his mental state from then on.

He didn't even remember what he had done. Was he sick?

But he had no one to talk to, so he could only keep the matter in his heart.

And those days were when Chi Yu was the most bullied at school, those people blocked Chi Yu in a corner and mocked him.

"If you hit a dog, the dog will bark twice. Why don't you say anything?"

"You don't like being beaten, do you?"

"Chi Yu, are you a masochist?"

Chi Yu thought to himself.

Yeah?may be?

Anyway, he must have a problem.

The days became more and more difficult, Chi Yu was drowning in the cold and dark deep sea, he could only feel suffocation and despair day and night, his eyes were dim and desolate.

Later, he made another mistake by pushing someone at school.

There is no end to these miserable and hopeless days.

Later, he transferred to another school, and after passing the transfer exam, the teacher at the Academic Affairs Office said that their school has school rules, and those who transfer midway must live on campus.

Liu Zisi didn't want Chi Yu to live on campus, but the teacher in the Academic Affairs Office was firm.

"Ask the child's opinion." At the end of the dispute, the teacher from the Academic Affairs Office said.

"His opinion is not important." Liu Zisi replied.

The teacher of the Academic Affairs Office was silent for a moment: "Why don't you go to the dormitory to see the environment first? What do you think, my child?"

The teacher asked Chi Yu gently.

Chi Yu, who had been standing silently beside him with his head down, raised his head, and after a long, long time, he nodded slowly.

So that day, Qingguang passed through the treetops, and the silence fell into the time. Chi Yu stood in the tidy dormitory and saw a homework book on a slightly old wooden desk. A familiar and unfamiliar name was written on the cover of the book. The man pushed the door recklessly and entered, shouting.

"Who's in there?!"

Chi Yu turned around and saw him looking at him in a little surprise, and then smiled at himself embarrassedly.

"Ah, I'm sorry, classmate, did I scare you? I thought it was a thief."

Fragments of the warm sun falling on him, that is what the world should look like.

After Chi Yu finished telling these things, Bai Mingfeng was speechless for a long time because of the shock.

He seemed to be able to see a dark mist enveloping Chi Yu, but pulling Chi Yu out of it was not easy or a one-time job.

This made Bai Mingfeng feel powerless.

Bai Mingfeng was so bored that he bit his finger. After chewing for a while, he asked Chi Yu: "Have you ever thought that your uncle actually cut the photo into pieces?"

Chi Yu was stunned, and shook his head: "No, uncle misses my adoptive mother very much, how could he cut photos, I did it..."

"It's a coffin board, yes yes yes, what a fuck." Bai Mingfeng thumped the table angrily and cursed, "You are really the most unlucky person I have ever seen. Have you heard of the gaslight effect?"

"Gas lamp?" Chi Yu repeated suspiciously.

"It's also called cognitive denial." Bai Mingfeng actually didn't know much about himself. He was eager to explain clearly, but he didn't know what to say. You are trapped in a desperate situation, so as to achieve the purpose of controlling you, Chi Yu, if you feel tired and fearful in a relationship, it means there is a problem!"

"But why, why did uncle do this?" Chi Yu was puzzled.

He didn't know, and Bai Mingfeng didn't even know.

Bai Mingfeng let out a breath and calmed himself down: "Chi Yu, there are some things we have told you over and over again, it is better for you to see for yourself, you must not let your uncle control everything about you, you have to be skeptical about those things The things that make you feel uneasy, and last but not least, the pain, shouldn't be something you have to go through!"

"Promise me." Speaking of excitement, Bai Mingfeng grabbed Chi Yu's shoulders with both hands and shook them back and forth, "You must see someone's true face clearly! You can see clearly!"

If in the past, Bai Mingfeng made such remarks, Chi Yu would definitely feel that he was talking nonsense and his words were weird.

Because I have been trapped in darkness for too long, I have long forgotten what light is.

But these days, from time to time, someone reached out and pulled him to the bright place.

That being the case, how could he allow himself to drown and suffocate.

Chi Yu looked at Bai Mingfeng and nodded firmly.

"Okay, I promise you."