Sad Jiangnan

Exactly the same as the grimace reflected in the pool under the rainy day, Fuji Gonsuke, who was pushed down on the mat that day, also clearly saw the purple-red flesh ball under the edge of the mask.Across the tiny black or red paint on the white mask, the meat balls leak out from the gaps on both sides, like Tang Guo snacks that cannot be wrapped in Tang paper.At that time, Fujikonsuke discovered that those eyes that did not blink and were lifelike were extremely beautiful because they were embellished with golden ink.It is a dead object of wood carving and paint, but it is better than a natural creation. It is exactly the appearance of his brother's eyes staring at him firmly.

Under those eyes, there are a pair of huge and dark inner canthus.The hole that was originally created out of thin air was also staring at Fuji Quansuke. Fuji Quansuke heard his brother's weak breathing there, and since then he saw the plump edge of Tang Guo dim sum seeping out of it.

Fuji Quansuke's thoughts were extremely blank for a moment, and the bright sun from the west seeped in again, sticking to Fuji Quansuke's five fingers.At this time, the bright sun is more like a writing brush, and the words "those who lament the clouds" are suddenly inscribed on that blank space, which is just right for the scene, people and things.I can't help but think that this sentence should be tailor-made for Fujinaka Nayan.But when the "people who lamented clouds" saw Fuji Quansuke, they were not moved by him, instead they just sat there like ordinary people. How could there be any dignifiedness of "lamented clouds", and immediately put two fists on Fuji Quan in front of Jie.The fist hit, and turned into a palm with ten fingers spread out. This time, Fuji Gonsuke's body was pushed hard on the floor.

Then, a woman not far away said, "What are you going to do?" Then there were hurried footsteps, the muffled sound of socks clinging to the floor, and there was a commotion within close proximity.

"Zheng Rong... why are you here?"

The wishful thinking just now disappeared suddenly, Fuji Quanjie didn't care to get up and sit upright, and said, "Mother, I..."

But as if to punish Fuji Gonsuke for his disobedience just now, Fujinaka Nagon's voice overwhelmed him and said, "I pushed him down."

"Ah." Prince Udano sighed, and sat down on his knees. Fuji Gonsuke caught a glimpse of his mother's long hair flowing on the gorgeous coat like a flood, and overflowed to the floor. What about your brother being angry? Why are you here? Didn’t I say it, many times, your brother is sick, so don’t disturb him casually....It’s always like this. What should be done."

It was clearly just some ordinary preaching, but at this moment, Koto Gonsuke's heart fell to the bottom, and he didn't know what to say for a while, so he had to straighten his body and lower his head to look at the pair of bright red blankets on the ground. The knees wrapped in a long hakama and another pair of white foot bags.

Inside the curtain of the west wing, the maids' laughter sounded, and the mother covered her face with her sleeves, and said to them, "Go away, you have not been allowed to come with me just now." Then there was a rush of clothes There was a rustling sound, and the shadows of the people in the curtain were moving, and the shadows of the women were gone.

The mother continued, "It was good in the past, or it is now. As long as you are half as well-behaved as your brother, you won't be as good as you are now..." The voice became fragmented in the end, and the mother seemed to be crying.Fuji Quansuke's heart, which had sunk to the bottom of the valley, was pressed against a boulder again. At this time, it didn't matter who the instigator was.The "it's not me" in Fuji Quansuke's heart couldn't be said for a long time, so he pressed his head until he could only see his knees, and said in a low voice, "Mother, I'm sorry, I made my brother angry again. Originally, I thought, I thought……"

The white foot bag took a step towards the bright red hakama, and Fujinaka Nagon's voice was louder and mercilessly overshadowed Fujikonsuke's begging for forgiveness, "It's me."

The voice of the man belonging to Fujinaka Nagon cut off the voice of the boy belonging to Fuji Gonsuke for no reason, which in itself is a kind of strong words.But the air fell silent, and even the mother's faint crying stopped abruptly.

It suddenly occurred to Fuji Quansuke that the sentence his father always mentioned in front of him in the past was "No matter whether it is right or wrong, don't push too hard." It probably refers to such a situation.Therefore, although there are many uneasiness and grievances, they are just firmly contained in my heart.Everyone was silent with each other, and I don't know how long it had passed before Fujinaka Nagon's voice that disappeared for a while said like alms, "I lost my temper recklessly, and it has nothing to do with him."

The knees wrapped in the bright red long hakama immediately stood up, the bamboo leaf blue coat covered the long hakama, the bright red was invisible, and Prince Udano said very softly, "I didn't get hurt just now, didn't I touch anything?" ?”

Fuji Quansuke raised his head slightly, his brother's fist still stuck to Naoki's body without moving, and his body seemed to have become extremely slender because he turned sideways.Lift your head up a little more, and you can see the mother's arms clasped on the elder brother's sleeves, and the blue color of the bamboo leaves clinging tightly to the color of the vine.The elder brother flicked his arms suddenly, but the mother's hands hung on the elder brother's sleeves like cobwebs.The elder brother nodded his chin, and took a step outside the grate.Then, the mother's hand loosened.

Fuji Quansuke couldn't help looking at his mother's face, there were no pink eye sockets or tear stains from the lead powder as he wished, and there was nothing on his mother's clean face except delicate makeup.Danzhu opened and closed his lips and asked, "Are you feeling uncomfortable? Where do you feel uncomfortable?"

Fujinaka Nagon's mask was firmly stuck to his neck, and his jaw could no longer be lowered.Fuji Quansuke felt that the mask should have a sad face, but the face on the mask still had slightly bent lips, looking very leisurely.At this time, the mask on the brother's face was separated from him again.An older brother is an older brother, and a mask is just a mask.

The elder brother was silent for a long time, and Prince Udano, who didn't know where to put his hands, could only restrain himself in his sleeves, pretending to be a statue in place.The elder brother suddenly turned his head to the other side, and Takato Gonsuke couldn't even see the mask.Mother looked straight at Fuji Gonsuke who was sitting upright and said, "Go out."

In the end, Fuji Quansuke regretted his humility just now, it was clearly not me, why did mother show such an expression?If she was only dissatisfied with her usual mischievousness, how could the attitude and preaching just now not satisfy her?But the elder brother's confession is like a MUJI official document that wants to be concealed. Does the elder brother know in his heart that saying that will make his mother feel more resentful towards him?The elder brother should be very clear, even though he always said something bluntly that "Zheng Rong made a mistake" and "Zheng Rong is naughty, but this time the guards didn't take good care of him".But under the current situation, who would tolerate the outspoken nature? The mother looked at her with deep despair.

His back was against Fuji Gonsuke and his mother's elder brother, with thick hair on his head connected to a black hat.In the past, when my elder brother was not in Yuanfu, he always felt that the hanging hair was as beautiful as wisteria dyed with ink. After wearing the crown, it must lose its color.But looking at that plump head now, it seems to be covered with a piece of soft silk.If you look at the black hat on the head together, Fuji Quansuke will naturally think it is like a black fish tail born upside down on the neck, and the black hat and hair are shimmering like scales.Fuji Quansuke fell into this strange fantasy and couldn't extricate himself for a long time, because he couldn't move, his mother hurriedly called again, "Aren't you going out?"

The words like a boulder were pressing harshly on the bottom of Fuji Quansuke's heart. Fuji Quansuke felt that his chest was overwhelmed, and he was a little out of breath. He had to speak his mind, "Why? Can you tell me why?"

Immediately, the mother's eyes were stained with the color of late autumn, and she covered her mouth and nose with her sleeve, "You child, how can you say such a thing..."

Fuji Quansuke stood up and said, "Father brought me here. I want to visit my brother. What did I do wrong just to visit my brother?" Then both palms also followed Fujinaka Nayan into fists, firmly The ground is glued to the top of the straight clothes.The golden rule of "Don't make too much progress" that I kept in mind just now has been thrown away, and there is a small voice in Fuji Quansuke's heart telling him to stop, but Fuji Quansuke is like a frightened wild horse, unable to stop, "In the past, deliberately I never thought it was my unintentional actions to make my mother angry. But I was at fault, and even if I did it unintentionally, I would have to be punished. But now, even my elder brother is saying, I clearly... I clearly did not Mistake, why are you treating me so harshly?"

After he explained a few words, he was out of breath as if running for miles.Neither the mother nor the elder brother spoke, and Fujikonsuke's defense of not being bothersome also appeared weak because of these two extra silences.In the end, I also felt that there was no need to continue.The mother just repeated that sentence lightly, "Go out, my health is not good, I really can't listen to what you say."

Fuji Quansuke clenched his fists red, for some reason, he was unwilling to leave anyway.Following the sound of messy footsteps, when I looked carefully at the long grate, there was no one there.

In many cases, children's minds are far more delicate than adults think.For example, if the same toy as Juqiu is given to children in a family in different colors, the Juqiu with beautiful designs will always be given to the most favored child first.The children who get less fond of Juqiu also know very well that other children are more loved by their parents than themselves.

Well, it’s not just balls, horn bows and other objects. When Fujitsusuke was still young, he went to visit his mother with his elder brother.If there are two toon cakes in my hands, my brother must have three.If I can get three, then my brother must have five.If you deliberately show an unhappy look in order to get the same amount of cakes as your brother.The mother would also shake her head and ask him lightly, "Which time didn't my brother give you more? Wouldn't it be good to let my brother eat more this time?" Quan Jie spoke.

After Fuji Quansuke ate the first Tsubaki pancake, he couldn't help calling out, "It's delicious!" He would be stopped by Fujinaka Nayan, "'Delicious' is not something that can be said, even if it feels delicious in the heart, the mouth You can't say 'delicious'." As a result, without waiting for Fujikonsuke to ask questions, he quickly swapped his Tsubaki pancake plate with Fujikonsuke's.There were only two Chunbing left on the plate, and there were five bright Chunbing again.

But what my mother didn't understand was that things like Chunbing were only delicious when I was hungry.Although the Chunbing that his brother gave him was delicious, it was still not as delicious and sweet as the first Chunbing that he ate immediately after he wolfed it down.

Elder brother doesn't understand either, or rather, elder brother should understand.The so-called things given to him by his elder brother and things given to him by his mother are completely endowed with two meanings.If Fuji Quansuke was divided into three tsubaki cakes, Fujinaka Nayan would have five in his hand.The elder brother gave himself the extra two tsubaki pancakes, just like his first three tsubaki pancakes, and Fujikonsuke couldn't eat the last two tsubaki pancakes.If Fuji Quansuke got five tsubaki cakes at the beginning, he would definitely give two of them to his brother.

Apart from appearance and age, what is the difference between Fuji Quansuke and his elder brother?Fujikonsuke is much younger than Nayan Fujinaka, and at the age when Nayan Fujinaka is studying, Fujikonsuke is far from the concept of reading in his heart!I heard a saying from my father before that when Fujinaka Nayan was studying in college, "The Classic of Filial Piety" and "The Analects of Confucius" were all outstanding, and "Zuo Zhuan" and "Mao Shi" were also among the best. Not to mention the more basic courses such as Chinese rhythm, even famous waka and Chinese poems will be amazed when they see it.It is an extremely sensational event that the talents and learning of the noble children stand shoulder to shoulder with the literary students.Fujinaka Nayan already surpassed all others in college, and it is even more incomparable to transfer to a specialized school for the children of nobles.Whether it is the prescribed knowledge, or the zither, zither, and flute that cultivates sentiments, they are all outstanding and enviable.

Such extraordinary talent is inconceivable for ordinary people, let alone the son of Fujiwara who has a different surname.Because his father's face was full of complacency all day long, and because the incident was traced back to a good relationship with the inner prince, the joy was even more difficult to restrain, and he talked about various deeds of Fujinaka Nayan when he met everyone.

The strange thing is that the rumors that my father always likes to praise Fujinaka Nagon have never been able to prove it to his father himself.When his father faced Fuji Quansuke, he only talked about learning and instrumental music, and occasionally scribbled, "About Confucian classics, your brother can already proficiently recite the entire text of "The Analects of Confucius", but he usually Extraordinary hard work. You are so smart, if you put in some effort, you must not be inferior to him." Or "He plays the harp very well, but it is useless. After all, our family members , it is very common to be proficient in several musical instruments, and the music theory is also interlinked.” Something like that.

Fuji Quansuke wondered anxiously in his heart, is it such a simple thing to surpass his elder brother, but on the other hand, it is very useful, as his father said so, it is probably the case.But fearing that these talents were not as if they could be learned naturally, he asked his father, "I always heard you talking about my elder brother when I was outside. How could it be so embarrassing? I don't think so." My brother is amazing."

My father said, "How can you treat people outside the same way as you treat people at home. If you don't say something nice outside, this Jiutiaoyou Minister who is deliberately trying to see my jokes, and that Yuanda who always looks down on others Na Yan, there are three prime ministers behind who are always against each other. Oh, oh, I'm telling you these words, you are too young, but I feel that one day I will grow up when I say it."

Then I saw that Fuji Quansuke listened now, and he didn't ask this and that like ordinary children, and asked some irrelevant questions such as "who is this person" and "who is that person".On the contrary, he frowned, with a pensive look, and Minister Fujiwara Taizheng was very satisfied, and asked Fujikonsuke, "Where did I hear these words, I have never told you .”

Fuji Quansuke then said, "All the attendants at home are talking like this, and it's hard not to hear them." So my father laughed, and without answering the previous question, he called the attendants to come over and took the Some of Fujitsusuke's favorite things, dried fruits, etc. were stuffed into his hands, and he was sent to play outside.

If you look closely, it seems that the occasional insignificant prejudices of the mother are completely dissolved by the broad and delicate mind of the father.Although the one or two Tsubaki cakes are still firmly in my heart, I can receive maple branches from Tatsutagawa from my father, rare Tang Dynasty cakes from Dazaifu, or the cooked aroma from the north to the west. The right sea mouse intestine soup, exquisite colorful fragrant balls, and many things that I want to remember but forget, there is always one thing that should dilute the memory of Chunbing.

One spring, the year Fujinaka Nagon became crowned, he suddenly became seriously ill without warning.This was a great misfortune in the family, and countless shugenshi, monks and pharmacists were invited.Pedestrians come and go in Onomiya, the noise is like the east and west markets.Naturally, there were a lot of people talking, and the word that Fujinaka Nayan was going to die quickly spread.

One night, Minister Fujiwara Taizheng called Fuji Gonsuke to him, and said to him solemnly, "From now on, you can no longer go to the bedroom in the west."

Although I was somewhat clear in my heart before, pointing it out so straightforwardly, it seems that I have never told anyone a secret in my heart, and I guessed it in a hypothetical way.Fuji Quansuke felt a little annoyed in his heart.

With a "bang", my father slapped the floor and said, "This is a very serious matter, have you heard it? In the morning, I saw you huddling among the monks and making trouble."

How could it be a mischief, Fuji Quansuke was talking back to his father in his heart, but if he wanted to explain the word "death", Fuji Quansuke, who was far from this word, really felt that it was unrealistic.Facing his secretive father, there was no room for him to ask questions.

This was the first time his father had sternly treated him.