Sad Jiangnan

Although the wedding was completed, it was a misfortune after all.

Fujikonsuke has recently gained a deep understanding of that indescribable feeling.When the scandal with the female official was leaked, it is exactly the same as when the priest is hysterical now.It is such a great shame to be a waiter.Now that Fuji Gonsuke recalled that scene, his heart would be filled with pain like a mirror pool under the moonlight.

When the sky was dim, Ding Guangda came in to the opposite hall of Fuji Quansuke and asked where Fuji Quansuke was.Fuji Quansuke heard the movement and lifted the curtain, only to see that Dingguang Dajin was disheveled, his hair was disheveled, and he looked very downcast.When Dajin saw Fuji Gonsuke, he put his hands on his shoulders and asked, "Where did you go?"

Fujitsusuke was shocked by his aura for a moment, and didn't realize this arrogance.Da Jin was also taken aback, and quickly put his hands back into his sleeves, "Last night, I searched for you for most of the night, and I was afraid that there would be no one to serve you. You are so busy, neither side can feel at ease. You have plans to go back, Why didn't you tell me in advance?"

Fuji Quansuke usually dislikes being questioned by others when encountering such a situation.It is certainly wrong to make up your own mind based on your likes and dislikes.If it is just this matter, it is not a plausible appearance.

But Da Jin's eyes were filled with melancholy, as if after crying.His face was yellow and his upper lip had turned purple.Overnight, he looked like a [-]-year-old man.The grievance in my heart seems to be inexplicably able to tell him.Fuji Quansuke just hesitated a few times, obviously wanting to say some excuses about his escape last night, tears poured out involuntarily.What was supposed to be an answer turned into a whimper.

While flustered, Dingguang Dajin quickly asked, "What's the matter?"

It is difficult for Fujikonsuke to explain this wonderful flood discharge.The person in front of him is neither his blood relative nor his confidant.This kind of childish acting like a baby is like pulling off the clothes all over the body, teaching others to observe their own ugly naked body.I felt ashamed for a moment, but the crying became more serious, and even drifted into the yard, and finally embraced Dingguang Dajin, crying loudly.

Da Jin was taken aback by this situation, as if frozen, not daring to act rashly.Seeing that Fuji Quansuke was still wearing the suit he brought, he thought to himself, "Could it be that last night, he taught ghosts to possess people." He asked him again what happened, but he didn't get an answer.The two were at a stalemate for a long time, and Ding Guang Dajin had no choice but to say, "I hid the fact that I came here from the young master, and I will leave soon."

Fuji Quansuke finally choked up and asked, "Where are you going?"

Da Jin said, "Since you are fine, I have to go back to Hongmei Palace to serve the young master."

Fuji Quansuke was silent when he heard the words, and his mind calmed down a lot because of this silence. Realizing his gaffe, he naturally let go of the two hands holding Dajin.Thinking that his tears were disgraceful, he buried his head in his neck and asked in a low voice, "Is my brother coming back, or should I just stay here?"

If the servant who can't make a pleasant voice can spit out the answer in his heart, how relieved it is to lose his composure.But Dingguang Dajin didn't know what kind of febrile disease he suffered from, and his voice was harsher than before, "Young master will return to Ono Palace in three days."

"After three days?"

"I've held the reveal, and I will definitely come back."

"Minister Hongmeidian, didn't you gift that house to your brother and that person?"

If the rumors heard have not yet become a reality, there is still room for convincing people to make great progress.Fujikonsuke looked up at Daishin.Those eyes, which were originally bright with sorrow, are now no different from a pool of stagnant water.But what he said at this time was completely opposite to the previous frivolity, and sincerity was evident in his dull eyes.The truth revealed by this kind of sincerity is also in contradiction with the simplicity of hard work in the past.

"I'll be back anyway, and you don't have to worry about it anymore."

"So, what about that person, have you seen that person's posture?"

"what?"

"The appearance of the two bureaus can finally be glimpsed."

Dingguang Dajin smiled awkwardly, and said with his mouth crooked, "How could it be, the noble son who was peeping also knew to avoid suspicion at this time, can the servant still see the bride?"

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When the air returned to tranquility again, Fuji Gonsuke's crying just now was imprinted in his mind.No matter what age you are, when you sit alone like this, the rustling of leaves outside the house, the chirping of insects at night, and the sound of beautiful running water will all turn into this crying.The cries never end in his ears.

I don't know when it started, but the sky above Onomiya was always covered with clouds.Even if the weather is clear and the sky is clear, the sparkling light that is as beautiful as fish scales must not be seen on the mirror pool.The whole West Tower seems to be immersed in the nameless mist. Is this the fault of Maple Leaf Forest?Fuji Quansuke could no longer have any hope for the paradise that haunted him countless times in his dreams.Brother's mask also covered Jin Li's head like a cloud.No matter what, Ming Zi couldn't recall what she looked like in the past.

Not long after that, it was reported that the frail mother was seriously ill. These two days seemed to be particularly critical, and a special person was sent to pass on the wish to return to Onomiya again.The news had been announced here early, but for unknown reasons, the east and west gates fell into a deep sleep, and there was no sign of welcoming mother for a long time.Suddenly, on the night after my mother said she would come back here, the envoy of Udanoin came to report that Prince Udanoi had passed away.

Clouds descended to the ground as the evil wished, and everyone in the Ono Palace put on mourning clothes, turning into a pitch-black field.This kind of blackness is reflected in the structure of the house as beams and pillars. Compared with the pale sky, it can produce a unified and harmonious beauty of conflict.Or it is reflected in the branches and trunks of maple leaves, surrounded by red and white sand, replacing order with disorder and disorder, which is another rhyme born out of nature.This kind of orderly and neat stacking together will only silently conquer the audience who are imagining superfluous things with a harmonious harmony that complements each other.If there is a nimble black fish in the crystal-clear pool water, you will also feel that it is shining.

When the jet black wrapped around Fujinaka Nagon's body, the clothes seemed to have a pair of fake eyes, which echoed the golden eyes on the mask, and agreed to stare at Fuji Gonsuke's eyes together.When the white mask and jet-black mourning clothes were walking in the corridor, the mourning clothes melted into the black board door, leaving the mask alone suspended in the air.That kind of strange scene is like a ghost walking through the land of no one.If you meet the eyes of the floating ghost, then the soul of the body will be sucked by it.Fuji Quansuke thought it was an illusion many times, and in the whole Ono Palace, no one was afraid.

The sleeping hall in the north was vacated due to the death of the mother.Before his mother's soul could pass through the bardo, his father ordered Fujikonsuke to move in from the east side.This is really strange, don't you have any plans to marry again?At that time, although the man had only one wife, it was not too much to have several wives in his life.

It is not a good thing to be overly favored or punished. Because of the anxiety in his heart, Fuji Quansuke did not immediately respond to the order issued by his father.When it was the second time, it was my father who went into battle with a gun.Fuji Quansuke came back from school at the persuasion academy, the house was surprisingly quiet, and the water in the mirror pond stopped flowing.In the entire Ono Palace, there was only the sound of his own footsteps.

As soon as he opened the door of Dongzhi Duo, his father who was sitting in the middle of the side room startled Fuji Quansuke.Fuji Quansuke opened his mouth slightly for a moment, and froze in place.Even the etiquette of kneeling and sitting down has disappeared in the blankness of the brain.

Father just said, "Sit down."

Fujikonsuke's heart skipped a beat, and he finally regained his breath.The two sat opposite each other in the wing room.Father wore a light onion-colored straight shirt today, looking very casual.Fuji Quansuke didn't know how to speak, and opened his mouth again, only knowing to swallow a mouthful of saliva.

At this time, the place of father's tolerance was clearly presented to Fuji Quansuke, and he asked him very comfortably in a slow manner, "I told you to move to the room to the north, why didn't you go?"

Only relying on his father's generosity, Fuji Quansuke replied casually, "I don't want to go." After he finished speaking, his brain reacted, which was a huge taboo.

But my father seems to have lost the memory of his brother's injury. As before, he justified himself for Fujitsusuke as usual, "I am too sad because of my mother's death. I understand that I can teach you to move there. It's not just a whim." Decide."

Fujitsu asked, "What kind of decision was that?"

Father said, "It seems to be more lively after all, which is good. You have been persuading the college to study for three years."

Fuji Quansuke leaned down slightly, staring at the tatami, "I went to the university dormitory in the first year. Because the coursework was profound and difficult to complete, I failed your expectations. Only then did I return to the persuasion academy."

Fujikonsuke thought to himself, then, parents really like to say some far-fetched flattery.If you are a little careless, you will be proud of it.Whether it was then or now, if you look at it rationally, you are not as good as your brother after all.

"It's okay, the unreasonable courses in the university dormitory, after all, are difficult for others. I heard that you are at the top of the persuasion academy, and your grades in all subjects are also very good. Even so, because you are not yet old, you only know one, Unknown second."

Fuji Quansuke asked, "Why do you say that?" If he said that in his heart, the doctor who lectures is a spiritual light, how can he tolerate criticism from others, Fuji Quansuke was a little angry.What's more, up to now, due to the embarrassing reality, my father has said something completely opposite to his previous self.Why do you think you would trust him like this?

Minister Fujiwara Taisei said, "After receiving that kind of education, I take it for granted that it is good. Now I am asking this question because I don't know too much. Of course, Doctor Wen can't teach me how to be an official. you."

The 箦zi at home and the female room in the Todu Hall are always crying with their sleeves rolled up, or howling and crying out inexplicably.But at this time, the father actually chuckled twice.Seeing the laughter, Fuji Quansuke couldn't help but look up at him. His father didn't dress up today, his face was rosy and healthy, and he seemed much younger.

Fuji Quansuke thought to himself, "Is there any truth about being an official for the government that is more clear than the four histories and three legends?" , I advise you to learn everything in the academy.”

The father immediately wrote "So it is," and said a little proudly, "This is exactly what you don't understand. According to your reasoning, Tai Shigong should say that he deserves a prime minister."

Fujikonsuke didn't know how to answer, so he fell silent.Father stood up and said, "I'll wait for you in the main hall now, pack up your things quickly, and come to my room every day at this time to listen to my lectures."

After all, he rode away in the world of mortals.Fujiquansuke thought, well, then, I don’t know what course to teach me, can the same book or the same thing be taught by him?Only the master of the family can live in this place in the north.Once I got a chance, I ran to the grating outside my mother's room. Once the window on the north side was opened, I could see the whole picture of the west side hall.

The corridor connected to the west is at the corner of the eye.The windows on the west side seem to be able to read the meaning of the north side, showing an open posture all the year round.When it is cold at night, the bamboo curtains tied up will be lowered one by one.Since my brother got sick, his breathing was not very smooth. Once the window was closed, he seemed to be dying, like a fish stranded, dying.

When my mother was alive, she often looked over there, and with a casual glance, she could see Xizhi's busy comings and goings.What kind of mood do girls feel every time they catch a glimpse of brother's face?Her maiden often put up a few tents on the side room, hiding behind those curtains, talking about the trivial matters of the nobles.As time went by, the tents of the event were replaced with screens and shojis.The ladies hid far behind the side room, rarely visited there once, and could only hear their laughter.

Such a house, teach him to live in, always such a picture emerges in front of his eyes.But Fuji Quansuke's disposition is very strange.A kid from a noble family who grew up in beautiful clothes, Fu Fen Shi Zhuli, did not want to be a person who eats rouge.Because of this, I was very depressed, and suddenly felt that there were many gentle and quiet places in the house on the opposite side. The used utensils, room rituals and tatami mats were all stained with the aroma of habit, and they naturally got used to me.It is really worrying to suddenly move to a place that is not unfamiliar but also unfamiliar.

Soon, a team of attendants came to Fuji Quansuke's room and carried daily necessities for him on their own initiative.The objection in Fuji Quansuke's heart was also intensified because of the atrocities that were so close at hand.This is absolutely impossible, Fujikonsuke thought, he must go to his father to reason about it.

So he set off to the day throne in the main hall, and his father was surprised and happy to see Fuji Quansuke, and asked him what he was talking about.

After paying his respects, Fuji Quansuke asked back, "Isn't it going to continue?"

The joy on the father's face gradually disappeared, and he stared at him, "What is this called, is it you who should ask?" After finishing speaking, he obviously regretted his indiscriminate words, and hurriedly said, "It's not that I don't want to marry. It's just not enough for you to worry about."

Fuji Quansuke said, "I have thought about it before and after, and it is not appropriate to move to the North Hall."

Minister Fujiwara Taizheng was not angry, he just said, "You child, you are imitating my pedantry at this time."

A traditional family member like his father, because of his decent manners and understanding character, although he cannot be judged as stubborn and stubborn, but because of the background of the family, he naturally inherited this custom. Tao, raising his own two children.Therefore, at the age of learning, it is absolutely not allowed to read some idle books such as legends and monogatari.Usually at home, if you hear the sound of the wind and the moon, you will resolutely stop them.On the other hand, whenever there is a need to use Waka and Chinese poems in the court or in daily life, they have to make them in a standardized manner.

But if you haven't learned something carefully, how can you be good at it.Fuji Quansuke privately doesn't like romantic literary words, and has rarely come into contact with them, and has no ability to write things with ruthless appearance.In order to contrast mediocrity, rhyming the rhyme is nothing more than a lame level of "dusty worry haunts the heart, frost is full of temples".My elder brother studies the same textbooks as me, so I don't have much literary accomplishment.So of course it's the same as he has five birds and six swallows, and the things he makes are dull and tasteless.

But talent, this kind of thing, is very tricky in the first place.With the same starting point of skill, my brother didn't need to work hard, and he left himself far behind.So things backfired, but my brother made qualified melodies like "The breeze in the willows and the moon in the alleys, the spring breeze is warm and cold", and "Sorrowful words in the spring snow, those who come wander and never return".Perhaps the father realized that he could no longer cover up the truth with beautiful lies, and could only make up for his past mistakes in such a strong way.

Fuji Quansuke asked, "It's just for teaching, and it's very convenient to come from the east side of the hall. Why do you insist on moving me here?"

But the father said, "Do you want to argue with me on this trivial matter?" His tone was raised high, and his face was already stiff.Fuji Quansuke knew that there was no room for change, so he kept silent, and was about to compromise on this embarrassment.

The father asked again, "What's the reluctance? It's so convenient to go to the West Hall over there. Don't you want to see your brother?" The intention of a certain residence, teaching one's own children to live in the main dormitory, is tantamount to committing an offense against one's superiors, and it is an indescribable grand pampering.If such a matter is spread outside, it will inevitably be described as adultery that reverses black and white.

Fuji Quansuke couldn't describe the feeling in his heart. If he answered yes, then his previous behavior was tantamount to making trouble for no reason.The self-contradiction in one's own consciousness is even more intolerable.If the answer is no, it means openly confronting Confucian and Taoist brothers and friends, what kind of expression will father show?I'm afraid it's just an excuse for him to refuse to go to the North Palace to apply mechanically.

Fuji Quansuke whispered, "I don't want to see him."

The father was silent because of this.The sound of the wind was blowing into the wing room, and the sky darkened at some point. My father said, "Then, let's separate the wing room from the main hall, and you can live there."

The words have come to this point, it is the father's concession several times.In front of his father, Fuji Quansuke also knew to be a contented person, and recognized the result of the reconciliation.

Every night as night fell, Fuji Quansuke obeyed his father's will, and listened to his father's lectures on current affairs at the place where the guests were received in the Imperial Palace.But at the beginning, it was nothing more than general principles such as ministers not keeping secrets and losing their bodies, suffering from excess desires, and suffering from sorrow.I feel that only the content of the textbook is novel, but the general curriculum is no different from that of Quanyuan Academy.He had to endure the boredom again and let him chatter away.Appearing in front of Fuji Gonsuke as such a minister of the Taizheng seems to have given his father the vanity that was once lacking in the family.The significance of teaching is of course not in its content.Every time my father performs this act, it is a closeness of mind and reality.Father is willing to treat it as his own tenderness, just like tasting sumi.But also in front of the same disguise as Su Mi, Fuji Quansuke felt that he was a kind of fool.The soreness in the mouth that Su Mi inevitably induced was an unknowing pain to him.The inability to ignore sourness or to treat sourness itself as a pain is a sign of stupidity.

It seemed that the tormenting course came to an abrupt end on a cloudy evening.In the north wing of the main hall, Fuji Gonsuke sat for a long time but couldn't wait for his father. When he came out of the room, he found that it was raining lightly, and it hit his face like a needle prick.

Fuji Quansuke asked the attendants guarding the porch where his father had gone, but none of them knew.I had no choice but to walk out of the main hall and wander around aimlessly.At this time, the heat subsided, and I heard that the camellia and golden osmanthus bloomed in the yard, and the sweet-scented osmanthus was very fragrant.Since I moved into the main bedroom, I have been too far away from Huting, and I have neglected the scenery there, so I have to be reminded to remember it.I just want to go to the yard to have a look. Maybe I will be inspired and write some poems.

Walking halfway, I suddenly caught a glimpse of a shaky figure, wearing blue clothes, looking for it in the corridor leading to the bedroom from the courtyard, like a curtain dancing out of thin air, it has the same effect as the floating mask of wonders.

The uneasiness in Fuji Quansuke's heart gradually rose with the swaying curtain.He walked down the corridor over there, and the curtain seemed to have eyes behind it.Fuji Quansuke could not take a few steps, the blue curtain seemed to be blown by the wind, and ran out from the corridor in a blink of an eye.

Fujiquansuke was involuntarily attracted by the strangeness; he followed the curtain and ran in the drizzle.The curtain also sensed the pursuit of others, and ran forward without looking back.

Fuji Quansuke had a feeling in his heart that the curtain was his brother.What kind of secret is my brother hiding like this for fear that others will see it?Fujiquan thought, he must not be taught to slip away easily.I secretly made up my mind that I must expose the filth that was darkened on the spot.

But, the wind was blowing from the soles of the curtain, and he walked faster and faster, as if he was protected by the gods, and he didn't feel like a person in this world.He only needs to take one step, but Fujikonsuke needs to take three or four steps.Fuji Quansuke ran harder and harder, but the person in front of him was like a mirror, and his back gradually faded away.

The strange thing is that in the blink of an eye, the blue curtain appeared clearly in front of him from a blurry dot, and it remained motionless for a moment.Fuji Quansuke was out of breath, and also a little scared, walked over slowly, the curtain still did not leave.If you look closely, it is indeed a person's appearance.So he got bolder, but still had some concerns, and shouted not far away, "Who is there?"

Before the words fell, the curtain trembled all over.Only then did Fuji Quansuke realize that he had already reached the east wall, and the snow-white wall was connected behind the curtain.The curtain has no way out.Fuji Quansuke's heart fluttered, and he took another two steps forward, and the curtain hurriedly turned around.Fuji Quansuke asked again, "Who are you?"

At this time, at a distance of fourteen or five feet, he could already see very clearly, the blue safari without stripes connected to the black hakama, the bun in the black hat was not very firm, and the soft hair flowed to his shoulders .He is not tall, and his sleeves are empty, as if he has no arms.

Fuji Quansuke was surprised, this turned out to be a woman.He pretended to have the bargaining chip of his brother's secret, and pursued it as if he had violated his mandate. It really seemed the same thing to pretend to be a housewife!

After thinking about it, how could there be a woman? Why did you run away when you saw me?Are you afraid that I will see her clearly?Then let me see who it is!If it was Onomiya's wife, she would never hide from herself.So he walked over without fear.Unexpectedly, in desperation, Mu Mu shook his hands and climbed up facing the wall.

Fuji Quansuke was startled, there is such a woman who doesn't know etiquette, and she does such a barbaric act.But he didn't dislike the curtain in his heart, he froze in place for a while, then walked forward, trying to stop her.After only saying "you", the curtain jumped to the top of the wall, like a wild cat, and disappeared in an instant.

Fuji Quansuke stood there blankly for a while, then jumped over the wall in a strange way.It turned out that the wall here was not very high, Fuji Gonsuke opened his arms, and with a leap of energy, he reached the top of the wall.Following the woman's example, he stretched out his legs, and soon saw the road outside the courtyard. The ground was rammed very flat, and there were no pedestrians on the road. He saw someone riding a horse coming here from a distance.The woman behind the curtain suddenly evaporated.

Fuji Quansuke returned to the north chamber of the main hall, called for someone to open the window, and came to the siding.In this orientation, there are two Podocarpus pine branches in the front, and the branches are stretched under the eaves, so the distant scenery cannot be seen clearly.That night, Xizhidui's lamp was rarely shaken by Martian man, and there was also a person sitting dimly on the endless slats, his clothes were somewhat unclear, and his white mask was still in mid-air.

Fuji Quansuke stood up, and it really was my brother.There was a bang in the head, and the curtain that had just climbed over the wall was inexplicably connected with the golden carp.Narcissus flower field and Haoyue, sporadic gardenia fragrance quietly drilled into the nostrils.The remains of the mother in the Atago crematorium overlapped with the mermaid in the unforgettable dream.Because of the long time, many details have been forgotten, except for the black and shiny fish tail, which is shining with a dull light.

Very late, my father came back in a hurry.At this time, Fuji Quansuke thought wisely and did a stupid thing again. He wanted to send someone to greet his father.But after doing something wrong, he felt guilty, so he ran to his father in person and asked about tonight's lecture.

The answer I got was, of course, "It's so late, what else are you teaching?" Although the words were not harsh, his eyes were very tired, and he didn't look at Fujitsusuke much.This is of course disgusting.Fuji Quansuke's heart cooled down, and he fell asleep alone with the mentality of letting it go.

The next morning, I had a headache and toothache, because I was worried about it, and although I didn't deliberately recall it, I was still naturally uneasy. I reviewed the dream about the mermaid last night and felt very disgusted.Very sluggish all day.

In the evening, my father still didn't come home. After asking around, he said that something in the palace should be delayed.But Fuji Quansuke also lost the interest of wandering alone in Xiaoyuan Xiangjing last night, and was walking to the wing room, thinking of taking a nap to drive away his troubles.Small chatter came from a few tents away, like a swarm of mosquitoes that couldn't be chased away, making a constant buzzing sound.

He deliberately excluded those words in his heart, but every word was as clear as a grain of rice, words such as "woman", "shame", "sneaky" were presented to him one by one.

Fuji Quansuke was furious, and called his attendants to teach those nonsense people to come to him immediately.As a result, two servants wearing black servant hats came in, one on the left and one on the right.Fuji Quansuke reprimanded, "At this age, I still don't know how to be modest and shameless. Could it be that none of the people who came to Onomiya were literate?"

After that, his companion Ruojun also laughed and said, "No wonder the two of them, a woman dressed as a man broke in last night, and many people saw it."

Fujikonsuke pretended to be calm and asked, "What's going on?"

One of the two replied, "It was around Shen's time. Suddenly, a person came in from the east gate. Wearing blue clothes and a black hat, everyone thought it was some acquaintance of the young master, who was dressed in fine clothes, and didn't pay attention to it. But that person was evasive, and the samurai wanted to ask some questions, but he ran away suddenly, searched for a long time, but couldn't find him, so he had to go back angrily."

Fuji Quansuke thought, "This is exactly the same as what I saw. That woman disappeared in a blink of an eye, I really thought it was a ghost!" But he asked Ruojun, "Is that so?"

Ruojun said, "As for me, I only heard about it, but I didn't watch it. But these two people are not the only ones who know about it. They can all be found out and confronted one by one."

The two also said, "It's just repeating what the family said, I don't want to make such a big commotion."

Fujikonsuke asked, "What are you talking about?"

The two said, "Maybe it's the gossip from the women's room. I don't know which woman came to chase the master's romantic debt. This time, she pretended to be a man and sneaked into the Ono Palace. The slaves refused to find out." Leave. It's really indecent to teach men outside to look at their faces."

Fuji Quansuke was very uncomfortable, and asked, "How do you know that what you said was not colluded in advance? Even if you ask another person to check it, it is meaningless."

The two people and Ruojun looked at each other, and had no choice but to say to Fuji Quansuke, "If you want to say that, there is no other way, it can only be treated as our crazy talk."

Although it is ethical and moral, it takes advantage of the tongue.Fuji Quansuke's heart was dimmed because of this victory.As a result, the preaching for the conclusion could not come out of the mouth.