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I watched the sky light up bit by bit with my eyes open, my head seemed to be splitting open, but I didn't feel sleepy at all.

Chen Feng...

Chen Feng...

I sat up, began to change clothes, and went to open the door after I was dressed, but found that the door could not be opened at all!It's not the door of my house, but the door of my room. I don't know what method they used, but they can't open it!

"Open the door! Open the door! Dad, Mom..."

"What's the matter, what's the matter?" The voice of the mother hurriedly came from outside the door.

"My door won't open!"

Mother was silent for a while, her tone slowed down, and she tried her best to be as gentle as possible: "Xiao Mu, where are you going this early in the morning? It's finally a winter vacation, why don't you sleep more?"

"Mom, I'm going out, so hurry up and see what's wrong with my door?"

"Xiao Mu, if you go back to sleep, read some books if you can't fall asleep. After a while, Mom and Dad will open the door for you. Don't worry, huh?"

Something exploded in my mind, and I couldn't believe it: "Mom...the door can't be opened, it's your intention, isn't it? What do you want to do?"

"..." Mom sighed, and said, "Xiao Mu, you are good, Mom and Dad are doing this for your own good. We will fly to Japan in a while, and our family will have a good time..."

"Go to Japan?" I slammed my fist on the door, my hand was numb, but I couldn't feel it at all, "I don't want to go to Japan! You let me out! Let me out! How can you do this? How can you do this! ? I am your son, not your pet! How can you completely ignore my feelings like this?!"

"What are you arguing about?" Dad shouted in a stern voice, "Don't you feel ashamed enough? Are you going to wake up the neighbors?"

Mom coaxed again: "Xiao Mu, didn't you always want to go to Japan to play? Now that Mom and Dad are taking you there, why aren't you happy?"

I wanted to be stronger, but I couldn't help crying: "I have always wanted to go to Japan? Mom, ask yourself, do I want to go or you want to go? Since I was a child, I have always listened to you and let you go. Arrange the way for me, do what you want me to do, but you never ask me if I like it or not. Because you are my mother, I don't want to disobey you, so I never thought about fighting for anything. You want me to take the exam in Nanhai, I took the Nanhai test; if you think my classmates are not good, I will not associate with them; knowing that you like Japan, I said that I want to go to Japan to play... I do this just to hope that you will be happy, but what about you? You do it for me Think about it? Think about it!?"

Mom started crying outside the door, and Dad comforted her, and the sound of their footsteps gradually drifted away.

I slid slowly to the floor, curled up, and hugged my knees tightly.

so cold...

Chen Feng...

I feel so cold……

I can't remember clearly what happened after that, because I fell ill and had a persistent high fever, which almost burned my brain out.Japan is definitely not going to be possible. I spent more than half a month in the hospital, and was not approved to be discharged until it was almost New Year's Eve.At that time, my body was very weak, I had no energy, and I couldn't eat, but my mood was very stable, and I didn't lose my temper anymore. I really had no energy.

Mom and Dad got along with me more cautiously, for fear of irritating me again.I didn't intentionally torture myself to make them feel uncomfortable, after all, it was my parents, and I didn't feel so good when they were sad.

I didn't ask to go out anymore, I slept and ate every day, and read when I was full. I seldom even went out of the room. As before, I was taciturn, and only answered when I asked.This is actually nothing, I used to be like this, but my parents suddenly felt that something was wrong with me, and they were worried every day, and instead began to persuade me to go out more, call my classmates and so on.Oh yes, I got a new phone.Dad generously bought me a new Nokia this time, and even changed the SIM card.

But after I got the new phone, I threw it aside and didn't touch it much.anything fun?I don’t have QQ, and only my parents’ phone numbers are stored in the phone book. There is an address book in the class, but I don’t want to contact any of the people on it, so naturally I won’t put the effort into saving it in the phone. .

Actually... I remember Chen Feng's cell phone number.

When I got the eleven numbers on the first day, I could recite them by heart.

But I dare not contact him. On the one hand, I am afraid that my parents will find him trouble if they find out, and on the other hand, I am afraid to face him.

Because tomorrow is New Year's Eve, and the promise that I will definitely spend the Spring Festival with him may never be fulfilled...

Chenfeng, I am not qualified to be your friend.

Being with me will only implicate you and bring you endless troubles.

Forget about me, just treat everything that happened between us as just a dream.

My acquaintance with you began by an accident, so it is destined not to last long.

A person like me is doomed to have no friends and be alone all his life.

But... I will always remember you in my heart...

Because you're not only my best friend...

Still, my first love.

I watched the news broadcast in good condition, and tears suddenly fell crazily, and I couldn't stop it.This time, my parents were really frightened and completely panicked.In fact, I didn't want to do this, and I never thought about crying. I remember someone told me that men don't flick their tears easily, but the lacrimal gland seems to have collapsed, and it is completely out of control.

It took many years to think back to that afternoon, and I realized that it was the feeling of losing love...

The new year is here, and I am one year older.Thinking about everything that has happened in the past six months, it seems that it is really just a dream.Now I wake up from the dream, and I have returned to reality, continuing my extremely boring life.

On the morning of the second day of the Lunar New Year, my mother suddenly rushed into my room happily and said, "Xiao Mu, come out quickly, I have a call for you!"

It’s no wonder that my mother is so happy. No one gave me New Year’s greetings during the Spring Festival, and I didn’t give anyone a New Year’s greeting. When they asked me, I just said "I have no friends." make me sad.

Apart from the teacher, the only ones who know my home electric number are my deskmate, monitor and deputy monitor.The incident with the squad leader before the winter vacation, based on what I know about her, is absolutely impossible for her to take the initiative to call, and the deputy squad leader is even less likely.

Unexpectedly, it was Shi Shi who called.

I was very surprised: "Why are you? How did you know my phone number?"

She said fiercely at the other end: "What's the matter with you? Why is your phone number empty? Everyone thinks you are..." I guess she wanted to say "death", but she reluctantly took it back because of the New Year's Eve .

I was even more puzzled: "What's the matter with you?"

"It's not me looking for you, it's..."

Before he finished speaking, he heard the man at the other end say "Let me talk", and then a familiar voice on the other end of the phone: "Hello, hello? Chu Mu! Is that you? Me, Xiao Wang!"

"..." My heart beat violently, and I clenched the microphone tightly.

"Chu Mu, what's the matter with you and Chen Feng? Do you know that he got drunk in the bar last night, got into a fight with others, and was locked up in the detention center!"

"What are you talking about!?" I couldn't care less about whether my parents would doubt me, so I screamed.

Mom rushed over immediately: "What's the matter?"

Xiao Wang hurriedly said on the other side: "Don't worry, it's all right now. We bite the bullet and beg the Black-faced God, and the Black-faced God bailed us out. It's not a big deal..."

I didn't care about my mother standing by and watching nervously, I just held the microphone tightly and asked: "Then...how is he now? Is he okay? Is he injured?"

"It's just a little skin injury, nothing to worry about. He refused to ask him to go back to celebrate the New Year with him, and he also refused to ask him to go home with us to celebrate the New Year. He insisted on making an appointment with you, isn't it true? "

It's like the head is about to split, the heart is about to split, and the whole body is about to split.

The look on my face scared my mother who had been watching me, she immediately came over and put the phone down.Then he tentatively asked me: "Xiao Mu, what happened?"

I stood there in a daze for a while, then put the microphone back which was wet with sweat from my hands, turned around and walked upstairs numbly.

I went back to the room and sat blankly, my head was empty, everything in front of me seemed to have faded away, I couldn't see clearly, and I couldn't hear the sound.

It wasn't until a moderate slap came that I regained consciousness for a moment, and all the voices followed. I saw my father's serious eyes and my mother's distraught face.

"Xiao Mu, what are you thinking? Why doesn't your father call you?"

I stared blankly at him and said after a while, "Dad, what is the purpose of living?"

In fact, I just really want to know the answer, and I have no other ideas, but as soon as I asked this question, my mother burst into tears, and my father's eyes were red.

"You...you are trying to force mom to death!"

It was a bit noisy, I pinched the center of my brows uncomfortably, and said: "I asked casually, you go out, I want to sleep for a while."

Dad didn't dare to let me stay alone anymore, and said, "Tell the truth to Dad, what do you think? What do you want? You tell me everything, and Dad promises you everything, okay?"

Like a drowning person seeing a life-saving straw, I firmly grasped my father's hand: "Dad, are you serious? Didn't you lie to me? Don't make such a joke with me..."

My mother rushed over immediately, touched my face, and said, "Your father didn't lie to you, you tell me, what do you want? Mom and Dad agreed to you!"

I looked at my father, then at my mother, and smiled slowly: "I want to spend the New Year with Chenfeng."

As soon as these words came out, my mother's crying stopped, and my father's expression was also shaken. Both of them stared at me with strange eyes, but kept silent.

I still looked at them expectantly.

Mother trembled and asked: "You...you and that Liu Chenfeng..."

Dad grabbed her by the shoulder very hard, so Mom stopped talking and Dad said, "Xiao Mu, why do you want to celebrate the New Year with Liu Chenfeng so much? Shouldn't he celebrate the New Year with his family?"

"Chenfeng has no family, he only has me, I promised to accompany him during the New Year."

Mom's emotions suddenly became agitated: "You and him..."

"Qin Meng!" Dad suddenly called out mother's name sharply, and mother was shocked.

Dad took a deep breath and continued to ask in a hypnotic tone: "Why do you say he's only you? Does he have no other friends?"

I honestly said: "Yes, but I think we have the best relationship, and I promised to spend the New Year with him. Dad, you said that I would promise me anything. Now I just want to keep a promise. Can you Promise me?"

Dad thought for a long time, as if he had made up his mind, he said forcefully, "Okay."

"Husband!?" Mom looked at him incredulously.

I jumped up from the bed with joy: "Dad, thank you!"

"But..." Dad looked at me seriously, and said, "I want Dad to drive you there, and we'll take him home to celebrate the New Year."

My mother and I were taken aback.

Subconsciously, I refused: "No, I won't bring him home and let you abuse him!"

Dad said: "Don't worry, Dad and Mom will never say a bad word to him, Dad assures you. Dad just wants to know what kind of person you think your best friend is."

"Really?"

Dad said solemnly: "Really."

I thought about it, and told him solemnly: "Okay, if he agrees, I will bring him back; but if he does not agree, no one can force him! If I bring him home, you will not respect him." If so, then I will leave this home forever, and I can assure you as well."

My mother looked at me in horror and couldn't say a word.