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Halfway through lunch, my parents hurried back to work, and Chen Feng went out to buy medicine, and bought a bunch of them back, both for external application and internal administration.After taking two tablets of anti-swelling and pain-relieving medicine, and spraying the red and swollen areas with Yunnan Baiyao spray, I wanted to do my homework, but Chen Feng forced me to lie down on the bed.

"Go to sleep quickly, if you still feel pain when you wake up, we will go to the hospital."

Chen Feng covered me with the quilt, suddenly found that I was staring at him, and blinked suspiciously: "Why?"

"……nothing."

Why can he act as if nothing happened?Obviously, I just said such a blushing and heartbeating thing just an hour ago, but now I look like nothing happened, but I can't sleep at all.

When he said he was going to have sex with me... did he mean have sex?

But what do men do with men?

Could it be each other...

No, no, no!My nose bleeds just thinking about it...

"Tsk, just sleep when you sleep, are you tossing pancakes?" Chen Feng, who was sitting by the bed reading comics, stretched out his long legs and kicked me lightly.

I rolled over, with my back to him.

But, didn't Chenfeng say that we are friends?Do friends want to develop to the point of... that?But having said that, kissing should not be among friends.

I always feel that we are more and more like a couple, should I tell Chen Feng that I like him?It has become like this between us, if we confess now, maybe it will be accepted.

No, wait, calm down, Chen Feng said that we are not gay, then if I confess, Chen Feng will know that I am, then... what will happen then?accept me?Or... scared away?How will he look at me?Will you take away all his tenderness and intimacy with me?

Just thinking about it makes me feel like I can't say it.

"What are you thinking? Sighing, does it hurt?" Chen Feng suddenly leaned over, gently pulled down the quilt covering my head, and looked at me nervously.

"no……"

"What's the matter?"

I stared at him blankly, the person in front of me, the face in front of me, were so perfect that I would never tire of seeing them again and again.If one day I can't see it, what will I become...

Feeling sour for no reason, I put my arms around his neck: "Chenfeng..."

"What's wrong? Talk! It hurts, doesn't it? Let's go to the hospital!"

"No, no, no!" I tried to hook him back, but the result was too much force, he didn't pay attention, and jumped down, his lips hit mine, both of them were stunned.

After looking at each other for a while, Chen Feng smiled, stretched out his hand to support my head, stared at me closely and said, "Seduce me? Huh?"

"Ah... accident." I just wanted to hug him.

"May I take this as your consent?"

"what?"

Seeing my blank face, Chen Feng sighed lightly: "Fuck, if not, then don't do such misleading things, really..."

He stood up, tucked the quilt up for me, stroked my head, and said, "You are so coquettish, just like a puppy... Go to sleep, don't look at me with such wide eyes."

Chenfeng, I like you.

I like you.

I like it so much that my heart hurts.

However, I dare not say.

Just like Pandora's box, I can't guess what will happen after the confession.

I am such a weak person, if it were you, you should choose to take a gamble, at least not as reckless as me.

But I dare not bet--

Because I can't afford to lose.

***

"Chu Mu, come out for me!"

I silently erected the textbook to cover my face.

"If you don't come out, I will go in!"

Helpless, I had no choice but to get up and walk out of the classroom under everyone's ulterior motives, and looked at Shi Shi who was approaching menacingly: "Shi Shi, I beg you, please? We are still under investigation, so let's avoid suspicion... ..."

"Avoid your head! I have nothing to do with you, what are you afraid of!"

But others don't think so!

I had a headache and said, "Why are you looking for me?"

"The more I think about it, the angrier I get. Someone dared to stab me in the back. If I don't find out this despicable person, I won't let it go!"

"Isn't the school already looking for it?"

"Believe that the school is finished! Tell me, can you help me?"

"What are you going to do?"

"Of course I found a way to find that person!"

"any solution?"

"I don't know, so I asked you to discuss it together."

"..."

Although I also really want to know who framed us, why the other party did this, whether it was targeting me or Shi Shi.But instead of spending so much time and energy investigating, it's better to spend it on reading - even if I don't read, I still want to meet Chen Feng or something, so don't waste it on such... boring things.

But with Shi Shi's personality, how could he let me go so easily?What a headache.She didn't even think about it, we were the key observation objects at school, if people saw us often together, it would be hard to clean up anywhere.

So I made a suggestion - contact by text message.

It was only in the days that followed that I deeply realized how stupid this proposal was.

"Beep-"

Clicking on it, it was Shi Shi again: Are you thinking of a way?

Just as I was turning back, the phone was suddenly taken away. I hurriedly looked up, and saw Chen Feng holding my phone and pressing it back and forth with an ugly face, then glared at me and said, "What's going on? You and Xiao Wang's woman fucked!" Why are you sending so many text messages? In the past two weeks, you have been in touch more frequently than us!?"

I said with shame: "I don't want to, but Shi Shi seems to really want to find out who framed us."

"If she wants to investigate, let Xiao Wang accompany her to investigate. Why are you looking for me!? You are not allowed to return!"

I saw him crackling and didn't know what to press, so I became nervous: "You...what are you doing?"

"Of course, delete her contact information!"

"Ah?" I stood up suddenly: "No, it's not good..."

Chen Feng's face became even more stinky: "What? Can't bear it!?"

"No, if Shi Shi finds out, I'll be in trouble..."

"Fuck! She still dares to trouble you!" Chen Feng threw the phone back to me, and said ferociously: "If it wasn't for her, it wouldn't have happened like this! Don't be with her anymore, hear without!?"

"Yes, but..."

Chen Feng's eyes instantly gathered a storm: "You don't really like her, do you?"

"Huh? How is it possible!?"

Chen Feng snorted coldly, and said strangely: "It's fine if it's not. For the safety of that woman, you'd better stay away from her."

"Ah? Why?" When did my existence affect Shi Shi's personal safety?

Chen Feng stared at me with a hateful look of "you are an idiot", then suddenly rushed over, threw me on the sofa, kissed me a few times, and said: "Because I am very upset! I am so upset that I want to kill someone !"

"Huh? Why?"

"Because..." The words he wanted to say stopped abruptly, Chen Feng froze for a while, and then said in a muffled voice: "Because you said that I was the only friend!"

"Huh?" My eyes widened in surprise, "But you are different." Both Shi Shi and Xiao Wang can only be called acquaintances, why does Chen Feng always compare himself with them? ?

Chen Feng was stunned, looked at me deeply, and then slowly said after a while: "Why is it different?"

Strange, how could someone as smart as Chen Feng not understand this question?

"Anyway, it's different." I put my arms around his neck and said with a smile, "Shi Shi is just a classmate, and you are... a very important person."

"How important is it?"

"...That's, it's very important."

"How important is that? Tell me."

"Well...the one who can't be lost."

"What if it's lost?"

As if my heart was stabbed by something, I panicked instantly, and hugged his neck even tighter: "Why...why do you ask? Where are you going? Didn't you agree to be together?"

"Just saying if..."

"I don't want it!" I raised my upper body and hugged him tightly: "Don't have any ifs! I... I will listen to you and never send text messages to Shi Shi again. Don't ask me ifs!"

"Okay, okay," Chen Feng hugged me with one hand, and patted my back with the other, his voice seemed to be sighing: "What do you tell me to do..."

"What?" I looked up at him suspiciously.

He looked at me with complicated eyes, as if he wanted to say something, but he didn't say anything in the end, he just lowered his head and kissed me fiercely.I don't know why, I always feel that when Chen Feng closed his eyes and kissed me, his frown slightly looked a little sad.

*********

"Chu Mu! What do you mean?"

After the morning exercise, I was stopped by Shi Shi, looking at her pretty puffy face and the sneaky eyes of other people, I said helplessly, "What's the matter?"

"Tell me! Why don't you send text messages and don't answer calls!?"

"..."

Probably the expression was too guilty, Shi Shi could see it, and she was so angry that she punched me twice regardless of the image.Hiss, it looks so soft and strong.

"Don't be like this, I... I promised that others will not send you text messages again."

"Who?"

"……my mother."

Shi Shi was speechless all of a sudden, and after a while he snorted and said, "Who cares about it!"

Seeing that she was about to leave, I hurriedly called to her: "Shi Shi."

"What's the matter?" She turned her head and stared at me clearly saying "you're courting death".

I bit the bullet and said, "I...I have a question to ask you."

Shi Shi raised her eyebrows, walked back and said, "What's the problem?"

Seeing my hesitation, she became even more curious: "What's the problem? Are you in a relationship?"

"no!"

"Then what's the matter? If you don't tell me, I'm leaving, lest others think we have something later."

"..." Now she is worried that others will misunderstand?Why didn't you think about it before?

I struggled for a long time before I made up my mind to ask her. At this time, I no longer hesitated, and said, "If, your friend has a crush on you..."

"You have a crush on me!?" Shi Shi suddenly shouted.

I almost fainted with anger: "No!"

"..." Shi Shi probably also felt that she was too narcissistic, so she coughed dryly and said, "Continue."

I began to wonder if I was wrong to ask this person to ask this kind of question.But it's already started, and there's no reason to just shrink back like this—I don't think Shi Shi will let me just say that and walk away.

"I said yes, if!"

"Okay, what if, tell me, if you have a crush on me... No, if 'my friend' has a crush on me, then what?"

"It's a very good friend, so good...so close..."

"Just kidding, I'm not that good with boys."

"..."

"Okay, okay, what if, you say it."

"If he confesses to you, will you agree to try dating?"

Shi Shi looked at me suspiciously: "It's suspicious, the person who asks this kind of question must be troubled by this question himself. If you are not implying to me that you like me..."

"It's all over!" I almost rolled my eyes.

"Why are you so disgusted?!"

"...Really not."

"Since you are not implying to me, there are only two possibilities: one is that your friend has a crush on you and confessed to you; the other is that your friend who has a crush on you wants to confess to her but dare not, I didn't say wrong?"

I stared at her with wide eyes.

She proudly said: "What if I am a three-year-old child?"

"Then...what the hell is that?"

"That depends on whether you are the former or the latter."

"...Finally, the latter."

"Wow!" She jumped up all of a sudden, and said excitedly, "Do you have a crush? Who? Do I know him? From our school?"

Angry and embarrassed, I turned and left.

"Don't go, what are you doing? How can a big boy be so shy? Hey...Chu Mu, stop for me!"

I subconsciously stopped.

Shi Shi rushed over and said, "Is there anyone like you? I haven't answered yet, why don't you go... ah?"

I would be a fool to expect her to answer me seriously, so I decided to ignore her and say nothing.

"Look at you, look at you like this, how can any girl like you? I have no patience at all."

"..."

"Okay, okay, let me tell you this. If you really, really like her, you can confess boldly. What's the use of hiding it? You still have half the chance to say it. If you don't say it, you will never There is no chance, when the other party gets married in the future, you deserve to be the one who gave the red envelope! It has to be a big one!"

marry! ?

That's right, if I always regard myself as a friend, if Chenfeng gets married in the future... No, let's not talk about marriage, even if he finds a girlfriend, I won't be able to bear it.

"Yes, but...if you say it, will you lose him?"

"Losing her? Oh, do you mean that you are estranged from each other? Um...how should I put it? If, as you said, you are so close, then even if the other party rejects you, you should still be friends. But if it can't be done... then it can't be done, are you going to hang yourself on a tree that doesn't belong to you?"

……

Uh, I really want to hang on the tree of Chenfeng for the rest of my life.

The reason why I made up my mind to find someone to ask this question is because I was very concerned about Chen Feng's appearance when I met him last time.He actually asked me what if I lost him?Even though I said "if", it still makes me very uneasy.What was he thinking?totally do not understand.Even though I'm such a close friend, I don't understand his inner thoughts at all. I really failed.

After that, I kept thinking about the way not to lose Chenfeng.After much deliberation, it seems that there are only two people who share the same mind - that is, he can accept my mind.But this method is also risky, and it is likely to push Chenfeng farther. After thinking about it for several days, my head hurts, so I decided to ask someone.

What Shi Shi said is very reasonable, but... as long as there is a one-thousandth chance of losing Chen Feng, I dare not take the risk lightly, or... let's wait.