Young

There were only two or three people at the bus stop, and I leaned against the billboard, and while waiting for the bus, I was unconsciously lost in thought again.I can't help but think of Chen Feng's figure when he sang.

I vaguely felt a shadow approaching, maybe it was a newcomer waiting for the bus, I didn't look up.

There was a "click", the sound of a lighter igniting.

Then, the familiar smell of smoke wafted over.

It was the same brand as Chen Feng.

I couldn't help but look up, my heart jumped "suddenly"—isn't it Chen Feng?

How... is he here?

Many thoughts flashed in my mind, and my heart beat faster and faster because of inexplicable desire and anticipation.Trying to hold my breath, I secretly glanced at his handsome side face, seeing that he didn't respond, I stared even more recklessly.

After all, I haven't seen you for almost three months.

Chen Feng seems to have grown taller and thinner again.The whole person looks... always feels very different from before.In the past, he was reckless and arrogant, with a stern air between his brows, and those peach blossom eyes seemed to be smiling forever, even though he was smiling with ill intentions.But now, the face is still the same, but the temperament has completely changed.Become lonely, gloomy, indifferent, sharp.

However, the smoking posture is still the same, lazy and sexy.

No matter how many times I watch it, I still love it.

It's like going back to when I had a crush on him before, I watched furtively, secretly liked him, and then I was smug in my heart.

Just when I thought Chen Feng didn't realize that I was there at all, he suddenly said: "Have you seen enough?"

"Scared!" I was startled, and hurriedly looked away, pretending to look at the stop sign behind me.

"I heard you were sick?"

Chen Feng... is he talking to me?

I can't believe it.

He looked at me: "What? You don't even want to talk to me?"

"Ah?" I was flattered: "No! Uh... a little problem, it's gone now."

"I didn't expect you to come today."

I stared blankly at him, and murmured, "I didn't expect either..."

He sneered, and I came back to my senses: "I mean... I came with Shi Shi."

He took a drag on his cigarette and exhaled a smoke ring slowly.

For a while, no one spoke again.

I prayed silently in my heart, the No. 32 bus must not come or come...

"correct."

I pricked up my ears.

Chen Feng said: "Arts and science are separated, did you choose arts or science?"

I never thought that Chen Feng and I would have a chance to talk about family matters...

Resisting my excitement, I looked at him anxiously: "Like, how about you?"

He doesn't speak.

Thinking of the subjects he had taken for the make-up exam, I couldn't help but say, "You... you seem to be better at liberal arts?"

He still doesn't speak.

I shut up embarrassingly.

After a while, he ran out of cigarettes. He threw the cigarette butt on the ground, crushed it out with the toe of his shoe, and then took out the cigarette case and lighter from his pocket, apparently planning to smoke a second one.

After hesitating for a while, I didn't control my mouth: "Chen... Chen Feng, smoke... don't smoke so fiercely..."

He had already taken out a cigarette from the cigarette case, and was about to light it, but he stopped when he heard me say that, and continued to light the cigarette as if he didn't hear it.

He pursed his lower lip slightly disappointed.

He exhaled a smoke ring, squinted slightly and looked at the night sky: "You seem to be doing well."

"..."

He laughed at himself: "It seems that there is a saying that is true, no one in this world can't live without someone."

Angina, I can not argue.

"Maybe in a few years, maybe you can't even remember my name..."

I blurted out: "No!"

His eyes lightly fell on my face, and he couldn't express his sarcasm: "Oh~ that's right, you still have my name on you."

"..."

"Fuck," he laughed, and lifted the hem of his clothes to reveal the tattoos on his waist. "I was crazy to do such a childish thing, and now it looks like a kind of irony every time I see it."

These words are so cruel, and they are more hurtful than all the bad things he has said in the past.

That is the imprint we left on each other, how could he easily deny it...

The cruel smile faded from his face, he put down his clothes and looked at me coldly: "Why are you crying?"

I hurriedly turned my face away: "No...no."

He sneered and said, "It's really inexplicable. I was the one who got dumped, why are you acting like a victim?"

"..."

The No. 32 bus came from a distance and slowly stopped in front of it.

I bowed my head and said "goodbye" and hurried into the car.

The car started, I couldn't help but look back, Chenfeng was still standing there, smoking lazily, with a calm expression on his face, looking at the night sky lonely.

For some reason, my heart ached to death.

After that, I started to secretly contact Xiao Wang through text messages, in order to know about Chen Feng's news.For fear that Shi Shi would lose her temper if she found out, none of us dared to tell her.Xiao Wang said that Chenfeng's temper became very weird, and he often didn't say a word, but once he got angry, he became ten times more violent than before; he was indifferent to everyone, not only to others, but also to Yang Xiaomei; He no longer skips class at every turn, and insists on attending every class even if he sleeps on the table; he would rather go to the warehouse to move around than go to the bar to sing...

Sometimes I think he thinks too much, and I will ask Xiao Wang to help me meet him, but I can't let anyone know.Xiao Wang would secretly text me when they were going to play billiards, telling me where to wait; or telling me when and where Chen Feng would go to work, so that I could take a peek outside the store.

My behavior like a perverted stalker made Xiao Wang very worried, and he also persuaded me to give up, but unfortunately, even I couldn't convince myself.

As long as...as long as there is news about him, as long as...as long as you can look at him from time to time, you won't be in despair, and you won't be... in pain.