L and R (Nian Xing)

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Due to the worldwide virus outbreak, they canceled their concert tour and spent a lot more time at the company. "Watch a movie with me tonight." She texted me on Kakao.I waited for her at the entrance of the movie theater. She was wearing a mask, sunglasses, a long skirt, and a hat to cover her overly colorful hair. "If you wear such short pants again in the future, I will be angry." She took my hand and led me upstairs arrogantly, ",.!" (What, these pants are not short. How can you be short The skirt is short!) I looked at my shorts and stretched "Mo Ya" very long, like a spoiled child. "." (that's my profession), she answered me with honorifics.

We walked to the movie theater floor from the escape route, without taking the escalator or elevator.Although her tall figure is not found to be a big star, Rosa will be noticed by passers-by as a beauty. "But Wang Si, you are really becoming more and more feminine. The short skirt you wore last time was very beautiful." She said evilly in my ear.I'm a little shy, but it's not because seeing her curvaceous figure and figure on TV motivates me to become as good as her.

I have enrolled myself in dance classes, swimming classes, and fitness classes, and I am strict with my body.Although I don't have her natural ant waist and straight shoulders, I am quite content with my figure.This girl really gave me great courage to change myself from the inside out, but she is still kept in the dark by me, so what does it matter.

We watch romantic movies.Her tear point is really too low, even a pack of tissues is not enough, I can't help admiring the makeup effect of Korean girls is too strong, so makeup is not spent.Fortunately, the latter part of the movie was more joyful, and she couldn't stop laughing.

How can time be frozen into eternity, keep every moment of loving you, Luo Nianxing.

I wiped her tears earnestly, her fiery eyes stared at mine, and kissed me without warning.This time I kissed her back, passionately and earnestly, exchanging our saliva without reservation, her mouth was soft and sweet, she closed her eyes forgetfully, leaving a string of tears, these tears are for the movie, or for I can imagine.We have accumulated a lot of emotional restraint in each other for many years. I have rejected many boys’ dating requests. If there are suitable boys, I will force myself to get along with them like lovers. But in the process of getting along, I know exactly what I am doing. The feeling of heartbeat, and even some resistance to the physical contact they thought was romantic.I always thought that I just didn't meet the right person, so I was so resistant.Now I understand that I like her just because it is her, regardless of gender.

She took advantage of the opportunity to wrap her arms around my neck, neither loose nor tight, just right.I kept stroking her back, feeling her body temperature.Our tongues are entangled together, beams of light from the film shone on our blushing cheeks, and her tears also rubbed on my face.You are destiny, time is frozen at this moment, your figure is getting clearer and clearer, the person I miss thousands of times, your voice will appear when I close my eyes, you can always appear in my mind, lingering go. "," (Luo Nianxing, I love you.) I held her face in my hands, with tears in my eyes.When I was heartbroken for you, I kept wondering whether this feeling was love, but now I am very firm, it is love. "", she hugged me. ",," (you are the one I miss, the one who held my hand, the one who appeared in my dreams thousands of times), I said affectionately, like a romantic hero in an idol drama.She nodded "," (Thank you, I love you.)

Due to the spread of the epidemic, entertainment venues were also forced to close for a period of time, and most of our dating venues are in companies.When we met, both of us were secretly paying attention to each other's position, and sometimes we would snicker when we made eye contact.Teammates often asked her if she had a boyfriend recently and didn’t report it, and told her to be careful. My work colleagues also wondered why I was always smiling at my phone.Only we know what L and R mean. With you, my life is more motivated.

We are not together justifiably, but this is a default underground relationship, only the two of us know.In her home, she would play the quiet songs "Letitbe" and "LastChristmas" for me. More than ten years have passed, and her way of playing the guitar and singing quietly has not changed. As a fan, I just watch quietly She sings enough.Sometimes she would perform sexy dances for me, constantly discharging electricity, which made me want to stop, and I couldn't help but sigh, "This woman is more twisted than on TV!".We contributed to each other's first time and enjoyed each other's first time.

In bed she is passionate and voluptuous.Actively provoking my tongue, sucking the back of my ear, and then slowly dipping down, sucking my breasts, stretching her slender white hands to the forbidden place, she will immediately kiss me when she hears my cry lip.I used to think that sex between a man and a woman was two swollen bodies doing dirty things, but now I'm also in a trance.We are all clean, and our fellowship is also pure.She played her favorite European and American music, and rode on me rhythmically. For a moment, I felt like I was going to heaven. "Is this really your first time?" (Is this really your first time?), I blushed imitating her Australian accent, "of course, for you." (Of course, just for you.) She smiled evilly, "llearnt from the□□movies, with mygroupsisters, just15yearsold." (When I was 15 years old, I watched porn movies with my group members, so I can always learn something.) She jumped down and put her face on mine. "Amazing, youguys are amazing." (You guys surprised me).We don't do too many indulgent things, we are all rational adults, and we have to have a degree in everything.

We shared a house in the city center and lived together. She paid for all the rent and utilities, and I was responsible for purchasing furniture and cooking.Occasionally, she would lean on my shoulders and snuggle into my arms.She is clingier than I imagined, and she is especially good at acting like a baby, but she is very macho most of the time. For example, I am not allowed to wear revealing clothes. Just like her, I cannot communicate with male staff too much. She will monitor me, and she must pay for the food and shopping, and I will be properly taken care of by her...

In the house that day, I opened WeChat, and a notification sound appeared.A person named RYH applied to add me on WeChat. His profile picture was Kobe and basketball. The friend request read: Long time no see, how are you?It is self-evident who this person is, I tremblingly clicked on the page of the mobile phone, and slapped myself.This person, who had been away for four years without saying goodbye, suddenly appeared now and caught me off guard.I endured the grievance, calmed down, and clicked the pass button. "Wang Si, remember who I am!" "Ren Yinhang." "Nice!"

"Don't be greasy, you only come to me now." "Can't I come to you if I have nothing to do?" "It was possible before, but not now." "Hmph, that's how good brothers talk." "It's cool to be a good brother Where can I stay?" "Is it convenient to make a video call?" "Now? Yes." I ran to the mirror and dressed myself, and I felt that there was no problem, and his video call came on time.I hesitated for a while and felt that he was about to hang up, so I immediately answered, "Hello, Wang Si, I am Ren Yinhang, still, how are you?" He is still such a handsome guy, but his face has lost a lot of weight. Yue can still see the cyan stubble, and when he smiles, it is Hyun Bin himself. "Are you on the Bund?" I looked at his background, the night scene in Shanghai was still so bustling. "Yeah, I'm working in Shanghai, and now I'm on the Bund." "Brother, who are you calling?"

Ren Yinhang turned his head and responded to the sweet female voice, "My friend, you go and play first." It turned out that he has a girlfriend, "Not bad, brother, I have a good life!" I looked at him approvingly, and he lowered his head , raised his head with a happy face again, "How can you nourish me, I have already arrived in Korea, and I am so beautiful!" "You are going to make me blush!" We chatted for a long time, just like talking on the phone before, chatting about some things, but we can always chat together. "It's been chatting until midnight, Mr. Ren, you're still awake, we have jet lag!" "It's early morning on your side?" He was surprised, and then he switched his phone to the direction of the Huangpu River.The big screen of the Citibank building scrolled and played "Wang Si, happy birthday to you!" "My mother, I still wonder why you are outside during the epidemic, are you a boss?" "Don't worry about how I am outside Alright, Wang Si, happy birthday." I was so touched that I covered my mouth, tears streaming down my face. "Don't cry, idiot, I'll celebrate your birthday when I return to China next year." "Don't, your girlfriend will be angry." "Girlfriend? Where did I get my girlfriend? You won't say it's my sister, right? Only four years old!" He turned the phone to another direction, and it was a cute little girl.

"," (Who is he, what is your relationship?), she stood at the door, as if she couldn't help but finally opened her mouth.I was taken aback, and said in surprise, "How long have you been standing? No, this is a high school classmate of mine. He played very well, so we got in touch again." ",." (Then you talk to him, gift I put the cake and cake on the table, and I'm leaving.), she closed the door forcefully with a cry.I hastily turned off the video, opened the door and held her. "It's just a high school classmate, why are you angry?" "Are you willing to turn it off now? I have been standing and listening to you chatting for an hour. Anyone who understands can tell that he is interested in you, can't you see it? Why did he go to such lengths to celebrate your birthday?" I said apologetically, "I'm sorry baby, I can't finish talking about him, so I'll tell you everything later, okay?"" No need, I'm going to the company to practice singing, you remember to eat the cake." She slammed the door and left without looking back.

"I like you, I have always liked you, from the first year of high school to now, what's wrong?" His serious voice suddenly came out of the phone, I was shocked, and I didn't turn off the video call!He heard all of our conversation just now, "Is that your friend? Does she care about your relationship?" I didn't know how to answer his question for a while, "You like me? Stop joking, you miss me Are you angry?" "Wang Si, this is the truth. Now that I have said it, I will not deny anything. I must tell you the truth today." "What?" I asked.

"It's not that I want to leave without saying goodbye in the third year of high school. I'm sorry for you and other classmates. I didn't leave any information. My dad was reported in the mechanism for corruption, embezzlement of public funds, and petty tricks. A case emerged on the Internet that made them all investigated. .My dad took me and my grandfather and fled to the United States in advance, and he told me that I divorced my mother a long time ago, and my mother was pregnant with someone else's child." He choked up and said, "Actually, I know their marriage broke down a long time ago. , but I didn’t say anything. In the United States, my father settled me and my grandpa. Grandpa couldn’t stand such a long journey, and he was old and had some diseases. He passed away in the United States. And my father didn’t know what he was doing. , every day he is not on the phone or watching the computer, and often goes out. I asked him if he had been corrupted, and he said that he was targeted by some bigger mafia, and all the crimes were placed on him. What kind of person is my father? It is very clear that he will never do anything that violates the law, but I can't guarantee whether he has received gifts or abused his power. During this period, I lived in a basement, without seeing the sky, and my mobile phone had no signal. I live like a mouse. I do everything secretly, for fear of being discovered. I have received all the messages you sent me. I miss you very much and want to reply to you, but my father does not allow it. After four years, I finally found out Yes, the man behind the scenes may not have been found out, but Dad and some other small officials have been proven innocent. Dad was promoted, but he is more than 20 years old. I also returned to China some time ago and went to Beijing to hear about you You have been admitted to the University of Foreign Studies and even worked as an interpreter in South Korea, you are really getting better and better!"

His smile is still so sunny, and his dimples are also very charming. "My God, I can't even dream of such a story. Say hello to my uncle, I shouldn't have sent you a message, he must be very angry with me. I feel sorry for your grandpa too, I hope he goes well Be well." He suddenly disappeared from the screen, I heard the sound of sobbing, and I guess he was secretly wiping tears.He returned to the camera, "Thank you, I have missed you these few years. After the epidemic is over, should I go to you or return to China?" of. "Although I didn't go to college, I still have a job in Shanghai and have savings at home. You won't look down on me." "No, no, no. You are fine, and I feel very sorry for what happened to you." It's a pity. But you said it so suddenly, I won't be able to accept it for a while. Why don't we be good friends first! This is the most natural, what do you think?" "Okay, I'll listen to you!" We hung up When I got on the phone, he transferred me a sum of money, saying that he wanted me to buy gifts in Korea, but I decided not to accept it.

Nian Xing and I had a cold war for a week, and they didn't go home. When they saw me in the company, they ran away or avoided looking.I was also embarrassed to ask about her teammates. After all, they only regarded me as a staff member. Who would have thought that she and I were a couple.

After a live broadcast, the captain of the facade brought me a drink and whispered ",!..." (She lives in my house, you can go to her tonight! This is the address and key, I I leave it to you with confidence, please drive her out, thank you.) She secretly slipped me a note and key, her standard smile forcefully echoed my puzzled look, "," (Sister, how do you know of?), I asked her in a low voice. "..." (Not only I know, everyone in our group knows. She often mentions you and keeps us secret. These days, I complain to me every day that you still haven't gone to her).

I held the note and key tightly, thanked her and hurried to this address by car.After waiting for a long time at the door of the high-end apartment, two women wearing masks came in arm in arm. The sister of the captain smiled and said, ",.,." ) She jumped to take my keys and gave me a wink.Nian Xing turned her back, not knowing whether she was laughing or crying. "I miss you very much. I miss you every day when I can't sleep, and I miss you in my dreams. Come home with me. The husband and wife quarrel at the end of the bed. You have to listen to my explanation to let you go." "In this case, how do you You only came to find me now, if my sister hadn’t told you, you wouldn’t have come back to find me.”

She looked at the glass door, which reflected her figure. "It's not that I don't want to find you, but I can't find you. In the company, we are the relationship between staff and artists, and we cannot be discovered by others. You are busy with your acting career, and I also have my own job. I have no chance to find you." You. Turn on your phone and see how many calls and text messages I have sent to your backup phone, and have you responded." My tone was a little tough for some reason, probably because I was angry at my incompetence.She immediately turned around and hugged me, ",,." (Don't do this, don't leave me. Don't call him again, I will be very sad. I only have you, I only have you), her voice is penetrating Force, but also with aggrieved crying and command tone.My heart softened at once, and I kissed her ear ",," (I'm sorry, I won't make you angry anymore, I love you)

Her birthday is coming soon, I went to the store and carefully selected a cute pure little Akita dog as a gift for her.Her fans on the Internet always make her face into an emoji of a little Akita dog, which is very cute. She also verified the fan's emoji and said that she likes it very much.

On her birthday, she spends all her days with fans, authenticating gifts from fans, expressing gratitude on social platforms, and broadcasting live broadcasts with members to express her gratitude.I silently left a message under her live broadcast, "Rosa," (sing a happy birthday song to myself), and after she stared at the screen, she would shyly sing "happybirthdaytoRosa, happybirthdaytome...", and then be fooled Make yourself laugh.The domineering side of this woman on stage is completely different from the shy and silly side in private! "Rosa, what do you want to eat at home?" I don't know why she can pay attention to my message every time, she scratched her chin and said "maybe" (maybe Beijing fried noodles) thoughtfully, " emmm,." (I've recently become obsessed with Chinese food, and I miss it if I don't eat it for a day.), she smiled shyly at the screen, "Whatareyougoingtoeat?." (Everyone, what are you going to eat? English and Korean.) She smirked at the screen, and I smirked at her on the screen.This baby, silly, you are just like your mother!I rolled on the bed with the puppy in my arms.

I went into the kitchen and started to show off my knife skills to make Beijing fried noodles.Although my cooking skills need to be improved, every time she would praise me for the delicious dishes, she also said that she would go back to Beijing with me to eat Chinese food.It was very late, and after finishing the basic dishes, I fell asleep in bed, the bed light was on, and the puppy didn't bark, so I probably fell asleep in the kennel.I woke up suddenly again, and she was leaning on the head of the bed, looking at me very tenderly, just like her that night when I was 12 years old.I opened my eyes and looked at her gently, ",." (Welcome home, my wife), I stood up and held her down, kissed her lightly, and she embraced me with her slender arms , ecstasy tongue kiss, so that I wake up.

"Masida Masida", her eating appearance is so cute, just like the emoticons made by fans.I looked at her like an old mother and waited for her to finish eating.Blindfolded her and led her to where the puppy slept. "" (Puppy? He's so cute), she and I squatted on the ground happily, looking at the sleeping puppy almost fascinated. "Let's call it TP." I asked suspiciously, "What is TP?" "TapePlayer." (Tape Player) I laughed at her, "Are you crazy?" You have to listen to me if you want to keep a dog again! It’s called TP, I don’t know what K-KOPrapper is, what a name with personality”, we were playing and playing on the bed, and it was dawn in a while, We're all going to get up and work.

Ren Yinhang didn't chat with me often, maybe he knew that I would take the initiative to find him if I wanted to, maybe he was secretly preparing to pursue me, maybe he was busy with his work.Whatever, I have my lover, that's enough.I don't want to be a half-hearted person, no matter whether it is from a male or a female temptation, I should not betray the one I love.When I was young, my father liked to tease the lady boss of the barber shop, which made my mother secretly cry several times. At that time, I was very resistant to "betrayal".If you can't be loyal to the person you love, then don't start a relationship and waste the other person's time.Nian Xing and I have reached a high degree of compatibility emotionally. We agreed that if one day we no longer love each other, we should bravely bring it up, and we can still be good friends for a lifetime.We need each other forever, whether as lovers or as friends, of course, I hope the deadline of lovers is until death.

The epidemic situation has improved under the control of the country. The Chinese people have worked together to fight the epidemic. The domestic situation has basically returned to the grand situation of years ago. People will wear masks and take preventive measures when going out.I applied to return to my country. This is the first time I have been away from my home country and home for so long.I want to go back and see my parents, my friends, my grandparents.

Nianxing held me and cried for a long time the night before I left, which meant that if the epidemic in South Korea worsened, I would not be able to go back.We started the "exotic relationship" that we least wanted to face.When I got home, my father was still the one who was not good at speaking. He cooked salty soup and put it on the table for me to drink. He always tentatively asked me if I had eaten well and dressed well in Korea, and if I had a boyfriend.I always feel that now, he is a child and I am an adult, he is very afraid that I will ignore him, and he is cautious about asking questions.

My parents have divorced long ago, and my mother is alone, living with relatives in the countryside for the elderly.When I returned to the village, it was like the hope of the whole village. They even set off firecrackers to welcome me.I'm like a star here, everyone treats me with respect and enthusiasm.I still remember that when I was young, everyone looked at me like a monkey, "Hui Mei is as thin as a monkey", and my mother would always look at me with disgust and say, "Too picky eaters, city children are spoiled!", I would always feel wronged. Tears: You obviously didn't spoil me, didn't give me what I wanted to eat, and said I was spoiled!Today, things are very different.My mother looked at me more and more strangely, just like looking at other people's children, it was too strange.I bought the necessary insurance funds and pensions for my parents, and put some money into their cards, so I felt much more at ease when they were protected.

In front of the tombstone, I talked to my grandma for a long time. I miss her so much. In many dreams, she hugs the little me and sits on the rocker chair, singing "Be good, baby, sleep quickly". "Grandma, you must not agree that I like girls, right? If you agree, let this bunch of flowers drop a leaf.", I wiped my tears and said with a smile.Suddenly a gust of wind blew, and a petal that had already fallen from the bouquet fell down. I wanted to catch the flower, but I couldn't.I turned my head to face the smiling face of grandma on the tombstone, "Thank you grandma, as expected, only you understand me!"

At night, I had a good dream: In the countryside of Hebei, a girl named Rong Duxiu and a girl named Li Chunhong were sisters who grew up together.Their relationship is better than that of their biological sisters, and they share the blessings and difficulties together.Until one day Li Chunhong's father forced her to marry into a man's family in Beijing, and they were forced to separate.At that time, none of them understood that same-sex relationship was also a kind of love, a love that was not recognized by society.Rong Duxiu got married and married a man she didn't love, but she supported this poor family and established her foothold in Beijing.Li Chunhong's whereabouts were unknown after she married in Beijing. It is said that she committed suicide. Fortunately, they all left a black and white photo. Li Chunhong is on the left and Rong Duxiu is on the right. Two young rural girls smile more beautifully than flowers.Later, fortunately, they met in Paradise in 2015, and their smiles were more beautiful than flowers.When grandma passed away, she was holding an old box in her hand. Inside was a black and white photo. On the back of the photo was written: Li Chunhong, Rong Duxiu. Taken in 1963.