L and R (Nian Xing)

Beijing China.

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When I was 11 years old, I lived in a room with my mother, and my father ran a small business in Shanghai.The living room is an even room for grandparents, one bedroom and one living room, in an old building of 90 square meters on the edge of Beijing.I have lived in this house since I can remember, and I have no impression of dilapidated rural houses, and my grandma never let me go back to the countryside.I asked my grandma, "Grandma, where did I live when I was a child?" Grandma replied, "It must be Beijing. I drove your parents to Beijing to rent a house before you were born!" Back to my "room", My mother asked coldly, "What did you tell that old woman again?" I said, "I was born in Beijing and lived in Beijing, so proud!" My mother glanced at me and said coldly, "You still know your mother Was he driven to Beijing to look for a job with a big belly? Your dad stopped working after delivering newspapers for a few days, and he spent thousands of dollars."...Whenever I happily talk about family, I get a cold look and a cold sigh in exchange.It was a small dilapidated room with simple decoration, and it was filled with grandma’s scraps of copper and metal. Even so, she still mopped the floor with a mop made of rags every day, washed dishes and wiped the windows with a rag that she used repeatedly.

I watched the cartoons on TV with fear, and grandma’s mop danced under my feet, "Oh, let me see when you go to do your homework and read books." "I have finished my homework a long time ago!" "Can't read books after finishing my homework? ""I read the book." "If you read the book, you can recite each side of the book to me." Grandma's volume increased steadily in decibels. "Crazy! Why should I memorize it?" "If you can't memorize it, do you mean you read the book? Turn off the TV for me! Like your mother, lazy! See how many times she mopped the floor!" "You mopped the floor Are you amazing? The child can’t even watch TV?” My mother broke through the door as expected. "Do you see that you are educating your children? At this age, you still don't go out to look for trouble. Wang Xiongli's finding you as a wife is really a ghost." "You know very well what kind of material your son is. You didn't give me a good face on the first day. I wonder where a mother-in-law like you can come from. My own daughter is a treasure, and other people's daughters are grass." Volume "What? You still taught me? You are so brave!", I clearly saw that her eyeballs were about to pop out, her veins were bulging, and she pointed her finger in the direction of her mother.

Grandpa quickly got out of the bed in the room, picked up his glasses, and rushed out stooping. "What are you arguing about? Huimei, I'm not talking about you, elders, at least you have to respect it, you want me to die with such a loud voice?" Mother's tears couldn't stop falling, and she said tremblingly, "Ask this old woman What, your son is so kind and filial! You have to use a kitchen knife when you are arguing, and you have taught your son so well!" Grandma pushed grandpa away, pointing at mother with her finger, "he owes you so much, it's not his turn You educate me to teach my son! After being with you, he has changed." The mother sneered, "He just doesn't want to become your puppet. You want everyone to obey your orders. You are a cruel modern Wu Zetian! ".Grandma picked up the mop and wanted to beat mother, but when mother kicked, the rags of the mop were scattered everywhere, and grandma's thin body almost fell down.Grandpa pointed at his mother and said, "If you dare to hit someone, I'll get you out of the Wang family right away!" My mother refused to admit defeat, "I would have fucked up a long time ago, if it wasn't for this child." She looked at me with tears in her eyes, That was when I rarely felt her heart collide with mine, a collision of family affection.

"I'll pack my things right now. Whoever wants to come in your family will be the one to accept it. A family like a dead person!" After she finished speaking, she rushed into the room, and the sound of bumping and packing her luggage came out. Grandpa hurried to the room to stop her, singing "How many times have you gone back to your mother's house? Every time you go back, you don't care about the children. Didn't we take care of you? To be reasonable, your child eats the rice from my two old people every day, and you don't even say thank you?" "My mother put down the luggage, and said lightly, "You count how much rice you eat, and I will pay you back later. Wang Xiong can't live at home, and you still depend on me." She continued unhurriedly, "I treat you as How many years have you watched Dad? Dad? How many tricks did this person next to you want to drive me away? I couldn’t take it anymore and called Wang Xiongli to come back and complete the divorce procedures.”Grandma stepped in from the side and said, "If you want a divorce, you can get a divorce? If it weren't for you, Wang Xiongli would have married that Li Yanhong a long time ago. She is beautiful and gentle. There are a lot of girls begging Wang Xiongli to get married. You are not the right family!"

"Yeah, I was wrong too. I heard Wang Xiongli's nonsense and married him. Even the wedding dress was given by my natal family. I have been convinced by him for eight lifetimes." "You dare to go and try today." ?” Grandma threw the luggage into the cabinet.I never understood what grandma was thinking. My mother said that grandma drove her away every day, but every time there was a fight, grandma wouldn't let her go.But this time, my mother really left, leaving nothing behind and taking nothing away.

Dad's "business" is also muddled, without any income, and owes a lot of debt.He was called back home by his grandparents, and his business was put on hold, and he lost money in business one after another. What is the need to continue?Grandma blamed him for having to go home to work in a relative's factory, go to the countryside to beg his wife back, and said that as long as his mother came back, he would forget the past.When my mother heard about it, she persuaded the people in her natal family not to go back. She said that this was rubbing her face against the ground again, and she didn't want to make any more compromises.When Dad came to grandma's house, his attitude was the same as that of grandparents towards grandma's family. "Hey, call Huimei out and come home with me." My cousin texted me and said, "No one will listen to your father's persuasion." I replied to her, "Then my mother really won't come back?" ?”.

After a while, a text message was sent, "Take good care of yourself, I will go out to work to earn money for you to go to college." At that moment, my heart seemed to fall into an abyss, getting deeper and deeper, and more and more powerless.Grandma always belittles her family. She told me that she has never seen such a dilapidated home in the countryside. It is a mess, with underwear hanging out at the door, and the toilet is like a kennel. Your aunt would not even dare to sleep on their bed when she went to pick up her relatives. !People who are poor and have no backbone, I look down on people who have no ambition the most!I said that when I went to my grandma's house, there was a toilet and an air conditioner, which was better than our house.She scolded me and said, "Then you go to her house and go back to the countryside to study. It's none of my business how her house is now. I will always remember what their house looked like before. It's ridiculous!" This generation of rural elderly is like this , unwilling to accept the new things at the moment, even though the matter has undergone a qualitative change, they only believe in what they have seen and heard, their own experience, and their own three-view worldview.