The best candidate

Xiao Wu was lucky, he walked out.Xia Cheng did not.

From 18 to 22 years old, Xia Cheng changed several partners.The long ones are half a year, and the short ones don't exceed one month.Every time a relationship breaks up, Xia Cheng's face is calm and breezy, but his smoking fingers tremble slightly, and the cigarette can't be passed to his mouth no matter what.

He tried his best to love every relationship, but in the end he had to break up.If the number of times is too many, he will be a little bit cornered.What impressed me the most was that he once talked with a man 6 pairs older than him for more than half a year.Later, the man broke up when he was about to get married. This incident had a great impact on him.

Xiang Shiran finally appeared, and this time she lived in Professor Fu's house.I thought Xia Cheng could finally return to a normal life, and my guilt towards the two of them would also dissipate.

Xia Cheng looked calm, he asked me to take a good look at Xiang Shiran now.

So I decided to take a good look at Xiang Shiran.To be honest, she was having a rough time.At the end of one semester, she got the third best grade in the class, but no parents signed her report card.

With a joking mentality, I grabbed her report card and signed my name in a fluttering motion.She carefully stroked the blank space around the signature, for fear of accidentally erasing the signature.She later returned the copy of the report card to the teacher, but the original was secretly hidden.

Xiang Shiran was a little thin, thin and weak.When I went to Professor Fu's house and saw her state in that house, I realized that I didn't care whether she existed or whether she ate.

Impulsively, I took over Xiang Shiran's three meals a day.I take her to eat all kinds of delicious food every day, three meals a day, with balanced nutrition.I found out that she is actually prone to obesity.She doesn't eat much, but she gains weight easily.Under my feeding, she actually felt chubby.

According to the height and weight standard for middle school students, Xiang Shiran is still on the thin side.She can't get fatter, she doesn't have a sense of taste, so she doesn't eat as much.

After Xiang Shiran gained weight, she looks much better. She is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen.It's a pity that this girl doesn't like to smile, she's always tense, and her delicate face is lost in vain.

In the process of taking care of Xiang Shiran, I felt a sense of fulfillment.This feeling made me realize very clearly that I am alive, and the longer I look at Xiang Shiran, the better. There is a place in my heart that is filled little by little.

This is probably the pleasure of cultivation.

The conversation between Xia Cheng and I suddenly revolved around Xiang Shiran.Therefore, I didn't intend to feel sorry for him, saying that Xiang Shiran has no sense of taste, doesn't eat, and doesn't get fat from feeding.

Xia Cheng held the cigarette in his hand, trembling, and said to me: "Xiang Shiran and Xiang are twins, and the one who has no sense of taste is Xiang Ke."

Xiang Ke in front of me, where did Xiang Shiran go?

Xia Cheng's gaze was far away, not knowing where it fell, and he said after a long time, "A few years ago, one of the twins died in a car accident."

Xia Cheng already knew.

I finally understood why Xia Cheng asked me to take a good look at Xiang Shiran.His Shi Ran didn't grow up, and he lost his pass to be a normal person.

I don't quite understand Xia Cheng's determination. In my opinion, since he is interested in Xiang Shiran, he must also be interested in other girls.But the difference between a genius and an ordinary person is that when people argue about an issue, a genius is often the one who sees the truth.

As if to confirm my words, Xia Cheng began to respond to the opposite sex's favor.But Xia Cheng was born gay, that kind of physical rejection tortured him all the time.

During that time, his condition was very poor, his life and work were seriously affected, and he almost became depressed.

Xia Cheng likes Xiang Shiran, and I like Xiang Ke.

Xiang Ke came to help me clean the room that day, I told her not to be too reserved, and then left.But I forgot to close the door of the study. The study is full of old newspapers about my father.When I went back, I saw her pick up a newspaper and subconsciously accused her.

I'm not ready to let her know, and I'm afraid of her attitude when she finds out.Because of a guilty conscience, his tone was more indifferent and alienated.

Xiao Wu once said that I have a particularly terrible state. I indifferently accuse others of being wrong, which makes people feel that they will never be forgiven in this lifetime.

I used this bastard tone to accuse Xiang Ke.

At first I didn't take it seriously, but I happened to go to Professor Fu's house that day, and Xiang Ke didn't come home at nine o'clock in the evening.In this regard, everyone is indifferent.

I started to worry, at that moment, I finally felt Xia Cheng's panic and powerlessness when he lost Xiang Shiran.Fortunately, there was no danger in the end. When I saw her again, I felt a kind of joy of regaining what was lost.

I clearly realized that I like Xiang Ke.

I know that Xiang Ke also likes me.So I am full of hope, waiting for Xiang Ke to grow up.

My hopes were quickly dashed when I received an anonymous letter.The letter was not delivered by the postman. When I went home that day, I saw a white envelope on the coffee table.

I learned later that the drug trafficking organizations at that time were not wiped out.My father had something important and they came to me and wanted me to find it for them.

I was very irrational at the time and decided to risk my life.I made this decision not because of personal heroism, but because of my father. I must find out the truth of the year.

That organization contacted me quickly and they sent me a drug.After taking this medicine, I went to the hospital to find out the terminal illness.All of this is drug interference, it won't really cause death, it's just that the side effects will cause huge damage to the body.

They needed me to die and come into their organization with a whole new identity to do things for them.

Before I died, Xiang Ke said she liked me.This is a blessing that I will wake up from my dreams with a smile all my life.

I didn't respond to her, just like Xia Cheng can never wait for Xiang Shiran, and I can't wait for Xiang Ke to grow up.

Later, under the medical identification, I died.

At the funeral, I saw Xia Cheng and Xiang Ke. They lowered their heads and remained silent. No one noticed, so I observed not far away.

I lurked in that organization for five years and found out the truth of the year. Unfortunately, my father died without guilt.But he is still my father, supporting me in my childhood when I lost my mother.

Because I have performed well in the past five years, and I have successfully intervened in the entire business chain, knowing their online and offline, and at the same time retaining evidence of their drug trafficking.I succeeded in retaliating against them, but I couldn't get out unscathed.It is impossible for one person to do things without leaving any traces.

Their organization completely disintegrated, before they found out I was a traitor and injected me with drugs.

The process of detoxification is very painful, and I thought countless times that I would not survive it.Physical torture is secondary, the key is mental torture.I am no longer Zou Yang, I can no longer hold my head up and face the world.

When I lost my mind, I saw Xia Cheng and Xiang Ke again.

In front of the person I love the most, I am hysterical and ugly.This incident completely broke me, and I managed to get off drugs, but my spirits were still very low.

The scariest thing in this world is not being able to face the person you love the most.

I love Xia Cheng, the boy who brought me light in the darkest days.I love Xiangke, that is my infinitely beautiful vision for the future.

The good thing is that during the five years I disappeared, the two people I love the most have come together.Xia Cheng has the ID card with "Normal Person" printed on it, and Xiang Ke meets a person who treats her wholeheartedly.

In the ending of this HE, I can finally exit with peace of mind.

However, things backfired, Xia Cheng broke up with Xiang Ke, and Xiang Ke brought it up.

At the time, I was too busy to take care of myself and didn't know about it.But one day, I suddenly discovered that Xia Cheng was by my side most of the time every day.He eats with me, chats with me, takes care of me, and comforts me.Act intimately, like a lover.

"Don't you need to accompany Xiang Ke?"

Xia Cheng was peeling an apple, the peel of the apple was hanging down long, and finally it broke, and fell completely into the trash can.

He said calmly, "We broke up."

I scolded Xia Cheng, he stuffed the peeled apple into my hand, and left without saying a word.Their love affair ended, and the only person who couldn't accept it was me.

My mental state is even worse, I don't want to see Xia Cheng anymore.In my eyes, he who proposed to break up was unintentionally the sinner in this failed relationship.

When Xiang Ke came to see me, he said that I looked like a short-lived ghost.I was already mentally weak, and I was in a bad mood. You don't need to think about how depressed I am.

Xiang Ke said: "Actually, even if Xia Cheng doesn't mention it, I still want to break up with him."

"why?"

We all know how hard-won ordinary happiness is, but they leave it behind.I am deeply angry and puzzled by this.

Xiang Ke said, "Do you still remember what I said, I like you?"

She paused and said, "Even now, I like you. Xia Cheng is just like me."

If I were still Zou Yang back then, I would be ecstatic when I heard this sentence.But I am not, I have lost the courage to look her directly.

This is true for Xiang Xiang, and it is also true for Xia Cheng.

Look at me bowing my head and being silent, Xiang Ke is angry with me, but I can't help it.She said: "I was able to walk with Xia Cheng because I lost you, and he lost Xiang Shiran and you. Without you, we are the best candidates for each other. But you are back, Zou Yang, Xia Cheng Neither I can fool myself."

I know Xia Cheng likes me, it was just a guess before, and I didn't know for sure until a while ago.

I always had a question back then, Xia Cheng was so smart and his family was not bad, why didn't he go abroad to study.

When Fu Zixiao came to see me, I inadvertently raised this question.I saw that his eyes were dodging, and after repeated inquiries, I learned the truth of the year.

Xia Cheng applied to a foreign university back then, received an offer, and even received a full scholarship.But Xia Cheng's parents had a perverted desire to control him. Xia Cheng's rebellion made him gradually lose control, and they began to prohibit him from doing everything he wanted to do.

For my affairs, Xia Cheng tore up his notice in front of his parents, ruining his future with his own hands.

I haven't asked Xia Cheng, firstly I'm sure I'm straight, and secondly, why bother to tell me if he doesn't tell me.

Xiao Wu wanted to confess to me, but I felt sorry for him but couldn't accept it, because I didn't like it.If Xia Cheng confesses his love to me, I will definitely accept it.

Because he is the light, if he is destined to go out, then I am willing to fall into the darkness with him.

Back then when I found out about Xia Cheng's sexual orientation, I panicked because I was afraid of the criticism he would suffer.At that time, I didn't dare to imagine the result. It wasn't until Xiao Wu's incident that I realized the seriousness of the consequences.

Therefore, I used to wish that Xiang Shiran was still alive more than anyone else.

Xia Cheng came to look for me again, but I still couldn't see him.He went straight to the locksmith and pried open the door of my house.

I was so emotional that I pushed him away, and he grabbed my shoulders, immobilizing me.In fact, I used to be quite strong, but I was very weak after just quitting drugs, and he caught me like an eagle catching a chicken.

He said: "Zou Yang, I know I am sexual, but there is actually a triggering event."

I was still resisting, but when I heard this sentence, the silence suddenly struck me, and I decided to let him finish.

"I once said that you are the most responsible class monitor. That was not a sarcasm, but sincerity. When I was young, I was always isolated and bullied, and no one was on my side. But I heard that at that time, you took the initiative Accept me, argue with others for me, fight against injustice. Zou Yang, do you know that to me, you are the light."

"Later, when I reached adolescence, others were paying attention to the opposite sex, but I was paying attention to you. Then I found out that I like the same sex, so I started to pay more attention to these issues. I always think of you unconsciously, and this state continues until you It was only after the accident that I realized that I have always liked you."

Xia Cheng hugged me and said, "From the beginning to the end, it was you."

Xiang Shiran is the only opposite sex that Xia Cheng is interested in. If she hadn't died, Xia Cheng would definitely be with her and become an ordinary person.Xia Cheng is sure that he will like Xiang Shiran, and Xiang Shiran will also like him.And I can also find my final destination without being disturbed, it may be Xiang Ke, or it may be someone else.

I don't understand the logic of a genius, but what a genius says will always be confirmed one by one.

Based on past experience, Xia Cheng was right.

But his words could not be confirmed.Xiang Shiran is gone, and I can't be with Xiang Ke.

Xia Cheng thinks that I am light, so he guards it carefully, he would rather suffer himself than let me be corroded by darkness.

I think Xia Cheng is the light, so I accompany him silently, even if he falls into darkness, I don't want him to suffer alone.

I stretched out my arms to hug Xia Cheng, and lightly kissed the corner of his mouth.He froze for a few seconds, then kissed back heavily.

We all have the opportunity to have a normal and ordinary life, but if the price is to lose the best of each other, then I would rather fall into the abyss.

Xiang Ke said that her crush and first love got together, and she once suspected that she was the legendary Wanzai Wharf.

In fact, both Xia Cheng and I love her, that kind of love is a kind of pure protection, similar to family affection.

Then we lived together, and it was a wonderful feeling.The law doesn't recognize our relationship, but we've become a real family.

I have a small house, open the door, the people I love the most are inside, there is no better home than this.

Dear family, I am back.