Before and After Divorce

It was late at night that Xia Tingwan received a call from Su Yan. Su Yan didn't turn on the video, and his voice sounded very low: "I've been too busy these two days, so I didn't take care to reply to your message. How are you? Ting Ting ? How's your foot?"

Xia Tingwan took a light breath, and for a moment didn't know what to say.

He knew that Su Yan was busy, but in the past no matter what, Su Yan almost never stopped contacting him for so long when he was on a business trip.

What's more, Su Yan seemed completely unaware of such a big incident on his side.

He was a little lost, but then he felt an indescribable abnormality and worry: "I'm fine. How about you, are you okay? You seem to be tired lately, and I, I can't say a few words to you." .”

"It's nothing." Su Yan's tone was as calm and calm as usual when he spoke: "It's just that things at work are not going well, and it takes more time to solve them. It's not easy to explain to you for a while, but the impact is not that great Big, just a little tired for a while."

When he said this, he seemed to feel a little bit of grievance in Xia Tingwan's tone, lowered his voice, and gently called with a smile: "Baby..."

"Yeah." Xia Tingwan lay on the bed, even if he only heard Su Yan's voice, his body felt numb as if he had been touched. He curled up under the quilt, and his voice suddenly softened. Come down: "Su Yan, I miss you. I missed you all the time yesterday. You still haven't replied to my WeChat. Are you too busy to remember me?"

She wanted to get into Su Yan's arms and act like a baby.

Sometimes he thinks, in fact, he can also face many setbacks and adversities by himself.

But in front of Su Yan, he still wanted to be a kitten with its soft belly turned out.

"want."

Xia Tingwan felt Su Yan smile, he closed his eyes and imagined Su Yan smiling in a suit.

"I've been in meetings all the time, and I only have a little time before going to bed. You haven't woken up yet." Su Yan said softly, "I used that time to write postcards to you, and I've been writing them for two or three days."

"Write poetry?" Xia Tingwan asked expectantly.

"Ah."

Xia Tingwan couldn't help rolling on the bed.

In fact, he used to secretly hope that Su Yan would write him a love letter, those words would make him narcissistic, he was like the only blooming rose in the flower garden, every thorn was stretched and beautiful .

But he was thin-skinned, and he never said anything when he was looking forward to it.

But for those 138 letters, he kept each one carefully. Sometimes when Su Yan was not around, he secretly read it several times, and even memorized most of them.

Xia Tingwan didn't tell Su Yan about her work dilemma.

Su Yan was already so busy, he didn't want to cause Su Yan any more trouble.

Whether it's a reality show or an audition, it's his battlefield after all.

He wanted to step over by himself, step by step.

When he did it, he would proudly show it to Su Yan.

……

The audition day is fast approaching.

Xu Zhe rented an attic that fits the original work of "Looking". Although it was just an audition, he also tried to create the best state for the actors to enter the play.

Xu Zhe is very busy, and He Yanxi will leave City H in a few days, so Gu Fei's four candidates are scheduled to audition on one day.

Xu Zhe was very generous. He had previously notified the audition that they could observe each other, unless the actors themselves were unwilling and felt that it would affect their performance, but no one raised any objections at the time.

So that day, Lu Ping, Xu Luofei, and Xia Tingwan all arrived at the attic venue at the same time, after all, no one wanted to miss other people's audition process.

Only Shi Miao had work arrangements in the morning, so he had to come later.

This is the first time Xia Tingwan has had such close contact with He Yanxi himself.

The 30-year-old double-gold actor is at an age with a mature masculinity, but his appearance has not lost the heroic spirit of a young man.

Slender sword eyebrows, deep eyes, always with a warm smile on his mouth.

When he sat lazily on the side watching the script and waiting, he carried an indescribably confident aura, very determined and relaxed.

After a short exchange of pleasantries, Xu Zhe said directly: "Before we start, I would like to reiterate two points. First, I don't require the actors to be completely naked at this stage. It all depends on your own grasp of the play. Before this, I will also discuss with you. I have been notified. My audition rules have always been like this, and I respect everyone’s independent wishes. Second, my staff will film the audition process. Except for the staff, no one else is allowed to record. After further reference, it will never be leaked to anyone, even the investors will not read it. The supplementary agreement has also been signed with everyone, if there is no doubt about these two points, let's start as soon as possible."

Lu Ping was the first to audition.

He is a male actor in idol dramas who has gradually transitioned over. In the past few years, he has had some good movie resources, and he is quite capable, but in Xia Tingwan's mind, he really only has such a limited point.

Lu Ping was quite relaxed, and quickly took off his clothes.

Of course, Lu Ping, who came from an idol drama, has nothing to say about his figure and appearance. Under the dim light, his body alone is enough to attract people's attention, but his acting skills are really too academic.

Every movement feels well-behaved, as if taking pictures of cats and tigers, lifeless.

Xia Tingwan just watched Lu Ping's performance for a while, but he didn't pay attention at all. He knew that Lu Ping could not be his opponent.

He quickly focused on He Yanxi.

As soon as He Yanxi entered the role of Xu Rong, the confidence and chic that belonged to the movie king disappeared completely.

He has very fine details. When drawing, he occasionally glanced at Luping's body in a panic, but immediately used his hair to cover up the throbbing.

In the eyes, the kind of erratic that belongs to Xu Rong, as well as the turbulence of lust, are vividly interpreted.

These subtle scenes made Xia Tingwan's mouth dry, but Lu Ping couldn't bear it at all.

The two of them played against each other, and it felt like all of He Yanxi's amorous feelings were played by a blind man.

Lu Ping was followed by Xu Luofei. Before Xu Luofei started acting, he told Xu Zhe nervously that he had changed his mind and wanted to act in private instead of being watched by other actors.

Although it was embarrassing for him to make this request temporarily, and to be honest, it was not very fair to Lu Ping, but Xu Zhe was very gentle. After asking Lu Ping's opinion, he still respected Xu Luofei's idea and waved everyone out.

Xia Tingwan felt a little pity, in fact, he wished to see He Yanxi perform seven or eight times again.

He was also a little nervous. After smoking a cigarette in the corridor, he wanted to go to the bathroom to wash his face.

This venue is relatively old, and there is only one men's bathroom. Xia Tingwan thought that there was no one there, so he didn't knock on the door, so he pushed it and went in without saying anything.

But unexpectedly, as soon as he walked in, he saw a young man standing in front of the mirror with his upper body naked.

From the huge mirror, Xia Tingwan recognized at a glance that this person is Shi Miao.

Even though Xia Tingwan has been in the circle for so many years, the beauty of this young boy still makes him take a breath for a moment.

He is too delicate, so delicate that in a sense, he transcends the boundaries between men and women.

The tip of the nose, the chin, the corners of the eyes and the tip of the brow, every curve is beautiful.

Only the pair of eyebrows floated up stubbornly, and the eyes below were pitch-black, clear and cold.

Shi Miao seemed to be staring at himself in the mirror in a daze, and turned around after several seconds.

With a confused look on his face, he glanced at Xia Tingwan, but without saying a word, he picked up the clothes beside him and rushed out the door in a hurry.

Xia Tingwan stood there blankly, although this meeting was very embarrassing, but he did not expect that Shi Miao would leave without saying hello.

But soon, he suddenly thought, the moment Shi Miao turned around to face him, he seemed to see a very unique tattoo on the boy's left chest.

It is a blue crane.

Xia Tingwan had a premonition for no reason, he felt that when Shi Miao just looked at the mirror, he should be staring at this blue crane.

After Xu Luofei finished, Xu Zhe let He Yanxi rest for a while, and then it was Shi Miao's turn to audition.

Xu Luofei himself is also sensible, he didn't let other people watch his audition, so naturally he won't watch other people's, and left soon.

Xia Tingwan also sat back in his seat with complicated emotions.

In fact, he really didn't want Shi Miao to be like Xu Luofei, temporarily deciding not to let others observe.

Shi Miao is the strongest opponent in his eyes, even if he put aside the gossip that Zhou Yang said before, he really wants to see how this famous young actor will play Gu Fei.

Shi Miao never looked at He Yanxi. He stood in front of Xu Zhe, hesitated for a long time, and finally asked in a low voice: "Director Xu, audition... I won't be naked."

Xia Tingwan was sitting not far from Xu Zhe, so he naturally heard these words.

To be honest, he was a little surprised. He had watched "Destiny". Although Shi Miao was not fully nude in it, there were many semi-naked scenes. He thought Shi Miao was not someone who would care about such details.

Xu Zhe smiled gently, and said softly, "You decide for yourself. This is an audition. You should be sure of how you can present the best performance. I won't interfere."

Shi Miao looked down at her own toes.

In the end, he still didn't take it off, but walked over wearing a thin shirt and lay down on the single bed in front of He Yanxi. Without looking at He Yanxi, he looked up at the lamp on the ceiling, waiting silently.

Xu Zhe turned his head and communicated with the photographer in a low voice, and then gave the cameraman a look.

With a click, the room suddenly darkened.

When the dim light was turned on, Shi Miao seemed to be a completely different person.

He was lying on his side on the bed, his long and narrow eyes met He Yanxi who was sitting in front of the drawing board by the bed for the first time.

His eyes were so focused, without a trace of previous evasion.

Xia Tingwan stared at Shi Miao's face, and he took a low breath.

The boy's looks were at the prime of his life, and once brought into focus it was impossible not to hold your breath.

Holding the paintbrush, He Yanxi drew stroke by stroke on the drawing board, and said softly while painting: "I don't paint many human bodies, especially men, because I always feel that..."

When he said this, his Adam's apple trembled slightly, and he raised his eyes to look at Shi Miao.

The micro-movement of secretly swallowing and spitting is really vivid to the extreme.

Shi Miao looked at He Yanxi without blinking, and listened quietly.

He Yanxi looked at the silent boy, his eyes drifted away.

Shi Miao stretched out her hand, brushed the broken hair from her forehead behind her ears, and then leaned her shoulders towards Xu Rong.

He Yanxi subconsciously got closer to Shi Miao, but then immediately retreated and held the paintbrush even harder, as if only in this way could he restrain his thoughts, he cleared his throat on purpose, and said in a low voice: "Gu Fei, you're actually pretty good-looking, I, I..."

His voice stuttered because of timidity, but he couldn't help but look up at Gu Fei again: "The first time I saw you, I thought so, and I was never embarrassed to tell you. Have you talked about it? I mean, you have talked about it." Girlfriend?"

Shi Miao looked at this cowardly young artist and shook his head silently.

One of his slender legs was slowly bent, his right hand first rested on his thigh, and then he touched his upturned buttocks from the outside of his thigh——

It was an action that was slightly different from the script.

He put his hands on his buttocks frankly, caressing his body full of hints, even with animal-like honesty and naturalness in desire.

Shi Miao's eyes are almost the same as Gu Fei's eyes in the original book, slender and as dark as night.

Under the half-bright light, Shi Miao looked at He Yanxi, the focus in his eyes no longer belonged to a nude boy being portrayed, his focus was predatory and devastating.

He Yanxi took a deep breath, and when he spoke again, he had unconsciously stood up from the easel. He stretched out his hand clumsily, stroked Shi Miao's hair, and asked in a hoarse voice: "Gu Fei, Have you ever done it?"

Shi Miao raised his head, he didn't speak, but bit his lip with his teeth.

"Me neither, neither, I'm just like you..."

He Yanxi muttered while taking off his pants with trembling hands.

At that moment, he was so embarrassed in front of Shi Miao, like a child who was at a loss for his own desires.

Shi Miao took the initiative to hug him.

He Yanxi grabbed Shi Miao's hair, moaned from his throat, but suddenly pushed Shi Miao away again.

Panting heavily, he turned his head away in some confusion, his expression was struggling between light and shadow, almost ferocious.

When Shi Miao's back was hit against the wall, he grunted in pain, but the light in his eyes burst out again.

He grabbed the back of He Yanxi's neck and pressed it down heavily, and the two of them immediately fell onto the single bed and kissed deeply fiercely.

The physical entanglement of the two men seemed to devour each other completely, and there was a bloody smell like fighting in the air.

Shi Miao hugged He Yanxi tightly, his legs moved like a twisted snake, wrapped around He Yanxi's body, and he made a sound for the first time——

Low and low, like a small animal cruelly tearing its prey apart with its teeth, it let out a bloodthirsty and charming moan.

His demeanor is so cold, but at this moment, the strong lust erupted, shining brightly, like a little wildfire in the endless wilderness, completely ignited at that moment, and went straight into the night sky——

At that moment, the lights suddenly turned on.

Shi Miao let go of He Yanxi all of a sudden, his body shrank back, and the usual indifference appeared on his face again.

He Yanxi stretched out his fingers subconsciously, as if he wanted to touch Shi Miao's hair, but then he seemed to wake up suddenly, immediately withdrew his hand, and sat back to his original position in silence.

"Good acting."

Xu Zhe couldn't help admiring: "It's really good."

"Thank you Director Xu."

Shi Miao got off the bed and straightened his shirt carefully.

He didn't go to see He Yanxi again, but sat quietly in the spectator seat.

At that moment, Xia Tingwan felt a sudden tension in his back.

He never thought that a boy five or six years younger than him could actually perform the most explosive play in front of him.

Gu Fei played by Shi Miao—Silence, is so powerful.

Bravely stroking herself, when pressing He Yanxi down for a kiss, she was wild but also charming.

Primitive, rough lust, stubborn and powerful longing, like a flame burning through Xia Tingwan's heart, he even almost forgot that Shi Miao was wearing clothes the whole time.

He was nervous, yet excited like never before.

Shi Miao is an unprecedented rival in his acting career.

This boy is younger than him, his acting is more explosive than him, and he is probably even more beautiful than him now.

But at this moment, he didn't seem to feel any fear in his heart.

Xu Zhe didn't waste much time, turned his head to look at Xia Tingwan, with a hint of worry in his eyes, and asked, "Tingwan, do you want to take off?"

Xu Zhe knew the scars on Xia Tingwan's body, so he was always more afraid and painful than others when he was asked to act naked.

Xia Tingwan stood up, took a breath, smiled gratefully at Xu Zhe, and said softly firmly: "Teacher, I'm going to act naked."

When filming "Whale Language" many years ago, Xu Zhe and Xia Tingwan worked for a long time for the last naked scene of leaping into the sea.

Later, when shooting, there were only a few photographers present besides Xu Zhe.

But he still minded.

At that time, he still couldn't face the mottled body from his dark childhood.

When Xia Tingwan was walking towards the single bed step by step naked, He Yanxi couldn't help but froze when he glanced at the scar on his body.

But Xia Tingwan's mood was very calm.

He didn't think about the scars on his body, nor about the scene between Shi Miao and He Yanxi before, so he just lay on his back on the bed without distraction.

While waiting, he looked up at He Yanxi, and suddenly said softly, "Thank you."

At that moment Xia Tingwan was very sincere.

In fact, as He Yanxi's actor, he didn't need to audition for another partner in person, let alone auditioning with four actors in a row. Even for a professional actor, such consecutive auditions It's all very debilitating.

He Yanxi seemed a little surprised, then showed a very gentle smile, and said in a low voice, "It's okay."

The voice of the assistant counting down came from a distance.

three two.

Xia Tingwan breathed steadily, looking at He Yanxi sitting in front of the easel from such an angle, the handsome face of this man slowly swayed like a reflection in water.

Gradually, it turned into Xu Rong's face.

One.

The light hit the body.

Xia Tingwan took a deep breath, turned his body sideways, and looked at He Yanxi with his face resting on one hand.

The same plot was repeated again.

Holding the paintbrush, He Yanxi said while painting, "I don't paint many human bodies, especially men, because I always feel that..."

He then raised his eyes and secretly looked at Xia Tingwan.

Xia Tingwan looked at He Yanxi.

His eyes were also focused, but the focus inside was subtly different from Shi Miao's. What he was looking at——was He Yanxi's lips.

Those thin, clearly defined lips whispered to him slowly.

The sound flowing out of it is like a clear spring in a mountain stream.

Xia Tingwan pushed the broken hair on his forehead behind his ears, and he poured his shoulders towards He Yanxi, revealing half of his white ear, as if he wanted to hear He Yanxi's words more clearly.

He Yanxi couldn't help but move forward and move closer, but immediately retreated forcefully.

He cleared his throat, "Gu Fei, you're actually pretty good-looking, I, I..."

His voice trembled uncontrollably.

Xia Tingwan listened intently, but when he heard the word "beautiful", his eyes dimmed involuntarily for a moment.

He turned his head sideways, his body couldn't help shrinking, and he used his hands to hide some scars on the right face.

The person in front of him is his beloved.

When he praised him for his good looks with that pleasant voice, he suddenly panicked quietly.

He was a speechless mute, and he had a scar on his face that would never go away.

At this moment, how much he wishes he was not like that.

He Yanxi looked at him in a daze, and suddenly stretched out his hand gently, tentatively stroking the scar on his face.

It was a movement that he had never seen in the play with Shi Miao just now, nor did it appear in the script, but it was as natural as flowing clouds and flowing water.

He Yanxi stammered and said, "Gu Fei, the first time I saw you, that's what I thought, and I never had the nerve to tell you. Have you ever talked? I, I mean, have you... ever talked to a girlfriend? "

Perhaps the person in front of him had the same flustered heartbeat as him.

Xia Tingwan felt relieved, he leaned against He Yanxi's warm palm, lowered his eyes and smiled shyly.

His hands slowly descended, slowly stroking his naked and curved thighs from the waist.

The position between the fingers is only a few centimeters away from the hidden part curled up between the legs.

He Yanxi looked down at him, the hand touching his cheek trembled uncontrollably, and murmured, "You, have you ever done it?"

Xia Tingwan raised his head, his eyes were as bright as a cluster of flames lit in the silent night.

His five fingers suddenly clenched the soft flesh on the inside of his thighs tightly, and due to the excessive force, a few red marks were left on his white skin in an instant.

He shook his head at He Yanxi, and made several chaotic and dry voices from his throat.

The dumb answer didn't make any sense, like desire being stuffed in the damp sky.

He Yanxi's eyes moved from Xia Tingwan's face to his body, and then to his face...

His Adam's apple uncontrollably rose and fell, and for a moment, Xia Tingwan could almost feel the real and suddenly hot temperature and breath on He Yanxi's body.

There was a beast-like crimson in He Yanxi's eyes, and he murmured, "I don't, I don't, I'm just like you..."

While muttering, the man took off his pants impulsively and quickly.Xia Tingwan leaned over and hugged him actively.

He Yanxi grabbed Xia Tingwan's hair fiercely, forcing him to look up, but the moment they looked at each other, he couldn't help but push Xia Tingwan away heavily, pushing Xia Tingwan against the wall .

Xia Tingwan groaned, and He Yanxi, who had acted violently, looked up at Xia Tingwan tremblingly.

There was a childish and pitiful look in his eyes.

Xia Tingwan almost felt an uncontrollable moan from his chest.

He Yanxi is tall and handsome, between the two of them, he was originally the more manly side.

But when only the two of them faced their own lust world, when they sincerely faced their monstrous desires for the first time, they were also so embarrassed and helpless.

Xia Tingwan looked at He Yanxi with unprecedented and delicate love, holding him hostage at that moment.

He bit his lips tightly in pain, but stretched out his hand, from top to bottom, slowly stroking He Yanxi's back that was trying to stop, like comforting a child who was at a loss.

He Yanxi held Xia Tingwan's face in both hands, his eyes were almost full of fear.

Tears gradually welled up in Xia Tingwan's eyes, he wrapped his arms around He Yanxi's neck, and the two of them fell together slowly on the narrow single bed.

He looked at He Yanxi's lips, and raised his chin longingly for a kiss.

"Don't be afraid—"

He couldn't say what he wanted to say, only weird grunts and hoarse moans escaped from his throat.

His body is soft.

He was so tender that it was almost charming, but at the same time he was extremely tolerant and powerful.

Don't be afraid.

I am the same as you.

Just as lonely, just as lonely.

The lust is too deep, so deep that it seems to drown and swallow people.

But we'll dive in together—

To the sky, to the ground, to the sweetest dreams.

He Yanxi kissed him deeply.

At that moment, Xia Tingwan seemed to feel the throbbing of the real connection between them.

The man in his arms is Xu Rong, the only beauty in his life during more than 20 years of loneliness.

He Yanxi's body was trembling violently, Xia Tingwan hugged He Yanxi's broad shoulders tightly, and began to tremble uncontrollably.

Gradually, the trembling frequency of the two of them seemed to merge into one. They kept kissing deeply, and as the light and shadow intersected, Xia Tingwan saw He Yanxi's long eyelashes trembling emotionally.

Xia Tingwan closed his eyes tightly, and a tear trickled down from the corner of his eyes.

Lust, long, wet lust.

The downpour seeps out from the rubbing skin drop by drop, passing through the thick clouds——

descended into the world.

At that moment, the lights flicked on.

The play was over, Xia Tingwan was very aware of this, but her body was still shaking uncontrollably.

He opened his eyes and looked at He Yanxi in front of him, feeling that he was more fragile than ever before, and he almost couldn't restrain himself from crying.

There was a deep and moving light in He Yanxi's eyes.

He didn't leave Xia Tingwan's body either, but stroked Xia Tingwan's thin back vigorously with his warm palm, and whispered in Xia Tingwan's ear: "It's okay, it's okay."

"sorry."

Xia Tingwan forced three words to He Yanxi, and finally got up and got out of bed.

The moment his feet stepped on the ground, he felt a sense of weightlessness. Exhaustion and excitement were intertwined, which made him almost feel like he was about to collapse.

He knows that in terms of explosive power and beauty, he is not an actor who can surpass time.

He is indeed no longer as young as a new star like Shi Miao.

But the years, the passing years, gave him a richer and thicker emotional experience.

It's hard to tell who is right and who is wrong.

An actor who has traveled thousands of miles in the world may be able to detect a glimmer of light in the sky.

The human heart is a labyrinth that cannot be exhausted by mere interpretation.

He is not playing Gu Fei.

He made himself Gu Fei.