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After getting out of the car, Gu Ying came to this psychotherapy clinic. It is not a big place, and the location is not in the city center. There are only a few offices. It is said that this clinic is run by a student of Dr. Hernando.

The place is small and elegantly decorated, but it is full of patients who want to meet almost every time period.

Dr. Hernando is a well-known psychiatrist overseas. He actually doesn't practice here. He is not familiar with the location of Shanghai, so he made an appointment to see Gu Ying here.

Just as Gu Ying walked to the front desk, the nurses at the front desk looked at Gu Ying in surprise.

"It's my guest," Dr. Hernando said as he stepped out, avoiding unnecessary misunderstandings.

The assistant put two glasses of warm water and turned around to go out.

The office is bigger than Gu Ying imagined.

The bookshelves are full of books about mental illness, and the colors and decorations make people feel comfortable and the colors are soft.

"Sit down, please," said Dr. Hernando.

"How is Mr. Yue these two days?" He asked by the way.

Gu Ying sat opposite him: "He had a fever yesterday."

Dr. Hernando nodded: "Let me introduce myself, my name is Hernando, and I say I am a psychiatrist." He took out his business card and handed it to Gu Ying.

"Gu Ying, Yue Qianxuan's lover" Gu Ying didn't have a smile on his face, his expression was full of worry.

"Mr. Yue has been seeing a psychiatrist for almost two years. In Huaguo, he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at first," he said straight to the point.

For two years, this made Gu Ying's eyes full of surprises. Two years ago, he was still in a coma in the hospital and didn't know anything.

"Bidirectional disorder has many clinical manifestations. It will make you busy, suddenly happy, or suddenly depressed. You may also appear manic and blame yourself. I was very opposed to him adopting a child at the time, which is not good for children's growth, but To my surprise, his condition has improved a lot. His self-control ability is very good in front of his son. Even his family members are not aware that he has this problem. Every time before the onset of the disease, he will send the child to the child's grandfather. Grandma's house." Hernando continued with a serious expression, "Then he shut himself up at home and didn't see anyone. After those few days, he seemed to be back to normal."

"Didn't you say you're getting better? Why are you still taking medicine?" Gu Ying lowered her eyes, what was left in her heart was worry and heartache.

Five years was too long for Yue Qianxuan.

"When you wake up, the situation changes, you can say it gets worse, from bipolar disorder to dissociative identity disorder, which is generally called multiple personality disorder."

He watched Gu Ying sitting there in a daze, with his hands on his knees restlessly, full of helplessness and loss, he raised his eyes to Dr. Hernando: "Because of me?"

"It can also be said that Mr. Yue loves you very much. For five years, he has been staying in the ward of the hospital. Many times the doctor suggested that the infusion tube should be pulled out, because there is not much chance of waking up while lying there. It is possible. It's a kind of torture for you to be like this for a lifetime, I heard from Mr. Yue that you went to the intensive care unit several times while you were in a coma."

Because he loved Gu Ying so much, he refused to let go. All the torture Gu Ying suffered turned into Yue Qianxuan's self-blame. When he saw Gu Ying unconscious on the hospital bed and could only rely on the machine to maintain his vital signs, his What do you think?

"He hopes that the person on the hospital bed is him. He always feels that he has not protected you well, so this is the cause of his dissociative body recognition disorder. For him, the past five years have been a big blow. When a person is alone When facing too much, self-blame and discouragement will breed, subconsciously hope that he will no longer blame himself, so for the first time he has a personality, if nothing happens, no one is admitted to the hospital, probably now Yue Qianxuan is like that personality, like a normal person who has no self-blame and conceit, and loves you very much, of course these are the conclusions based on my observations in the past two months."

After Dr. Hernando said this, he looked at Gu Ying. He took out a stack of documents from the bucket: "These are his medical records for the past two years."

The medical records cannot be shown to outsiders without authorization, but they can be shown to legal lovers.

Gu Ying's eye sockets became moist in an instant, his eyes were slightly red, and he stretched out his hand tremblingly to take the stack of materials, choked up for a moment and couldn't say anything.

My heart is heavy like a big stone, I can't breathe, why is it like this?Gu Ying herself didn't know.

That idiot, why do you want to stand by the hospital bed foolishly?Do you think you are a husband and wife?Why don't you leave?If he had met the right person, maybe today would be different. He was flipping through the medical records in his wildest thoughts, and his tears could not help but melt on the paper. Only then did Gu Ying realize that he had lost his composure. He reached out and wiped away the tears.

"Can this disease be cured?" Gu Ying asked with a hoarse voice.

"Yes, but the chance is only 5.00%." ​​Hernando nodded.

"Five...only five." Gu Ying's eyes turned from expectation to disappointment.

"You don't have to blame yourself too much, stay with him more, and he will get better if you persist in the treatment," Hernando said afterwards.

Gu Ying nodded in thanks and turned to leave.

Just after walking out of the gate of the outpatient clinic, a gust of cold winter wind rushed towards Gu Ying's face, which made Gu Ying wake up a lot, but when he returned to the car, he couldn't stop crying.

It seems that I have never been so sad, tears blurred my vision, my heart hurts so much that I can hardly breathe, why is there such a fool?What is there to blame?

As long as he imagined bit by bit, Yue Qianxuan stood alone in front of the hospital bed, talking to himself to a person who couldn't answer him.

Even blaming himself, Gu Ying felt very uncomfortable.

Gu Ying was finally interrupted by a phone call, and Song Ji decided to call and tell Gu Ying after much deliberation.

"Yue always wanted me to hide the medicine on his bookshelf, I'm sorry..." Song Ji apologized on the other end of the phone.

"I don't blame you, you did a good job." Gu Ying replied after a long time.

"Gu Dong?" Song Ji choked up when he heard Gu Ying's voice: "Are you okay?"

"I'm fine." Gu Ying drove home after hanging up the phone.

Noon is when the winter sun is shining brightly. Looking back at the house and entering the suburbs, the road is full of sunlight falling on the leaves, casting light and shadows on the road.

Close to the suburbs and far away from the noise of the city, he stepped on the gas pedal, backed up the car and put it in the garage. Gu Ying wiped the moisture from the corners of his eyes with his hand.

strode closer to the door.

The first thing Gu Ying did when he got home was to go straight to the study, hid Yue Qianxuan's medicine on his bookshelf, and then went to the bedroom.

As soon as he walked to the bedroom, he saw Yue Qianxuan standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows. That position happened to be able to see Gu Ying driving back to the house.

Yue Qianxuan was wearing loose and casual home clothes, he turned around and saw Gu Ying standing at the door, Yue Qianxuan showed a gentle smile.

"You're back?"

Gu Ying didn't say anything, she strode forward and stretched her arms around Yue Qianxuan's neck, not letting go.

"What's wrong?" Yue Qianxuan said with a smile.

"Is the cold better?" Gu Ying asked softly after a long time.

Yue Qianxuan nodded: "The fever has subsided."

Only then did Gu Ying let go of him, and involuntarily leaned forward and kissed Yue Qianxuan's lips, probably because he was so distressed just now, and he didn't know how to comfort him, thinking that Yue Qianxuan was still hiding it from him, Gu Ying had no choice but to pretend Do not know.

Surprise flashed across Yue Qianxuan's eyes, but he quickly wrapped his arms around Gu Ying's waist, took the initiative and kissed him back.

"The cold will pass to you." He whispered in Gu Ying's ear.

"It's okay." Gu Ying then pressed Yue Qianxuan's lips, the kiss became hot, and his breath lingered.

Gu Ying was a little surprised that Yue Qianxuan didn't refuse, if it was Yue Qianxuan, he would definitely not have kissed Gu Ying when he had a cold.

And this kiss became more and more entangled, which made Gu Ying suddenly think of another personality of Yue Qianxuan that Hernando said.

If they hadn't experienced the thing that was a nightmare for Yue Qianxuan, maybe the current Yue Qianxuan would not be full of self-blame, and the love would not have become so fettered.

It was that personality that appeared, and Gu Ying would not feel strange in his heart. To him, no matter what Yue Qianxuan's personality was, they were all Yue Qianxuan.

After a long kiss, they broke up.

"Sure enough, I don't have a fever anymore." Gu Ying smiled and reached out to hold Yue Qianxuan's face.

"I just said that I have a good physique, and I don't get sick easily." Yue Qianxuan's eyes seemed to contain stars, and he reached out to grab Gu Ying's hands.

With a bright and handsome smile, Gu Ying is reflected in his eyes, and his eyes are full of lovers.

The deep and clear pupils are full of tenderness. If you observe carefully, you will find that this personality is a little different from Yue Qianxuan.

He is much more enthusiastic than Yue Qianxuan, and his admiration will become more pure and cute. He grabbed Gu Ying's hands and rubbed his face against Gu Ying's palms like a cat.

He seemed to like Gu Ying reaching out to touch him very much, and the corners of his mouth slightly raised a happy arc.

Gu Ying lowered her eyes: "Are you Ah Bai?"

"I want to be Ah Bai, and I can be hugged and rubbed by you," he nodded and said.

It made Gu Ying burst out laughing.

In fact, no matter what kind of Yue Qianxuan he likes.

It’s no longer snowing in the capital city. As the Chinese New Year approaches, Gu An starts his winter vacation. After Yue Qianxuan recovers from his cold, he starts to go to work in the group. As the Chinese New Year approaches, the group will hold an annual meeting.

Now the hospital of the Yue family is taken over by Yue Qianxuan.

As for the fact that he concealed Gu Ying's illness, Gu Ying never asked about it. Although Yue Qianxuan thought he had many doubts, Gu Ying never asked, and he would not cause the two to be separated because of Yue Qianxuan's little secret. People are distant.

He didn't want Gu Ying to worry, so naturally he wouldn't say it, the two of them had a tacit understanding, and if Yue Qianxuan didn't say anything, Gu Ying pretended not to know.

Gu Ying still hasn't changed, and sometimes even clings to Yue Qianxuan like a clingy kitten, especially when he has another personality, Gu Ying finds that that personality will become a clingy cat, he doesn't like being clingy to Gu Ying, The relationship between the two has not degenerated at all.