Abnormal

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Bai Xiuwen had just finished the conference call, when the people on the monitor started to move. He rubbed the space between his brows, got up and went back to the basement.

The basement is huge, covering an area of ​​[-] square meters.The design here is handled by him alone, most of the area is used for training purposes, and a small area is reserved for office use.Just now he was here to observe Gao Tong who had just been brought here, and his reaction and actions were almost the same as he expected.

Gao Tong is already awake.

His eyes were half open, and he lay on his side in a daze.He was so thin, lying on the open ground dying, like a bird shot to the ground by a shotgun.The fur is messy and bloody.

Bai Xiuwen returned to his seat and turned on the lights in the office area.

The young man didn't seem to expect him to be here, his pupils widened in shock.He might want to get up, but he suddenly realized that the shameful leg splitter was still in effect, and he couldn't close his legs no matter what, and his soft penis was drooping at the base of one leg.And this movement seemed to move the whole body, Gao Tong hissed in pain, feeling his muscles and bones were twisted, and finally fell back to the original place.But he didn't give up, and his upper arm was still stubbornly trying to untie the lock belt around his neck.

He looked like he was bound but struggling.Bai Xiuwen thought, just like the antelope that he saw when he and his friends went hunting in Kenya two years ago, even though it was rounded up and bitten by a lion, it still resisted kicking its hooves, the blood and violence squeezed out a pool of pus The beauty and toughness.

He watched as the hot and thriving life gradually extinguished, and finally turned into a pool of bloody organs.

The ecological cycle of nature is usually like this. The pursuit of predators and prey is staged all the time on the scorched grassland.

Bai Xiuwen raised his fingers together, and lightly tapped the armrest of the seat with his fingertips.He thought, maybe when Gao Tong behaves better, he will take him to travel around the world, the East African grasslands, South American rainforests, Northern Europe aurora... These miraculous and great natural landscapes are many years older than the history of human existence. It is worth watching.

He believed he wouldn't have to wait long.

Just as he was thinking about it, there was a sudden coughing sound from the other end. He looked over and found that Gao Tong had changed from lying down to kneeling by himself. He clenched his hands into fists and was coughing violently face down.

"Give, give me water..." He said angrily.

His face and neck were reddened by the cough, Bai Xiuwen stared at it for two seconds, neither agreed nor refused, and only told him to crawl over.

Gao Tong was quiet for a while, and then couldn't help coughing again: "...I don't have...the strength anymore."

Bai Xiuwen looked at him, as if evaluating the truth of the words, "If you want water, you can choose to climb over by yourself, or I will go over." He kept tapping his fingertips on the handrail, "Of course, these two The results of the options may not be the same."

"The choice is yours."

This is another trap.Gao Tong thought.

He said he had the right to choose, but how could such a good thing happen?It's not that he really won't learn his lesson. Every time the other party says this, it means that he is already in a fire pit, in a dilemma, and every option is a trap.

My eyelids felt heavy, my skin burned like whiplash, my stomach was empty, and my throat was swollen and sore.He can't remember the time very well recently, but he also feels as if no water has been in for a long time.

But no matter what, you won’t get beaten if you climb over it, right?

Thinking of this, Gao Tong slowly started to move.Fortunately, the whip didn't hit the knees, and although there was a small scratch on the arm, it wasn't to the point where he couldn't move at all.

His current muscle strength was close to zero, and he climbed for a full 4 minutes before he approached the opponent's area panting.That place seemed to be one or two steps higher than the place where I was originally, and the feeling of contact between the skin and the ground was also different. It was a paved wooden floor.

"..." The basement was cold and damp, but Gao Tong still sweated a lot. The sweat beads soaked his eyelashes, and he felt sticky even when he opened his eyes.

He finally crawled to Bai Xiuwen's feet.

The next moment, he felt some soft cloth touching his cheek, and someone pulled up the short chain around his neck. He shrank back subconsciously. The other party seemed to pause, and then pulled him back.

"Aggrieved?"

He heard the other party ask a faint question, and the cloth touched his face again, and gradually moved down from around the eyes to wipe it gently.Gao Tong didn't hide and stayed where he was, only after a while did he realize that it was the other party wiping the sweat off his face with a handkerchief.

"What about you?"

The handkerchief was removed, and Bai Xiuwen propped his chin up with the back of his hand.

Gao Tong came back to his senses, "Yes, I'm sorry...no."

"No?" Bai Xiuwen seemed to find it interesting, and looked down at him, "Then why are you crying again?"

"I didn't cry." He defended feebly.

"Do you think I can't tell the difference?"

How did you tell the difference?Gao Tong thought slowly, is he crying again?In fact, even I don't know.He didn't want to cry. If he really shed tears again, it could only be attributed to his overdeveloped lacrimal glands.

"Drink... drink water." He asked slowly, "Thirsty."

Bai Xiuwen looked at him, and stroked Gao Tong's chapped lips with his thumb: "You should know how to ask." The glass on his right hand was full of ice water, and the cold air caused a lot of water to climb up the glass. beads.

He intentionally let Gao Tong see it, and saw that the young man was staring at the water in the glass, and swallowed several times.

"I want to drink water..."

Bai Xiuwen smiled, "'I'? Do you think you still have the right to call yourself that?"

Gao Tong raised his eyes in confusion, but his gaze was still on the glass of water.His thinking was running slowly, and he paused for a while before changing his mouth: "I want to drink water."

Bai Xiuwen was silent for a moment, then suddenly raised the glass with one hand, and under Gao Tong's burning gaze, he poured it down on the ground——

Gao Tong reacted greatly to this.He tried to get up and snatch the cup with hands and feet, the movement was so fast that Bai Xiuwen didn't expect it, but he quickly grabbed the short chain around Gao Tong's neck and forced him to stay in place.

"Have I allowed you to move?" He asked coldly, "Do you still want to be whipped?"

Gao Tong's body visibly trembled when he heard the word 'pumping', but he didn't refute, he just quietly looked at the puddle of water and the shattered ice on the ground.

"I thought you had enough time to realize that the training has begun. How do you call me, how do you call yourself, and some basic essentials of being a slave, do these rules need me to reiterate?"

After a long time, Gao Tong replied softly: "Twice, it's the same."

"Every time...the initial training process is violent and coercive. If you don't accept it, you will be beaten. After the beating, you will be given a sweet date, and finally use some high-sounding words to...convince me." He looked up at the other party: "I don't understand , Bai, Bai Xiuwen, what exactly do you want?"

Bai Xiuwen raised his legs, folded his wrists, and said in a funny way, "Continue."

"...There is nothing to continue." Gao Tong said in a low voice: "I don't understand your purpose, that's all. Can you, let... me?"

His heart was beating very fast, waiting for the other party's reply.In fact, with his current state of mind, it was not easy to say these words. Pain, hunger and fear took away his reason and perception to a large extent, and he was very afraid of Bai Xiuwen.

Does he get angry?Will you whip yourself for no reason?Would you... do what you did that night again?

Gao Tong wants to eat, drink water, leave here, and see his parents and Qiuqiu.He was thinking about these questions every moment, conscious or not.

After waiting tremblingly for a while, he heard the other party's plain voice: "You are always forcing yourself to bear unnecessary pain, Gao Tong."

Can't understand.But I also know there will always be a follow-up.

Sure enough, at the next moment, "This is why I said you can't recognize reality. All along, your life has been bound by an unforgettable past, a seemingly bleak future, and the present that is trapped in a dilemma. Irritable, sensitive and low self-esteem, eager to improve but always feel that there is no opportunity, and when the opportunity really comes, you lack the courage to move forward. It is you who do not want to look forward."

"..." Gao Tong slightly raised his eyes, his bloodless lips were tightly pressed together, as if he wanted to defend himself, but he suppressed it again.

This doesn't seem to have anything to do with what he just asked.And what's the point of saying that now?

The feeling of oppression on the neck disappeared, and the other party loosened the short chain tied there, "Look, you don't even dare to admit it."

I didn't dare to admit it.He was too powerless to tell, so he had to refute in his heart over and over again.How can a person like you, who has always been glamorous and everything goes well, understand the difficulties of others.

"Do you know that saying? 'Man is born free, but he is everywhere in chains.'" Gao Tong stared blankly at the desk with his slender fingers. The lines in the palm of his hand suddenly reminded him of how the opponent played basketball in high school. Bai Xiuwen seemed to be able to catch the basketball facing down with one hand-"Rousseau's opening words in "The Social Contract", this is his understanding of the basketball. Diagnosis of the living conditions of human beings. Once a person is born as a human being, he is irresistibly restricted by multiple social factors. The so-called shackles are morals, laws, and concepts and customs constructed by human "conscience". Humans transition from natural persons to society Humans think they are great and great, but the cocoon they have transformed has already wrapped them in an impenetrable wall."

"There is freedom in this world, but once people enter the social state, they will never be able to obtain complete and pure freedom. The freedom of people in modern society is a constructed, limited and costly freedom. In this situation, society— — That is, the living environment of human beings is the deepest cage. Freedom is also a kind of shackles. Gao Tong, do you understand what I am talking about?"

The other party's speech came slowly, and the tone of the question was unexpectedly gentle. Gao Tong was wandering, and when he was called like this, he subconsciously shook his head and said something that he didn't quite understand.

"It's okay." He seemed to see that the angle of the other's mouth was slightly raised, and said softly, "I will explain it clearly for you."

Gao Tong found that he couldn't look away at all.

He wanted to tell the other party to stop.This is so strange, he was originally calm, but at this moment his heartbeat became faster and faster, like a wooden ball in accelerated motion, rattling and rattling in the empty room, violently and surging, He heard it.

How could this be?

Still unable to comprehend the sudden symptoms of his body, he felt the hand that Xiao Xiang had just put on his head, gently brushing away the broken hair on his forehead.

icy cold...

"You can clearly feel the pleasure of being bound, dominated, and possessed, but you refuse to admit and accept your instinct. This is because social consciousness and concepts are fettering you," Bai Xiuwen lowered his voice.

"—but I can liberate you and help you get out of the predicament in this world."

His pupils widened, and Gao Tong stood there in a daze.He tilted his head sluggishly, and an unspeakable feeling came over him suddenly, as if someone had drilled into his brain with Gu worms, devouring his mind and cognitive ability.

He seemed to be under the trap, he was the bait and the prey, and finally fell unconsciously.

Gao Tong tried his best to shake his head, but it made him dizzy even more.The other party got up from the seat, picked up the empty cup, and went to the water dispenser to get water.

Gudong Gudong, the sound of water falling into the glass is no different from the sounds of heaven at this moment, Gao Tong is so thirsty that it seems that smoke is coming from his throat, and he can't help it anymore, and even has the idea of ​​throwing the other party down. It's all his.

At the moment when he was about to act, the other party walked up to him again, leaned over and pinched his cheeks, "Open your mouth."

The cool water flowed down the dry and hot throat, and he became excited like a desert traveler finally seeing an oasis, and he opened his mouth even more without being pinched by the other party.The water soaked the originally dry lips, and then flowed down the chin to the pale and naked body. Although Gao Tong was shaken by the ice, he still did not escape.

But the other party showed no signs of stopping. Gao Tong gradually couldn't drink anymore, and choked a little, trying to shut up.However, that hand locked his cheeks like iron tongs——

"Woooo...cough, cough cough!" With tears choked up again, Gao Tong raised his hand to grab the opponent's arm, but he couldn't push it at all.

It feels like my stomach has been filled with a lot of water, and my stomach is heavy, why is it like this again...

Bai Xiuwen stopped his hands.He looked at Gao Tong.

"You yearn for freedom and shelter; you yearn for liberation but also for shackles. There is no such dual law in the world, Gao Tong." He said every word: "I understand better than anyone else in this world. You, even far beyond your parents and family. I know your past, all your weaknesses and pains. Only I can help you."

"It's not clear to you that all the struggles and resistances to me are like gnats shaking a tree, and they are useless. But if you cooperate with me, I will relieve you from the pain."

Gao Tong's eyes were panicked, he didn't want to listen anymore.Although he had been hungry and weak before, fortunately he had been able to keep the pure land in his heart, but now that he was under multiple attack, he began to panic that the sliver of clarity he was trying to maintain might not see the light.

Bai Xiuwen was right.Sometimes he feels in a trance that the other party is setting up a feast, and his various resistances are the condiments.

"You...what are you talking about, prison cage, but...don't you build it now, isn't it the same?" Gao Tong struggled to squeeze out a few words: "Bai...Xiuwen, you don't understand people like me... ...I also want to...like you, to live a smooth life, with a golden spoon in your mouth...I don't want to be indecisive and hesitant every time I meet an opportunity, and miss the opportunity again and again for the last time, but we are different... "

His eye circles were red, and there were blue veins on his forehead, which seemed to be in great pain.

"I have no way back... Pain is what makes me feel alive..."

"I can't forget it, I can't go back, I don't dare to try anything."

silence.

Bai Xiuwen put his right hand into his trouser pocket, there was a pack of cigarettes there, and for a moment he really wanted to smoke.

But now is not the time.

He paused, wiped away Gao Tong's tears with his fingertips, and said, "Pain doesn't make you feel alive, it's that you haven't found the source of the pain."

After saying those words, Gao Tong seemed to have exhausted all his strength.He knelt there in a daze for a long while before whispering in a trembling voice: "The root of my pain..."

He unconsciously raised his eyes to look at Bai Xiuwen, then shook his head nervously.

"Speak out." He kept crying, Bai Xiuwen took out a tissue and wiped it for him: "Just say it, Tongtong."

He waited patiently for half a minute before he heard Gao Tong say softly, the root of my pain is you.

Bai Xiuwen actually smiled: "Really?"

Gao Tong shrank and looked up at him, as if frightened by the smile, but he soon realized that there was an emotion in the smile that he couldn't understand, was it pity or something?

The next moment, he heard the other party say softly: "This is easy to solve. From now on, with me, you will no longer have real, worldly pain."

"No, no..." Gao Tong seemed to have fallen into some kind of vortex, he shook his head in disbelief, and moved back a lot, he just felt like he was in a dream: "It has nothing to do with you. Yes , has nothing to do with you... No, you don't have to worry about me... It's my own fault..."

It has nothing to do with you, just stay away from me.It's better to never know each other.

However, Bai Xiuwen looked at him with a calm face, "Since the self is the source of suffering, then dedicate yourself and transfer the pain to a trustworthy person."

In the emptiness and dead silence, these words came over like deafening.

His broad, warm palm gently grasped the back of Gao Tong's neck, and rubbed it faintly: "Without self, you will not have pain."

The voice was also bewitching. Being pressed and rubbed like this, Gao Tong was a little confused and wanted to turn his head to look at the big hand controlling him, but he was quickly turned away gently, "Look at me, Tongtong."

Gao Tong was forced to look at the man in front of him, his eyes were calm and deep, like a silent seabed.

"You will gradually realize that the most meaningless thing in this world is the will and spirit that human beings are proud of. Mountains and lakes, jungle birds and animals, things without self can be immortal."

"Once people have these illusory desires/desires, they will involuntarily want to go beyond the original realm and pursue higher things, but this is actually tantamount to fantasy. Seeking beyond one's ability to cross dimensions , is very dangerous.”

"And you can be different. Have you ever raised a dog? This kind of creature only needs to be loyal, pleasing and dedicating to the owner wholeheartedly, and it will get a complete return. With the owner, they will no longer be lonely Nothing to rely on." Bo Xiuwen said slowly: "This is not the disappearance of the original character, but the transfer of power, and it is an exponential function when it tends to the infinite limit.... Just like I told you before, the world Many relationships come from the transfer of power."

Gao Tong didn't speak, and his eyes were fixed on the almost disappeared water stains on the ground.

After a long time, he blinked leisurely.Those brown pupils were slightly out of focus, filled with a little confusion and bewilderment, and a strange look of stability after a sudden realization.

Bo Xiuwen held his cheeks, fingered his drooping eyelashes like crow feathers lightly, tears made the fluffy tail feathers clump together, at that moment his heart felt hot, and a sudden thought popped up in his mind. A grotesque and crazy desire - he wants to tear off his soft and long eyelashes, dig out his watery eyeballs, he wants to really devour the person in front of him, tear him apart, let him completely Merge with yourself...

—he finally leaned down/to kiss his eyelids.

"good."