Cloudy but no rain

Su Fengmian was lying on the bed. Not long after returning to Ye Fuyi's house, it started to rain outside the window. It was the beginning of spring a few days ago, so this was the first rain in spring. It was different from the winter rain. The spring rain gave Su Fengmian a feeling of The fragrance of the grass and trees may be due to psychological effects. He always feels that the rain in spring is more fragrant.

When he was in college, every time spring came, the kapoks on both sides of the street bloomed very vigorously. One side was fiery red and the other was pink. The kapok under it will overflow with a light fragrance that is never seen in sunny days.

Su Fengmian attributed this to rain rather than kapok.

And there are many people who come to his alma mater to enjoy the flowers every spring. Su Fengmian didn't like to join in the fun, but he found that Ji Zhifei often chose to take this road full of kapok, so he often detoured here. By the way, I hope to see Ji Zhifei.

Even if there is no difference between seeing him and not seeing him, Ji Zhifei went to Ji Zhifei's place, he wrapped himself in a distinctive padded jacket and went to his own, so he would never look at each other, he thought that Ji Zhifei probably wouldn't find himself .

Su Fengmian just finished sending the message to "Fox Dog", when he heard the sound of the shower in the bathroom stop, he immediately sent another "good night" to "Fox Dog", cut out the software on the mobile phone page, and opened a courseware at will.

As soon as Ye Fu Yi came out of the bathroom, he went to the bed and lifted a small corner of the quilt. His whole body was steaming hot, his clavicle and shoulder blades were still flushed, and he got into Su Fengmian's bed.

The heating in the room is very heavy. Su Fengmian already felt a little hot when he was sleeping in it. Ye Fuyi broke in like a stove. He felt so hot that he was about to sweat, so he moved a little to the edge of the bed, and the quilt couldn't be covered. Overnight, he felt less stuffy and cooler.

"Come to sleep." Ye Fu Yi glanced at the phone, set an alarm clock, and said to Su Fengmian after putting it down.

"Wait, it's a bit hot." Su Fengmian said and fell asleep a little bit inside. Seeing that Ye Fuyi put down his phone, he also turned off the phone and lay down under the bed. Only then did he see that Ye Fuyi was a little more relaxed. demeanor.

The relaxed Ye Fu Yi looked a little tired.

"Turn off the light." Ye Fuyi looked at Su Fengmian with a look that he never had before, and the attitude revealed in his eyes seemed a bit too sincere.

Su Fengmian froze for half a second before turning off the light.

The room suddenly becomes dark, and the human ear is more sensitive in a dark environment.

After Su Fengmian lay down, the sound of spring thunder outside the window rang in his ears, as if cooking a bowl of sweet porridge, gurgling, besides, there was the sound of Ye Fuyi's regular breathing.

He hasn't lived with Ye Fu Yi for a long time, and he doesn't know why there is a kind of gratitude and rejoicing in his heart.

"What are you thinking?" Ye Fu Yi asked softly, he didn't open his eyes, Su Fengmian guessed that he was tired, so he didn't answer.

He just looked at Ye Fuyi, he likes Ye Fuyi, he doesn't deny this, but it seems that he can't fall in love, he can't find a better future from Ye Fuyi, especially Ye Fuyi said that he has a son, And after acquiescing that their identities would never be disclosed to his son, Su Fengmian thought about giving up this relationship many times.

But let's face it, many people at this age have been divorced, and he couldn't find a better one.

He looked at Ye Fu Yi's peaceful sleeping face, carefully stretched out his hand, and caressed Ye Fu Yi's chin, which had a little stubble. He touched his own again, and it felt the same, prickly.

Not long after, he saw Ye Fu Yi slowly opened his eyes.

Su Fengmian and him stared at each other for a long time, with the city lights outside the window with the curtains not drawn, the outline of Ye Fuyi's face finally softened.

He unconsciously leaned over to kiss the person who was hugging him.

How long has it been since they kissed? Su Fengmian didn't count carefully, but felt that when he kissed Ye Fu Yi, he was indeed a lot stranger, and the tip of his tongue scratched Ye Fu Yi's teeth several times.

Su Fengmian frowned, and then he felt Ye Fu Yi laugh, and he let go of his arm.

"why are you laughing."

"I don't know, I just feel very happy."

"Then can you NO.14 accompany me?"

When Su Fengmian asked this question, he didn't pass through his brain, and he regretted it after asking. Ye Fuyi also remained silent for a few seconds, as if he was stopped by the question.

"I have to work overtime." Ye Fuyi reached out and squeezed Su Fengmian's earlobe to express comfort, "Next time."

This was Su Fengmian's expected answer after the two were silent.

"OK, good night."

Su Fengmian turned around, and Ye Fuyi's hand was freed by him, stopped in the air for a moment, and then slowly retracted.

"Good night." About three or four minutes later, Ye Fu Yi said good night to Su Fengmian's back.

How can I have a good night.

Su Fengmian's heart was flustered with boredom, as if the rain this night was very long, but no matter how much or long the rain was, it couldn't bring him a bit of refreshment.

He didn't fall asleep until the second half of the night, and he didn't feel sleepy with his eyes closed or open, and he kept a posture without knowing it. The left arm that was pressed was gradually numb.

He struggled inwardly for a while, but he took the mobile phone from the bedside table and turned on the screen. The flash of light made him unable to open his eyes, and he was afraid that the light would wake up Ye Fuyi, so Su Fengmian could only sleep halfway down on the pillow , got into the quilt, and the light of the mobile phone faintly peeked out from the quilt, like a deep sea jellyfish.

Foxdog: I don't have time, I have work to do.

Foxdog: And...Let’s put it this way, I don’t really like meeting netizens. Maybe it’s better for netizens to just be netizens.

Spitz: Good night.

After reading these few lines of news, Su Fengmian was not very disappointed, but more helpless.

It's true that some people don't want to meet netizens, so he can understand, but "fox dog" talks so hard, Su Fengmian himself doesn't know if he can still mention the meeting, if he can't, he probably won't want to continue chatting up.

Su Fengmian lifted a corner of the quilt and took a deep breath. The feeling of inhaling fresh air was like taking a mouthful of spiritual opium. He was completely relieved of sleepiness. The words were dismissed.

Su Fengmian clicked on the personal homepage of "Fox Dog" again, and it was the same as when he first started following him. The number of followers did not increase, the number of fans did not increase, the personal homepage was not updated, and no newcomers liked or commented on him. ——The fans seem to be dead fans sent by the system, maybe they are alive inside.

Su Fengmian couldn't believe that he had chatted with such a strange netizen intermittently for so long. Although it was only a month after careful calculation, in the fast food era, a month of only being connected by a network port was already a gift to Su Fengmian.

They chatted from personal interests to careers, and now they can even talk about their love life in a relaxed way—this is probably the charm of strangers.

But not every stranger will be happy to listen.

Su Fengmian has met all kinds of strangers on this software over the years, 90.00% nine, in the first week, he was willing to listen to himself, and he was willing to share with himself, but once the freshness period has passed, it has entered a weak period. See you, I probably won't have the patience to reply to messages again.

So Su Fengmian cherishes "Fox Dog" very much.

If you don't meet, don't meet.

He replied "It's okay" to the other party, then exited the software, turned off the phone, put the phone down, and went to sleep.

Opening eyes, turning on the phone, turning up the screen light, canceling the Do Not Disturb mode, turning up the volume bar, Ji Zhifei woke up.

He woke up very early today, for no other reason, simply waking up earlier than usual, maybe because he pretended to have something on his mind, he woke up much earlier.

He drew the curtains of the room, opened the windows, and the cold air rushed in.

The air at 05:30 in the morning was very refreshing. Although it was still dark, Ji Zhifei could feel that there had been a heavy rain outside, because the air was mixed with the specific smell after the rain.

And the news on Ji Zhifei's mobile phone WeChat made him feel even more refreshed.

Su Fengmian: I usually have time at night, but I may have to go back to school during the day, so it’s hard to say.

Of course Ji Zhifei knew the meaning of this sentence, that is, no matter what night he asked Su Fengmian, he could come.

Ji Zhifei replied without thinking: Friday night.

Su Fengmian: That day is the Lantern Festival.

Ji Zhifei didn't expect Su Fengmian to reply so quickly, he was surprised for a moment, and quickly typed another line: Woke up so early?

Su Fengmian: Hurrying to go to class, Ye Fu Yi's home is far from the school.

"..." Ji Zhifei looked at the three words "Ye Fuyi" in the message box, but he was not very disappointed, because it was the first time that Su Fengmian typed out Ye Fuyi's full name, which was enough to make people Ji Zhifei comforted himself.

Ji Zhifei: Okay, let’s go on Friday night.

Su Fengmian: Yes.where to go

Ji Zhifei: Yilai Tea Restaurant, I will send you the specific address.

Su Fengmian: Good.

Ji Zhifei was quite puzzled. He remembered that the last time Su Fengmian didn't go to Yilai Tea Restaurant because Ye Fuyi's house was far away, but this time Su Fengmian quickly agreed.

He tentatively asked: Shall I pick you up?

Su Fengmian: No, I can go.

After Su Fengmian sent these seven words, he switched to the car-hailing platform, hailed a taxi, and took himself to school.

I went to bed at [-] or [-] o'clock last night, and woke up at [-]:[-] o'clock today, inevitably dizzy and drowsy.

Especially since getting older, sleep time is becoming more and more precious, but the probability of falling asleep is getting lower and lower.

He often wondered whether staying up late and insomnia would lead to sudden death one day.

But Su Fengmian did not dare to imagine death.

When he mentioned death, the first thing he thought of was his father.

He vividly remembered his father's death. His father died because of a sudden cerebral hemorrhage and the operation failed. Su Fengmian himself participated in that operation. Although he was not the chief surgeon, he never touched the operating table since then.

For as long as a year after the failed operation, Su Fengmian had a serious fear of trauma. He could not hold a knife, he would tremble when he picked up a knife, and he would even lose control and collapse when he was seriously depressed.

He knew that he shouldn't blame himself, but the emotion of self-blame was like the root of a cactus, deeply rooted in his desert-like heart.

"Hi passenger, I'm at the gate of the community, you can come down now."

The driver's call forced Su Fengmian to wake up a bit, and broke free from the memories.

He tidied up his emotions and prepared breakfast for Ye Fuyi before leaving. It was two fried eggs and a piece of toast. He put the breakfast in an insulated box and left Ye Fuyi's home.

When he walked out of the house, he saw the key that Ye Fuyi put on the shoe cabinet.

This key is the one Ye Fu Yi gave him before.

Su Fengmian raised his hand, picked up the small piece of cold metal, held it in the palm of his hand, and put it down again until he sweated a little, closed the door and left.

Volume Four

I request

next rain

clean my bones

close my eyes

I request

(I.e.

rain is life's fault

rain is joys and sorrows

——"Rain" Haizi