Cloudy but no rain

At four or five o'clock in the morning, Su Fengmian has already woken up. During the month of the month, he always wakes up very early. After getting up, he washes his mouth and face and eats breakfast. Breakfast must be two bowls of porridge plus a steamed bun. There must be some lily lotus seeds in the porridge , good for the lungs.

He also forgot which day it started, obviously he didn't smoke too much, but the problem of lung pain has not improved significantly, but it is not a relapse of the old asthma.

It can only be said that the body is really getting old.

Su Fengmian stared at the only snow-white lily seeds left in the bowl, forcing himself to scoop them up and eat them.

The taste is clear and astringent, not sweet, but it is very greasy after eating for a long time.

He packed up the dishes and left the house before six o'clock.

In mid-March, the government had already stopped heating, but Su Fengmian would turn it on extra, so it would not be difficult to get up every morning. The difficult thing is to turn off the heating, open the door and enter the public corridor, when the sudden onslaught In the cold, it is inevitable to shiver.

The windows in the corridor are also glowing with the unique fluorescent blue in the early morning, because the sun has not yet fully come out, like the blue in the deep sea looking up to the sea, with a little bit of light.

Fortunately, it's the end of March now, and when I go out after five o'clock, I can basically see the pale sunlight. After the warm air slowly enters the north, when I go out, it's not as cold as it was in the past few weeks.

"Ding dong" The cell phone stuffed in the cotton-padded jacket rang first, and then vibrated, touching his chest, the constant vibrating was a bit uncomfortable, so Su Fengmian had to take it out to look.

When he saw the three words "Ye Fu Yi" on the phone, he was a little confused. These three words seemed to bring him back to a month ago like a dream.

It's been less than a month since I broke up with Ye Fu Yi, but it seems like centuries have passed.

During this time, I go out early and return late every day. If I occasionally go to Liu Yueyang’s house at night to supplement his biology alone, I may not be able to go home until early in the morning, and I have to go back to school early the next morning to supervise the students’ morning reading, lesson preparation, and writing. Report.

The cycle repeats every day.

His frequent appearance in the classroom probably made the students sound the alarm bell of the second model, and the students are more and more fond of pestering him to ask questions.

So basically, he sat in the office for a whole morning, and then sat for an afternoon. He was busier without classes than with classes.

It’s good to be busy too. Coffee, bitter tea, red pen and chalk fill up my life, so that things about Ye Fuyi won’t sneak in.

But Ye Fu Yi finally took advantage of the situation, in the early morning before six o'clock.

Su Fengmian took a deep breath and hung up the phone, but the message that Ye Fu Yi had just sent popped up on the screen—probably the ding dong was because of this message.

Ye Fuyi: I'm divorced and resigned. Of course, it's not a naked resignation. I'm flying to another city today and want to see you for the last time.

For some unknown reason, Su Fengmian's first reaction when he saw the word Ye Fuyi was the scene where he was crying in the hospital garage some time ago.

Su Fengmian still opened the dialog box, the history record in the dialog box is still there, he didn't delete it intentionally.

The last chat record was that Ye Fu Yi came to school to find him.

He typed a few words dully: OK, when?

Ye Fu Yi actually didn't have any hope of receiving Su Fengmian's message. When he sent it, he was ready for an exclamation mark to pop up in the message box, and he didn't think Su Fengmian would wake up at this point.

So Su Fengmian replied almost instantly, which surprised him.

He was dragging the suitcase, and it was inconvenient to type with one hand. He stopped while walking, dug into his pockets, found the ticket he had just picked up, took a photo, and sent it over.

The signal at the airport was poor, and the news spread for a while, so that Ye Fuyi was worried that a red exclamation mark would pop up.

On the ticket, I flew from Yuecheng to Xicheng, and also crossed half of China, from east to west, from offshore to inland.

His hometown is in Xicheng. After the divorce, he didn't tell his parents. They are old people who are about to die. They probably can't stand this kind of stimulation. Talking about it will only increase the trouble.

He just wanted to go back to the place he was familiar with, at least there was still a home and the sand and rocks belonging to the Northwest. Unlike the yellow sand and haze in the north, the soil and gravel in his hometown were the most solid, not hurting people or entering the lungs.

Mian: I will pass now, you wait for me at the R1 ticket gate.

Seeing this news, Ye Fu Yi twitched his lips, and still smiled with relief, but felt bitter in his heart. He didn't know what this feeling was. It was more helpless than helpless, more fortunate than fortunate, and more fortunate than regretful. I regret a little more.

The plane is in the afternoon, he is not in a hurry to go through the security check, he is not in a hurry to do anything now, even if he has to wait several hours for Su Fengmian to cross the city during the prime time traffic, he is not in a hurry.

The divorce procedures and property issues for more than half a month had exhausted him. He Yin was not as easy to talk to as he imagined. In the end, he only kept the house that he bought——He Yin finally found out, and knew Ye Fuyi was very emotional after having a house outside. She had been emphasizing with her lawyer how many lovers Ye Fuyi had raised in that house, and she wanted to sue for bigamy, but there was still no evidence, and the other party was a man. The difficulty is even higher.

And there will be no more evidence, Su Fengmian can't live anymore.

Ye Fuyi actually wanted to tell her, and even more wanted to tell Su Fengmian, that the only ones who lived in that house were himself and him, no matter whether it was Yingying Yanyan or the person who had an affair, he never really handed over the key, no I have led people in, even if there are guests, they are guests. If they don't stay, they stay in the guest room.

That house has always been deserted, like a morgue at night, he is just a corpse lying in it.

It was only after Su Fengmian came over that it became a bit homely. There were fruits in the refrigerator, and there would be no quick-frozen food. Finally, the range hood was turned on a few times; The news is sometimes an anti-Japanese TV series; the two-meter-wide bed finally has two pillows, even if Su Fengmian did not come in the end, even now, there are still two pillows...

Ye Fuyi told He Yin about this, and he hoped that He Yin would not be resentful and not blame Su Fengmian, but He Yin just said: "I can do it too, I have always done it, but you will never come back to this home again That's all."

Ye Fu Yi had no way to refute, so he signed He Yin's agreement, completed the formalities yesterday and submitted his resignation report and leave application, and came to the airport today.

He just felt that the city was too suffocating for a moment.I am also too bad to deserve some of the only good things in this city.

He didn't intend to see Su Fengmian at first, but when he walked to the security checkpoint, he came up reluctantly.

Speaking of it, I was still too selfish, and I clearly agreed to Ji Zhifei not to look for Su Fengmian again, let Su Fengmian live a good life and work well, and don't think of myself who once lied to him so badly.

Ye Fu Yi stared at the ticket in his hand, and swore in his heart that this was the last time he would look for Su Fengmian.

Whether he comes or not, there will be no future.

Ji Zhifei was on the morning shift today and had to go back to the hospital early.

As soon as he returned to the duty room, he received an email from the hospital's administrative department, informing him to complete the submission of the application for going abroad, including visa and other procedures, before May.

There were a lot of messages in the mailbox, he glanced at them, and after reading them with one click, he called Dean Qian, but the other party didn't answer for a long time, and he fell into anxiety early in the morning.

"Have you had breakfast yet?" Li Jinxiu pushed open the door of his duty room, and took another half step back, "Hey, your display screen hasn't been turned on yet, open it quickly, here's the steamed stuffed bun for you."

"Thanks."

Ji Zhifei had no choice but to temporarily put aside the things that made him anxious, and took the steamed stuffed bun, but it was still hot, so he put it on the table, went to the door, and turned on the electronic display screen at the door of the duty room. Looking back, he saw Li Jinxiu still standing in the duty room , and asked, "What's the matter? I'll eat the buns later."

"Oh, old Ji, stop holding it, we all know that you are going abroad, why don't I come here to ask you about it, why don't you tell us!" Li Jinxiu has always been a straightforward person, and he didn't notice When he said this, Ji Zhifei felt a little evasive.

He embraced Ji Zhifei, and patted him on the shoulder by the way: "When will you invite us to a restaurant?"

"I'm still..." Ji Zhifei was about to explain that he hadn't made up his mind to go yet, when Li Jinxiu interrupted: "OK, I understand, I'll treat you to a meal first, a farewell banquet, just Call the people from our two departments, not many, I invite you to dinner, okay!"

"..." Ji Zhifei squinted at him helplessly, without saying a word, Li Jinxiu left happily and satisfied, before he left, he didn't forget to tell him: "Remember to read the news, I'll check it out when the time comes Qun, farewell for you!"

"Ah."

After Jinxiu left, he closed the door and the room became clean and quiet again.

Ji Zhifei glanced at his watch, and there was still half an hour before work started, but the list of patients who made appointments for registration had already been displayed on the monitor at the door and on the computer, and almost all of them were appointments in the morning. If you get up early, you may not be able to get in line.

He is still popular with patients in the hospital, he doesn't talk much, he prescribes the right medicine, mainly because he looks like a doctor, especially when he wears anti-blue light glasses and sits in front of the computer - of course this kind of patient welcomes him I would rather not, after all, no one wants to see the "grand event" full of patients.

But there are indeed a lot of patients recently, and the surgery has been scheduled for a month since this week.

He sat down, glanced at the steamed stuffed bun on the table, and picked it up to eat after hesitation.

Taking advantage of the fact that he could look at his mobile phone now, he turned it on, and opened Su Fengmian's social software personal homepage habitually.

He hasn't updated for a long time, and during this period of time, he chatted very little with him, more often he was posting by himself, and this "free today" doesn't seem to be very free, Ji Zhifei counted, and the other party The ratio of replies is five to one, that is, if you send five messages, the other party may reply one.

He didn't know what Su Fengmian was busy with, but it didn't matter, he was busy too.

Ji Zhifei silently sent "Good morning" and planned to quit, but Su Fengmian replied immediately.

Free today: Morning.

Fox Dog: Wake up so early.

After Su Fengmian received the news, he first took a look at the expressway to the airport paved in front of him. The densely packed cars formed a long queue. The taxi driver in front had already got off and smoked two cigarettes. The road was congested. Motionless, like a river frozen in winter.

The most speechless thing is the return road next door. There is no car, it is empty and smooth.

Su Fengmian continued to look at the phone at ease, and replied to him: Well, I have been getting up early recently, and the college entrance examination is coming soon, so I have to hurry up.

Foxdog: My recent surgeries are almost full.

I'm free today: Well, it's good to finish this period of work, and go back to take the first year of high school.

Foxdog: I want to go back to be an intern. During the internship, I thought that I was tired enough doing odd jobs, but I realized that it would only be more tiring when I became a director.

Free today: I envy you, busy is better than idle.

Ji Zhifei didn't know how to reply when he saw the news. He thought for a while and typed a few words, although it seemed very sudden: What are you doing now?

In short, it is never wrong to ask what the other person is doing when you are at a loss for words.

Free today: stuck on Airport Boulevard.

Fox Dog: Where are you going?

Free today: drop off, my ex told me this morning that he was leaving.

Ji Zhifei suddenly remembered that he hadn't seen Ye Fu Yi in the hospital for a long time, and he seemed to have heard that he had resigned.

He remembered that the last time he talked to Ye Fu Yi was when they had supper together some time ago.

Speaking of which, he had a supper once, and his opinion of Ye Fu Yi changed a bit. Although he didn't think he was a good person, he didn't hate him as much as before. Maybe it was because Ye Fu Yi drank too much that night. Talking too frankly, and Ji Zhifei can't hate frank people, he thinks this is why he didn't resist Su Fengmian's frank liking for him back then—if Ye Fuyi wasn't Su Fengmian's predecessor, taking off this identity, he There is a high probability that he will maintain a relatively good colleague relationship with Ye Fu Yi.

Foxdog: Didn't you say earlier that you don't plan to meet?

Free today: who knows, instinctive reaction.

Spitz: That's a good sign, at least it means you don't care so much.

Free today: You are like a relationship counselor hahahaha, you are obviously a child.

Spitz: ...um.

Ji Zhifei almost forgot that his setting here was a young man in his twenties.

Free today: Actually, I am still quite curious about you, do you think we have a chance to meet?Although you said you didn't see it before, I still want to ask.

Ji Zhifei subconsciously typed "no chance", but when sending it, he was afraid that Su Fengmian would not want to chat anymore, or his enthusiasm would fade.

He knew that for a person like Su Fengmian who often hangs out on social software, spending time and energy with a netizen would definitely want to meet, even if it's just a one-time meeting, not to mention that the other party knows that he is from the same city.

It's embarrassing to refuse many times, and I can't find the reason for not seeing it.

He originally wanted to say that he was ugly and had social anxiety, but he couldn't say such words—at least in his heart, he was neither good-looking nor ugly, and he was still very confident in his appearance.

If he looked for any other reason, he couldn't find it, and it wouldn't be a problem if he continued to spend it all the time.

He glanced at the time, he was going to work soon, and he was not allowed to look at his phone during the consultation, he had to go back to Fengmian.

Time passed by second by second, and the ring finger of his right hand kept tapping on the phone case, making a choice between "yes" and "no". Inexplicably, he felt like he was doing a judgment question, and he still didn't know the correct answer True or False - There may be no right answer at all.

I'm free today: I don't mind if I don't have a chance, I'll just ask, don't be nervous, it doesn't matter.

Ji Zhifei was really excited by this sentence, how could he be indifferent, after all, after talking for so long, Ji Zhifei thought about it carefully, and it has been a few months, from winter to spring.

So in the end, I deleted "no chance" and changed it to: Yes, the premise is that you don't run away when you see me.

Click Send.

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The answer this rotten flesh wants to give

been in the rain

i have been unable to suppress

The urge to kiss your flesh with decay

——Yu Xiuhua "On Our Decaying Flesh"