I don't want to play anymore

Cheng Yang was stunned for a while before he said lightly: "Actually, it can't be called a psychological shadow. I used to be very angry when I thought of that incident, but now I don't have such strong emotions, but it doesn't affect me at all, it's not. "

……

Cheng Yang didn't know where Chang Chen lived, he only knew where many teachers lived in the school, and it was close to the school, so it was more convenient.

There was no class that day, so he went to Chang Chen to pay back the 500 yuan he earned from odd jobs.Chang Chen teaches chemistry and is the teacher in their class. This is not the first time he has paid for materials for him. He used to go to the office to ask him to pay back the money. He received part-time money this day, which happened to be a weekend. On the way again, he went to his house.

He was looking for someone in the community, and happened to meet another teacher in their grade, and that teacher pointed him to the floor of Chang Chen's house.

The stairs in the old residential area were very narrow. Chang Chen lived on the top floor, and the weather was hot. He sweated a lot when he climbed up to the sixth floor. There was only one door on the top floor. Cheng Yang knocked on the door a few times, but no one came. Opening the door, he tried to twist the doorknob, but the door opened, and then he heard suppressed crying and strange panting/breathing.

The living room was very messy, many things were thrown on the floor, it looked as if it had been visited by a thief, Cheng Yang's first reaction was that Chang Chen's house had been stolen, he ran to the door of the bedroom following the sound, and saw Two overlapping and entangled figures...

For a long time, in Cheng Yang's impression, Chang Chen was clean, gentle and decent, so the scene of him being disheveled and being pinned to the ground by another man... had a great impact on Cheng Yang. Seeing that Chang Chen was struggling, resisting, and still pleading to the man in a low voice, and that man looked crazy and rude, and didn't care about Chang Chen at all, so without even thinking about it, he picked up a chair and turned towards the man Swipe on the back of the past.

……

Zhang Ye felt that Cheng Yang's hand was stiff for a moment in his palm. He let go of his hand and rubbed it on his shoulder a few times: "It's okay, it's okay, it's over."

Cheng Yang closed his eyes for a moment and opened them again. He said with an extremely serious expression: "I don't dislike intimacy, but occasionally I think about the past. Give me some time."

Zhang Ye held his hand again: "Take your time."

Cheng Yang looked at him: "I'm afraid you will..." He seemed to want to find a more accurate word to describe it, but he felt embarrassed to say any word.

"Can't wait?" Zhang Ye said it for him, "I'm not in a hurry, really. I'm just, after all, you probably didn't know that men could be with men at that time, and I suddenly let you see that kind of picture, no People give you psychological counseling, and you are not the kind of character who will find someone to talk to, I'm just, I'm just afraid that you will have ptsd or something."

Cheng Yang nodded, and the two walked along the alley again: "It will be finished in another week."

"Well," Zhang Ye tapped Cheng Yang's palm, "The inspection period is coming to an end, can I know the inspection results in advance?"

"Then let me pass it for you in advance." Cheng Yang said.

"So, you're a boyfriend now?" Zhang Ye couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth.

"Well," Cheng Yang couldn't help laughing, "Boyfriend."

Zhang Ye looked at him and smiled: "Then do you want to express it now?"

Cheng Yang's eyes fell on the corner of Zhang Ye's mouth, and then he took a step forward and kissed his boyfriend.

There are restaurants on one side of the alley, so it is very noisy, but there is no one else passing by in the alley except the two of them, which makes them forget the taboos and feel that this is a very safe place.In fact, the two have always been very careful. Except in the hotel room, they have never had any intimate actions in other places. This is the first time, probably because of the first time, both of them are a little excited, immersed in the In this kiss, I was very selfless, until suddenly I heard a "plop", the sound was like an alarm, and the two people in the passionate kiss separated abruptly, but Zhang Ye's hand was still on Cheng Yang's back, Cheng Yang He was also holding Zhang Ye's other arm.

The two looked around, and a black shadow flashed for a moment and then disappeared.

"It's a cat." Zhang Ye let go of Cheng Yang's hand, and said with a bit of resentment, with lingering fears and unfinished thoughts.

"Let's go, let's get you something to eat." Cheng Yang also let go of Zhang Ye's arm, and pointed forward, his heartbeat was not normal.

There was a very narrow side street further along the alley. The two stood and lingered at the intersection for more than ten seconds, then walked to the left, until their figures disappeared at the corner of the street, and a shadow flashed out from behind a trash can , turned around and walked quickly in the opposite direction to the side street.

·

Zhao Duoduo came out of the bathroom, glanced at the seat on the chapter page, and took out the phone from his trouser pocket. Before dialing a number, he saw his assistant Xiao Zhang coming out of the back kitchen.

"Xiao Zhang, where have you been?" Zhao Duoduo stopped dialing and asked.

"The toilet is full of people, and there is an alley behind it." Xiao Zhang said with gestures.

"Oh." Zhao Duoduo naturally understood Xiao Zhang's meaning. He should have gone to the back to drain the water. He looked at the phone screen again. Before he could make a call, Liu Dongdong happened to walk over from the side, put his shoulder on his shoulder and said : "Go out and smoke a cigarette." As he said that, he led Zhao Duoduo around half a circle, and walked towards the gate of the gear.

Zhao Duoduo turned his head and gestured to Xiao Zhang, and followed Liu Dongdong out: "Did the boss tell you before going out?"

The drinkers are almost drunk now, and the non-drinkers are almost gone. In fact, there are not many people left in the stalls. Liu Dongdong's legs are a bit weak, but in the messy stalls, even if he walks out of the serpentine shape, he is still there. People laugh at him.

"I didn't reply to the message." Liu Dongdong said with his tongue out.

"I wanted to make a call, but I haven't called yet, so why don't I try sending a message." Zhao Duoduo picked up the phone again as he said.

"Stop posting, it should be...you left with Xiao Cheng." Liu Dongdong lowered his voice after speaking the second half of the sentence.

"Oh." Zhao Duoduo let out a breath, and helped Liu Dongdong walk to the curb outside.

Liu Dongdong took out a cigarette and a lighter from his pocket, and the two of them exchanged words.

"Xiao Zhang and the others are real or not?" Liu Dongdong glanced at the two crew members standing not far away, and lowered his voice.

Zhao Duoduo exhaled a puff of smoke, and his voice was mixed in the smoke, making it appear ethereal: "Really."

"When did it start?" Liu Dongdong asked again.

"I can't tell you that." Zhao Duoduo flicked the cigarette ash. He was not addicted to cigarettes, but he would smoke one with others.

"Do you think it's possible to go back?" Liu Dongdong took a deep breath and asked.

"Where are you going?" Zhao Duoduo didn't understand his words for a moment.

"Back to the past, it's just like before." Liu Dongdong gestured with a cigarette between his hands.

"Can't you accept it?" Zhao Duoduo's eyes widened.

"Actors like this are just a scam. If they explode, their future will be ruined. Besides, I asked Xiao Cheng that he probably won't hang out in this industry anymore. This is not a person on the same path at all. What do you think?" Liu Dongdong inevitably became excited as he spoke.

Zhao Duoduo patted him on the back: "I know you are doing it for the boss's good, but this matter, he is out of control, maybe he is hot now, and then separated later, maybe he can stay hot all the time, who knows, you say Right? Marriage and divorce, emotional matters, who can guarantee it?"

Liu Dongdong nodded thoughtfully, pinched the cigarette and threw it into the trash can next to him: "You send him a message, just say that we are going back to the hotel first, and ask him to pay more attention. I will go in and call the people who haven't left. Hello."

Zhao Duoduo hurriedly said, "Okay."

·

Zhang Ye and Cheng Yang found a seafood restaurant on the side of the street, and they ordered a few fresh fish, shrimp and crabs. There were few customers in the restaurant, and the food was served quickly. After ten minutes, the dishes were delivered one after another. into the box.

"Zhao Duoduo said that he and Liu Dongdong went back first." Zhang Ye looked at the phone and said.

"Brother Liu is quite nice." Cheng Yang put a yellow croaker on the plate, and took a piece of meat from the belly of the fish. This shop looks small, quite ordinary, and the food tastes pretty good.

"He's pretty good, so now I'm in a dilemma and don't know how to tell him." Zhang Ye said.

"Whether this matter is big or small, if you want to talk about it, he should understand. I think it's better to talk about it as soon as possible." Cheng Yang looked at him and said.

"Well, I know, he should stay here until I'm done, and I'll have a showdown with him after I finish," Zhang Ye said.

"When you didn't arrive, he toasted people everywhere, asking people to take care of you, which was very worrying." Cheng Yang tapped his mobile phone, "He drank a lot at night, why don't you ask him to make some honey water for him? Yes, otherwise I will feel uncomfortable when I get up tomorrow."

Zhang Ye called up the keyboard and replied a message to Zhao Duoduo. After replying, he put away the phone and reached for a crab: "You don't want to eat?"

"It's too troublesome, it takes a long time, just a little protein." Cheng Yang said.

Zhang Ye broke off a crab claw and looked at it: "Sure enough, it's not the season yet, and there's so little meat."

Cheng Yang glanced at his hand: "Not fat, right? I told you not to order it."

Zhang Ye peeled off the crab shell and broke the crab into two from the middle: "When I go back to City A, I'll take you to eat king crab, which has a lot of meat."

"Taozi likes to eat crabs, you can call him later." Cheng Yang said.

"It's simple, find a time for him to rest. Taozi has a job now, what about Chang Chen? I don't think he can stay at home all the time. Normal people will have problems if they stay for a long time, let alone he still has some problems. " Zhang Ye said.

"He still has to go to the hospital for regular check-ups, and he won't be able to go out to work for a while." Cheng Yang sighed, "Chang Jun also means that he won't need to go to work often after he has recovered. I also talked to him last time, he used to teach, he is not very good at other things, he may go to some extracurricular training institutions in the future, and he is also thinking about the future."

The crab really didn't have much meat to eat, Zhang Ye took two bites and threw it aside, took out a tissue to wipe his hands: "If you can think about it later, it means that the situation is getting better and better. By the way, it wasn't written in the script, that person What about the scum? After being detained and released, you didn’t bother Chang Chen again, did you?”

Cheng Yang was stunned for a moment, glanced at the chapter page, and lowered his gaze: "No, it's summer vacation. During that time, Taozi and I took turns to stay at Chang Chen's house. At that time, things got a little big. The other teachers in that community also vaguely knew about it. Maybe some people would point and point behind his back, but those young teachers were okay and would help him. The scum is gone."

"Did someone talk about you at the time?" Zhang Ye looked at Cheng Yang's eyebrows, his expression was very calm when he said these things, but Zhang Ye was inexplicably distressed.

"I changed schools not because of other people's comments, but mainly because I was afraid of revenge from scum." Cheng Yang said.

Zhang Ye nodded: "So that's the case."

Cheng Yang looked at him and said, "Don't you think me very pitiful?"

Zhang Ye said: "It's not that I think, it's that you are quite pitiful, in the future I will..."

Cheng Yang knew what he was going to say, he was a little embarrassed and even a little guilty, interrupted him and said, "Stop it, I'm really not as miserable as you think."

Zhang Ye sighed with a smile: "You are just too thin-skinned."

Cheng Yang said depressedly: "Are you finished yet?"

Zhang Ye hurriedly said: "Okay, okay, I won't talk anymore, let's eat quickly, don't go back to the hotel after eating, let's get a room!"

The impact of opening a room on Cheng Yang was a bit strong, but Zhang Ye said it very naturally, and he tried his best to show his composure, but he was embarrassed by Zhang Ye. He cleared his throat: "you said just now that you are not in a hurry."

Zhang Ye looked at him and said with a smirk, "I just want to be alone with you. I want to talk to you when I go back to the hotel. It's not safe to open the door. It's so depressing."

"Then you can stay in your respective room and watch the video." Cheng Yang pretended to be calm.

"My phone is out of data." Zhang Ye said.

"The hotel has WiFi." Cheng Yang deliberately exposed him.

"You are really no fun at all." Zhang Ye was so depressed that his face collapsed.

Cheng Yang looked at him and smiled for a long time before asking: "Going to the left bank?"