I don't want to play anymore

Cheng Yang stood at the door for several minutes before raising his hand to knock on the door panel, and then there was a long wait.

Every second of waiting was infinitely prolonged due to uncertainty and anxiety. In fact, it was less than half a minute, but he felt as if he had endured the whole afternoon.

When Zhang Ye opened the door, Cheng Yang's tense body trembled with the sound. After waiting for too long, he felt like he was dreaming. Before he had time to say hello, Zhang Ye had already turned around. Walking into the house, he froze for a moment, walked in with difficulty, and slowly closed the door.

He had already thought about the opening line, but after seeing the chapter page, he couldn't say a word. Cheng Yang followed him into the living room blankly, and then murmured a sentence: "Shi Yu said you drank too much last night. Are you still suffering now?"

Zhang Ye paused for a moment before continuing to walk forward, and said in a muffled voice, "It's okay."

The two fell into silence again. Cheng Yang looked at the familiar figure close at hand, and it took a long time before he remembered the words he had explained thousands of times in his heart: "What happened that day..."

"It's all over, I don't want to hear it anymore." Zhang Ye suddenly interrupted him and turned around.

Cheng Yang froze for a moment, looked up at Zhang Ye, Zhang Ye's eyes were a bit cold, his handsome face was expressionless, far from his previous gentle appearance, he was always like this on and off stage today, so indifferent It was so inhumane that Cheng Yang suddenly felt it was difficult to breathe.

"If you came to me just to explain that, there's no need." Zhang Ye said and turned away from him, then turned around and sat down on the sofa next to him.

Cheng Yang's eyes followed Zhang Ye, and saw that he sat down and touched a cup, poured a cup of tea from the kettle next to him, and put it on the table in front of him: "Drink water."

Cheng Yang stared at the cup of tea, and said awkwardly: "I was wrong about that time. I didn't tell you the truth at that time because..." He remembered that Zhang Ye said that he didn't want to hear his explanation, and paused After a while, I mustered up the courage to say: "If you don't want to hear it, I won't say it. I just want to tell you that I was wrong last time. It was my personal reason. I'm sorry."

Zhang Ye didn't look at him from the beginning to the end. He turned his face slightly and stared at the handle of the glass kettle. After a while, he looked up at Cheng Yang and said indifferently, "I don't remember what you said." After a pause, he smiled quickly and said, "By the way, you helped me drink that celery juice this morning, thank you."

He was still as gentle and refined as before, but it was completely different. Cheng Yang stared at Zhang Ye, feeling his chest was so tight that he couldn't speak a word.He originally wanted to explain to Zhang Ye what happened at the beginning, and to confess everything. If Zhang Ye could forgive him, that would be good, and he would try hard to make it up. But now, Zhang Ye treats him like a stranger, let alone Redemption, even asking for forgiveness has become a delusion.If he has completely let go of the past, then your behavior at this moment is entanglement to him, right?It will only be annoying.

But after finally meeting him again, he left without saying anything, and Cheng Yang couldn't bear to leave immediately.

The two of them confronted each other silently for a while, and the atmosphere dropped to freezing point. Cheng Yang wanted to say something all the time, but his mind was very dull, and any words he thought of made him feel inappropriate.

In the silence, Zhang Ye seemed to sigh lightly, and asked in a low voice: "Do you have anything else to do?"

This meant chasing guests, but Cheng Yang still couldn't move away.

Zhang Ye glanced at him again while waiting, turned slightly and poured a glass of water, picked it up and drank slowly.

Cheng Yang felt that he had been split in two, and half told him, you like him so much, how would you know if you didn't try?The other half said, stop entanglement, it will be embarrassing for everyone.

He tried his best to calm himself down and clear up his messy mind, but he couldn't ignore the feelings in his heart. His chest was stuffy like it was about to explode. Only after we broke up did he realize how much he loved Zhang Ye. , How did you survive so many days, how did you muster up the courage to decide to confess to Zhang Ye that you don't want to mention everything in the past, you can't show it to others, and show him the most humble and helpless moment.Ever since I saw the chapter page today, how distracted and restless is the whole person?All this is known only to him.

Finally, that voice overcame the vacillating thoughts, and told him very firmly, now that he finally got to the chapter page, no matter what, he had to give it a try, how would he know if he didn't try?It was you who did something wrong at the beginning, he must have been broken by you to do this.You only know that you have had a hard time in the past six months, what about him?Is he better?Wouldn't it be fair to make you go through what he has gone through?What are you being hypocritical about!

"Can we start over?" Cheng Yang asked slowly but firmly.

Zhang Ye did not expect Cheng Yang to be so direct. He was the one who said the end at the time, and now he is the one who said the beginning. He is so straightforward, he is not given a choice, and he is not given a chance to say no.His hands froze for a moment, then he put down the cup, slowly swallowed the tea in his mouth, and then asked, "Have we started before?"

Cheng Yang almost suspected that he was hallucinating, and glanced at Zhang Ye in disbelief.

Zhang Ye seemed to tremble when he saw those extremely beautiful eyes, and he felt a sudden pain in his heart.I have kissed those eyes countless times, and once looked at him coldly, saying, I don't want to see you... He is extremely contradictory, and he doesn't want to be like this. He really can't see through Cheng Yang, he even I'm not sure if Cheng Yang's reaction after entering the door is acting, after all, even Wu Zhen is full of praise for his acting skills.

He couldn't see through Cheng Yang's heart, let alone the real purpose of Cheng Yang's coming here.

On the way back just now, he stared at Cheng Yang's message for a long time as if in a daze, and then remembered the scene when Cheng Yang was talking with a host at the door of the lounge when he was on the TV station, he called Shan Jie, Ask her to find someone to find out. According to the host, Cheng Yang asked him some questions about the process of recording variety shows, and those things were clearly written in the script, so the host thought that Cheng Yang might be In order to get close to him, after all, many newcomers want to have a relationship with the host more or less on their first variety show.

So, Cheng Yang came back to him now, is it out of business needs?

After all, although his Weibo has not been updated, his roommate's Weibo often posts his status, and it has been trending several times. He is in this circle, and of course he knows how those entries climbed to the top of the list. The search list included the video of Cheng Yang's birthday, which even hung up on the trending search for a long time. He was part of a work-study program, so would he be willing to buy the trending search by himself?Or did his roommate pay for it himself?This is unlikely, and there must be a bigger driving force behind it.All these operations created him an indifferent personality and attracted him a lot of fans. His number of fans on Weibo is almost surpassing his own.

Now during the promotion of the show, I will stay with him for the sake of popularity, build up a wave of cp fans, and after the show is over, I will push him away mercilessly like before.

But this person, I once loved so sincerely, laughed for him, felt sad for him, and worried about him.Even after the breakup, I miss him all the time. I dream back at midnight, and it is often difficult to fall asleep again. I keep my eyes open until dawn. If I see any news about him on Weibo, I will feel depressed for two or three days...

Zhang Ye felt very powerless. He felt that while he was still in love with this person, he was very scared at the same time. Once bitten by a snake for ten years, he was afraid of well ropes. He hated himself for looking forward and backward, but he really had no confidence in Cheng Yang.

"You, can you really not give me another chance?"

Cheng Yang asked again, his voice sounded pitiful.

Zhang Ye unknowingly raised his head and glanced at him, although he knew very well that he came to you now, probably for some purpose, or to be more optimistic, he had no purpose, just saw you today, remembered some past events, wanted to Try again, after a long time, he got bored, and said to you very decisively, you go, I don't want to see you.But even with so many worries, Zhang Ye still couldn't directly reject Cheng Yang. He thought countless times that there would be a day when they could stand together again, and they could be as close as they were back then.Such an opportunity finally came, and it was created by the other party, so he couldn't refuse it.He even thought humbly, even if he wants to play with you again, as long as he can go back to the past, isn't that exactly what you want?

"Wait a minute." Zhang Ye stood up suddenly.

"Oh, good." Cheng Yang looked at him inexplicably.

Zhang Ye turned and walked into the bedroom. Not long after, he came out again, holding something between his fingers. He went straight to Cheng Yang and handed the thing to him: "If you really want to start If you remember the password of that apartment, go there and wait for me."

Cheng Yang took the things he handed over, looked down, his eyes trembled again, he looked again in disbelief, and then raised his head to look at Zhang Ye: "You..."

"If you can't do it, forget it, don't force yourself." Zhang Ye looked at him, smiled lightly, and quickly returned to his expressionless face.Just now he thought of doing this impulsively, but seeing Cheng Yang's hurt eyes made him feel uncomfortable.In the end, he convinced himself again, it was just a test for him, if he really wanted to play, at such a high price, he should have left by himself.

Unexpectedly, Cheng Yang held the things in his palms: "Okay, I'll wait for you." After finishing speaking, he took another deep look at Zhang Ye, turned around and walked out.

Zhang Ye stared at his back, unable to pretend anymore, frowning together in pain, he wanted to rush up to hug this person, wanting to stop probing and torturing each other like this, but his body seemed to be imprisoned by something , can't move at all.

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Cheng Yang didn't know how he got out of the hotel, he walked all the way to the steps outside, and was blown by the wind, he gradually pulled out a sliver of sanity from the huge shock and sadness, and then took the thing that hurt his palm He picked it up, took a look, and stuffed it into his trouser pocket.

He never thought that Zhang Ye would choose to start over with him in this way. He recalled over and over again the mocking expression on the corner of Zhang Ye's mouth when he said this to him, He wasn't sure if Zhang Ye was joking with him.

But it was him who was wrong at the beginning, even if Zhang Ye was joking with him, he decided to give it a try, if he didn't try, how would he know what the result would be.He loves him so much, what is this little thing compared to losing this person completely?Originally, I didn't need to participate in this variety show. I came here because of him. After meeting him and talking to him face to face, he would also give you a chance. You should be happy.Thinking of this, he regained his confidence and even took a bigger step.

After leaving the hotel, Cheng Yang took a taxi to the place where he was staying and checked out, then took the subway to the airport with his bag on his back. There was still some time before the flight took off. He sat in the waiting area, took out his mobile phone, opened Weibo, and the hot search The list is full of various entries. Fortunately, the entry about his birthday video and the follow-up related entries are no longer on it, which makes him relieved. I hope the last conversation It's useful, and roommate A will not post anything related to him indiscriminately in the future.

Someone stopped beside him, and a gentle and amiable voice said, "Excuse me, are you Cheng Yang? I'm your fan, can I take a photo with you?"

Only then did Cheng Yang come back to his senses. He looked up and saw a young girl pulling a suitcase: "Sorry, it's not convenient."

The girl still refused to leave. Instead, she let go of the trolley case and called up the camera of her mobile phone: "I saw your itinerary on Weibo. Are you here to record the show? Is your entire crew here? Where are the others? ?”

Cheng Yang stuffed the phone into his pocket and stood up: "Excuse me, excuse me."

The girl smiled at him awkwardly, and quickly took several pictures of him: "Are you going to board the plane?"

Cheng Yang heard the sound of her mobile phone shooting, knew that she had taken a photo, and frowned: "Please don't send out the photo."

"No, no, don't worry." The girl stared at her mobile phone and said with a smile.

Cheng Yang squeezed the strap of his bag and walked away sideways. The girl flicked her phone for a while, then chased him and took several photos of his back.