Breathe

Has been stripped.

In the extreme tension and shyness, Jian Luyao was completely unable to judge how long this tortured process lasted. When Song Dan suddenly raised her arm, she was frightened like a rabbit, trembling all over, and looked at Song with wide eyes in panic. Dan.

Song Dan laughed and raised the champagne glass: "Cheers."

Jian Luyao clinked a glass with her stiffly.

With a smile in his eyes, Song Dan stared straight at Jian Luyao's flustered face, picked up the cup, and drank the light-colored liquid calmly and gracefully.

Jian Luyao stood there at a loss, Song Dan's gaze was so existential, even if she didn't meet her gaze, she could still feel that gaze deeply.

Jian Luyao was so at a loss that she couldn't even stand up, she quickly glanced at Song Dan in her panic, and after meeting Song Dan's eyes, Song Dan withdrew her gentle and presumptuous gaze.

Jian Luyao turned her back, closed her eyes, and drank the remaining wine in the glass in one gulp.

She hadn't even drank beer a few times, let alone the easily intoxicating sparkling champagne. After drinking a glass, she was already dizzy.

In a daze, she heard Song Dan asking her to sit down, so she sat down in a daze.

Song Dan poured herself a cup, and then asked Jian Luyao, "Can I still drink it?"

Jian Luyao was six or seven points drunk, and the wine strengthened her courage. She said: "I can, I will have the courage to do other things after drinking."

"Huh?" Song Dan poured her a small shallow cup, his tone rose slightly, and there was a bit of joy in his gentleness, "What else are you doing?"

Jian Luyao stared at Song Dan with drunk eyes.

The bright and warm light of the chandelier illuminated Song Dan's face clearly but vaguely. She felt that Song Dan was as beautiful as Bouguereau's painting.

Jian Luyao looked at her, and the words rushed out without thinking, she said: "I want you."

Song Dan stretched her lips and smiled, revealing her teeth that were as bright as porcelain. That smile made her face vivid and real.

It turns out that she is not so unattainable, she can also grin.

Jian Luyao laughed, and asked her seriously: "Is it okay?"

Song Dan held the cup between his fingertips and spread his arms, as if welcoming him generously: "I'm right here, so what are you going to do next?"

Jian Luyao's wobbly gaze shifted from her pretty face to her protruding chest, flat stomach, and mountain-like waist-hip curve.

Jian Luyao said clearly, "Take it off."

Song Dan smiled and hummed, not knowing whether to agree or express doubts, but she didn't move her body anyway.

And Jian Luyao, who was drunk, just sat there stupidly, with fierce eyes in her eyes, without moving.

Song Dan chuckled, raised her head and drank another glass of wine, and when pouring the third glass, her eyes swept over Jian Luyao's...

She could imagine Jian Luyao's young, slender, and full of vitality in her mind.

Song Dan stroked the smooth and hard glass, and began to imagine the touch of Jian Luyao's skin.

"You want me to..." Song Dan put down the cup, leaned close to Jian Luyao, breathing from the side of her face to her ears, and finally asked, "Do you want to touch you?"

Jian Luyao, who had no coping experience, trembled and breathed heavily.

Song Dan smiled lightly and pressed her on the sofa.

The champagne in the bottle was still bubbling silently, and the intoxicating aroma of the wine was diffused. Jian Luyao grabbed Song Dan's arm and propped up her slender legs...

Pain, joy, intoxication... Intertwined into a colorful picture, Jian Luyao stared at Song Dan's white face with blurred eyes, and looked at the elegant and charming smile on her lips, as if falling into an illusion...

……

Song Dan was sitting with his back to her, wiping his fingers with a wet towel.

Song Dan's hair was not messed up, her black dress was neat, her back was straight and dignified, and her waistline was clear.

Jian Luyao felt that she was still drunk, so she boldly raised her body and hugged Song Dan's waist.

"what happened?"

Song Dan glanced at her, and wiped her fingers slowly and continuously.

Jian Luyao wanted to touch her, so she hugged Song Dan's waist tightly, and rubbed her cheek against her back, like a large dog acting coquettishly.

Song Dan smiled, threw away the wet towel, and stroked the arm around her waist with cool fingers.

"What do you want?" Song Dan asked.

Jian Luyao didn't speak, but rubbed Song Dan's back again.

Song Dan stroked the soft skin with his fingertips, and he was surprisingly patient: "Huh?"

Jian Luyao buried her whole face on Song Dan's thin back, smelling the fragrance of her skin, said sullenly, "I want you."

Song Dan laughed again, and she held Jian Luyao's hand, "If you want it, then get it yourself."

Jian Luyao shrank her hands, wanting to, but at the same time she was a little timid.

She raised her head and looked at Song Dan's face secretly. There was always a gentle and generous smile on her face. Those peach blossom eyes were soft, soft and non-aggressive, as if she could really do anything.

Jian Luyao slowly sat up straight, tentatively put her chin on Song Dan's shoulder, and then...

Song Dan was really cooperative.

……

Time has not left serious marks on Song Dan's body. Her skin is fair and soft, like a white rose that blooms just right. The petals are soft, and with a light touch, a rich honey fragrance can overflow.

……

Jian Luyao lowered her gaze and saw an inconspicuous scar on her lower abdomen.

"It's from the caesarean section." Song Dan explained, "I've used a lot of scar removers, but there are still marks left. It's ugly, isn't it?"

Jian Luyao quickly shook her head in denial, leaned over to kiss the scar, and muttered, "It's soft."

Song Dan laughed happily, resting the back of Jian Luyao's head with his palm, his eyebrows and eyes were charming.

Chapter 5

Jian Luyao drank another glass of wine later, and fell into a drowsy sleep under Song Dan's caress.

Before she fell into a dream, she had a strong premonition that the wind and rain would eventually pass away, and the flowers would bloom and the moon would be bright.Everything will be fine.

General.

When she woke up, Song Dan was wearing a bathrobe, sitting on a white chair on the terrace smoking a cigarette, steaming coffee and Western breakfast on a small transparent glass coffee table.

She picked up the coffee with the hand holding the cigarette, took a sip, then shook the ashes of the cigarette, looking calmly at the city under the morning light.

The morning sun was rising, and the bright sunlight had illuminated half of the city. Light and shadow shuttled through the tall buildings. This cold beast made of cement and steel was waking up.

Jian Luyao curled up under the quilt, staring at Song Dan for a long time.

Song Dan had just taken a shower, her hair was slightly wet and hung loose on her shoulders, but she had already put on her makeup, even though she was wearing a bathrobe, she was still elegant and beautiful.

Jian Luyao's body was naked under the quilt, and her clothes were in the living room, so she had to go out naked to wear them.

I was so dizzy from drinking yesterday that I don't know how I rolled onto the bed.

Song Dan was still staring at the city, Jian Luyao took a few sneaky glances at her, got out of bed, ran out barefoot, went to the living room to pick up the sofa and the clothes on the floor.

Hearing the sound of pattering footsteps, Song Dan looked back, just in time to see Jian Luyao's naked/running silhouette, she couldn't help smiling, and put out the tail of the cigarette.

When Jian Luyao got dressed and put on shorts, Song Dan walked in.

"How did you sleep?"

Jian Luyao became nervous, looked at the marks on Song Dan's collarbone, remembered the madness and beauty of last night, and stammered for a moment: "Very, very good."

Song Dan took a cup of warm water and handed it to Jian Luyao.

After drinking wine last night, Jian Luyao's mouth was indeed very dry, she drank most of the glass with a gulp.

Song Dan sat on the single sofa at the side, and waited for Jian Luyao to sit up cautiously while holding the cup, before saying, "Will there be classes later? I'll call a car to take you back."

There is a sketching class this morning, and Jian Luyao's basic skills in sketching are particularly bad. She has never missed a single lesson in this class, but now she shook her head and lied.

"No," she said.

Song Dan nodded, and after a few seconds, he asked, "What do you want?"

Jian Luyao didn't realize it for a moment, and then she suddenly understood what Song Dan meant—the prostitution is over, now it's time to pay, and Jian Luyao can make an offer.

She froze all of a sudden and squeezed the cup tightly.

The beautiful expectation before going to bed last night was shattered like a dream.

Everything has not changed for the better.Even, a little worse.

Song Dan had a panoramic view of all the emotional changes on her face, but without asking a word, she said gently as always: "Then you leave the bank card number to me."

Jian Luyao squeezed the glass in her hand vigorously, the water wave kept shaking, like her chaotic heart.

There was a rustling sound of paper, and Song Dan put the note and the hotel's signature pen on the coffee table in front of Jian Luyao: "Can you write it here?"

Jian Luyao came back to her senses, and nodded stiffly.

"Yeah." Song Dan said, "I'm going to change my clothes first."

She got up and left.

Jian Luyao drank the remaining cold water in one gulp, put down the glass heavily, picked up the signature pen and started writing.The moment she wrote, she suddenly wanted to cry.

Grievance, depression, loss, low self-esteem, anger and powerlessness... tumbling in her heart like a whirlpool.

She closed her eyes tightly, took a deep breath, and told herself to calm down.

No one cares about her inner world, no matter how uncomfortable she is, she has to bear it by herself, and then live with a strong and happy smile like everyone else.

She wrote the bank card number, capped the pen cap, and then combed her messy hair with her hands, but the elastic didn't know where it went.

Jian Luyao recalled that her hair was indeed untied in the living room, so she began to search for elastics all over the room, and finally found her elastics in the cracks of the sofa.

She pulled her hair into a ponytail and sat on the sofa waiting.

Song Dan came out after changing her clothes. She wore a light brown chiffon top and dark gray suit pants, looking very capable and elite.

Seeing her coming out, Jian Luyao showed a cute and well-behaved smile: "Suddenly something happened at school, I have to go."

Song Dan smiled: "Okay, be careful on the road."

"Yeah." Jian Luyao nodded, got up and walked out. When she reached the door, she hesitated a few steps, turned her head and asked cautiously, "You...will you still contact me?"

Song Dan smiled softly and charmingly, almost without hesitation: "Of course."

Jian Luyao smiled, her eyes were bright and vivid: "I'll wait for you."

Song Dan watched her leave with a smile. After the door closed, she put away her smile, turned her head indifferently, and looked at the note on the coffee table.

Walking over, Song Dan picked up the piece of paper.

One stroke at a time, numbers, Jian Luyao's name and phone number were written on it forcefully.

"Lu Yao." Song Dan read these two words again, it is a good name.

She took a picture of the card number and name with her mobile phone and sent it to the assistant, with a note: "One hundred thousand."

With her fingers closed, she crumpled the note into a ball, threw it into the trash can, and turned to leave the room.

When Jian Luyao returned to school, she still had time to go to the sketch class. She went back to the dormitory to take a shower and change clothes.

Li Yunshan had no class in the morning. When she heard that Jian Luyao had returned, she immediately sat up, lifted the mosquito net, and asked gossipingly, "How was last night?"

Jian Luyao took a change of clothes and said, "It's okay..."

If talking about money without waking up, perhaps it would be a real dream for Jian Luyao.But it’s also good to wake up from the dream, so that I don’t lose my strength/number and fantasize about some unrealistic things.

But deep in Jian Luyao's heart, there is always a little fantasy seed buried, maybe a lot of contact, Song Dan will treat her differently.

Anyway, she really likes Song Dan.

"Tsk." Li Yunshan tsk loudly with great disdain, she was very disappointed that she didn't see Jian Luyao's defeat.

Jian Luyao knew that she couldn't see others being better than her, so she didn't say much. She hurriedly took a shower, packed her things and got ready to go to class.

"Should you buy me a bag to express my gratitude?" Li Yunshan lay on the bed with her legs crossed high, "Otherwise, I wouldn't mind giving me 5000 yuan as a matchmaker."

When it comes to money, Jian Luyao becomes stingy. She paints oil paintings, and every stroke is money.

"Let me treat you to dinner." She said, "Anyway, you are not short of money."

The facial mask that Li Yunshan puts on every day is more than Jian Luyao's three-day meals.

"Who says I don't need anything?" Li Yunshan said harshly, "I just want it, will you give it?"

Jian Luyao was silent for a while, and said, "I'll give it to you after she gives me the money."

Li Yunshan hummed an unhappy and arrogant voice from her nasal cavity.

Jian Luyao didn't speak anymore, she went to class.

After class, on the way to the cafeteria, she saw a text message from the bank, and she received [-] yuan.

Those five odds dazzled Jian Luyao's eyes. She had never seen so much money. Standing by the side of the road, she counted it several times before she dared to believe it.

She used to work so hard until she was bleeding, that she got the 2 yuan that originally belonged to her from her grandma.

Jian Luyao used that money, plus student loans, poverty subsidies, and part-time jobs during the holidays to barely survive the past two years.Now, she has reached the end of her rope.

But as soon as Song Dan made a move, he gave [-] yuan, and she only slept with her.

Money comes so easily, and so ridiculously.

Some people work hard for a whole year, but it is not as good as her sleep.This is the world, and life is uneven.

Jian Luyao didn't want to eat, so she just bought a piece of bread and went back to the dormitory to think about how to thank Song Dan.

This one hundred thousand is comparable to saving Jian Luyao's life.

She edited the message over and over for a long time, but couldn't think of a non-embarrassing opening line, and finally sent a cute emoji.

But what came back to her in seconds was a red exclamation mark.

Song Dan, deleted Jian Luyao.

For such a long few minutes, Jian Luyao didn't react, she sent a series of question marks indiscriminately without giving up, and only got the same red exclamation mark.

Jian Luyao weakened her arms in a slump, and the mobile phone and the back of her hand fell on the table together.

There was only one thought in her mind, and she felt that she was a prostitute.

In the next few days, every time Jian Luyao spent the huge sum of one hundred thousand, it was like taking off a piece of her own clothes.She held a new paintbrush, looked at the rough canvas, and her mind went blank.

For this homework, if you draw well, you can go to the art exhibition of college students in the city.Jian Luyao had already thought about what to draw half a month ago, but now she doesn't feel anything, and she can't draw a single stroke.

Seeing that the time to hand in her homework was getting closer, and the summer vacation was approaching, she was anxious and numb, and she was confused in several exams. When she went back to the dormitory to sleep at night, she thought very clearly that the scholarship might be even more hopeless.

Jian Luyao was in a trance for a few days, and Li Yunshan probably finally couldn't help gossip, and asked Jian Luyao with "concern" if someone died in her family, why did she look like life would be better than death.

Jian Luyao didn't want to talk about the fact that she was dumped by Song Dan when she lifted her pants, so she didn't answer.

But Li Yunshan shrewdly guessed it.

"Did you blow the matter with Song Dan?"

Jian Luyao pretended to be dead.

Li Yunshan clicked her tongue and said: "Aren't you very happy to come back that day? If I didn't know that you went to sleep with me, I thought you had a room with your lover, but you were dumped? Jian Luyao, you can do it too." Yes, it's super fast!"

These words poked Jian Luyao's sore spot, she gave Li Yunshan a hard look, picked up the drawing board and walked out of the dormitory quickly.

She wandered outside for a day, scribbled half a sketch that she couldn't even read, and ran ten laps of the playground in the evening to vent her anger. In the end, she bought a dozen beers and brought them back to the dormitory.

Li Yunshan was not there, and Jian Luyao was the only one in the dormitory.

She drank a bottle of beer, then thought of Song Dan and started to draw.

Thoughts were chaotic, yet indescribably clear, those messy and profound feelings wrapped her hands like silk threads, leaving traces on the canvas.

Jian Luyao was drawing and drawing, and suddenly started crying.

She held the paintbrush and covered her eyes.

No one will want her.

Every word she thought, no one would want her.

Chapter 6

For the final assignment, Jian Luyao handed in the painting she drew drunk that day, and her recent emotional state prevented her from drawing other better works.Originally it was just for assignments, but unexpectedly, she was chosen by the teacher, who said that she had a good artistic conception and asked her to choose a nice name.

Jian Luyao named the painting "Gone with the Wind".

Coming out of the teacher's office, Jian Luyao walked along the tree-lined road alone.

The sun is bright and scorching, passing through the dense treetops, swaying down, leaving distinct mottled spots on the neat asphalt road.

The temperature in midsummer scorched the earth, and the heat wave hit people.

Jian Luyao stood under the tree, looking at the glare of the light and shadow in the forest, she wanted to laugh and cry at the same time.

The final exam period is over, students leave school one after another, and the campus is deserted and quiet.

Jian Luyao didn't plan to go home, and her grandma didn't welcome her back. She stayed at school and concentrated on practicing basic skills.

Half a month has passed since Song Dan deleted her.

Jian Luyao also figured it out, what is she?

She doesn't look like a fairy, she doesn't have a graceful figure like Li Yunshan, she can't speak or chat, her heart is inferior and sensitive, and her personality is extremely impulsive, how could Song Dan have any different thoughts about her.

People like Song Dan have seen more beautiful women than Jian Luyao has painted. To Song Dan, she is just the steam of dew.

It's gone, it's not a pity at all.

The 10 yuan was earned by Jian Luyao.

Jian Luyao returned to the dormitory. She wanted to go to the studio to apply plaster, but she didn't want to move. She watched a few episodes of American dramas in the dormitory, and she went out for a walk for more than an hour in the evening.

I came back sweating from the empty space, took a shower, and watched variety shows in comfort.A rare peace of mind.

Near eleven o'clock, Li Yunshan came back suddenly.

The two of them stayed in the dormitory. Li Yunshan often went out at night to accompany the benefactor, and usually came back the next day. This time, it was so early, Jian Luyao was very surprised.

She looked up and saw a slap mark on Li Yunshan's face, and the corner of her lip was also torn.

"You were bumped into by his wife again?" Jian Luyao asked.

Li Yunshan said arrogantly: "None of your business!"

She kicked her high heels rudely, dug out snacks from her drawer, and stuffed them into her mouth out of vent.

Jian Luyao found out the earphones and turned off the sound of the variety show.

"He didn't let me go to the selection for the singer competition." Li Yunshan chewed the chocolate vigorously, her eyes were red, and she wiped away the tears as soon as they fell, "He said that if I dare to show my face and sleep with others, I will tear it up." in my face."

Jian Luyao turned off the variety show: "What era is it, and you still talk about showing your face..."

Li Yunshan sneered: "Men, I always think that we are the hens raised by him after giving money. Not only do we have to lay eggs, but even the meat has to be his own."

Jian Luyao handed over the paper, and Li Yunshan waved it open: "I don't want it."

Jian Luyao was used to her bad temper, and Li Yunshan was still crying.

"Then what are you going to do next?"

Li Yunshan is a vocal music student, and she looks no worse than a female star. If the opportunity is good, if she doesn't keep it together, she will become an instant hit.

Li Yunshan bit the chocolate resentfully: "I don't have money, what can I do except be obedient?"

Jian Luyao hesitated for a moment, and said, "You seem to have been with him for a long time, so you haven't saved any money?"

Li Yunshan laughed sarcastically: "Will there be enough money? Besides, I use money much more than you do."

Jian Luyao felt strange, she didn't see where Li Yunshan spent a lot of money, and she usually didn't buy any expensive musical instruments.Cosmetics, clothes, and wrapped shoes are all bought by her benefactor...but Li Yunshan doesn't live like a little rich woman who was adopted.

"You..." Jian Luyao guessed, "Do you still have some pretty face outside?"

Otherwise, where did her money go?

"You're the boy!" Li Yunshan said angrily.

"I'm just weird..." Jian Luyao said, and Li Yunshan's designer bags were often missing, probably sold secretly.

Li Yunshan turned her head away, frowned and said reluctantly: "My brother is studying abroad, so I have to support him."

It turned out to be the case.

"Oh."

"What?" Li Yunshan said fiercely, "Can't I have an older brother?!"

Jian Luyao immediately said: "I don't mean anything else, it's just that I've never heard you mention it before."

Li Yunshan said: "Why should I mention my personal affairs in front of you?"

Jian Luyao: "..."

Jian Luyao continued to watch variety shows as quietly as a chicken, Li Yunshan blew her nose, and kicked her chair again: "What about the meal you owe me?"

Jian Luyao put away her mobile phone and said, "Are you going to eat tonight?"

Li Yunshan said: "I want to eat hot pot and drink."

"it is good."

The two changed clothes, and Li Yunshan wore a mask to cover the slap marks.

After eating the hot pot, she sang again. Li Yunshan was drunk in the KTV, holding the microphone and burst into tears.

Jian Luyao hugged her shoulders and patted her back to comfort her.

Li Yunshan buried her face in her shoulder, crying and asked Jian Luyao: "Why can't I have rich parents? Do I deserve to be fucked/played with without money?"

Jian Luyao lowered her eyes and remained silent.

In fact, she wanted to say that the road was chosen by herself, and she either walked through it crying or gave up halfway.

Questioning fate can only lead to nothingness.

The world is like this, flowers and plants must survive the fittest, not to mention people.

Li Yunshan grabbed Jian Luyao's clothes vigorously: "I'm so unwilling."

Jian Luyao patted her on the back and comforted her, "It will get better."

Li Yunshan wiped her tears on Jian Luyao's clothes: "Yes, it will be fine. When my brother comes back from studying abroad and finds a good job, I don't have to do this."

Jian Luyao changed the subject and asked, "Where does your brother study abroad?"

Li Yunshan said: "Korea, plastic surgery."

Jian Luyao said: "That's very good, I will definitely be able to enter a good hospital and find a good job when I come back in the future."

Li Yunshan finally showed a proud smile: "Of course, my brother is good at everything."

After returning to the dormitory to sleep, Li Yunshan returned to her original arrogance and sharpness, and the collapse of that night seemed to be a thing of the past.

According to her words: "If you don't sing, you don't sing. My brother said that. After he makes money, he will open a coffee shop for me. I will keep the shop doing beauty treatments every day and count the money to live."

As a result, life returned to peace, Zhixia walked step by step, and Jian Luyao would sweat all over painting every day.

The three provinces and cities joint college student art exhibition she participated in was launched. She made an appointment with Li Yunshan a few days ago, and went to see it on the first day of the exhibition, and went shopping in the city center by the way.

But no one expected that Li Yunshan became pregnant by accident.

The day before the exhibition, she came back and said to Jian Luyao, "I will accompany you to see the art exhibition tomorrow, and when it's over, you will accompany me to the abortion."

Jian Luyao froze in bewilderment.

Li Yunshan asked indifferently and impatiently, "Why, are you unwilling?"

Jian Luyao shook her head: "No, I just didn't expect..."

"Why didn't you think of it so much?" Li Yunshan said, "You have thought of everything, so why don't you become a prophet?"

Jian Luyao: "...All right, I will accompany you to the hospital after the exhibition is over."

Li Yunshan snorted, and said, "You still have to pay the fee for me."

Jian Luyao stingily disagreed: "Why?"

Li Yunshan said harshly: "You owe me! If it weren't for me, would you have gotten the money from Song Dan?"

Jian Luyao felt uncomfortable when Song Dan was mentioned, and said quickly: "Okay, I'll give it to you, don't mention Song Dan, don't mention it in the future."

Li Yunshan frowned and stared at her for a while, then asked sharply: "Could it be that you fucking really like that Song Dan?"

Jian Luyao categorically denied it: "No!"

Li Yunshan said: "Damn! You are stupid, rich people are very fickle!"

How could Jian Luyao not know Song Dan's feelings.

That woman who is as gentle as a central air conditioner doesn't care about herself at all.

Knowing is one thing, feeling is another.

Song Dan is like the flowing rainbow in Jian Luyao's gloomy life. It is fleeting, but it is the only color that Jian Luyao never forgets.

She clearly understood that Song Dan couldn't afford extravagant hopes, but couldn't she just fantasize at night?

The next day, when the two were leaving for the art exhibition, Li Yunshan suddenly called out, pointed at Jian Luyao's nose and said sharply: "I just realized it, Jian Luyao, you are fucking gay!"

Jian Luyao panicked, "Hush your voice!"

The two are on the way!

Li Yunshan pointed at her and said, "Don't get me wrong, let me tell you, I like little fresh meat!"

Jian Luyao said speechlessly: "Eldest sister, I like gentle ones, you are not my type."

Li Yunshan said harshly, "You better be."

It was originally a small art exhibition with a small scale, but unexpectedly, there were quite a lot of visitors. Li Yunshan didn't know much about painting, so after looking around, she played with her mobile phone.

Jian Luyao carefully looked at all the works, and the more she looked at them, the more she felt that her basic skills and techniques were bad. She secretly made up her mind to practice more seriously when she went back.

"Is this your painting?" Li Yunshan pointed to Jian Luyao's oil painting, "Yes, it's quite sad."

Jian Luyao stared at it for a few seconds: "It's okay..."

"Is this a human figure?" Li Yunshan drew in the air with her finger, drawing an outline among the messy lines.

Jian Luyao drew a dark rainy night, with a dark background, a dark purple distorted sky, and messy rain lines. The figure who left was hidden in the rain lines and the night.

That was Song Dan.

"Let's go." Jian Luyao pulled Li Yunshan away.

Li Yunshan kept pestering her: "That's the woman's back, tell me the truth, is it your crush? Jian Luyao, tell me..."

The two left noisily.

After they left, Du Jiangjin, who was wandering around, came over slowly, stared at Jian Luyao's painting for a while, and then bought it.

Jian Luyao accompanied Li Yunshan to the hospital to register for abortion.

After a series of examinations, the operation was scheduled for the next afternoon. The two of them didn't bother to go back to the campus, so they found a hotel nearby to stay.

Jian Luyao was on the bed during the journey, and saw the email sent to her by the person in charge of the exhibition hall, saying that her "Gone with the Wind" was sold for [-] yuan.Jian Luyao was extremely surprised, she never expected that her gloomy and unskilled painting would really sell.

Chapter 7

Li Yunshan had an abortion the next day, just like every girl who was impregnated by a scumbag, she completed the process of strangling life and shedding blood alone in quiet pain.

After the abortion, Li Yunshan stayed in the hospital overnight. She said that she must take good care of her body and give her beloved a healthy child in the future.

Jian Luyao accompanied her to the hospital.

In the dead of night, the hospital is also quiet.Jian Luyao was sitting on the stool playing with her mobile phone, the weak Li Yunshan was already fast asleep.

She flipped through the entertainment software in boredom, and finally read the novel.

Outside the corridor, there was the sound of a stretcher passing by at this time. It was probably a patient who had undergone surgery and was sent to the general ward. Jian Luyao took a look and saw a few nurses and doctors rushing past through the observation window.

She didn't pay much attention and continued to look at her phone.

A few minutes later, there was the sound of rushing high heels outside again, and Jian Luyao, who was in a state of boredom, took another look and saw a familiar face.

Song Dan.

Jian Luyao stood up all of a sudden, but she just stood up.

Song Dan came to the hospital at this time, most likely because of a family member's sudden illness. When she met Song Dan at this time, it would definitely make him irritable or troubled.

After thinking about it, Jian Luyao sat back on pins and needles again.

There was no movement outside, and she didn't know whether Song Dan had walked away or entered a certain ward. Jian Luyao opened the door to look, the corridor was quiet, only the nurse on duty occasionally walked by.

Jian Luyao wandered around the corridor, but couldn't find Song Dan.It's also impossible for her to lie down and watch door by door, give up and go back to the ward, and continue to use her phone in boredom.

A few hours later, a boy's angry voice suddenly sounded outside, echoing clearly in the quiet corridor.

"So what if I die? What does it matter to you?!"

Jian Luyao raised her head and couldn't help but listen carefully to the movement outside. Song Dan's voice was relatively soft and she couldn't hear clearly, but the boy's roar followed closely.

"I don't want you to care! If you die, you die, I don't care!"

Jian Luyao stood up again and walked to the door.

That angry adolescent boy was Song Dan's son.

Song Dan wore a dark green knee-length skirt, her hair was tied up at the back of her head, and she had no makeup. She was woken up in her sleep.

Her son took drugs/drinks with others in KTV, and got gastric lavage in the hospital. When she heard about this, she almost exploded with anger.

After rushing to the hospital, he waited until Song Yanlu was awake, but only got such a resisting and rebellious response.The long-term feud between mother and child, coupled with a night of tossing and worrying, instantly ignited her anger.

She stood by the bed, her pale and haggard face was undisguised, and she said in a cold voice, "Do you think I want to put that effort into controlling you?"

Song Yanlu looks like his ruthless and ungrateful father, with Danfeng eyes, high nose bridge, and handsome appearance, which was once Song Dan's most hated appearance.

"Then don't worry about it!" Song Yanlu shouted sharply, "I don't want to see you either!"

Song Dan took a deep breath and suppressed his anger.She didn't want the relationship between mother and child to get worse to the point of irreversibility, and she didn't want her child to go further and further down the road of rebellion and extremes.

No matter how this child was born, Song Yanlu will always be her child of flesh and blood.

She calmed down and said, "Why didn't you go to Japan as planned? Now in..."

"Yes, I should be in Japan right now, it's better to die abroad, it's a waste of your precious time!"

Song Dan fell silent, she looked at Song Yanlu with red eyes and said nothing.

The pressure of silence made Song Yanlv even more irritable, like a little wolf cub who couldn't vent his grievances, and exploded with amazing destructive power in an instant after being depressed.

"Who told you to give birth to me? You deserve it!"

Song Dan closed her eyes, and after a while, she said hoarsely and calmly: "This summer vacation, you just stay at home and you are not allowed to go anywhere!"

After speaking, he didn't want to see Song Yanlu's reaction, so he slammed the door and walked out.

Song Dan stood on the quiet terrace, lit a cigarette, and took a deep breath.

Song Yanlu didn't give birth voluntarily, she didn't even want to recall those things in the past.After Song Yanlu was born, for ten years, she avoided facing him.

Because as soon as he saw Song Yanlu's face, he would think of that horrible and bloody past.It's not that she has never regretted giving birth to Song Yanlu. When she was young, she also said those angry and sharp words.And those quick words have now become irreparable rifts in love and family.

She didn't hate the innocent Song Yanlu anymore, but Song Yanlu had already learned how to fight back sharply after experiencing ten years of indifference and rejection from her biological mother.

Karma is indeed true.

She smoked two cigarettes, her anger dissipated, and helplessness and powerlessness flooded over her.

Light footsteps came from behind, hesitating furtively, Song Dan looked back with vigilant cold eyes, and found that it was Jian Luyao.

She was stunned.

Jian Luyao hesitated a few steps, smiled uncomfortably, and said, "My...friend is hospitalized, and he is here too."

She couldn't help looking at Song Dan worriedly, the corridor was dimly lit, but her eyes were still bright as if filled with sparkling fire.

"How are you?"

Song Dan dusted off the cigarette ash, put on a gentle smile mask, and said, "I'm fine."

As cold and quiet as the night.

Jian Luyao had no room to stand here anymore, she said with a dry smile, "Then I'll go back."

Song Dan smiled and said, "Yes."

Jian Luyao returned to the ward in a daze, Li Yunshan woke up, and asked her in a daze, "Why did you go?"

"I went to the toilet." Jian Luyao swiped open the phone, hiding her expression.

Li Yunshan's emotional intuition is extremely precise, she asked: "Could it be that you secretly contacted that Song Dan, and then got a cold face?"

Jian Luyao: "..."

Li Yunshan laughed and scoffed, "Stupid."

She rolled over and fell asleep again.

Jian Luyao leaned against the wall and admitted mockingly that she was indeed stupid.She would only find it more annoying if she chose to appear when Song Dan was in such a mess.

She just, still holds a little hope that maybe there will be a turnaround.What if Song Dan, who is out of control, needs to be cared for... But in the end, she still thinks too much.

Li Yunshan was discharged from the hospital at noon the next day. She breathed all the way, and with Jian Luyao's support, she returned to the dormitory and lay down for two days before she came back alive.

Jian Luyao took care of her back and forth, and was ridiculed by her poisonous tongue every day, her temper was about to explode.As soon as Li Yunshan was able to move on her own, she immediately escaped from the dormitory and stayed in the studio all day long.

With the last half month of summer vacation left, Jian Luyao decided to go home.Her application for poverty relief needs to be stamped by the village and town, and she has to go back and get it.

But when she thought of her family, Jian Luyao rejected her from the bottom of her heart.Grandma won't welcome her, she doesn't even want to give Jian Luyao the leftovers.

Grandma has a famous saying that Jian Luyao will remember all her life: "A chicken can lay two eggs if it eats pigweed. If you eat so much, it will only poop in your eyes!"

After a few days of psychological preparation, she called her grandma and said that she would go back to get a certificate. Grandma asked roughly on the phone, "You want to come back?"

Jian Luyao said: "Well, I need that application form..."

"Okay, come back." Grandma finished and hung up the phone.

Jian Luyao swallowed the rest of her words, Ah Q thought energetically, at least she didn't tell her not to go back and get in the way.

After packing it up, Jian Luyao set off early the next morning.After a day's driving, she returned to the village where she grew up.

Along the familiar concrete road, she carried the fruits, meat and vegetables bought on the street, and pushed aside the bamboo fence that kept chickens and ducks at the gate of the yard.There is a chicken coop in a corner of the yard, and ducks are raised in a circle next to it. The smell of chicken and duck droppings fills the air.

Jian Luyao sniffed, she was already familiar with this smell.

"Grandma..." she yelled, and walked into the main room, unexpectedly, she saw her father sitting on an old rattan chair in the room. Isn't he living in a mental hospital?

His father stared at Jian Luyao with cloudy eyes, and said fiercely, "Bitch, you're back."

Jian Luyao froze in place.

Ever since his father lost a leg and subsequently suffered from mental illness, his speech has always been incoherent and full of viciousness.In his world, everyone is the murderer who disabled him, and everyone wants to kill him.

"Dad..." Jian Luyao called out stiffly.

She has a bad relationship with her father, and the whole family only pays attention to her younger brother, so she is a drag on unexpected arrivals.

Her father stared at her fiercely, as if he was watching her kill her father's enemy.

"Are you back?" Grandma came in from the outside, carrying a basket of vegetables to feed chickens and ducks, she put the basket on the ground, and turned to look at Jian Luyao.

Grandma Jian Luyao is over seventy years old, but she is very lean, with short hair, deep wrinkles, sharp and unfriendly triangular eyes, squinting at Jian Luyao.She is tall and has a pair of big rough hands that can knock Jian Luyao unconscious.

Jian Luyao is very afraid of her, even when she grows up, that fear is still rooted in her heart.

"Are you doing okay outside?" She came over to pick up the things in Jian Luyao's hands, looked at them, and put them aside.

Father immediately reached out, took out an apple from it, picked it up and ate it.

Grandma glared at him and said, "I don't wash it either."

The father replied: "wash your mother/force!"

Grandma didn't care about him, she just looked at Jian Luyao and said, "Do you have any money? Your father has no money to live in a lunatic asylum, and he stays at home every day to delay my affairs!"

Jian Luyao immediately said: "I am studying, every day