dorm secret

I have a little similarity with him..." Song Shangmen blushed slightly, but Yuan Fan took a step back.

"It's just that I'm luckier than him, and Xiang Yu is more human than Xiang Renjun..." Song Shangmen gasped.

"When I think back to that moment later, in fact, I have cried many times, although I don't know why I cried, but when I think of that night, that smiling side face, I have the urge to cry, no matter whether I have already Ming Wu is still at a loss. Because even I myself don't understand why I am crying.

Fragment five burst

Chao Yunchun's dream was in vain, and the heart demon had no good end in six turns.

Once the brotherhood is exhausted, there is no need for my broom to stop.

I borrow this little poem here, which is a prophecy in the first large stand-alone game I came into contact with.I remember it so deeply, because the three incense sticks are exhausted and the trilogy ends.

Very early on, I had a comment on some of the things I experienced, that is, I couldn't think of the beginning, but I could guess the end.

It's the same this time. I couldn't guess the beginning of this matter, but I could guess the ending. At that time, I said that he and I were destined to explode, but I didn't expect it to be so soon.

At that time, after I came back to do my homework at night, I started to write essays, and he glanced at it very curiously. At that time, I calmly showed him one of them, and he flipped through a few pages casually. After reading it, tell me to the time at the end: "You have written an article in half a year, so lazy." '

'Those are in this book. '

He glanced at it, 'There are two notebooks. '

There was a long article in that notebook, "Three furnaces of incense are exhausted, the trilogy ends", which talked about some things between me and my three classmates.After reading it, he pointed to this one and said, "You know, your article is very similar to an article written by a Gay." '

I am speechless.That night, after finishing his homework, he went for another round. This time, apart from the foreplay, he asked again, "Come again", but this time it seemed to be a straight fuck.To put it bluntly, even if I can't get a slap in the face, I'm not bad enough.

It's just that the two chicks didn't do anything, mine was tight enough, and he tried a few times, only at the end I felt an abnormal tearing sensation, and hurriedly called to stop, in fact, at that moment my legs were also It's a little soft.He looked at it and had no choice but to give up.

Afterwards, I went back to the dormitory, and I was restless for several days. One day, when I washed my underwear, I found blood.Well, I think if it didn't stop that time, I guess I should have been in the hospital the next day, and then I would probably be famous.

Moving into June, the expected turnaround came without warning.It turned out like that overnight. At that time, I felt that he was avoiding me. It's a pity that I was still an idiot at that time, I couldn't feel anything, and I was stupidly looking for the reason.

In fact, when I guessed the ending in my heart, I should be more straightforward instead of exploring something, especially since I knew he started avoiding me.

However, at that time, my heart was more angry. I didn't pick the matter, but in the end it was left on the air without even an explanation.The most common sentence I said afterwards was "Why me?" I always felt that I was a victim.

From what I can see now, I was stupid at that time. This was a shameful thing. Everyone will protect themselves. I always advise others that "everyone will have some abnormal experiences, and they will protect themselves", but when it comes to myself, I am confused up.

I will protect myself, why not him, after all, I am not the one who can walk into his heart, some things, we should let go, and after experiencing the changes in thoughts, settle down and look back.

It's a pity that everything was ruined by myself. In that month, I went to all the classrooms to find him every day before going to self-study. I didn't believe that he would not come out to review when the exam was approaching.He was indeed scared by me. Later, I talked with him at the first place, but he didn't listen, and I didn't get the answer I wanted.So, I can only give up.

That year before the summer vacation, I moved to the dormitory, and I asked him out at night. At that time, I didn't ask much, and the only question, "Can we still be friends in the future", was answered by him simply and neatly, "Can't".

I wrote an email after moving out the next day, but it was a pity that I didn’t finish it. I didn’t find out until I graduated and cleaned up. The email that I didn’t send that night, the draft when I saw it today I didn't understand what I wrote at the first time, and I didn't remember it until I glanced at the time. "

"Hehe, have you ever asked that child?" Yuan Fan laughed.

"I didn't ask, but I know the reason. After all, he is a somewhat traditional child, so he can't accept it." Song Shangmen lowered his eyes.

"It's really just that simple. They're only sophomores." Yuan Fan had an expression on his face that I read a lot. No one has ever experienced college.

"But the most important thing is, as Ming Yang said, he is not the one who walked into his heart after all..." Song Shangmen's smile with an unknown emotion explained everything.

"Well, I don't know whose misfortune to say..."

"Fragment Six Sorrows

The mortal world is a lonely soul, the Tao is ruthless and there is love.

Difficulties in the world are like a spring, and I will walk alone without redemption.

A summer vacation seems to make the heart more stable.It's just that at that time, I was a bit brain-dead and was always looking for an answer-why me?

I am still a bit of an idiot now. Looking back, I feel that this question actually involves another question-why did Xiang Renjun have this impulse and action?Thinking in another way, if I were to face the latter, I would probably go berserk too.

That's when I started writing this article, but unfortunately I couldn't finish it.Fortunately, it was not finished at the time.

I want to give myself a slap here, I actually showed this unfinished manuscript to my roommate at the time, and unexpectedly discovered that my roommate hid it deeper than me!

The roommate gave five thoughts, the first one being: 'Actually, you still like him. 'I didn't say anything.There are three of us in the dormitory, and once in a sleeping meeting, he asked me what was wrong with me. At that time, I just planned to shake him up, and fell out with them again. I was in an extremely bad state. Stablize.

He floated up and said, 'Do you discriminate against homosexuals? 'My answer is very official:'No support or no opposition, accommodate them on the condition of no harm, treat them as equals. 'At the same time, I was startled and wondered why he would ask this question.

During the summer vacation, he gave me an answer: 'Because some things can only be known by experience. 'I didn't feel it at the time, but I didn't dare to continue on my instinct.Thinking about it now, I'm afraid he has experienced something.

After a summer vacation, the following things became completely rigid without accident. During that time, we both seemed to go crazy. He kept avoiding me, and I was crazy to create opportunities to invite him out.In the end, I couldn't help it, and went directly to his dormitory to look for him. When I saw him, because of the late Chinese New Year that year and the long time in school, he went out with his new roommate or future boyfriend on November [-]. The heroic appearance is gone.

Her hair was so long that it covered her ears, the back was almost like a shawl, her face was thin and her cheekbones were raised, her hands were skinny and bony, and her eyes were sunken even though her eyes were clear.

I have never told anyone about it, but at that moment, I was actually very distressed and sad, and wanted to slap him very much, silly, tossing myself like this.

I don’t remember the time, but I only remember that it was my birthday in the lunar calendar, and it was also the day when I took the chemical engineering test. After the alarm clock rang early in the morning, I received his letter of resignation:

'I'm a person who doesn't like to make qualitative judgments for someone, but I'm going to give you the next one today anyway. 1. You always say that you are a friend who has no heart. Now I know why, because being your friend is very tiring. You are often annoying, and you ask a lot of questions when you have nothing to do. You don’t know what to say. , It’s not enough not to say it, it’s not enough to say less, otherwise you will have more problems. 2. You are always so forceful in your words and deeds, often embarrassing others and making you unable to step down.And you still know that there will be such a result, so you insist on doing it.What good does that do you? 3. Every time you talk about someone, like me, it seems like you know my personality, thoughts, and behaviors well. Do you really understand me? I don’t even know myself, let alone you.I hate whoever talks to me like that. 4....'

At the moment I received it, I laughed and cried, as he said, I knew it from the beginning, but I still insisted on doing it until I got hurt and heartbroken, I knew I was wrong, and I know some things don't come back.Take a deep breath and go to the exam. That class was the best one I took that semester.After that, I was changing.

Fragment Seven Endings

When it comes to senior year, I will be busy with my own business and go my own way. I made up my mind to take the postgraduate entrance examination, but Xiang Renjun's final decision is to work, which can be seen from his posture of going to practice during the summer vacation.

But it was my lunar birthday again (why is it my birthday again), and that day I wrote my English homework for a day, and I was tired and wanted to find someone to listen to my complaints and relieve my unhappiness.

He tentatively asked a question in his heart. After all, after a year of calmness, at least the apparent harmony still exists.It's a pity that it is no longer possible to reply to the message.

When I saw this sentence, my first reaction was 'he has a girlfriend', because my intuition told me that he had an attitude of ownership.After spending a long time on □□ to no avail, I finally confessed that it was my birthday.

He was silent for a while and replied 'sorry'.

'Nothing, congratulations. 'This is my answer.

Afterwards, I wrote my English homework for a day the next day. At noon on the third day, I finished the homework that I had planned to finish in a week in more than a day and a half, and then fell asleep at noon.That night, my new roommate asked me if I was okay, of course I said I was fine.

He said, we are not blind, you are so active in doing your homework, you are so tired that you go to bed at noon, and you sleep so hard that we didn't bother you when we left.All I can say is that I'm tired.Actually tired.

The days are going on like this, I have been busy with the postgraduate entrance examination and graduation project, and I don't have much time to think about other things. It seems that everything will continue like this.

But not long after graduation defense, I originally wanted to ask him out to sit down for a while, but he flatly refused. He was not busy playing mahjong in the dormitory at the time, but that attitude made me feel wrong for a moment.Later, I ran into him occasionally during dinner, and when I greeted him normally, he turned out to have a hostile expression.

That's all for once, and when it's like this for the next few days, I feel something is wrong.I was forced to hang up the call again, especially when I heard the king next to me ask 'who is it', I was angry again, I did something wrong before, I think, this time I did nothing wrong why I was so angry for nothing, I really think I have a good temper (in fact, I really have a bad temper).

Finally, before graduation, I invited him out with a threatening tone (I am stupid and he is also stupid, it doesn’t matter if he has already graduated, I am still in graduate school, so I can’t get involved if I tell the story) without any emotion After I finished, I pulled him out to talk about it. I felt strange, and I didn't ask about other doubts, but why did he become like this in just a few days.

He didn't say anything about Ziwu Maoyou until the end, he only said that it was his fault, and let time dilute all this.I asked him whether friends or even classmates would be nothing but enemies. He didn’t speak, closed his eyes and raised his right index finger and shook it from side to side. It seemed that he would be strangers in the future, even classmates Done.But as compensation, on the way back I turned his head and forced a kiss on the lips.

On the morning of June 29th, I was lying in bed when he left school that day, and I texted him 'goodbye'.It seems that this is a pretty good ending.

Fragment Nine Disappears

During the few days waiting for the move, I wandered around his dormitory and glanced at the table in front of the bed. What emerged before my eyes was his new roommate, Afeng, who was holding him and watching him when he passed by accidentally. From the look of the video, I seemed to grasp something vaguely at that time, but I said to myself unnaturally: 'Impossible. '

After pondering for a while, then, at that moment, I seemed to travel through time and space, and saw many things that I should not have seen, that is, at that moment, everything was strung together in an instant.

On my birthday in 11, I didn’t actually have a girlfriend, but a boyfriend;

Why is he always with Ah Feng, what do the couple want to do when they are not together;

Why are the two of them so harmonious? Can an old husband and wife be discordant...

I was very melancholy at the time, but in the end I didn't dare. There were a lot of words that I said in the end but turned into four words: "Xiang Renjun." '..."

After the catastrophe, the rest of his life was frightened, ups and downs, and walked alone in silence.

The Milky Way is full of light, Yin and Yang are fixed, and the sky and the earth are in harmony with each other, the sun and the moon are bright.

Fate is so wonderful that the vast sea of ​​people can meet each other.

I was confused and suspected that I was obsessed with his body, and I didn't care as much about this person as his body.

Later, after suspecting that he had a partner in his heart, he cared more about this person.

Until now, I probably understand that what I care about is a person.

Although it is often said that a person will be lonely and get used to it after a long time, but I still don’t want to be lonely. I want to find someone, whether it’s a man or a woman, I just want to find a companion, it can be other people, not necessarily you Xiang Renjun.

But no matter what, Xiang Renjun has become a unique mark in my past life. I hope my relationship with him can continue.

Never remember, never forget.

Although it takes a long time to see each other, but every time we meet, we don't feel the lack of a common language due to time, and we don't have to spend energy to explain the cause and effect of those things that happened when we were not together, as if we just drank tea and chatted together yesterday. "

At the end of the article, it is obvious that Ming Yang himself does not know what he is thinking.

"Isn't Xiang Renjun very human?" Yuan Fan sneered.

"So what happened to him in the end was not very humane." Song Shangmen looked calm.

Yuan Fan didn't ask any further questions, it was obvious that Song Shangmen had investigated it.

"It's a pity, the innocence of the campus is still defeated by the cruelty of reality." Song Shangmen's expression fell into Yuan Fan's eyes, it seemed to be regrettable.

"Did they split in the end?" Yuan Fan probed.

"Well, they are really a loving couple. However, Ah Feng's requirements are a bit high. He has gone abroad for further studies. If Ming Yang is still possible, but Xiang Renjun, he worked very hard, but he still couldn't meet Ah Feng's requirements. It's only been a month or two."

When Yuan Fan heard the words, he just sighed.

Even though the current society is much more open, there are only a small number of people who accept it freely from the very beginning, just like Xiang Renjun also abandoned Ming Yang at the very beginning, not to mention that the demonized remarks have not been eliminated for many years, and they have existed from beginning to end. The upper part is the master of death, so the two fathers can only express their understanding.

However, it was precisely because of this incident that Mingyang became more and more weird. According to Song Shangmen's investigation, it seemed that this incident caused Mingyang's supernatural power to go berserk and become what it is now.And Mingyang, with the help of Song Shangmen, worked his own way to get admitted to a graduate student in a foreign school.