my psychotic boyfriend

A Ye only felt that he was thrown into the embrace of a faint smell of tobacco. He knew who it was, but he couldn't remember it anyway. His soul seemed to be trapped in his body, but this body refused to wake up no matter what.

It wasn't until he was put on the bed that Aye was forced to see Doctor Chang's face clearly, and then his body suddenly woke up as if electrified.

"Are you awake? How do you feel?" Doctor Chang squatted beside the bed and looked at him.

A Ye couldn't say a word, and the kiss behind the awning of the stop sign appeared in his mind again.

A Ye shook his head, in Dr. Chang's eyes, his neck was as stiff as if it had been rusted.

"Then you have a good rest." Doctor Chang stroked his hair, "I'll go first."

Aye looked at Dr. Chang's back, jumped out of bed suddenly, grabbed his arm, and pushed him against the wall.When he came back to his senses, he realized that he had done the same action as the red-haired one that day.

It's just that Dr. Chang's reaction was different. Dr. Chang looked at him inexplicably, shaking his hand in front of his eyes, "Ah Ye?"

A Ye felt that his heart was about to jump out, and it took him a long time to come back to his senses. Doctor Chang just watched him patiently and waited for him to wake up slowly.

After Aye regained his senses, he let go of his hand like an electric shock, "I'm sorry..."

"It's okay," Dr. Chang said with a smile, "Is there anything else?"

Aye shook his head first, then nodded again.

Doctor Chang smiled and stood beside him for a while.Ah Ye knew that if he didn't say anything else, Dr. Chang would pat him on the shoulder and walk away.

"That...that..." Aye forced himself to stammer, "Is that person still pestering you?"

Chang Dongzhi reacted for a while before he realized who Aye was referring to by "that person".

"It still lingers, but it's not as annoying as before."

Not annoying, do you already accept his meaning?

"You... you, you... still like him?"

Dr. Chang's eyes slanted, "Maybe I didn't express clearly, I mean he...hasn't pestered me as much as before."

"Oh."

"You are not in a good state of mind now," Dr. Chang said, "Go and have fun with other friends, don't be bored. Hmm... Is it because of Duoduo's discharge from the hospital? You have a good relationship and she left..."

"Hey, no," Aye said helplessly. He didn't expect Dr. Chang to connect these two things.Going out from here, proving that the illness is cured, and that he has all the rights of life of a normal person is something to be happy about.

A Ye slowly got under the quilt, "You go to work first, I will sleep for a while."

"Well, then you can rest. I am on night shift today. If you need anything, you can come to the office to find me." Doctor Chang went out and closed the door behind him.

It was said to be sleeping, but Aye couldn't fall asleep at all, and it was almost as good as closing his eyes and resting his mind.That kiss was imprinted in his mind, no matter what.

Until 01:30 am.The dark night always makes people who have worries become extra sober.

A Ye hugged her knees and watched the moon passing through the clouds outside the window, lighting up the room flickering.He turned over and got out of bed, took out a previous coat from the suitcase under the bed, and put on the previous clothes so that he could find some contact with the outside world.

Aye took out his mobile phone and lit it, and took a look at his own shadow on the window glass - he hadn't looked in the mirror for several months, he looked a little strange at his own appearance, and Aye looked at his own shadow with inexplicable sadness.

A Ye changed into her previous clothes and shoes, and straightened her hair facing the shadow on the window.

The light in the doctor's office was still on, and when Aye opened the door to look in, Doctor Chang was wearing the windbreaker that day and was taking a nap on the computer chair, but he was not asleep.When Aye opened the door and went in, Doctor Chang had already woken up, and he was obviously stunned when he saw what Aye was wearing tonight.

"Why..." Chang Dongzhi was a little stunned, because Aye's face had a solemn sense of death, and he was still dressed like this, so he had to pay attention to it, "Can't sleep? Come and sit for a while."

Aye went in and sat on the chair opposite Doctor Chang. He leaned back on the chair, Erlang raised his legs, and put his hands on the chair. Chang Dongzhi couldn't help laughing when he saw his series of actions: "What's going on tonight?" gone?"

Chang Dongzhi thought to himself, could it be that he has watched too many TV series?Thinking of the "wall dong" that Aye did to him during the day, he confirmed his thoughts even more.

Aye just looked at him like this, Doctor Chang warmed him a cup of sweet milk and put it in front of him, then glanced up and down at him, "Sure enough, people rely on clothes and horses rely on saddles."

Aye felt his face burn.

"No wonder everyone likes you," Dr. Chang added.

"If you're just trying to make me happy, then your goal hasn't been achieved yet," Aye said stubbornly with a feverish face.

"Why is this asking me to say a few more words?" Dr. Chang said to him with his usual signature smile.

Looking at this smile, Ah Ye finally confirmed his inner thoughts.

I don't know if it's a subjective assumption or his brain has been damaged by taking medicine, but he gradually feels that as long as Dr. Chang is by his side, he will feel exactly the same as in the drama of love without brains.Thinking back to when Dodo dragged him to watch it together, he still felt exaggerated, brainless and silly, but now is it retribution?

A Ye's sitting posture, if you don't look carefully at the trembling hands and legs, it's still very stylish.He tucked his hands in his sleeves and clenched them tightly, begging it not to shake anymore, the tremors in his hands and feet always reminded him that he was a madman.

"Aye?"

Doctor Chang's voice came from afar.

"Are you OK?"

"...No", Aye glanced at him, Dr. Chang's expression of disbelief was almost written all over his face.

"It's really okay, it's not because of illness, I have... something on my mind", Aye regretted it after saying that, in this isolated place, apart from being unable to eat and sleep, what else could be on his mind.

But fortunately, Dr. Chang doesn't have the hobby of looking for the bottom line, unlike Dr. Zhu, who wished he could pick up your ancestral grave and check it out.Dr. Chang saw that he hesitated to speak, so he didn't ask any more questions.

But in fact, Aye really wanted him to ask more questions. Doctor Chang was smart, but his IQ was not stable right now, so the more he talked, the more worries he showed. He secretly hoped that Doctor Chang could find out something by himself.

Aye's sitting posture was very awkward, but he panicked inside. He just wanted to stay in the same space with him, but he didn't know what to say at all.

"What games do you like to play?" Dr. Chang asked.

"I seldom play games, and I also learned poker here."

But two people can't play poker, and they can tell what the other party is holding by looking at the cards in their own hands.

"There's no entertainment here. It's hard to be bored in the house every day, right? No wonder everyone wants to go out. Your hospital stay is quite long."

"I still have to take medicine when I go out, and I can't stop the medicine. Many... because of stopping the medicine without authorization, they entered the palace for the second time," Aye said a little sadly.

Doctor Chang didn't answer, and the two were silent for a while. Doctor Chang suddenly went to look through his bag, and Aye saw him come out with a binoculars.

"Don't tell others," Dr. Chang suggested with his eyes, "for fear of causing misunderstanding."

Ah Ye didn't understand what misunderstanding a telescope would cause.

Dr. Chang suddenly turned off the lights in the office, and it was surprisingly quiet in the darkness. Aye felt his heart start up instantly with a "snap" of the switch. His heartbeat was irregular, and he might have misunderstood whether he was about to get sick.

Dr. Chang held him by the shoulders and led him to the window, opened the curtains, first adjusted the binoculars to his eyes a few times, then straightened Aye's head, and put the binoculars on his eyes , "Look at the stars."

"Today is cloudy."

"As you can see, there are not so many dark clouds, and there are stars on cloudy days, and you can still see the clouds moving."

Aye didn't have much interest in looking at the stars at all, the fragrance of Dr. Chang's body was wafting around his nose, and Aye began to regret that he didn't take a shower before coming here.

Doesn't it smell like it?Aye thought anxiously.

"Can you see it?" Doctor Chang asked in his ear.

"Hmm..." I didn't see anything.

It wasn't until the sound of "um" that he allocated some brain cells that were not enough to give to the eyes, not to mention, there were really stars.You can only know that there is wind tonight if you see clouds moving in the sky.A large black cloud drifted past, revealing the moon, and the office was instantly illuminated.It is said that the moon is bright and the stars are sparse, but what Aye sees is a sky full of stars.

Doctor Chang stood quietly behind him, and Aye realized belatedly that Doctor Chang had always been acting in a protective manner—he was afraid that he would jump off at the first thought.Although he knew that this was the most basic protection for any sensible person to a mentally ill person, let alone that the other party was a doctor, but Aye's heart couldn't help but move, very excited, extremely excited.

But excitement is always accompanied by sadness: he is a lunatic, he can’t do without expensive medicines all his life, his chance of relapse is 80%, he has no father and no mother, one day his father is in a bad mood and won’t pay the hospital , there is only one way to go waiting for him...

Aye is sick.

Doctor Chang held him in his arms, and A Ye trembled and began to cry bitterly. Although he knew that this was really embarrassing, especially in front of this person, he couldn't control it.

Doctor Chang hugged him, patted him on the back like he did when he had an attack before, and said it was all right.

But it can't be okay.Now he is not even qualified to love someone, he is a burden.Even if he is discharged from the hospital, he has no place to go, cannot go to school and cannot find a job.

Half an hour later, Aye finally calmed down. Doctor Chang bent down to hug his knees and hug him back, but Aye said two words with a smug nose, "Don't move."

So Doctor Chang was very obedient and didn't move.

An hour later, Chang Dongzhi suspected that he had fallen asleep, so he tried to move, but it turned out that Aye hugged him even harder.

Chang Dongzhi rubbed his hair to comfort him, and accidentally touched his ear, feeling soft, so he began to pinch and play with it.

A Ye only felt that his heart was itching to be teased by him, from the ear to the neck to the chest, it seemed that there was a numb tendon that was always electrified.The resentment of "early death and early birth" was covered by this floating shyness.One second he was eager to jump off the stairs, and the next second he felt like he was flying up from the first floor again.

This numbness stretched his arm, and Aye's arm loosened unconsciously.

Doctor Chang pinched his ears, straightened his head so that he could see his face, "Okay?"

Aye nodded blankly.

"That's okay", Doctor Chang said and began to take off his clothes, Aye only felt that his mind was blocked by a big truck in an instant.

Dr. Chang took off his white coat, revealing the wine-red sweater inside... His lips were red and his teeth were white. Ah Ye finally understood what he meant when he said that people depend on clothes.

"You're the one who makes me cry every time, this time I'll wash it for you." Doctor Chang put the clothes on his shoulders, then went to the closet and found another white coat to put on, "My God It’s so cold, as soon as this one is done, the other will die.”

While putting on his clothes, Dr. Chang turned his head and smiled and gave him a wink.

Aye: "..."