[Kuroko's Basketball] The winner is king

OK, so go ahead.

Let's compare who is more complicated?I don't think I will lose to Akashi-kun, and of course I don't think I will win either.

Isn't it natural that we all carry different but same pains?

Because we are all 'human beings' living in reality.

"Compared with my thoughts, I want to know what Seijurou-kun is thinking now."

Turn around and sit next to him, just like being ranked in school.

Rather, it's surprising that the benches in the amusement park are empty... What a terrible aura this guy has to be like this.

The lamp picked up his share of hot drink to keep warm, but the young man paused for a long time but only said, "Deng Li...your nose is red again."

"Ah...hey~? Please don't...cough. Don't change the subject, it's Seijuro-kun who wants to be treated equally...Isn't Seijuro over there? After answering my question, I will tell you my confusion of."

Compared with Zhengjulang-kun, removing the title of "Kun" seems to make me feel better.

Rubbing her reddened nose with her fingertips, the girl stared straight at the scenery ahead.

"...I advise you not to."

Some things cannot be easily resolved through communication.

But if you can't even communicate, it's even more impossible to let your mind figure it out, right?

"It's said that we live and die together, right? Although I can't do anything now, at least I want to share a little of Seijuro's...'darkness'."

"It doesn't matter if you drag me in, since I've decided to date you... No, I've decided so since I fell in love with Seijuro."

"You should know my character. When something like that happened to Liu Lizi, my reaction was obvious. I would never swallow my anger at this time."

"Especially... now that Seijuro sent me a distress signal, it's even more impossible for me to sit idly by."

"...I'm really sorry, your girlfriend is a nosy, annoying guy."

"But I just want to save you."

If you don't communicate, you can't convey anything.

Deng Li turned his head, stretched out his hand and grabbed his sleeve and said firmly.

"I want to bear your pain, can't I?!"

Tough, persistent, hardworking, wanting to touch the bottom of the deep sea.

Want to drag you out of the darkness.

The boy named Akashi Seijuro turned around, stretched out his hand to support the girl's shoulder, and lowered his eyes.

"... There is one thing you said wrong."

The emotions hidden in those pupils seem to be struggling to surface at this moment.

Close and open.

The hands holding the shoulders were so hard that it hurt.

"I never found you annoying."

"Danli, let me ask you, what do you think of 'victory'?"

That was the first time in Five Watch Lantern that I felt so close to Akashi Seijuro.

No nervousness, no shyness, just calm like talking about business with friends.

"'Victory'... an unexpected topic. In my case, I thought I would lose no matter what, so it didn't matter at all. But now it's different. Although I don't really want 'victory', I still look forward to it. , and want to move forward.”

Yes, I—even everyone in this circle would think so.

Because 'winning' and 'maintaining victory' is not a simple matter, everyone will yearn for victory, but cannot fully hold it in their hands.

Everyone is the same, they are constantly failing, and struggling to stand up again in these failures, struggling, struggling, struggling, some people give up, some people don't, but those who don't may not be able to succeed this time. If they succeed, some of them may repeat the same mistakes again, and even become the former type of "giving up in the face of failure".

However, that is limited to the case of people who 'will fail'.

"Yes, you would think so. But I feel that 'victory' is something I take for granted. I can't understand your feelings."

What about Seijuro Akashi who 'can't fail'?

He doesn't know what failure is, he hasn't tasted failure.

So naturally I don't understand... the feeling of 'thirst for victory'.

"But... I don't think I can say that."

That's not right.

If he thinks that way, Akashi will only fall deeper into the quagmire.

Moreover, this person's pain is definitely not limited to this level.Otherwise, he wouldn't return to that state within 10 minutes of walking away.

"Actually, our mood is not simply linked to 'victory'. I think it is 'desire' to put it bluntly. We just desire to win, so we have the mood of not wanting to lose. If we look at it from the perspective of 'desire' , will you still have the feeling of 'incomprehensible'? Just replace it with something other than victory, Seijuro, you should have experienced the feeling of 'longing'."

A sense of loss about what you can't desire, what you don't want.

It's the same feeling as when you can't beat your opponent and can't win the final crown... Even if there is a difference, it should be the same in essence.

Start from the same starting point.

"'Desire'... Indeed, I have such thoughts."

"Right, if you look at it from this angle, Akashi... Seijuro should have the same mood as us. It's strange to have such a mood if you can't get it because you want it."

"Ah."

He let out a low, short sound from his throat, and fell silent again.

Deng Li didn't feel that he said something wrong, but he didn't know what to do at this moment.

Sure enough, it would be better to let him go and give him a little time to calm down?Or is it time to force him to let himself go, throw himself into the play, and then wave goodbye and leave him to do it all?

No matter what it is, it becomes a multiple-choice question, and there is no path to an absolutely correct answer.

But it is not impossible.

There are so many options before you that it can be overwhelming.

I have already assumed the attitude that suits me best, so everything that follows can only be handed over to Akashi Seijuro to decide.

He chooses the path he wants to take, not himself.

This may also be an option.

"Speaking of which, Lantern."

"Yes, what's the matter?"

The young man paused, gradually withdrawing from the negative emotions.

"When you said the word 'desire' just now, did you think of something?"

Instead of directly asking himself if he recalled something, he took a detour.

After making a big circle, he still returned to the origin of his troubles. It turned out that everything had been seen by the other party.

"...Well, yes. It's also the source of my negative emotions. How about it? Seijuro wants to accompany me to trouble you?"

No... I have long understood that only I can bear the burden.

Akashi knew the source of his confusion and the reason, but he couldn't share it with him.

"Ah, of course."

That is also what he has been carrying since he survived until now.

"Aka... Seijuro should have known it for a long time, right? We have been playmates since we were young, and the previous email also responded with 'yes'. I found a photo of me when I was a child at home, and the picture of me Holding a garland and smiling at the photographer, the photographer is not much taller than me from the shooting angle, it can be inferred that he is a child. At the same time, the camera does not seem to be a new style, but combined with my age at the time Extrapolating forward can also lead to the conclusion that 'this camera was still a popular new model at the time'."

When mentioning words such as 'garland' and 'photographer', Akashi's expression changed for a moment, but he was still caught by the lamp.

"Yes, that photo was taken by me as a birthday present from my father when I was very young."

It seems right.

"I remember when I was young, my father had been serving a certain powerful adult, and my father was a housekeeper in their house. If I'm not wrong, Seijuro's family fully meets such conditions."

"That's right, your father is my housekeeper, and your mother is a maid."

"Oh, sure enough! I don't even remember what my mother did back then, and now she has such a noble and glamorous ghost appearance, I must be deeply impressed by your family... Cough cough, this is not the key point." Deng Li will be serious The attitude switched back and took a long breath.

"Akashi-kun... Tsk, I'm still not used to this address, Seijuro should be very clear, right, I don't remember anything about my childhood at all, if you didn't reply me in the email, I can't even be sure whether my inference is correct."

"Yeah. I recognized you at the opening ceremony, greeted you, and asked you 'did we meet somewhere?' but you answered me 'you got the wrong person'."

......

I don't remember such a thing at all...! ?

It seems that there has been, and it seems that there has not been, and I can't be sure which side it is, but it seems that Akashi remembers it so clearly.

"Yes, sorry..."

"It's not your fault."

"It's not my fault! It's my side who forgot you... I don't even know Akashi-kun... Seijuro how you endured before."

Deng Li clasped his hands together and tried hard to apologize, and even wanted to be blamed.

No, it's not a hope, but a direct feeling that 'I should be blamed at this time' is the right thing to do.

It's strange not to blame me! !

"call……"

In the case of the young man, he let out a breath and calmly stroked her hair.

"There should be more than these things you care about."

"...Yes. And that note, in the notebook, with the note 'Aka' on it."

"That... was written by Akashi-kun, right?"

Only this, the boy showed a somewhat surprised expression.

Then it turned into a somewhat lonely and sad smile.

"That's not right. I didn't write that note."

He said so.