Yuque Qiu

When Liu Qi heard Yan Yuque's words, she didn't say much, she just glanced back at him and left the room.

The breakfast is served at Liuqi's place, and Doudou is also there, holding a porridge bowl and drinking "snoring" "snoring", when the bowl is put down, there is rice paste around the mouth, and he raises his hand and uses his sleeve indiscriminately After wiping it off, Liu Qi would have to give him another reprimand.

Yan Yuque drank a lot of wine the night before. At this moment, his head was aching and he had no appetite. After drinking two sips of hangover tea, seeing Doudou's sad face after being scolded, he felt very cute, and couldn't help but say: "Doudou, do you want to go find your father?"

Doudou opened a pair of watery deer eyes, and Buden Buden blinked twice, then looked at Liu Qi at the side, lowered his head, looked at his toes, and muttered, "Master said, even if you find it Doudou's own father, he will not recognize Doudou..."

Yan Yuque's heart skipped a beat, and then he turned his head and gave Liu Qi a hard look. Liu Qi continued to drink his morning tea calmly as if nothing had happened, so Yan Yuque turned around and went on again. Said: "If your father is willing to recognize you, will you go with your father?"

Before Doudou opened her mouth, she still glanced at Liu Qi secretly, and replied in a low voice, a little timidly, "If you leave with your father, Doudou won't be able to see Master..."

A blue vein twitched on the corner of Yan Yuque's forehead, and Liu Qi over there showed a more complacent look, as if laughing at Yan Yuque, "What's so great about my father?"In his eyes, I, the master, are the most important! '

Yan Yuque pursed his lower lips, thought for a while, and asked again unwillingly: "If you are allowed to live with your father, but every year and festival will let you and your master get together, so you are still willing to live with your father?" Daddy go?"

"Is this really possible?!" Doudou's eyes sparkled, her face was full of anticipation and excitement, but the next moment she realized that she had shown all her emotions, she quickly covered her mouth with her hands She was panicked, but she couldn't hold back her words. Knowing that she was wrong, she first put on a gesture of admitting her mistake, pinched her earlobe with her hands, shrunk her whole body into a small ball, and kept sneaking glances at Liu Qi's face.

Judging from Liu Qi's complexion, although it is not to the point of being furious, it is not obvious where to go. Seeing Liu Qi being deflated in his hands, Yan Yuque's mood suddenly improved, and he took the sober tea to drink It seems to be a good Yuqian Longjing.

Liu Qi looked at Yan Yuque, then at Doudou, and after sending Doudou out in a cold voice and asking him to close the door, her face calmed down a lot, "I have always carried Doudou all these years, It would be a lie to say that you have no feelings, but I also understand your thoughts, it's just..." "Just what?"

"Have you thought about the consequences? Are you really willing to give up everything in exchange for Doudou? You haven't even found out about Doudou's background."

These words seem to be for the sake of Yan Yuque, and they should not be the words of a person sent by Lian Yulou to make himself bankrupt and lose everything.

Yan Yuque understands that after getting along with each other for this period of time, something between them has already changed subtly, or has changed a long time ago, but they didn't notice it at that time, and only now Little by little was found.

"Doudou is my son, there is no doubt about it, but what you said..."

Yan Yuque looked at the teacup in front of him, a little tea foam was churning in the clear tea, creating small ripples.

"Actually, I always knew in my heart that my mother treated Lian Yulou and Erniang too much, but I had no other choice, but sometimes I thought, if I begged my father to keep Lian Yulou back that year, Will we really turn against each other for the sake of father's care and the Yan family's family business? Couldn't we join hands and work together for the Yan family like other brothers? But it's too late now..."

"You're right, maybe in the past my heart couldn't hold a grain of sand or a stone except myself, but now... Doudou is like my conscience... After he appeared, I thought it was right That's right, the past, and the present, and then I thought, I can't repeat the same mistakes, let what happened again... Lian Yulou is my blood brother, and now he treats me like an enemy, Doudou is My dear son, I don't want him to become such a life-and-death relationship with me in the future..."

Liu Qi lowered her eyelashes and pondered for a moment, then looked directly at Yan Yuque, "If you really want Doudou... there is no other way."

"No!" Yan Yuque categorically rejected him, "I have made up my mind, you can tell Lian Yulou as I said, 'I want Doudou, and he can take everything else!'..."

After speaking, he got up and left.

When he walked out of Jinlin Cloth Village, it was already quite lively outside. The vendors on the street were arranging their stalls for the opening of the market. In the early winter morning, the air was chilly. Yan Yuque took a deep breath, only to feel the cold breath entering his nose. Drilling straight into the chest and lungs, it made people tremble, but was soon filled with the warmth rippling from the heart.

Yan Yuque breathed a sigh of relief, as if he had let go of the weight in his heart. He looked back at the words "Jinlin Cloth Village" hanging above, shining in the morning light, and it was the first time he felt that those words The word is no longer so glaring.

Liu Qi sat alone in the room and stared blankly at the door. After a long while, she looked away, and said to the Eight Immortals Table, which was empty in front of her, "Haven't you thought about it? Maybe your conscience... ..."

"It will really kill you."

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Ten days later, Princess Liuyun married far beyond the Great Wall. The wedding procession consisting of thousands of people, carrying the dowry gold and silver treasures, and silk and satin chariots and horses, stretched for several miles. Those who walked in front blew loud horns, Behind them, drums and music sang together, singing and dancing were graceful, and the meandering procession slowly went west, until the last trace of music dissipated in the sky.

For Ling Jinyuan, not only completed the dowry fabrics hand-picked by the imperial court on time, but also successfully repaired the queen mother's neon clothes and feathers, so that the princess could get married in a beautiful way. The most important contribution to the award is naturally Yan Yuque, the envoy of the Silk Brocade Academy, Mr. Yan. Hearing that Mr. Yan worked so hard to prepare these dowry fabrics that he was exhausted and fainted from vomiting blood. Praise, and decreed to immediately promote Yan Yuque to the deputy envoy of Wensi Academy, and still work in silk brocade fabrics and other positions.

Yan Yuque has stole the limelight this time, and he is about to marry the daughter of Mr. Xu, the envoy of the Wensi Academy. Seeing that his official career is bright, everyone can almost imagine that he will take over the post of envoy of the Wensi Academy soon, but in At this time, news came that Yan Yuque had not accepted the order to be promoted to the deputy envoy of Wensi Academy. Not only was he not promoted, but he also resigned from the position of supervisor of Lingjin Academy, which made everyone puzzled.

The winter night is quiet, the dawn moon is lightly set, but there are bursts of low-pitched mourning and low-pitched weeping from the Zhuge Qihu.

"Miss, don't be sad, crying like this will hurt your body..."

"That's right, that person is nothing at all. He has delayed our lady for so many years. Now that he says he's going to quit the engagement, he's going to quit the engagement. I don't know what to think?"

"Miss, you have fallen in love with Mr. Yan for so many years, and in the end you only got him to hate you so much regardless of affection. Miss will break her heart for him again, it's just cheaper for that guy."

"My lord Yan, he has resigned from his office now, and he doesn't say why, he must be fascinated by some vixen..."

Clap!

There was a sound of a teacup falling to the ground in the study, and the servant rushed to clean it up. Just as he stepped over the threshold, he was thrown out by Mr. Xu, "Get out! You haven't been called in yet!"

The servant backed out tremblingly, and when he stepped out, he raised his eyes and took a peek at his own lord who was in the room full of anger, and lord Yan who was splashed with tea all over his face.

Yan Yuque stood there with a few pieces of soaked tea leaves on his head, and the tea dripped down his hair, but he didn't raise his head to wipe it, but still stood respectfully to show his apology and respect. determination.

The anger was burning to the peak, but because of Yan Yuque's attitude of beating and scolding, he could no longer burn it. Master Xu sighed several times and sat back, with an expression of hating him for not being able to succeed, and clenched his hands on the table After knocking several times, "What's wrong with you? It's so good... why is it like this? You must know that this is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, and others can't wait for it in a lifetime. You... send it to you, you are fine, You actually despise it!"

"The teacher's lesson is that it's not that Yuque doesn't want to cherish such an opportunity. It's just that Yuque has an appointment with others. If Yuque wants to get what he wants, he must give up everything now." Master Xu was annoyed, and almost knocked a hole in the desk with bang bang bang, "Is there anything else you want? I will give you everything, I will give you everything, so don't do this to me, just obediently take back yours." The letter of resignation, just say that you were too tired and confused for a while, and then hurry up and marry Rou'er, don't delay any longer!"

Yan Yuque cupped his hands and bowed, "Teacher, Yuque's intentions have been made very clear. Since Yuque has resigned, he will not withdraw his resignation. There is no way for Yuque to marry Miss..."

"Ridiculous!" Mr. Xu picked up a few books from the desk and threw them at Yan Yuque, "My Rou'er is so infatuated. After waiting for you for so many years, you actually let her down. You...you..." Master Xu was so angry that he gasped heavily, his chest heaved greatly, and he couldn't even speak. After a while, he pointed at Yan Yuque and said, "Get out! Get out of here! Get out of here, don't let me See you again in the capital!"

Yan Yuque gave another salute, "The student originally planned to leave the capital after finishing the work, so as not to hinder your eyes, the teacher, it is getting late, teacher, please rest, the old teacher's earnest teachings to the students should be kept in mind, In the future, I will not be able to serve the left and right, please take care of yourself, Teacher!"

"roll!"

Yan Yuque bowed, then straightened up, walked out of the study, and when passing Xu Rou's embroidery building along the path in the courtyard, he heard faint crying from inside, Yan Yuque stopped and looked up at the window, suddenly embroidered The door of the building was opened, and a maid poured a basin of water out, then put her hands on her waist, and stared at Yan Yuque fiercely.

"What are you looking at, heartbreaker, haven't you hurt our lady enough?"

Yan Yuque was at fault, and he had no desire to refute, so he just cupped his hands and said, "Please tell your lady, it's all Yuque's fault that Yuque has delayed her for so many years, but if Yuque doesn't have a lady in her heart, it will be considered as a relative." , we won’t be happy with each other, why don’t we just stop here, and wish Miss will soon find someone who treats Miss sincerely, and Yuque will bid farewell.” After saying that, he left without looking back, only hearing the crying of the woman behind him The pitch was raised all at once, which was heartbreaking and unbearable.

Years of accumulation, if you want to give up once and say that you don't have any regrets in your heart, it must be a lie.

No family business, no official position, he was born here, but in the end he has to hand over everything, which makes him feel confused about why he was born in this world, not knowing where to go Go, I don't know what will happen in the future, fortunately... I still have Doudou...

In fact, there are still many ways to win Doudou from Lian Yulou and Liu Qi, but he no longer wants to use that despicable method, or he feels tired after exhausting all kinds of methods for so many years , or maybe he didn't want Doudou to know what kind of person his father was...

Doudou has been wandering abroad for so many years, tossed and tossed, and although Liu Qi took him in later, Liu Qi is just a master to him, no matter how much Liu Qi loves and loves him, the feeling is still different from that of his father.

What happened when I was a child left an indelible shadow on myself and even Yulou's heart, and all of this was actually avoidable, but it's a pity that no one came to stop it at that time, and let the situation develop, and finally the two became like enemies You have to fight to the death.

Obviously brothers...

Yan Yuque thought, if there is no Doudou, maybe he will really spend his whole life fighting Lian Yulou, no matter who wins in the end, he is determined not to let the other party gain any upper hand at this moment, but at this time, Dou Dou appeared in front of him...

Whether it is Lian Yulou's move, or God's will, such a simple child, even after experiencing hardship and poverty, his eyes are still pure and clear without any filth, and his head is full of beauty Even if he once misunderstood him and almost chopped off one of his hands, as long as everything is safe in the end and he admits that it was his fault, he will easily forgive himself, and he is still so clinging to him, shaking his head and asking Dong Wenxi, it seems that there is nothing around here that will not attract his attention and interest.

'My lord, why is this flower book edited like this?I have seen Master compose it in another way, which is simpler. '

'My lord, why do birds fly in the sky? '

'My lord, is the fish we eat at night the same as the fish raised in this pond?Why is the fish in this pond red, red and yellow, but after being steamed, it turns gray and white? '

'My lord, my lord...'

He looked at Doudou, and couldn't help but think of himself and Lian Yulou when they were young. It didn't take long for them to have a peaceful and happy life together, and then there was endless abuse and exclusion until Lian Yulou's mother was burned. Died in Kesi Building, Lian Yulou was sent to Lin'an Grandpa's house by his father and faded out of his sight, and the days returned to calm. This peace has been peaceful for many years, so long that I almost forgot that there is still such a warm period. Life has existed, and it is the first time in so many years that I realize that in fact, I still have a trace of guilt and regret for Erniang and Lian Yulou.

Just like what I said to Lucy——

Doudou is his own conscience.

Although he is only a child, his pure and clean side is like a mirror, reflecting all his own ugliness... He is vicious and decisive, uses all means, disregards the life and death of others, and even kills his own compatriots in order to achieve his goals I'm not softhearted either...

It was the first time for Yan Yuque to see himself so clearly, to see every sinful thorn entangled in his body.

So he can't let Doudou repeat the mistakes of Lian Yulou, he wants to give Doudou a peaceful and stable environment, let him maintain his purity, and grow up peacefully... And all these years in the midst of intrigues and power struggles... , he was indeed exhausted, or it was precisely because of this that he was fascinated by that peaceful day.

Although everything in the past is no longer his own, but fortunately there is Doudou, Lian Yulou can go from nothing to now sitting on such a large property, so why is it impossible for him to make a comeback?

After leaving Xu Mansion, Yan Yuque went to Lingjin Courtyard again.

His things have already been moved away, and this time may be the last time he will step here, step into this place where he has put a lot of effort and energy...

After the princess's dowry fabrics are finished, the place is not so busy, and the weavers and embroiderers who have been busy for a long time can also take a break, so the sound of the looms intertwined in the past can no longer be heard, and only one loom remains. The loom was placed there quietly.The "rustling" sound of the wind blowing through the branches and leaves that have not yet withered in the courtyard adds tranquility and tranquility, and also adds a bit of loneliness.

Yan Yuque walked along the corridor, and before he knew it, he came to the room where Liu Qi weaved the flower books in the past, and suddenly saw the candlelight shining through the window, his heart skipped a beat, and he pushed the concealed door open .

"B-Master?!"

The people inside were taken aback by the sudden visitor. When they looked up, their faces showed surprise, but the slightly immature facial features were not the one they wanted to see.

That person has never been so panicked, even if he broke in suddenly, he continued to do the work in his hands calmly, picked up the silk thread, hooked it through the cotton thread, and formed patterns under the cross-stitching stretcher, and then raised his head Looking at himself, the corner of his mouth slightly curved, and he called softly...'My lord...'

It was not a stunning face, at best it could only be regarded as delicate and beautiful, but when she smiled, it was gentle and moving, as if the spring breeze was blowing on her face, warm and gentle, warming her heart all the way.

The people in the room hurriedly got up to greet him, Yan Yuque had no impression of this person, probably the flower picker who was recruited by Liu Qi after he left, but at that time, he was all focused on Doudou, and the Lingjin Courtyard was neglected to take care of it Not a lot.

Seeing that he wanted to salute himself, he waved his hands, "It's only you and me here now, so there's no need to be so formal." Then his eyes fell on his cross-stitched frame, and he walked over, "It's so late, you are still weaving flowers Book?"

The man timidly replied "Yes", after thinking for a while, he added: "Master showed me the flower book compiled by Mr. Liu, the original flower picker in the silk and brocade courtyard. The difference is far, it is not easy to take on this important task, so I redoubled my practice, not to mention catching up with Mr. Liu's skills, at least I have to be worthy of such a chance given to Xiao by Lingjin Academy."

Yan Yuque turned around and patted him on the shoulder, "Mr. Liu is a rare talent, no matter how difficult or complicated the pattern is, he can know how to weave it into a flower book with just a glance. This is not only a talent, but also a kind of talent. You just have to be yourself..."

Encouraged, the man raised his head suddenly, with surprise and excitement mixed on his face, "I just came to the Silk Brocade Court not long ago, and I haven't had a chance to really talk to the adults. Everyone in the courtyard says that the adults are strict and serious The wrong person, but when I saw you today, I felt that you are kind and approachable, and it is really a small honor to be able to do things for you.”

It was the first time Yan Yuque received such a compliment, and Yan Yuque didn't know what words to answer him for a while, but felt strange in his heart, and couldn't tell what it was like. After a long while, he said: "I am no longer an adult here, wait until the new adult Come on, whether you are strict or kind, you must do your best for Lingjinyuan.”

The man froze for a moment, opened his mouth half wide, and then sighed regretfully, "Hey, such a good flower picker is gone, and you are leaving too, my lord." Then he looked at it as if he was talking to himself. His own flower-stitching stretcher said: "Mr. Liu's flower book is really amazing, every silk thread and every knot can be seen that he has put a lot of thought into it, I think he must like doing such things very much, and I must be very happy when I do it, so I have such a flower book. My master told me that although the flower books are all threads, they are actually alive. If the flower picker treats it with a pious and serious attitude , the flowers will be as gorgeous and brilliant as if they were alive, on the contrary, if the flower picker is perfunctory, or just copy other people's skills, the flowers will be dry and poor, and it will look boring..."

Yan Yuque felt that this person's skill in boasting was definitely much better than his skill in weaving flower books, but many of what he said were correct...

Every time he saw Liu Qi sitting there and compiling the flower book with a serious expression, he felt that everything around him stopped still, and after watching a lot, he felt that the time was full of leisure and comfort, and those intrigues, deceit, The sinister calculations are all isolated from the outside, here are only the small sounds of the silk thread and the cotton thread rubbing against each other, and Liu Qi's even breath...

Yan Yuque suddenly wanted to ask Liu Qi, during those two years in Silk Brocade Academy, did he survive with a heart of revenge, or did he ever enjoy such a peaceful, comfortable and simple life?

I don't know how Liu Qi will answer, but at this moment Yan Yuque really hopes that the person standing here is Liu Qi, and watch him compose the flower book again, and hear him call himself with that gentle and indifferent voice...

'grown ups……'

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Arranging all the deeds and land deeds of the Yan family's mansion and shops, and putting them in a wooden box, it was small, but it was heavy... Thinking of sending it away, he would never return to this place, Yan Yuque thought in his heart Still a little uncomfortable.

I don't know how Lian Yulou will treat all this after taking over...

The servants in the mansion were willing to stay, Yan Yuque told them to wait for Lian Yulou to come, and if they wanted to leave, they would give some silver taels, but Yan An refused to leave or take the silver taels, saying that no matter how poor they were No matter how hard it is, follow Yan Yuque.

After thinking about it, it's going to be cold soon, but I haven't decided on a good place to go. When I get out of this capital, I will go for a walk with no relatives. In this case, Doudou really needs someone to take care of her, so she left Yan Be by your side.

Doudou is a smart child, Yan Yuque knew that he would mention that he looked like Lian Yulou in front of him early in the morning, so he more or less guessed his own life experience.

When sending the wooden box containing the house deed and land deed to Jinlin Cloth Manor, as soon as he went up the stairs, he saw Doudou hugging the handrail of the stairs, staring at himself with a pair of deer eyes.

"I heard everything you said that day... Are you here to pick me up or tell Master that you don't want me?"

Yan Yuque only felt sore in his heart, thinking about the days when they were together before, although they were father and son, they used such unique titles, so he reached out and touched his head, "Father is here to take you home... …" After finishing speaking, she stepped past him and walked up the steps to Liuqi's study.

"You still decided to do this?" Lucy looked up at the contents of the box and asked.

"That day, you let me see Doudou on the pier, wasn't it just for today?"

Liu Qi smiled, and gently closed the box, "Actually, Doudou has asked me many times if you are his real father, if not, why do you look so alike, I used to prevaricate , now... finally there is no need to be in a dilemma anymore."

After Liu Qi finished speaking, she raised her head to look at Yan Yuque, her eyes fixed, but she didn't say anything else. Yan Yuque felt that there was a lot in his eyes, as if there was a tide surging under it, so all the things that he had been with in the past came back again. It came to mind, whether it is quiet and gentle, or charming and seductive, or the indifference and arrogance of Lian Wushi, or this Liuqi in front of me, maybe none of them are the real him, or every one of them is his real that side.

Thinking like this, he couldn't help leaning forward, when his lips were about to touch Liu Qi's lips, he suddenly woke up, and the whole person stopped there, hesitated for a moment, and then gently pressed his lips against Liu Qi's, But just a touch and it fell apart.

Liu Qi was stunned for a moment, and asked: "Are you reluctant to be here, my lord?"

Yan Yuque didn't answer him, but put his body on his left cheek, and gently rubbed the hideous scar with the back of his finger, "You said, you keep this scar to remind yourself all the time, who is the scar on your face?" left……"

Liu Qi tilted her head slightly, and put her face against his palm, "What about my lord? Do you remember that there was such a person who made my lord lose everything?"

Yan Yuque thought for a while, took his hand back, and then said without hesitation: "No... I will only remember that there was one person who brought back my conscience that had been buried for a long time... I am leaving , I will leave the capital in a few days, take care of yourself.”

Since the time she came to Yan Yuque's side two years ago, this is the first time Liu Qi saw such a simple and calm expression on Yan Yuque's face, as if she was a different person, the old indifference, arrogance and sternness , quietly faded away from him, and Yan Yuque at this moment was like the Yan Yuque he met in the pavilion of Chengjia Zhifang that year, peaceful and gentle, warming people's hearts.

Liu Qi watched Yan Yuque walk to the door, got up suddenly, opened her mouth wide, but the words got stuck in her throat, and it took a while before she managed to squeeze them out.

"Wait a moment……"