him and his duo

Xu Ke was taken aback for a moment, a little dazed, the hand that was pressing on Gu Shen's wrist was a bit redundant at the moment.After all, today is a special day, there is nothing to stop Gu Shen from indulgence.

Just as Xu Ke was about to withdraw his hand, Gu Shen didn't move yet, as if he had expected it a long time ago, he turned the back of his hand, and his slender five fingers suddenly opened and grabbed him.

The two well-proportioned palms were joined together, and it was impossible to tell what happened.Either way, the scene is hazy and intimate.

The boy's palm is very thin, with slender knuckles, and it feels a bit warm and cool when holding it.Like the icy water in an April day, it is a little bit bit bone-piercing at first, but it slowly refreshes the whole heart.

Gu Shen is very skillful when catching people, he won't hurt people, but he won't let people pull out his hand easily.Their hands were so tightly pressed together that there was not a single gap.

Xu Ke frowned at that moment, his whole body was a little lost in thought.

This restaurant was originally for ticketing purposes, not many people came here to eat, and it might not be obvious from the outside that this is a place to eat.

Most of the tables here are empty, and there are a few scattered tables far away from them. Even if you squint your eyes carefully, you can't see any movement here.

This not-so-wide space quietly became cramped. Although the air conditioner was on and the wind was strong, Xu Ke still felt very hot, and a thin layer of sweat oozes from the back of his white shirt.

He froze for a moment, his eyes flicked past the two hands that were intertwined with each other, and then he looked at the other people at the table for some reason.

Gao Mai was holding a wine bottle, blushing, almost unable to open his eyelids.In addition, the two who said they would not drink alcohol also buried their heads quietly, and they have long been unknown.The dining table was in a mess, and in a space full of wine bottles and high-end dishes, there was a secret that even the person involved might not remember.

Xu Ke didn't know why, but at this moment, he seemed to be secretly relieved, and practiced very deeply what it means to be guilty of a guilty conscience.

Seeing his series of reactions, Gu Shen laughed softly.

Xu Ke was a little annoyed, frowned and stared at him: "What are you laughing at?"

Gu Shen had already sat up straight at this time, perhaps because of the alcohol, his face was blushed in large swaths, and the blood spread from his neck up, forming a patch of red.

He should be drunk, but he is not sober now.

It was quiet here for a while, without any noise, the two of them were still clasping their hands, looking from the side, it seemed as if they were holding each other tightly.

In this hazy environment with orange lights, everything is so logical and yet so ambiguous.

"You," Xu Ke's throat was a little itchy, he coughed, and then asked, "What does it mean to be a suicide?"

Ever since Gu Shen told him that today is the anniversary of his mother's death, Xu Ke knew that Gu Shen wanted to tell him about it.Maybe it's just holding back for too long and wanting to find someone to shake it off.Or maybe it was because of the alcohol that the emotions inevitably began to leak out.

This could be said to anyone today, but it just so happened that Gu Shen was by his side at this moment. As for the others, Xu Ke didn't want to think about it.

"It means," Gu Shen leaned on the back of the chair, half-closed his eyes, as if he was about to fall asleep at any moment, but the hand holding Xu Ke did not loosen at all, "She, she didn't tell anyone when she had a cold. , did not go to treatment. It has been delayed, and finally it became pneumonia."

Gu Shen's tone was normal, no different from when he was telling other stories.

"She probably didn't want to live a long time ago, and she didn't want to be hospitalized in the end, and she didn't take the prescribed medicine on time. Once when I came home from school, she collapsed on the sofa at home. The ambulance hadn't arrived at the door, and she Just swallowed."

Accidentally touching the past, can not help but make people a little irritable.Gu Shen wanted to smoke a cigarette, but when he reached into his pocket, he touched the cigarette case, but in the end he realized something and didn't take it out.

At this moment, Xu Ke suddenly understood why Gu Shen cared so much about him catching a cold. Such a young child witnessed how his mother could no longer open her eyes, so it was hard not to leave a shadow behind.

"Why is she so hard to think about it?" A cold can change a person's voice completely. Xu Ke's usually cold voice became slightly hoarse and softened a lot.

"Who knows?" Gu Shen raised his head slightly, the upper half of his face was hidden under the dim light, and his expression was not very clear.He was playing with a silver lighter in his hand, with a leisurely posture, "Maybe she blamed her bad eyesight and regretted it. Or maybe she wanted to let that person remember her forever in this way?"

Gu Shen's mother is actually not a woman who can only complain about herself, on the contrary, she is a very accomplished painter.

When she was young, she was cold-tempered and high-sighted, and she was a famous ice beauty.Gu Shen's grandfather's family was in the real estate business, and his family was very wealthy.Therefore, his mother has never suffered a little since she was a child.Later, her talent in painting allowed her to reach the peak of her career with ease.

At that time, there were even rumors in the industry that as long as she did not close her pen, China would produce an impressive Impressionist painter in a few years.

It can be said that her life has been smooth sailing until she was 21 years old.

Until she met Gu Chuxuan when she was 21 years old.

It may be that the boy's tall and straight silhouette in a black shirt hit the girl's heartstrings at that moment, or it may just be because she was painting, and he just walked into the painting at the moment she started to paint.

Later, he was the only one in her paintings.

"Probably all artists are like this. When they encounter a hormonal outbreak, they will interpret it as love." After all, Gu Shen took a cigarette out of his pocket, but didn't light it. He held it in his mouth and said vaguely: " Then self-righteousness without hesitation, self-righteous self-moving."

In the end, it was just a moth that jumped into a big fire.

Long Li, such a lonely and proud painter, fell down alone and in despair two months before his 34th birthday, turning into a pile of loess, and has never been seen since.

She did not create any genre in her own field, nor did she leave any positive value guidance to her son.Maybe after several years, this name will be like a lot of gravel, and will never be mentioned again.

And this is a far cry from her starting point.

"In fact, I was with her all the time when she contracted a cold and contracted pneumonia. Maybe it was during that time that I realized that she no longer wanted to live."

When he contracted pneumonia and went home to recuperate, Long Li hardly ate much, and stopped eating chopsticks after only two bites of each meal.When Gu Shen is at the dinner table, she will eat a little more.

So later on, Gu Shen basically didn't go to school, and stayed at home with Long Li every day.

Long Li has a cold temper and rarely smiles.During that time, the expression on his face was even more pitiful.Gu Shen did a secret investigation, and on the computer screen full of proper nouns, he only knew the three words "depression".

Gu Shen was in the second year of junior high school at the time, 13 years old, and still didn't understand anything.

For example, he didn't understand why his mother suddenly got this disease when she was well; he also didn't understand why Gu Chuxuan was still so busy when Long Li was so seriously ill, and he rarely appeared in front of them.

During that time, Gu Shen actually paid special attention, fearing that something would irritate Long Li, he usually would not leave her for more than half an hour, forcing her to take medicine for treatment.Under such circumstances, Long Li's body finally got better.

The strings in everyone's hearts have been loosened a lot, so one day when Gu Shen's school asked him to take the final exam, under Long Li's urging, Gu Shen still went.

Two or three hours, a very short period of time.

But when he came home, his mom was gone. For him, the title "Mom" never had a chance to be called out again.

Later, in the dead of night, Gu Shen always wondered if Long Li would not have died if he hadn't taken that exam.

If he had discovered Long Li's symptoms before and stayed by her side every day, would she be willing to live a little longer.

If he had accompanied her to the hospital to see a doctor when she just started to catch a cold, wouldn't her cold turn into pneumonia?

……

Gu Shen frowned tightly, thinking about those "what ifs." Suddenly he felt that the hand he was holding moved, as if he wanted to pull it out.

Before Gu Shen could react, the hand was already free from the shackles.

It seems that it is not appropriate to catch it again now, and there is no reason for it.

Gu Shen smiled absent-mindedly, and suddenly felt that his hands were empty, and even his heart was light, not very comfortable.

This night should end like this. After all, one of them is not very sober now, so he shouldn't say anything now.

Gu Shen licked his chapped lips, and was about to say, "I'm not sober tonight, don't worry about what I've said or done."

"I……"

As soon as a syllable came out, the hand that was pulled out just now rested on Gu Shen's hand again with warmth. To be precise, it covered the right hand that Gu Shen had placed on the table.

"Do you want to hold it?" He heard Xu Ke's slightly hoarse voice, which was a little unnatural.

It could be heard that the little deskmate was trying to keep his voice tense, to appear calmer and indifferent.But the voice after catching a cold is already tinged with a magnetic tone, and some emotions are difficult to contain.

Those words landed next to Gu Shen's right ear, and they circled around his forehead twice before entering.

The sound of "Boom" shattered all of Gu Shen's sanity.It was as if something had changed at this moment, he thought.

Maybe it was different a long time ago, and it was only from this moment that he finally realized it.

Because looking at the hand on his wrist, many unharmonious images suddenly flashed into his mind.For example, he pulled his wrist along the palm of his hand to bring him over, then bent down fiercely, and did something to him that was not suitable for two boys...

When Gu Shen came back to his senses, he suddenly met Xu Ke's eyes.

He thought he might be crazy too.

The author has something to say: Sorry everyone!

Kneel down.

By the way, I originally planned to keep things flowing. I don’t know why this chapter says that the progress of the relationship is so fast. It’s all because Brother Shen insisted on pulling Keke’s hand =o=

Slowly starting to adapt to the life of changing majors, I sincerely advise all students who have not yet filled in their volunteers to check carefully when filling out their volunteers, and never hold the intention of changing majors, absolutely, absolutely, absolutely.