him and his duo

2011/9/21

Ke Er, you must not have imagined what I am doing now, I am actually writing a fucking letter!I think back when I was studying, I didn’t even bother to copy my homework, and I felt a headache when I saw something to write, but now I actually put together such a literary thing.

Tsk tsk, stop talking, I can't bear the current me.

Anyway, I'll just make do with it, since you won't be able to see it anyway.

Well, how to start?I've been sitting here with a pen for 20 minutes, blowing out like an idiot.There seems to be a lot to say, but I don't know where to start.

You also know that my Chinese level is not good enough. I didn't listen to old man Deng's class at the beginning, but now... I still miss it.

Of course, it’s not that I miss class, but I really miss deserting during class.When I think of this, I start to feel depressed again. You said, I am a person who has not even graduated from high school, and I am ashamed to look up when I go out-although I didn’t take this seriously before, but there are forty people in the class , I didn't go to college.

Damn, inexplicably feel a bit lower.

Speaking of this, I just want to scold old man Gu a few more words.

emm...

But doesn't that seem a little disrespectful?Forget it anyway.

Hey, whatever you want, let me scold a few words, anyway, I used to scold a lot.

You have always known that I have a bad relationship with him. I have been fighting with him since I was a child. I guess he has scolded me behind my back.

What are you scolding him for?

Suddenly I was a little short of words.

Actually, I went to see him a few days ago, the afternoon after you left.

How should I put it, I really wanted to scold him in person.If it weren't for his company's troubles, I wouldn't have to clean up the mess he left behind. Maybe now, we might walk together on the school path and watch the moon together...

Forget it, don't mention it, I will miss you if I mention it.

You know, he is much older now, and you may not recognize him if you see him again.

He didn't seem to hear what I said to him. Only when I mentioned you at the end did he react a little and asked me why you didn't go to see him together.

I told him, I drove you out of the house, and you will never go back to the garden again.

Don't worry, the old guy is clear in his heart, he won't think that you are in a catastrophe and fly away by yourself.He just frowned and asked if I gave you enough living expenses.

Hey, seeing him like that, I can't bear to say anything serious, after all, I chose this path myself, and it seems inappropriate to blame anyone.

Many people ask me whether I regret it later, but in fact there is nothing to regret, everyone may have their own destiny after birth.I didn't really believe in this before, but now I'm slowly beginning to believe it.

If I have any regrets, it may be because I lost you because I chose this road.

Although it seems to have been said countless times, I still want to say sorry to you. None of the promises I made before seemed to be fulfilled.

I'm sorry.

I promised to take you to see forever, but forever is really too far away, so far away...

I am sorry.

I missed my appointment.

Don't worry about what I told you a few days ago, and don't hate me because of it.I'm just a little timid, and I can't afford to gamble.

If you want to go out with me to take a look, you will definitely regret it in the future.

I have inquired with Laomei, you have changed your choice, and filled in Beijing.I didn't ask him which university you applied for, and I didn't dare to ask, for fear that if I found out, I couldn't help but look for you.

Maybe I will never hear you call me brother again, but I still want to say the last sentence:

Don't blame brother.

Brother loves you.

Well, let me tell you where I am now.

I was in the park outside the city hospital. The pavilion was very well ventilated. I didn’t wear a coat when I went out, and now I was freezing to death.

Don't worry, there is no serious illness, just tired.

I went to the hospital to prescribe some medicine, but after taking it for a few days, it got worse and worse. During the meeting, I collapsed gorgeously on the ground.

It's also embarrassing, in front of a dozen or so people, my mother... fell so sensationally.

Simply.

What was even more frightening was that the doctor who saw me was a rigid old man wearing reading glasses, and he just said that I had a mental problem.

He looked at me through those reflective reading glasses, scaring me into thinking I was mentally ill.

But the result of the diagnosis is not far behind this, I will not tell you the professional term of this disease-the key is that the name is a bit long, and I don't remember it myself.

The old man asked me if I had a problem, but I didn't tell him anything, the point is that I couldn't open my mouth.A person of his age would definitely not be able to accept this.

Seeing that I didn't answer or ask questions, he told me that I could write letters to relieve stress, which would be good for my condition.

After thinking about it, I still want to write you a letter.

I bought the stationery at a convenience store near the hospital. There are 5 of them for 10 yuan. The pattern on it is a landscape painting, which is very beautiful. I guess you will like it too.

I bought it for 100 yuan in one go, thinking that I could write slowly in the future.The owner of the convenience store gave me a big plastic bag, thinking I was doing wholesale.

Now that I've written it, I find that this thing really seems to be able to decompress.

Then I'm not wasting money.

The company is not doing well recently, so I won't tell you the specific situation, so as not to worry you.

But don't worry, I can fix it, it's just a small problem.

Alright, let’s stop here today, and then I don’t have to use my hands anymore.

The moon is really round tonight, I wonder if you can see it from there...

There is one more thing I forgot to say:

我 很想 你.

Want it so so much.

——The fifth day when I miss Teacher Xu Ke.

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2012/4/23

Coron, happy birthday.

Thinking about it carefully, it seems that we haven't had a complete birthday together.

Having said that, I suddenly feel that I regret more at the beginning.

Recently, the company's situation is getting better and better, and my illness is getting better and better.

Don't worry, everything seems to be going in the right direction.

Dr. Yang told me to learn to reward myself appropriately.

and so--

I have come to Beijing.

just now……

In a hotel less than 1000 meters away from you.

I saw you today, on the road to the Summer Palace in your school.

You are holding a book and walking a little fast.Wearing a long brown trench coat, walking with the wind, exactly as I imagined.

That's the way you should be.

In fact, I almost couldn't resist going up to see you.

But when you walked to the door of the dormitory building, you saw a boy on a skateboard greeting you, it seemed that he had been waiting for you for a long time.

I saw him put his shoulder on your shoulder very familiarly, whispering to you as if no one else was there, his eyes kept rolling around you.

At that moment, I could clearly see his thoughts on you.

It's normal, there are always stars that revolve around the sun.

The boy is very good-looking and seems to be quite famous in your school.

you stand together...

Fits well.

I……

Forgive me for not being able to say any blessings.

The only thing that can be said is that sentence: happy birthday.

I hope you are happy every day, even if the person by your side is not me.

——The 219th day when I miss Teacher Xu.

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2014/7/11

Sorry, it seems I haven't written to you for months.

Recently had an operation, gastric bleeding, the problem is not big.

It’s just that the operation was very painful. I told the hospital beforehand that no anesthetic was used.These days, I don't know what kind of madness has happened again, so I just want to hurt.

It has been raining in the garden for the past few days. It may be a fault that fell that year. Whenever it rains, I miss you so much, I think about it like crazy, like desperately.

I had a dream a few days ago, and I dreamed that you came to see me, in this ward.

I was dizzy and kind of couldn't believe it was real, so I bit you.When I woke up after sleeping, I was a little apprehensive, and I was afraid that it was true.

After waking up, I didn't see you.

Fortunately it was a dream...

As I mentioned to you in the last letter, I picked a plant to raise, it is a potted cactus, and the name is Xiaocui.

I used to think that we must raise a little thing together in the future, but now... it can be regarded as fulfilling the goal of the year in disguise.

As for why it is called Xiaocui——

I've heard people say that it's easier to live with a cheap life.

I just don't know if you would like to have a potted cactus as your son.

Comrade Gu came out last month. I don’t know what kind of transformation he has undergone in there. It may also be that I haven’t seen him for a long time, and he has changed a lot, as if he has changed his appearance.

Now, it seems that it has reached the realm of transformation, and it is particularly open.

I was still thinking about how to get along with old Comrade Gu in the future. We don't see each other well, and we are afraid that we will fight sooner or later when we live together.

But Comrade Gu pointed out a clear way——

He wants to go back to Spring City to guard Aunt Wu's tomb.

Very good, I had no objection, and drove him back to Spring City by myself that day.

I suddenly found that our father-son relationship has become quite harmonious now, unlike Xu Qiang, who has been breaking up with his parents recently.

Because this kid didn't go to college well enough, he went to play photography, and a whole box of them was couriered directly from the school to his home.

If I were Xu Qiang's father, I would be pissed to death by this prodigal bastard sooner or later.

But I also envy him. He sent me a lot of photos along the way, with mountains and waters, clouds and seas.

Think about it, if there is a chance in the future, I want to go to Shangri-La with you.

Think about it again, I hope I can go to all the places I want to go with you.

——The 663th day when I miss Teacher Xu.

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2017/9/15

Teacher Xu, no, I should call you Dr. Xu now.

I remember that you majored in economics at the beginning of your university, but you turned to medicine and became a doctor in the end.

I have visited the hospital where you worked, and the environment is very good.

I saw you sitting in front of the consultation table in a white coat and a pair of silver-gray glasses. I watched all the people passing by and queuing stretched their necks to look at you.

Yes, all your life trajectories now are exactly the same as what I hoped for.

You are like the sun, shining on everyone.

I feel good.

Let me tell you the good news, the company has found a partner who can invest a large amount of capital, and the cooperation has been negotiated in a hurry.

It was an impeccable partner, except that the chairman wanted his daughter to marry me.

But it's funny, we both know his daughter.

You should also have the impression that during the National Day holiday in the second year of high school, the little girl in the red dress that we bumped into at the station in Huichun City.

Tianshan Child Elder grew up and became Tianshan Grandma.

She also gave me a bad idea, asking me to fake an engagement to trick you back...

What kind of schoolboy trick is this.

But if one day you really come back, you can ask me to do anything.

——I miss the 1823rd day of Dr. Xu.

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2020/9/9

I embraced my whole world again.

——I miss the 2912rd day of Dr. Xu.

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2020/9/12

Dr. Xu, I love you.

I have always loved you, I will always love you.

——I miss the 2915rd day of Dr. Xu.

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2020/12/9

Fortunately, there will be a long time to come, and I can only miss it for a moment.

— Day 3003 of missing my lover.

The author has something to say: I never thought I could do this! ! !

Randomly selected a few letters from Brother Shen, let's just read them.

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