Preemptive

It was Tao Aiguo who told Jiang Zhao about Qi Han's birthday. He really hid his selfishness. He couldn't see that Qi Han had been planted in Nian Chaoyun's hands all his life. Push around.

He felt that Jiang Zhao was suitable for Qi Han in every aspect, and if there was a destiny, he would really be a good match.

Jiang Zhao is very powerful, and he was not ambiguous when he said that he wanted to chase someone. He sent a large bouquet of flowers early in the morning and invited him to dinner, but the reason was only to "celebrate a friend's birthday" and did not force him. Qi Han expresses his opinion or accepts it.

This made Qi Han breathe a sigh of relief.

Objectively speaking, Jiang Zhao is indeed a good target, treating him meticulously without being too abrupt.

Qi Han promised to give each other a chance, so in the recent period, although he didn't accept any gifts, Jiang Zhao never refused every time he made a dinner appointment.

After all, from the perspective of a friend, getting along with Jiang Zhao is still very pleasant, but it is a pity that their relationship has always stopped at this level. He has never been able to find the feeling when he was studying, that kind of watching, My heart was pounding, as if I had fallen into a room of sunshine.

Tao Aiguo said that he is idealistic, an unrealistic love brain, and that the feelings of adults are all calculations, care about sacrifices and gains and losses, and can stop at any time if something goes wrong, and some of them can still be the same as when they were studying, with no distractions Moths to the flame.

Qi Han can't say that he is wrong, but he can't lie to himself, because even as an adult, his blood will still be boiling for another.

It's not a matter of age, it's a fault of the person.

The dishes on the table were slowly served, all of them were Jiangnan dishes in small plates, which Qi Han hadn't tasted for many years.Jiang Zhaoxu chatted about his work and life, including why he went from his hometown to the north in order to chase someone.

He did not shy away from those deep and long-lasting stories about Qi Han.

"So we are all long-term lovers in essence, but it's a pity that such things are not popular now."

Jiang Zhao gave him a piece of sweet and sour pork ribs, and helped him push the drink cup in front of him,

"Didn't you catch up later?"

"If you catch up, if you break up, if you don't catch it, maybe you still don't have a fate."

When Jiang Zhao talked about that person, there was a moment of tenderness on his face, probably he couldn't notice it himself, but Qi Han saw it.At that moment, he saw his shadow in Jiang Zhao.

"Fate..." Qi Han sipped his tea and muttered to himself, "Can I ask one more question? What kind of person is he?"

Jiang Zhao's hand froze, and said with a smile, "What? I'm afraid I'm empathizing? Don't worry, you are completely different from him, and you can't be a stand-in."

Qi Han quickly waved his hands: "No, it's just pure curiosity."

He saw Jiang Zhao's embarrassment, and heard that he wanted to take it all away.Qi Han was a little guilty, and felt that this topic might have crossed the line, and touched on the past that he didn't want to mention, so he silently bowed his head and started to eat.

The waiter came to add water, but neither of them spoke for a long time.

Jiang Zhao ate noodles for a while, and then slowly said: "He has a completely opposite personality to yours. He is very perverse, he will not admit defeat and refuse to be disciplined, and he is not afraid of anyone."

Qi Han cleverly caught Jiang Zhao's use of the word "discipline", and suddenly had a guess in his heart. Sure enough, the next second, Jiang Zhao said, "He is my student."

Qi Han was taken aback for a moment, seeing Nian Chao Yun running towards him with a face full of anger outside the glass window.His heart tightened, and in a panic, he excused himself to go to the bathroom, and when he got up he grabbed the napkin and almost knocked over the glass.

Qi Han knew that Nian Chao Yun could see him, so he deliberately swayed at the door and ran towards the fire escape. He knew that this person would find him sooner or later, and he could guess why he came here, but he hoped that at least the two of them would be together. Don't argue in front of Jiang Zhao.

Qi Han sat on the stairs, trembling, took out a cigarette from his pocket and lit it, but he held it between his fingers to pretend to be calm when he didn't smoke.

Nian Chaoyun quickly followed, grabbed his arm and pressed him hard against the wall, inserted one foot between their legs, and locked him tightly in his arms.

Qi Han lost a lot of weight, and Nian Chao Yun could feel two bony shoulder blades through the thin shirt fabric. In the hot weather, his hands and feet were still so cold, which made Nian Chao Yun almost unable to hold back the remorse and sadness— — This is Qi Han's physique. In the past, he would always keep warm water bags and warm stickers for him at home.

Nian Chaoyun stared into his eyes and asked, "What are you doing?"

Qi Han lowered his eyelids and didn't look at him: "Dating, didn't you see it?"

Qi Han's tone was a bit aggressive when he came, and he was different from the gentle and gentle person in Nian Chao Yun's memory, which made him a little uncomfortable, frowning as if he could neither understand nor agree.

"When will you start smoking?"

"I always will, you just don't know."

"Qi Han, don't be angry with me. If you think I'm wrong, tell me. I can apologize. It's really unnecessary to block me and delete me like a primary school student."

Qi Han asked suspiciously, "What are you apologizing for?"

Nian Chaoyun held back his patience: "If you think I'm wrong, I can apologize, no matter what the problem is."

He considers himself very humble and keeps his figure to the lowest.

Qi Han stared at Nian Chao Yun's upright face, feeling a little tired suddenly.He laughed at himself in his heart, and he was really passionate. Even when Nian Chaoyun was running towards him 5 minutes ago, he couldn't help but imagine that this man came to confess to him, telling him that he regretted it and wanted to He took it back and lived a good life.

But no, Nian Chaoyun is still that Nian Chaoyun, aloof and determined to go his own way.

Qi Han smiled, and finally raised his eyelids to look at him: "I'm not angry with you, I want to find someone to spend the rest of my life well, it's normal."

When Qi Han was talking about his partner and the rest of his life, Nian Chaoyun pinched the fingertips of his arm, followed by his heart trembling twice, and slowly clenched it tightly, which hurt a lot.

He firmly believed that Qi Han liked him, so when he saw that he was accepting other people's pursuit again, he was very angry. He guessed that Qi Han was angry, blaming him for his past actions, and even taking revenge on him. All admitted.

He feels that as long as Qi Han is willing to admit that he likes him, he can also admit his mistakes, redefine and plan their relationship.

But Nian Chao Yun never expected that Qi Han had already decided to let go.All the original assumptions and all the plans he thought he thought were comprehensive were all overturned, and all the future suddenly disappeared like a mirage.

Nian Chaoyun has calculated everything correctly, but he doesn't understand people's hearts, and he doesn't know that time waits for no one.

"you like him?"

Qi Han showed the smile that Nian Chao Yun disliked the most: "So what if you are, so what if you are not? It's none of your business, Mr. Nian."

"It's none of my business, you like me!"

After Nian Chao Yun grabbed Qi Han and yelled, he saw his face slowly turning white, his posture gradually becoming stiff from casual relaxation, and his back straightened again.

It was so embarrassing, the secret that had been hidden for so many years was suddenly exposed in this way mercilessly, Qi Han felt as if he was stripped naked in the street, with no secrets or dignity left. For the first time, Yun saw the scene where his father came to ask for debts in the bar.

Why is it that the ugliest and darkest things in oneself are always seen by the people who care the most.

The smoke burned to his fingertips, which made him painful. He took a deep breath, gritted his teeth and trembled: "I like you, but that's my business. In the end, it has nothing to do with you. Our love is fake. The marriage is also fake, even a paper certificate is invalid, and...

He took a breath and closed his eyes: "I don't want to like you anymore, I don't want to die alone for you. Nian Chaoyun, I really don't hate you anymore, I just want to forget you."

With a flick of Qi Han's slender white fingers, the soot fell from the fingertips to the ground and shattered into pieces.The rising sourness stuck in his throat, and he couldn't spit it out or swallow it.

He thought he had forgotten, he thought he could move forward, but running away would not solve the problem.It still hurt when the scar was uncovered, but as soon as Nian Chaoyun appeared, all his self-righteous strength collapsed at once.

In the final analysis, the two of them had a wrong start, they were not honest with each other, they lived with a mask, and the lies rolled like snowballs, and they would definitely have to pay back in some form in the end, Qi Han had long expected this day .He knew he didn't do anything right, so he couldn't blame Nian Chao Yun unilaterally, he was just stuck in this predicament and couldn't retreat.

Tired and anxious.

Qi Han thought, forget it, really it can only be, forget it.

He heard his own voice say: "You don't understand, Nian Chaoyun, forget it, let me go, and you too."

The word "forget it" kept circling in Qi Han's mind, and when he finally said it, he felt a sense of relief and pain.Nian Chaoyun heard the sound of the ice breaking, he was like a fish thrown ashore, unable to speak a word other than panting.

He has no position to accuse Qi Han, they are no longer related, not a couple, not a friend, not even a friendly cooperation, he cut it off with his own hands.From the moment he drove Qi Han to go through the formalities, he lost his lover.

Suddenly it rained heavily outside the window, crackling and hitting the window, Qi Han turned his face, his gaze fell in the distance: "Xiaoyun, it's raining again."

Nian Chao Yun held Qi Han's arm tightly, pinching his fingers into his flesh, fearing that if he relaxed, the person in front of him would run away again.

After such a long time, it was the first time he was able to really hold on to this person, but he felt that after thousands of miles, he would completely lose him in the next second.

Nian Chaoyun didn't know what he should do, he didn't know what to say was appropriate, he just wanted to open his heart to show Qi Han, let him know that he also cared, that he would also suffer.

"But you...you're crying..." Nian Chaoyun went to the corner of relative Han's red eyes, trying to block the overflowing water stains, "Don't give up on me, brother Han, don't give up on me, okay?"

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Wipe away tears.