Social software bubble to the big boss

Guilt is an inexplicable thing.

Mu You always felt depressed and bored.

Yan Xing comforted him patiently: "You are not wrong, you are already a mature and independent person, you can be responsible for your own choices and life, and..."

Yan Xing was silent for a moment, and then said again: "Homosexuality is not wrong, it is just a choice of oneself. If others regard this matter as wrong, then it is him who is wrong."

Mu You felt his nose was sore.

Growing up, it was rare for someone to tell him that homosexuality is not wrong in such a positive way.

The environment he lives in is relatively closed, and his parents are very conservative. They all think that homosexuality is wrong, a disease that needs treatment, and is shameful.

When he found that he couldn't have a sexual interest in girls, and even imagined that the objects were vague boys, he kept carefully concealing his orientation until his family discovered what he had hidden after the college entrance examination.

After entering university, he dared not say a word to his roommates, because several roommates said that they felt homosexuality was disgusting and they couldn't understand it.

He kept concealing and repressing, but later he couldn't stand the environment and chose to go abroad.

The atmosphere here is indeed much better, but when he and Tang Lianghan fell in love, it was not so smooth. Many students around would look at them with curious eyes, and some boys would avoid them.

Mu You worked really hard.

He watched a lot of Two-dimensional YY about Tanmei on the Internet, but he didn't know why it was so difficult for him in reality.

Maybe two-dimensional and three-dimensional are separate, he can live in two-dimensional, but it is difficult to live in three-dimensional.

Even in the three-dimensional world, few people positively affirmed this matter with him.

Yan Xing was the first person to tell him that this matter was right.

They are like-minded people who can walk side by side together.

He hugged Yan Xing, buried his head in his arms, and said in a muffled voice, "Thank you."

Yan Xing gently patted his back, like a gentle elder, "Don't be sad, I will be with you no matter what happens. Of course, you have to be strong and independent, don't be knocked down by small things, don't Abandon your beliefs."

Mu You was silent for a while before saying: "Okay."

He is not wrong.

If the family does not understand, then the family is at fault.

He is an independent and strong person who cannot be defeated by a little thing.

"I won't." Mu You whispered, "I will persevere and become stronger."

Yan Xing, how lucky I was to meet you.

It took a long time for Mu You to raise his head, his eyes were a little red, but the redness was not obvious.

Yan Xing asked: "What are you going to do? My father said... It seems that people in China care about their parents' opinions and hope to get their forgiveness and consent."

Mu You shook his head, "Although I hope to get their consent, I will not force it. I will try to make them understand and agree. If they don't understand, I will stick to my choice."

"Okay." Yan Xing bowed his head and kissed him, "I respect your opinion."

Parents' blessing, if there is the best, if not...he will not change the decision at this moment.

**

The next day, it was not Mu You's father who called, but his mother.

His mother has been persuading him earnestly: "Second boy, what's the good of being with a man? You can't even have children. Who cares when you get old? Do you think a nursing home is a good place to go? It's all about looking at people over there." Serve the dishes, if you don’t have children and no one misses you, you can be killed in it, you still listen to your mother, come back to get married and have children, there are a few girls here who don’t dislike you..."

Mu You politely listened to a long list, and then said: "Mom, I'm really sorry, I can't marry a girl, I don't like her, I can't be responsible for her, I hurt her by marrying her."

He didn't want to delay the youth of an innocent girl.

The mother said a long list again, and Mu You said that he would not change his mind, and then hung up the phone.

When he went back at night, he discussed this issue with Yan Xing, "My mother called today, and she said that two men cannot have children together, what should I do when I get old..."

After hearing this, Yan Xing asked gently: "Then what do you think?"

Mu You: "...Actually, I don't know, I'm still so young, I rarely think about things after I get old."

Yan Xing took off his glasses at this time, revealing a pair of clear sea-blue eyes. The beige light in the living room poured from the top of his head onto his face, outlining a cold and gentle line, "I have thought about it, and I have carefully planned it." .”

Mu You looked at Yan Xing in surprise, "Then what do you think, can you tell me?"

Yan Xing said slowly: "When we are older, if you want, we can try to adopt children and raise them up. If you don't want to, it can always be the two of us. When we are older, Deliberately and slowly think about the future, besides, I have already made a decision about my life after I get old."

Mu You calmed down, a little unwilling to face the many things that might happen to Yan Xing in the future, such topics made him very heavy and depressed.

But he still asked, "What decision?"

"I hope you can understand." Yan Xing took a deep breath, stroking his cheek with one hand, the palm was very warm, "When I suffer from a disease that cannot be cured by current human technology, and I can't take care of myself or suffer great torture, I will choose passive euthanasia when I cause great trouble to those around me."

As if struck by lightning, Mu You sat on the sofa like a stone statue, unable to move at all.

"When a person is tortured by illness without dignity, family affection and affection will only make the people around him suffer more." Yan Xing said softly, "I just hope that death can be dignified."

For a moment, Mu You couldn't understand Yan Xing's thoughts at all, "If you are sick, you should seek medical treatment, why do you think...think of those?"

Yan Xing smiled bitterly, "I know you may not be able to feel my thoughts for a while. I studied pharmacy when I was in school. I used to go to the hospital for a period of time as an intern. I saw a lot of life and death in the ICU. I don’t think there is any point in the treatment just to sustain life when the pain is torn apart and there is no dignity. The current technology of human beings still has great limitations and cannot cure many diseases. When suffering from incurable and When you have a disease that causes a lot of pain, the process of treatment takes away your dignity."

Mu You was still speechless.

"Maybe I'm not that strong, I'm not afraid of death, but I hope that at that time, I can die with dignity."

Mu You kept shaking his head, it was hard to understand this matter.

Yan Xing said softly: "Maybe you are too young and have never seen death, so it is difficult to accept these things. If you can't understand for the time being, I hope you can look at my choice rationally."

Mu You pursed his lips and shook his head, it was difficult for him to be rational.

Yan Xing sighed, leaned over and kissed Muyou's lips, "Let's change the subject and talk about what happened after my death. I have thought about many things after my death. If you don't object, I will donate 90% of my personal name The property is used to give back to the society."

Mu You took a deep breath, and slowly freed himself from the death that Yan Xing said.

He didn't want to continue the topic of death.

This topic made him extremely painful and unable to face it.

He couldn't imagine that if he and Yan Xing had been together for a long time, one day the other party would leave before him.

He is still not strong enough, and he has to work hard to be more determined.

He got better when he heard Yan Xing talk about property.

"Of course your property is at your own disposal." This topic is much lighter than death, "You can donate it all."

Yan Xing smiled and shook his head, "No, if I leave before you, I will leave something for you to take care of your life. I believe that 10% of my property will be a very objective figure at that time."

Mu You: "...I don't want to hear this."

"Okay, then don't listen." Yan Xing hugged him and said, "I enjoy all kinds of social benefits, but I don't have children to contribute to the continuation of the country. I can only donate some money to make up for it. I hope you can understand my handling of property in this way."

Mu You nodded, "I understand very well."

"Then let's talk about it." Yan Xing changed the subject, maybe he didn't want to continue talking about such a heavy matter with Mu You, "How did you decide about your parents?"

Mu You thought for a while: "After I work, I will send money to them every month, and I will call to try to ask for forgiveness during the holidays. Do you think this is good?"

Yan Xing replied with a smile: "This is your business, you need to make your own decision, but from my point of view, your choice is very good."

The realistic and heavy topic seemed to end here, but that night, Mu You couldn't sleep for a long time.

Perhaps because of the age difference, many things Yan Xing said were hard for him to imagine, let alone understand.

Maybe he will gradually understand later.

But no matter what, even if he feels uncomfortable, he will choose to respect Yan Xing's choice.

This was given to him by Yan Xing——

Independent, respectful, strong.

**

Early the next morning, Yan Xing prepared bread for him for breakfast as if nothing had happened.

The morning sun gave him a bright halo, warm and beautiful, as if everything last night was an illusion.

Mu You suddenly didn't want to think about what happened after that.

Decades later, let’s talk about decades later, they should live well in the present, and happiness is the most important thing now.

Even if something happens in the future, he believes that according to Yan Xing's character, he will definitely handle it well.

Of course, he also has to believe in himself.

He went over to help make butter and asked, "Is there anything else I need to pack for golf?"

Yan Xing: "No, I will prepare it for you and teach you how to fight. If you are interested, we can go there on weekends."

"Go." He leaned over and hugged Yan Xing's waist, "Let me tell you, I suddenly became interested in golf."

The author has something to say: Let me briefly talk about the background of the story:

The story happened a few years ago...

Author gender female

The Chinese environment in German is indeed not that open, and it may be due to survivor bias, but some girls around me can’t accept it directly, and some boys refuse to communicate

These two chapters may be more depressing~

It's sweet after that, I promise

感谢在2020-12-3117:19:54~2021-01-0300:36:17期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmines: 2 hua hua hua hua;

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 2 bottles of Lili;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!