[Net King] It's just that the butterfly doesn't want to

——Don’t you ask?

At this moment, the gate of memory opened suddenly, those repeated plots and endless time flew by in my mind, countless similar memories poured in, Yui Ogata closed his eyes as if he couldn't bear it.

Today, she can no longer regard everything as an image across the screen.

Even in memory, Yagyu was still distant and polite than Lu Shi, and never said any unusual words to 'Ogata Yui'.He was both in it and detached from it, passing through those chaotic and illusory fragments without saying a word, and finally at this moment, he really walked in front of her.

Complicated memories kept flashing back and hurting my mind, but for Yagyu Hiroshi, it was a real time spent.

She stared at the indifferent expression of the person in front of her, and felt that her heart was being crushed heavily by something. The complex and broken emotions could hardly be described with any words.Belatedly, she remembered that in this reincarnation, after waking up, she once complained about Liu Sheng's too regular life. At that time, how did he answer——

"It's like this every day, won't it be hard?"

"will not."

At that time, Yagyu Hiroshi faced Yui Ogata who had woken up, a person who no longer needed him to restart time to protect, what was he thinking?

In such a long time, facing the same game, the same test paper, and the same class, has he ever liked anything?Is there anything you hate?Has he ever been touched, angry, sad or lost?Have you ever been extremely bored at a certain moment...or even hated her?

The frequency of the heartbeat was like a panicked inquiry.

At a certain moment when she was in extreme pain and couldn't breathe, she almost felt that Yukimura Seiichi gave her a heart, maybe it was a kind of vicious revenge.

Ogata Yui thought that the two had been silent for a long time, but in fact it was only a short moment.

Sister Liu Sheng bounced towards the kitchen, and just opened the door when she noticed something unusual, stood between the two of them and looked around, "I, I'm here to bring fruit...Brother, are you bullying?"

"You go out first."

"Why? Let me judge."

"go out."

"Eh? I want to tell my parents!"

Yagyu Hiroshi handed the fruit plate to his sister, and mercilessly closed the door in front of her.

Sister Liu Sheng turned around and ran to complain, yelling. The elders were still talking and laughing in the living room, and everything seemed to become very blurred in the noisy background.

She couldn't even see Yagyu Hiroshi's mood clearly.

In the illusory reincarnation, the reciprocating time forms a sharp blade, carving a shadow that no one can see clearly.

The moonlight was falling from the window, Yagyu Hiroshi stood in that gentle and hazy light, calm like a liar whose lies were exposed, he turned his head to look at Ogata Yui:

"Are you really not going to ask?"

Yui Ogata was almost speechless.

Compared with the long time, Yagyu Hiroshi's answer is not so important, and the hidden meaning is too heavy to be easily offended.

She took a step forward, approaching this person whom she had never really known but who was undoubtedly the closest person in this world to her. Only one thought gradually formed in her heart and became more and more intense:

Without her, Liu Sheng wouldn't be like this.

If it weren't for Ogata Yui's character, he wouldn't have made this nearly dead-end choice.

Ogata Yui's ignorance, carefree, beautiful and peaceful daily life in every reincarnation is maintained by Yagyu Hiroshi who gave up everything of himself——

It's her fault.

It's all her fault!

"If only you didn't know me."

Involuntarily, she blurted out her truest thoughts.

Yagyu Hiroshi only twitched his eyelashes slightly when he heard the words, and there was almost a kind of mechanical calmness that was inseparable from him for a long time. He said, "I'm very glad that I knew you first before everyone else."

"why……"

"Because I have always believed that my choice was correct."

Among all people, Yagyu Hiroshi was the only one who could make this almost crazy and absolutely rational choice.

Yui Ogata was a little lost in thought. In his impression, Yagyu always acted very alienated, and it was rare for him to have such a gentle heart-to-heart.But she didn't feel strange at all, he shared his fate with her, and left a resonance in the depths of her soul, which was an imprint that memory could not erase.

"But……"

A strange yet familiar feeling of suffocation seized her, like the unbreathable heaviness and pain she felt outside Yukimura Seiichi's ward that day.She never wished so much that she hadn't appeared in their lives.

"But you could have had a better, at least a more normal life."

Something rolled down her pale cheeks, soaking the hair on her face, she thought it was fine beads of sweat.

However, at this moment, Liu Bilushi's frozen emotions finally changed slightly.It seemed that there was a tiny invisible thread pulling him, and the boy leaned slightly, crossing the polite distance he had always kept.

He sighed silently.

"I do this for many reasons that I think are right, but I never thought of making you cry."

"..."

The person who wanted to protect her the most turned out to be the only one who made her cry in panic.Yagyu Hiroshi's fingertips touched her hot and unfamiliar tears, and he had to laugh at himself from the bottom of his heart. This is really a wonderful irony.

"But I can't control it," Ogata Wei stretched out his hand to wipe away his tears, staring blankly at the wet palm, "...why is that?"

A short distance away, countless years quietly dissipate from blurred tears.

"I'm sorry I lied to you at first."

Yagyu Hiroshi's throat twitched, and he still had that plain and gentle appearance. He thought that he had nothing to do with Yui Ogata, whether it was her who knew nothing, or her at this moment.

"Maybe it's just my self-righteous selfishness that trapped you in this reincarnation." He said softly.

The girl stared at him blankly, unable to believe what she heard.

Such rhetoric is just to give her a reason to avoid pain, just like the choice she made to keep her away from entanglements in countless reincarnations.Even though they knew each other well, the teenagers were still polite, as if they really apologized for everything.

The understatement of the apology, like a sigh when the dust settles, characterizes and obliterates all the stories.

Those countless struggles hidden behind the calm, countless times of self-imprisonment and restraint, and countless unspoken words are all covered in darkness and invisible with his own past.

"How can you say that, how can you apologize to me?" She eagerly grabbed the boy's sleeve, raised her head and asked him, "You know it's not like this, you clearly—"

"Xiao Wei," he interrupted her calmly, "As I said, this is everyone's own choice, and if someone pays for it, it has nothing to do with you."

His tone was so firm, it seemed that he had invisible power to silence her voice.

Ogata Yui opened his mouth, unable to say anything.

Outside the door, Liu Sheng's younger sister took her mother to the kitchen, and said as she walked, "Brother is definitely bullying people, if you don't believe me, just watch—"

Someone rudely pushed the kitchen door open.

Ogata Wei hurriedly wiped away his tears, but this appearance fell into the eyes of others, and it was inevitable to be suspicious. Yagyu's mother was stunned by the door for a moment, and then looked at the pale girl, "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing."

Liu Sheng's mother didn't believe it at all: "Did Bi Lushi really bully you?"

"No!" Yui Ogata retorted almost anxiously, "It's my fault."

"..."

"It was my fault," she repeated in a low voice, "...his hand was hurt."

Liu Sheng's mother glanced half understandingly, then patted the girl's hair lightly, "It's okay, boys, it's normal to get hurt...Come on, let's go out and talk."

The adults obviously didn't take this episode seriously.

In the living room where the atmosphere was still peaceful, Ogata’s parents brought up the matter of Ogata Yui’s transfer again. Some relatives and friends agreed that it was better to be by his parents’ side. good.

At the moment when everyone was discussing, Yui Ogata turned his head to look at Yagyu on the other side.

After passing through countless vague and repeated fragments, the beginning scene hidden deep in the memory emerged before her eyes, and she seemed to still be able to smell the sunlight falling on the books at that time.

——"You don't want to go anywhere."

Hiroshi Yagyu said so at the time.

It was his choice at that moment that made her avoid going with the tide and going to a certain future that was doomed.

The young man who had seen the truth resolutely stepped into this river of fate, and found an innocent girl in the rapids. He stretched out his hand to hold her, protected her, and created a carefree and ignorant mood. Fang Wei.

But now, time is inevitable, and it is time to face a decision again.

Will Yagyu Hiroshi let her stay?Compared to Yui Ogata who needed him back then, would he also need her?

She couldn't figure out the boy's mind at all.

Before she knew it, she had been staring at him for too long, so long that the adults around him looked sideways in a strange way. Sister Liu Sheng couldn't help but pushed her brother's arm.

"Brother, what do you think?" Sister Liu Sheng asked, "I think it's better for my sister to stay here."

"..."

Yagyu Hiroshi raised his head slightly, looked over the crowd to meet her gaze, and in the lively atmosphere, just lowered his eyes quietly, as if covered by haze, he couldn't see any emotions clearly, and let the answer in his heart quietly pass away.

This is a moment that is too short and too long in the years of reciprocating cycles.

He still didn't say anything.

The next morning, Ogata Yui was woken up.

The house was rarely lively. When she finished washing and went downstairs, her mother was busy in the kitchen, and saw her daughter stuffing a few boxes of pastries into her arms, "Helping to give to the neighbors."

"……Oh."

Yui Ogata, who hadn't eaten breakfast, was locked outside the house like this.

It has to be said that Ogata's parents are really not good at taking care of people because they have been absent from their daughter's growth all the year round.

Ogata Yui habitually rang the doorbell of Yagyu's house first.

Although it was the weekend, the rigorous family style of Liu Sheng's family obviously did not have the concept of sleeping. Mother Liu Sheng welcomed the girl in enthusiastically, and fed her breakfast in a very considerate manner.

"Is Billy not here?"

She looked at the room on the second floor while eating with peace of mind. According to the convention, Yagyu Hiroshi should be in the study on his rest day, but at this moment the door was closed.

"He's gone to school." Liu Sheng's mother held her chopsticks again.

"School?"

"The tennis club has training arrangements, probably."

"..."

"what happened?"

Ogata Yui put down the bowl and chopsticks, with a confused look on his face, "But isn't his hand injured?"

"Ah...is it serious?" Liu Sheng's mother asked strangely, "Looking at his appearance, I thought it was just a minor injury, but he can still go to the tennis court, so he should be fine."

"..."

Many vague and similar pictures intertwined in his mind, Ogata Yui choked for breath.

I don't know how long it took, she left Yagyu's house in a daze, opened the door and walked into the hot summer sun, the sound of cicadas stretched infinitely in her ears, like the monotony and repetition in countless memories, in this tedious In the voice, she suddenly understood:

Yagyu Hiroshi's going to the tennis court has nothing to do with the degree of injury.

It's because he's always done it this way—doing the same thing at a fixed time.

In the long past, Yagyu Hiroshi lived in a daunting order, a cage he built for himself, a curse that imprisoned all languages.

He's such a smart guy, he didn't even think about breaking free.

Or, after many hopeless reincarnations, he had dismissed the idea.

The author has something to say: I can definitely finish it within five chapters, right? . .

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: Raylene, Asuka 1;

Thanks to the little angels who irrigate the nutrient solution: 30 bottles of Jinliang; 20 bottles for people; 15 bottles of Dazai's little wife;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!