The first male god of the empire

Along the way, he thought about what he would do when he saw the general, but when he saw Lei Nuo, Shan He didn't know what to say.

Stepping on the thin snow, Shan He walked in front of Lei Nuo silently.His throat was a bit astringent, his nose was a little sour, and his eyes were a little red.Quietly looking at the person in front of him, Shan He gradually raised the corners of his mouth to reveal a soft smile, and then said softly: "Well, I'm back."

"Where did you go shopping?" Lei Nuo raised his hand to straighten his somewhat messy forehead hair. Although he kept looking at Dan He, he had already checked the speeding car behind him.

Shan He didn't intend to hide it at all, let alone cheat, so he replied honestly: "I went to the 'Grace Star Field'."

Hader was not allowed to tell Renault before that Prince More had looked for him because he was afraid that Renault would worry.However, since Shan He was willing to let the prince send someone to send him back, he had already acquiesced in this matter.Military flying cars are not everywhere, and Renault can see the tricks in them at a glance, so he doesn't need to be clever.

More importantly, today is the anniversary of the death of Princess Grace, and if Renault will appear here, it is absolutely impossible to just come and see him.Shan He couldn't help wondering whether Renault was also in the battleship group just now, or even on the same warship as himself.

Looking at Lei Nuo without blinking, Shan He "wrote" all his questions into his eyes.

Lei Nuo didn't expect Shan He to be so direct, and his hands paused: "You know everything?"

"I know part of it." Shan He nodded and said: "Including your life experience, why you came to the show, your current situation, and... my amnesia."

When Dan He said these words, the corners of Lei Nuo's mouth kept tightening, until after Dan He finished the last sentence, his eyes darkened, and he lowered his eyelashes and said: "I'm sorry, I kept it from you for so long."

In fact, for the fact that he concealed, Lei Nuo felt no less guilt than Shan He felt distressed now.But he has his own worries. He can't say anything until he confirms that Shan He has recovered his memory, before Shan He falls in love with him again, and until Shan He personally agrees.

"Don't say I'm sorry." If he encountered this kind of thing in his previous life, he might make a big fuss, a big fight.He hates other people's deception the most, especially those who he really cares about, so the fact that Harder signed the contract behind his back made him worry about it for a long time, until he came here and knew the situation that day. Completely untied the knot.But Lei Nuo is different, he can't glare at the person in front of him, and he can't say a word of reprimand. It's more distressing and sad. Lei Nuo paid much more than him.

Sighing, Shan He continued: "I didn't come to blame you, I just thought, why couldn't you tell me earlier? Maybe... I would be willing?"

Yes, he would, for Raynor's sake he would accept the Prince More's offer.It's just an experiment, and if it fails, at most he will die. Anyway, it's not like he hasn't died before, but if it succeeds, then Renault has hope of surviving.

Life and death are the same, and they have been inseparable since the time they got together again.

But Renault replied: "I don't want to force you. You have your own career and the life you want. I can't be so selfish."

"How can this be selfish!?" Shan He frowned and said, "Maybe it's not convenient to tell me at first, but then you can? If Prince Moore hadn't told me this, how long are you going to keep it from me? Until you can't hide your body? Renault, this is selfishness, you can't carry everything alone. We are lovers and equal, you can't wait until you have no choice before telling me! Maybe you I think concealment is for my own good, but Reynolds, there is no need for concealment and deception between lovers, even if it is well-intentioned, what we need is no matter what difficulties we encounter, we should face them together instead of letting you stand in front alone , keep me behind!"

It was the first time that Shan He said such serious words to Lei Nuo, and every time he said a word, the pain in his heart deepened.It was Renault who was injured, but those wounds were like knives pierced in his heart, and the wounds were bloody.

"I know now." Renault's throat moved, and he said in a low voice: "I'm sorry for the concealment before, but I promise, I never thought of deceiving you, everything I said in the past is true It’s just that there are some things that can’t be explained clearly in three or two sentences, I’ve always wanted to wait for a suitable opportunity to tell you. It’s just that I didn’t expect that you would know before I had time to say it.”

This is not a deliberate explanation, Lei Nuo was going to tell Shan He after the filming was finished.The two of them had a good understanding, and he knew what choice Shan He would make, so he wanted to give Shan He a perfect curtain call.

After all, life and death are unknown this time around, and he doesn't want to gamble with Dan He's life, but he also knows that he won't be able to choose this time.

"Since it's not so easy to say clearly, let's talk slowly." A bunch of questions that could not be answered by Prince Moore, Shan He now only wants to hear Renault tell him: "Just now, and What are you hiding, let me make it clear once! I won't be filming today's scene, we have plenty of time."

Shan He spoke harshly, but Lei Nuo's heart warmed when he heard it.In the next second, Dan He was hugged into a warm embrace, and he heard the deep and familiar voice whispering in his ear: "Okay, I will tell you everything. I will tell you everything I forgot and concealed."

In the warm room coaxed by the heat, Shan He leaned against Lei Nuo's arms, half-closed his eyes and asked one question after another, and then Lei Nuo talked about some things he didn't know.

"My mother died when I was very young, and my uncle always told me that my mother died for the empire, and I want to follow her as an example, so I was not happy when I was a child." When Renault said these things, his tone was light , is not a kind of complaint, but more like a simple narration of past experiences, so there is no depression and pain in the words, but with the ease of time passing: "But in fact, I have never even seen my mother. Knowledge and impressions come from third parties and video recordings. So maybe it was because of the lack of mother’s care, I couldn’t understand my uncle’s mood at that time, he was very naughty, he had a bad personality, and he had a big temper.”

Hearing Lei Nuo's evaluation of himself, Shan He couldn't help laughing.Squeezing the palm of Renault's hand, he reminded: "Before you said that you were rebellious?"

"It's really rebellious. At that time, I didn't listen to anyone except my uncle. But although my uncle is a very good instructor and leader, he is not a qualified 'parent', so every day is very depressed, except for training. , my temper grows up with age, not to mention my strengths, and I become more and more disobedient to discipline. This situation lasted throughout my adolescence, and I was depressed for a long time without being relieved, until one day, I finally broke out..." Lei Nuo He recounted in a low voice: "One time, while my uncle was on a long voyage, I stole his mecha and sneaked out of the house. At that time, I only wanted to escape from my uncle's control, so I didn't have any clear goals after I left. I have been wandering outside. Later, my mother’s death day was getting closer and closer. I thought about it for so many years, because my uncle could avoid it, so I never went to the place where my mother died. So after playing around, I didn’t rush back Home, but ran to the 'Grace Starfield'. That's where I met you."

Lei Nuo has never regretted his rebellious and willful decision at the beginning. If it hadn't been for leaving home that time, he would never have met Dan He, let alone grow up after experiencing some pain.

If there is a cause, there will be an effect, and he should pay for it, and all of this is worth it.But the only thing he regrets is that he was not able to be stronger, so maybe he could protect Shan He from harm back then, and the two would not have to be separated for so many years.

Shan He is actually very reluctant to mention the matter of "amnesia". He does not want to hear his lover talk about his past with other people.But the source of everything started here, and it was inevitable, so he could only bite the bullet and listen: "And then?"

"Then..." Renault didn't know what he thought of, and he laughed unconsciously: "Then we two got together and fought."

"You still want to be criticized, don't you? Say it well!" Shan He gave Lei Nuo an elbow with his backhand, but hitting Lei Nuo with his strength was like scratching an itch.

"Really, it's just fighting." Lei Nuo grabbed Shan He's hand and pressed it in the palm of his hand, rubbing it while saying: "You were young at that time, but you knew how to restrain your temper, and often looked at me coldly. , and didn’t talk. So, because of your deliberate indifference, we basically ignored each other at the beginning, and it didn’t get better until we experienced some things later.”

"You..." Just as Shan He was about to say something, suddenly a flash of inspiration flashed in his head, and Fuzhi said in his heart: "Wait a minute, you wrote that script, right?"

Shan He had actually suspected it a long time ago. Those heavy mechs were only for the military at first glance, and it was absolutely impossible to get them based on Liang Fang's relationship with Allen.And those weapons, not to mention that a small film crew can borrow them casually, and now Renault's words only confirmed his guess.

Sure enough, after Shan He asked, Lei Nuo immediately admitted: "Well, the script... I wrote it. I wrote the things we experienced into a story, found Liang Fang and Ai Lun, and asked them to find you as the protagonist. Make it into a movie. In fact, I didn't think about it that much, I just thought that if you shoot it again and experience it again, maybe you can remember something."

It turned out to be so...

Closing his eyes, Shan He recalled the experience of the protagonist in the script: the two met each other when they were in the most embarrassing situation; Gradually understand and fall in love with each other in the conflict with each other; staying together between life and death, they planned and worked together, supported each other, and finally escaped from that terrifying base hand in hand...

It's really a feeling that goes hand in hand with life and death, but the person who is with Renault is not himself.Shan He clenched his teeth, and the throbbing pain in his heart made him frown uncontrollably.

"What happened later...you know. We fled the base together, but we didn't expect that when we were about to leave, there was an explosion, and we were all injured. I lay in the repair cabin for half a year, and then woke up When I was in the middle of the day, I found that...the connection between us in the quantum space was broken, and you also lost the quantum beast because of the serious mental injury. Putting his hand on his lips and kissing lightly, he said, "Shanhe, I didn't say this to ask you for anything, otherwise I wouldn't have asked my uncle to let you go. I just hope you can be happy and live the life you want ...But I'm sorry, because of me, maybe you will never be able to do what you want to do again."

Even if the experiment is successful and they survive, it is impossible for Shan He to return to the entertainment industry.Because of him, Shan He will lose his freedom and everything he once owned.

This is also the fundamental reason why Renault has so many scruples. He wants to be with Shan He, but he doesn't want to let Shan He completely break away from his current life because of himself.It's just that things backfired, he tried hard to give Shan He a perfect curtain call, but he didn't know if this scene would be complete in the end?

The affection in Lei Nuo's eyes was so strong, Shan He felt a little tingling in his heart, almost masochistic, he asked: "Can you tell me, before... what kind of person I was?"

"Before? In fact, there is really no difference." Renault shook his head and said.

"How can there be no difference?" Shan He raised his eyebrows, and for some reason, he wanted Lei Nuo to feel that he was different from the "Dan He" in the past: "After I lost my memory, is my temper and personality the same as before? "

"It's true, I told you I wouldn't lie to you." Renault couldn't help laughing and said, "Although you lost your memory, your ideals still haven't changed. I asked you at that time, if it wasn't a guide, what would you most like?" What do you hope to do. You just want to act, sing, eat delicious food all over the world, and see the most beautiful scenery in the world. Look, haven’t you done it all these years?”

The beginning of his relationship with Dan He was actually not pleasant, and it can even be described as "bad", so when he has the opportunity to start again, he will specially arrange to participate in a program so that the two can have a good start.

If possible, Lei Nuo even hoped to directly erase the first paragraph, so that Shan He would never remember it.So in that script, he actually evaded the most important and neglected the less important, covering up some of the unhappy past, and writing in some unforgettable memories, hoping that even if Shan He remembered it by then, he only needed those sweet and happy memories. just fine.

Therefore, at this moment he said sincerely: "Shan He, it doesn't matter even if you can't remember the past. You are Shan He, my guide, the only guide in this life, knowing these is enough."

He is Shan He, Lei Nuo's only guide...how can it be, how can it be possible!

He is really a perfect substitute, there are so many coincidences, every point is exactly the same, ideals and wishes are actually the same.No wonder Renault didn't have any doubts and accepted him so quickly!

A layer of cold sweat broke out on Shan He's back, and his heart was tangled and uncomfortable.

Sensing that something was wrong with Dan He, Lei Nuo lowered his head and kissed his forehead, and asked worriedly, "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing, it's nothing..." Shan He turned around and buried his head in Lei Nuo's arms, holding onto Lei Nuo's clothes tightly with ten fingers, his knuckles turned white.

Lei Nuo thought that Shan He was in pain because of losing his memory, so he hugged him tightly and comforted him, "It's okay for Shan He, it's fine if you can't remember it... the past is not important, as long as we are together Just be together."

Renault can say that he doesn't care, but Shan He does!He has already possessed someone else's body, but now he wants to erase the traces of other people's existence?

Shan He is a thief, a thorough, humble, shameless thief!

The thing that has been forgotten by self-hypnosis was brought up, and his mind was in chaos. Shan He was almost crushed by self-blame and guilt. He could only hold on to Lei Nuo tightly, as if he was looking for the last straw, and refused to let go .Who can save him, who can tell him what to do!

The tense strings in his mind were about to burst, and Shan He was about to collapse...

Maybe people are really pushed to the extreme, but they become more sober.Just when Shan He was struggling with pain and desperately trying to save himself, the chaotic thoughts in his head suddenly became clear for a moment.

etc!Has he been thinking about it all the time! ?

All of this is called a coincidence, and the premise is that he acquiesced to the person who occupied the body of "Dan He".

But what if there was never that "Dan He"?What if everything is no coincidence?

Shocked, Shan He suddenly had a bold guess.

The author has something to say:

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Shan He: What did I do back then that made you so frightened?

General: Actually, I didn’t do anything... just, just... I almost castrated him p(#￣▽￣#) o Shanhe: Σ(°△°) Am I that violent?

General: Wife, when you were violent...too much! ! !