New year greeting

The cat is missing - Song Xinyuan only found out when he was eating.He searched all the rooms, but still couldn't find Tuantuan, and he was in a terrible mood.All the tools for raising cats are there, only Tuantuan is gone.

"The window is closed, Tuantuan will definitely not get lost. Did Feng Deng take it away? Call and ask." Feng Xinghe reminded.

Song Xinyuan took out his mobile phone and looked at Feng Xinghe hesitantly.It was Feng Xinghe who made the call in the end, and the cat was taken away by Feng Deng.

Feng Xinghe reprimanded Feng Deng, hung up the phone, and said to Song Xinyuan: "Feng Deng walked in a hurry this morning, I don't want to wake you up, I plan to tell you later, he is worried that you will not be able to raise a cat after joining the group, so... ...He lets you film with peace of mind, without worrying about Tuantuan."

"Fuck, what's wrong with him? If there is a child, is he going to steal the child? Tell him to come back!" Li Mingzhou wished he could catch Feng Deng and beat him up.

Song Xinyuan was silent for a while, and asked, "Where did he go?"

"Xizhao County, it's only eight o'clock, and he shouldn't have gone far. When will your new drama start, do you want to call him back?"

"It's still half a month. No need, let him go, I'm more comfortable living alone."

At this time, Song Xinyuan's phone rang. The caller was Feng Deng, but he didn't answer.

"I'll take the cat away, you work hard." Feng Deng sent a message.

Song Xinyuan glanced at it, pulled Hei Feng Deng, and ate breakfast as if nothing had happened.After the meal, Song Xinyuan drove Li Mingzhou and Feng Xinghe away.

Li Mingzhou expressed his uneasiness: "Can you do it by yourself?"

Song Xinyuan: "I won't do stupid things, I want to be alone and memorize my lines."

"Shall I stay with you?" Feng Xinghe said.

"Accompany me or watch me? Do you really think I'm a fool?" Song Xinyuan urged unceremoniously, "You guys go home and raise your cat, and let me be quiet for a few days."

"Okay then, let's come back another day," Li Mingzhou asked standing at the door, "Where is the new drama being filmed? How long will it be?"

"Changchuan City, three months."

"Squeak before entering the group, and I'll see you off."

"No need, Brother Jun will pick me up."

"It's always okay to visit the class, right? Is that why you want to leave us alone?"

Song Xinyuan: "No, I didn't—"

Li Mingzhou pushed open the door and interrupted Song Xinyuan: "Although you didn't say it, I understand that you have a knot in your heart because of something that happened when you were a child. This is my fault. I don't expect you to forgive me, but you don't have to avoid me. I am Your brother, I won't hurt you."

Feng Xinghe tugged at Li Mingzhou's clothes, and signaled Li Mingzhou to stop talking, but Li Mingzhou held his hand.

Seeing their actions, Song Xinyuan said seriously: "Brother, I really don't blame you, I know you are doing it for my own good, always caring about me, and worrying about me since I was a child, but now that I have grown up, I have the ability Self-sufficiency. I heard people say that our lives are separated. You have someone more important by your side, and he will accompany you for the rest of your life. You live with peace of mind, distinguish priorities, pamper and love him more, and don’t stare at him all the time. I love you. Like you, I hope you are happy, I hope you are happy."

"You have indeed grown up, it's time to mature," Li Mingzhou's voice was slightly hoarse, "Okay, we won't disturb you, and we won't persuade you anymore. I used to think that you were not suitable for him, and I was afraid that you would be bullied. However, feelings Who can say for sure about this kind of thing? Your choice to stay here shows that you have made up your mind. You have always been stubborn, and this problem cannot be changed. The ups and downs of life in the future are all yours, and it has nothing to do with us if you regret it. Falling in love is not playing a game, if you lose, you will consider yourself unlucky, stop crying like a child, shameful. Remember?"

Without waiting for Song Xinyuan to answer, Li Mingzhou led Feng Xinghe away.Song Xinyuan looked at their backs with moist eyes.He looked at the open space in front of the door, and returned to the living room. The house was quiet and lonely.

Song Xinyuan turned on the TV, sniffed before the screen turned on, and whispered, "Remember."

At ten o'clock in the morning, Feng Deng was sitting in the car with a cat in his arms.It was the first time for Kitten Tuantuan to take a long-distance bus. He felt insecure, shivering in his bag, and "meowed" twice from time to time, which attracted the attention of strangers.Feng Deng realized that he was blocked by Song Xinyuan, sighed, stretched out his hand to rub Tuantuan's head, and said silently: "I'm sorry."

After Feng Deng got home, he saw "Surgery Incident" on TV, put down his luggage and cat, and asked, "Why are you watching this?"

Lu Shuhan was eating and ignored him.Feng Xianghai explained: "I didn't finish watching it at your place last time. Your mother was thinking about the ending, so she searched for it to make up for it."

"I've watched it for a long time, but I don't know the ending, isn't it just a waste of time?" Lu Shuhan said.Her tone was very cold, but there was a deeper meaning behind what she said, as if it was the same reason to talk about feelings.

Feng Deng nodded slightly, found two small plates, and fed the cat water and food.

"Where did you get the cat? It's so beautiful, what breed is it?" Feng Xianghai asked.

"Beauty short, someone else gave it."

"It's not cheap, why did you bring it back? Have you eaten yet?"

"No, I do it myself."

When Feng Deng sat down to eat, Lu Shuhan gloated and said, "Dumped? The cat is the breakup fee?"

She didn't seem to care, her eyes lingered on the cat for a long time.For a traditional woman like her, the way of expressing maternal love is particularly reserved. Besides, she suffers from intermittent mental illness, and often cannot figure out what emotions she is showing. She is easily agitated, has a mean personality, and likes to impose her own ideas For others, I have suffered from the relatives around me. Everyone understands her miserable life in the first half of her life and seldom cares about her.

Feng Deng stared at Song Xinyuan on the screen and said, "No, the cat is your grandson, named Tuantuan."

"Tuantuan" is a good name.

"..." Lu Shuhan also looked at the TV with melancholy eyes, "If your brother was alive, he would be as old as him."

Childhood memories flashed through his mind, Feng Deng said: "He may grow up safely in another place, and coming to this world is not a good thing. Mom, if you don't mind, you can try to accept Song Xinyuan."

Lu Shuhan's face changed, and he said sarcastically: "If you have the ability, you can take him home and talk about it. What's the skill in taking someone's cat away?"

"I have a little conflict with him, just get used to it."

"Is it possible to get used to contradictions? If you don't understand anything, you can just fool around? How did you become such a person?" This is not a question of whether to accept it or not. In her eyes, Feng Deng's character is very important. .

"Do I have to say something? I will experience a lot of things with him, do I have to say everything clearly?"

"Nonsense, if you don't understand, who is willing to accompany you on this journey? The more conflicts accumulate, the more people will be crushed. Are you going to follow my old path?"

After all, Feng Deng was her son, and she had a sharp mouth and a bean curd heart, and couldn't bear to see Feng Deng suffer.

"I knew it in my heart. I thought he understood me too. Words are the most unconvincing. Haven't you heard my dad's promise? He lied to you in the end. Uncle Feng never said superfluous words, he is the one who is sincere." good for you."

Lu Shuhan glanced at Feng Xianghai: "How do you know he didn't say that?"

Seeing the mother and son mentioning him, Feng Xianghai scratched his head embarrassedly.There was surprise in Feng Deng's eyes: "Mom, did you also say that?"

Lu Shuhan turned her head away and said noncommittally: "This is our private matter, what does it have to do with you? Take care of yourself and don't embarrass me. What's the use of being jealous of others? Since you know it in your heart, why don't you dare to admit it?"

Lu Shuhan thought to herself that Feng Deng probably didn't understand what a "sense of ritual" was, even worse than her, and she began to sympathize with Song Xinyuan.

After eating, Feng Deng said suddenly: "I read a story about a picture-mounting artist who was stuck in a bottleneck because of jealousy of a picture. As time went by, he found a way to make a picture frame, that is to kill Get rid of your jealousy, fall in love with that painting, and find ways to make it more colorful.” (*Note ①)

"You're not stupid." The ending music sounded, Lu Shuhan picked up the remote control, and switched to the next episode, "You just happened to be idle, why don't you pack up your old things, throw away what should be thrown away, it's all dusty, pile up Take up space in the corner." She pointed to the storage room.

Feng Deng washed the dishes and went into the small storage room, where some old clothes and books from his college days were still kept.He took out a collection of poems, and he put a bookmark on the page that Song Xinyuan read back then.He wiped the book and put it back in its place.

Feng Deng continued to sort out the shirts, trousers and suits he couldn't wear, and was stunned when he came across a familiar black suit.Song Xinyuan bought this to celebrate his admission to Qianyang University as a graduate student.Song Xinyuan used to spend a lot of money, and spent several months of pocket money to buy this suit.

This incident happened in the second semester of the fifth year, not long after the two dated.Feng Deng rejected Song Xinyuan's kindness at first, because he ran into Song Yanqing to pick up Song Xinyuan by chance, and learned that Song Xinyuan was Song Yanqing's son.

Feng Deng entered the Affiliated Hospital of Qianyang University as an intern in his fifth year, and his postgraduate tutor happened to be Song Yanqing, and Song Yanqing was Song Xinyuan's father.He had to suspect that Song Xinyuan "helped" him, so he felt bad.

Why didn't you break up with Song Xinyuan immediately, why did you accept the gift?Feng Deng remembered.Song Xinyuan was carefree at that time. Although he was not good at words, he always had a smile on his face.After he was admitted to graduate school, Song Xinyuan held a gift and handed it to him, and he was not sad to be rejected: "Senior, I'm so happy."

"Why?" Feng Deng asked.

"You are amazing, you have such a high score, you are amazing!" Song Xinyuan admired, "I am so happy when I think of you as my boyfriend. You are the pride of our whole bedroom, you are my hero." The so-called " All sleep", in fact, just the two of them.

Song Xinyuan did not give up, secretly put the clothes on Feng Deng's bed in the middle of the night, tore off the tag, and was caught by Feng Deng.Song Xinyuan almost fell down, held on to the bed frame, and said without shame: "I, I am sleepwalking, I just dreamed that you were wearing this dress, you are so handsome! Hehe, my boyfriend is so good-looking, I am so lucky. You try it tomorrow How about trying it? I have no other intentions, I just like you, I want to see you wear nice clothes and become more beautiful..."

It was the first time in his life that someone confessed to Feng Deng like that, clumsy and cute.If you only fall in love once in your life, talk to this person.Feng Deng thought at the time, don't worry about Song Xinyuan's identity, it's just a relationship, if the relationship doesn't work out, they will break up, and if they can't get along, they will stay together.

It's really inseparable now.Feng Deng came back to his senses, put down his clothes, and looked calm, unable to tell what he was thinking.

For the next two weeks, Song Xinyuan stayed at home alone without contacting anyone.During the day, he is obsessed with acting, acting for himself through the mirror.At night, his old problems reappeared - insomnia, teeth grinding, finger gnawing, no one restrained him, not at all.

He wanted to compete with Feng Deng, and never went to Feng Deng again.

On the day he joined the group, Jia Yingjun came to pick him up, and frowned when he saw his ghostly appearance: "Didn't I tell you to adjust your diet and schedule? What did you do? You lost your relationship?" No.

Song Xinyuan: "I am practicing entering the play and improving my adaptability to the role."

Jia Yingjun nodded and agreed with his approach: "It's right to be dedicated, but don't consume yourself too much. If you don't get the corresponding results, your mentality will collapse."

"Then I should try harder."

Song Xinyuan arrived in Changchuan City, attended the opening ceremony, and checked into the hotel.In the evening, Jia Yingjun helped him take care of the relationship and was about to leave: "Song Xinyuan, I have other jobs and I can't be with you all the time. I found you an assistant. He will arrive at night and he is nice. What is the salary? , it's up to you to transfer the money from your account."

Song Xinyuan understood that there was no room for negotiation on this matter, and replied: "Brother Jun, you decide, I will listen to you."

After seeing off Jia Yingjun, Song Xinyuan sat on the bed in the hotel, hugging his knees in a daze.His eyelashes quivered when the doorbell rang.The doorbell rang again, he hurriedly jumped out of bed, opened the door and said, "Excuse me, I—"

He couldn't continue, Feng Deng was standing outside the door.Feng Deng had a work card hanging around his neck, obviously it was his assistant.

Feng Deng walked into the house without permission, closed the door and asked, "Song Xinyuan, how many tunnels did you pass through by train from Qianyang City to Changchuan City?"

"33." Song Xinyuan retreated subconsciously.

"you sure?"

"I've counted many times. Last year when I came home from Changchuan City, I counted them again," Song Xinyuan emphasized, "It's not wrong."

"Yes, this road is very far. You can only find you through the 33-section tunnel." Feng Deng hugged Song Xinyuan, and said solemnly, "Thank you for coming to me last year."

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Only two chapters left! *Note ①: The story comes from the novel "The Woman Next Door" by Japanese playwright Kuniko Mukoda.