The Secret Daily of Sword Spirit

I have had many identities in my life.In the novel, the abandoned baby picked up by the real person Wangchen, the three apprentices of the head teacher, the wandering real Jixuan, the elder Si Jian of Shushan, the head teacher of Shushan, the eternal traitor of China, and the demon emperor.I have lived for nearly 80 years, but I don't know what my real identity is.

My life is not long for a cultivator, but it is long enough for an ordinary human being.It's also too long for me.Maybe when my parents died under the butcher knife of Bai Minguo and Master, I should have left together, but Jinghai’s so-called mercy brought a catastrophe to China. Was he also like me at the moment before he died, and was killed? Does the fire of remorse burn the soul?

There have been two life-threatening moments in my life that divided my life into three pieces.Before the Battle of Qingqiu, I was just a talented but ordinary and simple swordsman.I have a lot of people and things I like, and I yearn for a life of traveling freely around the world.In my only saber, there is a sword spirit who looks good but has a bad temper and a bad mouth. He said his name is Yajiu.I picked him up in a coral reef cave under the sea.That was the first time I "run away from home" to protest that the second senior brother agreed to take over the position of Elder Si Ming.I don't understand why he would agree to such an unfair thing, bury his whole life in a tall tower that never sees the sun, and never have the chance to see the boundless world outside... He clearly promised me that he would take me What are the famous mountains and rivers he talked about!

At that time, I was only a 17-year-old boy. I didn't know what sacrifice was, and I didn't think it was an honor to sacrifice myself to protect the common people.I lost my temper willfully, and I didn’t listen to anyone’s persuasion. Yuxin said that I had suffered from the second-year illness again, and I thought to myself that I’d been told that anyway.I will go where my brother doesn't take me, and tell him what I have seen and heard, so that he will regret it to death.

The senior brother said that a practitioner who practices sword control will one day go down the mountain to find his own saber.I traveled all the way to the mountains and rivers, and by the way, I went to various famous families to find out if there were any sword sellers.However, looking all the way, those swords are good or bad, but they are all prohibitively expensive. I am a fledgling little cultivator, and I have some private money I secretly saved. sword.

So I decided to pick one up.

What?You said it was impossible to pick it up?

There is no such three words as impossible in the dictionary of this little prodigy!

Originally, the most likely place to pick up the sword was the ruins of Jijian Ridge, but it was rumored that it was haunted, so I didn't plan to take the risk unless it was absolutely necessary.Fortunately, on the way, I heard from scholars that there is a grumpy Kunpeng in Beiming Sea, guarding a bottomless cave in the deep sea. It is rumored that there is a peerless sword in it.Although most people just listen to it for fun, but the more I listen to it, the more interesting it becomes. What if it is true?So I turned around and went to the Beiming Sea. The nearby fishing villages knew about the Kunpeng. Legend has it that it guarded a sword. Anyone who approached it would be hung up and beaten by him before being thrown back to the land.Following the path they showed me, I really saw the Kunpeng very soon.

I fought against that big bird for three days and three nights, and the fight was so dark that I was ashamed.Until Kunpeng was finally wounded by me and escaped.After resting for a while, I recited the Dinghai formula and dived into the sea.

In the endless darkness, I saw Crow Nine for the first time.

There was a faint gleam all over him, and even though his body was covered with things like seaweed, starfish, and shells, the gleam still leaked out like the light of stars swimming in the deep sea.I slowly floated down towards him, and the moment my hand touched it, I felt a familiar yet remote happiness spread from my fingertips to my whole body.

It's a strange feeling, and I've never felt this way when holding other swords.

Brother Langya said that when a sword cultivator finds the sword he is destined for, he will have a special feeling, making you know that this is the sword you are destined for.I think, probably something like this?

A kind of ecstasy welled up from within me.Even though the sword looked neither dark nor dirty, I held him tightly in my arms like a baby and rushed back to land.Regardless of the seaweed on my head, I tried to communicate with the sword spirit in the sword.

But he ignored me...

I'm a little discouraged, could it be that this sword doesn't have a sword spirit?

Just after he finished talking to himself, the dark sword suddenly started to shine, and the light was so dazzling that he looked like a colorful feather duster.I smiled and said, "I know, I know, you are a divine sword~ But since you have a spirit, why don't you speak?"

I thought about it seriously, tilted my head and asked him, "Could it be a dumb sword spirit?"

The next moment I was hit in the stomach by his sword.After fighting for three days and three nights, I didn't even bother to eat, and my stomach was hurting.I felt even more uncomfortable when he was like this, so I simply crawled on the ground and pretended to be dead.There seemed to be some movement in him, and he didn't know what he was doing. The next moment, I saw a face with a starfish on it, coming to kiss my mouth!I was so scared that I kicked him away and yelled: "You!!!! You rascal sword!!!"

Thinking back to my first meeting with Ya Jiu, it was really not romantic at all.

In fact, most of my life is still very happy. During those 50 years, Yajiu and I traveled around mountains and rivers, repaired monsters that made trouble, and even killed many famous monsters in the world.At that time, I never softened my heart when I killed youkai. Since I was a child, I was told that youkai are monsters without emotions and only know about killing. Such evil creatures should not appear in the world. I firmly believe in this.There are countless demons who have died under my hands. They don't feel guilty, and they even feel very honorable. When they return to Shushan, they have to show off to their brothers and sisters.

My reputation is also growing among the Chinese sects, and they began to call me Jixuan Master.

Although Ya Jiu's mouth is always talking non-stop, and he likes to be handsome when he takes human form, but his power is amazing.I was worried that I would not be able to control him, so I practiced more and more diligently day and night, and broke through the Soaring Cloud Realm and the Sunshine Realm one after another in a short period of time, and was called a genius by everyone in Shushan Mountain.Rubbing the blade of Yajiu's sword countless times, I swore in my heart that I must become a cultivator worthy of Yajiu's sword.I want Yajiu to be proud and happy to have a master like me.

How could I have imagined at that time that one day I would throw him away with my own hands?

Yajiu has his own ideas, he often obeys my orders, I am not angry, on the contrary, I think he is cute like that.I don't know when it started, but I like to watch him secretly, especially when he takes human form.He has a slender figure, well-proportioned muscles, a very handsome face but always wears half a crow feather mask. He has the appearance of a cold-blooded killer, but he is always disillusioned when he speaks.

"Fuck, someone is fighting! Master, let's go watch!"

"Wow...that oiran is not as beautiful as your master's belly button..."

"Master, there is an idiot drooling at you, what should I do if I really want to beat him?"

"If you want to see our master, you can't do it in vain. Come here, come and see, it's worth a penny! Master, why are you glaring at me? We have to spend money on the road!" Although I often want to pretend that I don't know him and walk away quickly, but Seeing his tugging at two to five to eighty thousand dollars, I don't know why a feeling of pampering slowly came to my heart, and in the end I could only drag him away by his hair, and buy him some delicious pastries to comfort him.Of course, I used the money I earned from selling "Hue"...

I like those nights when I sleep in the wilderness, the sky is full of stars and rivers, he is pillowed on my lap, I caress his long black hair like silk, my heart is extremely peaceful and peaceful, I really think about what I want in this life, have been obtained.Sometimes he would play the flute in the silent night, and he didn't know where he learned the memory from. The sobbing sound of the flute echoed the mountain wind gently, with a hint of sadness.I don't know about Yajiu's past, and he also said that he doesn't remember, but I think there must be a lot of sad things in that past.Otherwise, how could he have been sleeping in Beiming Sea for so many years?

Ya Jiu always said that I like prudence, but in fact I have laughed a lot in front of him.I like to pretend to be asleep and then squint to see what he does while I'm asleep.He would play the flute for a while, pose a few handsome poses, and then run over and look at me in a daze, with dazed eyes, very cute.Many times I have the urge to kiss his eyes, but I think it's too weird.

He is a great sword, will I scare him like this?

Many years have passed in mutual company like this.Later we met Qiao Jiashu.He told me many stories that I had never heard before.He said that demons are not necessarily evil, they have emotions and people who care about them just like people.Just like the green snake beside him.I like to listen to Qiao Jiashu talk and listen to him play the piano.He has a high attainment in piano art, and he also has his own views on the principles of the world.Although I have traveled around the world for a long time and made quite a few friends, there are not many who are as congenial as him, and often chat all night long.However, Ya Jiu was very unhappy during that time, occasionally rolling his eyes and spitting at Qiao Jiashu when he turned his back, and seldom transformed into a human form.I know he is jealous.

For some reason, I actually enjoyed watching him jealous.Especially with that little expression of daring to be angry every time, I thought I didn't pay attention to him.

Stupid... I want to ruffle his hair and hug him and kiss him.But such an opportunity, but I missed it again and again in the hesitation.But I'm not worried, I think we have endless time together and nothing needs to be rushed.

The Battle of Qingqiu was an unavoidable disaster in my life.Looking at the corpses scattered all over the place, watching the red blood gurgling from the monsters' bodies, which is the same as that of human beings, converging into a river, and watching those young monsters crying beside their mother's corpse, it was the first time I felt the pain I received since I was a child. Teaching creates doubt.

Is this really right?Why is killing people a sin, but killing demons is justice?

What is this kind of justice to a demon?

Or is it that all of this has nothing to do with justice or not, and what is there is just a position?

My doubts were short-lived, because not long after, in front of Fox Entropy, everything I believed in collapsed.At that time, he stretched out his sharp claws and pierced into my heavenly spirit. In an instant, the seal set by Wangchen in my mind was destroyed, and endless childhood memories roared to engulf me.

It turned out that the one who has been raising me is the one who took everything away from me.

When a baby comes into the world, the first thing he touches is the mother's arms and the father's smiling face.The warm touch and memory with a faint fragrance will turn into an invisible sense of security and stay deep in a person's heart.According to the tradition of the fox clan, the kiss that my mother pressed on my forehead conveyed her memory to me.That was my initial understanding of the world.In the first two years of my life, I was dancing and carefree in the quiet harbor woven for me by the two of them.

Until those cultivators appear.

The father's body was dripping with blood, his blood vessels and muscles were exposed in the air, and his handsome face was beyond recognition.The punishment of Ling Chi is the cruelest death in the world, but he didn't say a word because he was afraid of scaring me.And my mother's eyes that were bleeding and tearing, all the starlight that I was intoxicated in has fallen away, in a void, the last thing that freezes is hatred.Bitter hatred.

When she stabbed the sword into her father and her body, she turned her head and stared at me, pouring all that hatred into my mind.I heard her say that she wanted me to avenge them.

To avenge his mother, his father, and the entire Jiuli.

I was so scared at the time, and kept crying, crying heartbreakingly.Why did Father and Mother become so scary, why did they not move, and who are these people around?What did they do to Mom and Dad?I trembled with fear, screamed, and woke up from my memory.

I found my own body shaking too.

Hu Entropy's eyes were red, and he said that he was my uncle, and the fox clan was my last relative.He took me to the depths of the fox cave, in front of a huge amethyst, the ancient crystal was already full of cracks, and there was a faint light floating inside.

Hu Entropy said that it was the last remaining soul of my mother.As long as I revive Bai Ze, I can bring my mother back.

But what will Bai Ze do after his resurrection?

It will wash China with blood and kill all human beings!

It's not right... I can't kill...

If you don't kill people, people will kill us all!Have you forgotten how they killed your father and forced your mother to death?

No...they just don't understand...Uncle, let me go back, let me persuade them.This war is meaningless at all... As long as you promise, uncle, that you will not invade the territory of other countries, I will definitely make Shushan and other immortal sects retreat!If it continues like this, the entire fox clan will be wiped out!

The knowledge that my hands have been stained with the blood of the last of my people makes me feel like my heart is being torn apart.Why is this happening?why me?

I seem to hear the spell that my mother left in my mind with her thoughts...

"Yao'er...survive...survive us and avenge us!!!"

If she knew that I had become the enemy's pawn, if she knew that I had killed countless people of my own race, would she...would she regret giving birth to me?

I can't continue to kill... The last of my clan is about to perish...

Under my various entreaties and guarantees, Hu Entropy was persuaded by me and agreed to put me back.I knelt in front of my master and all the elders and teachers of the Ten Factions of the Allied Forces, presenting to them the letter of surrender written by Hu Entropy.As they have repeatedly assured, Hu Entropy will never step out of Qingqiu Kingdom again.

"God has the virtue of loving life, and the life of demons is also fate, why must they be exterminated?" I tried to calm down and shouted at the top of my lungs amidst the opposition.Finally, my master nodded and agreed.

A big stone fell from my heart, and I let down my guard and was suddenly knocked out by the elder brother.When I woke up again, it was too late.

I rushed to the battlefield with Yajiu, only to see the sky burned by the flames of war, the corpses all over the mountains and plains, and the last curse of Hu Entropy amidst the heavy siege.

He killed Qiao Jiashu, and then a pair of golden eyes were fixed on me.

Is it hate... or disappointment... I can't tell.I only heard the last words he conveyed to me with his thoughts.

"revenge!!!"

These two words have become my nightmare for the rest of my life.

After that battle, Master Jixuan, who was once carefree and carefree, died, and was buried in the earth together with the bodies of the fox clan.What is left is just a shadow, a shadow that exists for the mother, for the father, and for the obsession of the fox clan.For three years, I stayed at home and didn't see anyone, but I couldn't have a moment of peace in my mind.For three years, I never fell asleep, and the wailing of countless dead foxes echoed in my ears.During countless nights tormented by phantoms, in the empty Zhaohua Palace, I made a detailed plan.

How to lead Jiuli's plan to revenge against China.

The horror and cruelty of this plan may shake even the most wicked mind.I have already forgotten that I once dreamed of going beyond the six realms with Yajiu and traveling in the boundless world, and I also forgot that I wanted to use my sword to protect the well-being of the common people.Those past happy memories have become a burden, and even a smile has become a luxury.It seems that every time I laugh, I forget the enmity between my parents and the fox clan.

I began to alienate Yajiu, and I started by bringing back Dan Zhujian.

Yajiu has regarded Shushan as his home, and he will never tolerate me doing anything that hurts Shushan.Even if I am his master, even if he has me in his heart.I even know that one day his sword will be pointed at me from afar, and he may hate me and regret treating me as his master.

Instead of being in so much pain when the time comes, it's better to stop thinking about it early in the morning, so that when everything really happens, it won't hurt too much.

I know that Yajiu is very sad and lost.Every time I go to Jiange, I can't bear to see his eyes mixed with longing and anticipation.But he didn't say much, he even accepted the swords I brought back later, and claimed to be their eldest brother.I really admire this guy's big nerves, so he won't be angry with me or make trouble with me?It makes me wonder if he has me in his heart...

Only occasionally, when I look at his lonely face sitting on the steps of the hidden sword pavilion while hiding outside the courtyard gate, a dull pain will spread in my heart.

My demon power awakened along with my memory, and it helped me break through the Formless Realm in a short period of time.I have never told anyone about this matter, and I have hidden my strength so deeply that even Ya Jiu has not noticed it.However, Master still began to doubt me.From the moment I begged for mercy for the Fox Clan, I began to doubt it.He knew that I had always been a ticking time bomb and had always held a grudge against me.Now, he will definitely not show mercy to me anymore.

On the pretext that he wanted to teach me the exercises, he announced me into the Guanxin Hall, and surrounded him with trapping demon formations.However, he doesn't know that my ability has already surpassed him.He didn't kill me, but my palm broke his heart.

I claimed to the outside world that the head teacher went mad when he was teaching the mind, and his meridians went retrograde.Everyone believed it, only Senior Brother Langya looked at me with a little bit of hesitation.But I know he won't say much, because I was brought up by him, and I will never do anything against me.

After Elder Brother succeeded to the throne, I also took over the position of Elder Si Jian.I no longer go out to travel, and spend most of my time in retreat in Shushan. At the same time, my avatar began to walk in Jiuli, welcome back Hu Qi, which is far away from Tianzhu, to inherit the throne of Qingqiu, and summon the remnants of the fox tribe who traveled abroad. After several years of arrangement, he successfully avenged the Bai Minguo royal family surnamed Qiu.At the same time, I am also constantly collecting swords to hide my real purpose - to collect all three souls of Bai Ze.

The plan was proceeding step by step, and the only accident was probably at the sword test meeting.

First, Yajiu was poisoned, causing me to be in chaos.Seeing his face gradually losing its color in my arms, although he was still trying to force himself to laugh, blood was gushing out like a steady stream.I just felt cold hands and feet, and my mind went blank.I have forgotten all about revenge, Jiuli, and Huaxia, and there is only an overwhelming fear in my mind.

Only then did I know that the sword spirit could also die.

For two days and two nights, I held his hand tightly, afraid that if I let go, he would turn into a wisp of green smoke and fly away.Fortunately, my junior brother's medical skills are superb, and my Yuanying Dan pulled him back from the gate of hell.As a result, this guy just woke up and ate my tofu while I was resting.I can't laugh or cry, does this sword have a brain? Do you know what it means to be afraid?

Then during the martial arts competition, I felt like I was possessed by a demon, and the Taoist Tianliang opposite me was extremely unpleasant.It was clearly agreed that I would intentionally get injured and cause some commotion, but I couldn't control myself, and rushed over with the fiercest offensive time and time again.

Although it is not certain whether Maoshan people poisoned the tea that Yajiu drank...

However, Long Yuan really rebelled.When I tricked him from Qiu Muxue, I knew that this sword was too rebellious and paranoid, and he would do anything to get back to Qiu Mushuang.Long Yuan dropped his hand suddenly, and when Taoist Tianliang's sword pierced my body, I didn't feel any fear.

I'm even a little thankful that I don't have to do things that even I think are terrible.Yajiu, you don't need to see my real ugly appearance... But I didn't know that Yajiu was so stupid that he killed Taoist Tianliang to avenge me.Although I lost consciousness at the time, I could still hear Yajiu's crying calls, which were as heartbreaking as an abandoned dog.It was as if I was looking at the moonlight floating on the surface of the water at the bottom of the deep water, and I couldn't help but think of him floating there.

If I leave, how sad Yajiu will be...

After walking through the gate of hell, I feel that I have figured out something.Although this plan is evil and cruel, it is very dangerous. I don't know how far I can go.I want to gamble...

Just bet that Yajiu won't leave me...

On Penglai Island, I kissed him and confessed my heart to him.In the morning light, he was pleasantly surprised and happy, with such an idiotic smile on his face, it was as beautiful as a dream.

The subsequent series of escapes, although planned by me, were full of dangers.But what I can't bear the most is that Yajiu lent himself to Yin Fushu for use...I swear I have never experienced such a feeling, as if a thousand bugs were biting my heart. The uncontrollable anger almost drove me crazy.Yajiu is mine, why should the master of the evil palace touch him!

I finally tasted the taste of jealousy, it turned out to be such a maddening feeling...In anger, I killed all the Taoist priests of Maoshan and Shuiyue sect present, and I saw the shocked and a little bit scared eyes of Yajiu.

My heart is in pain, if these deaths shock him, then what I will do in the future...

I don't dare to think too much, I don't want to think too much.In the Palace of Dispelling Evil, I used the taste of wine to numb myself, and I was surprised to see that I was able to drink so much wine.With the strength of the wine, I made many actions that I would never do normally... Yes... I want to possess Yajiu, completely possess him like a lover... I want to tear his clothes off and kiss him the whole body, into his body...

Originally, I thought that I could control my desires freely after breaking through the Formless Realm, but when I saw the Crow Nine, I still had an urge that was so strong that I couldn't hold it... This sword... had too much influence on me.This is not a good thing.

But I was still intoxicated in the dream.A night in the hot spring is probably the best memory of my life.It turns out to be such a happy thing to be able to hug, mingle, and become one with the one you love.At that time, I even had the illusion that maybe I still have a chance to be happy... Maybe in the end, Bai Ze can resurrect everyone, so that everything will be perfect... Crow Nine... He will definitely forgive me...

He loves me so much, doesn't he?

So later, when he sneaked into my Jiuli barracks with Pojun and the others to rescue the captured Yuxin, I tried him as the demon emperor and let him witness the Cymbidium japonica being trampled by Jiuli. The tragedy of peace, because one day Shushan will be destroyed in a way that is several times more tragic than this.I want to know whether he is willing to be the sword of the demon clan, and whether he is willing to serve the hostile power.

Not surprisingly, he turned me down.But the reason for the refusal was simply because he only recognized one master.

Although the way he said it made me want to punch someone... But in my heart, I am still very happy.I could barely contain myself from laughing out loud.I seem to see that hope is getting brighter and brighter, and I even think about whether to use other methods to occupy Shushan... Although Huqi and the others will definitely disagree, the other major tribes may also have doubts about me...

The time is ripe, according to the plan, we attacked Shushan.The fox king cast a charm on the junior brother, controlling him to give the senior brother a fatal blow.All the worst scenarios I imagined appeared in front of me one by one.I watched my dearest brothers fall under my sword, and their blood stained my clothes.And all I can do is to use Dana rosary to preserve their souls.

I lost everything again.

I forced myself not to think about it. I told myself over and over that these sacrifices were temporary, and Bai Ze would bring them back to the world.But the pain in my heart was gradually spreading, and a deep fear gradually filled my soul like a bottomless black.My past as Sheng Wenxiu is being obliterated bit by bit by myself, wiped out in the blood and fire caused by me.

I began to wonder what if I was wrong?

Wouldn't it be better if... I never recalled my childhood memories, if I didn't meet Hu Entropy, if I decided to forget my identity as a demon and live as a person forever?Am I wrong?

But another voice would immediately annihilate this doubt, he shouted to me: Sheng Wenxiu, you have no way out.

Jiuli has been led by you to rush out of the barren and narrow habitat, and break into the Huaxia surrounded by the ten great immortal sects. Now it is too late to stop.The flames of war have already ignited, and even the instigator has no way to stop, so he can only bite the bullet and go on.

Stop thinking about right and wrong, stop doubting.I am the demon emperor, I am the emperor of the Jiuli people, I want to revive Bai Ze, I will return it to Jiuli, the fox clan, and my parents a fair world.I'm almost there, no one can stop me.

I was wrong.

The second catastrophe in my life has just appeared.

When this catastrophe came, it was much quieter than the first one. It was in a spacious and quiet palace, in front of a bleak sick bed, and in the eyes of the elder brother who suddenly appeared like a flash of light.

All the preparations are for that pagoda, for the 500-year-old secret of Shu Mountain.We have prepared everything, as long as we have this secret, Bai Ze can be resurrected.

If you want to resurrect Bai Ze, you need to sacrifice the Crow Nine.

Bai Ze and Ya Jiu can only choose one.Just like Jiuli and human beings, you can only choose one.

It turns out that the happiness I once imagined has never been possible.Yes, how can I expect a good death for myself after I have already committed a heinous crime?

It's too late, it's too late to break the bond with Yajiu now.We've all fallen too deep.Maybe what the brother said is right, I should send Yajiu out of Shushan, without disturbing anyone, and even Yajiu himself doesn't know the truth.

The fox king began to replace Shushan’s disciples with demon foxes as agreed, and I woke up night after night with screams that didn’t seem to exist.Looking at myself in the mirror, I still have the same face as before, but the inside has already begun to rot, with maggots growing, emitting a stench, and even myself began to feel sick.I lay on the table and retched, but I couldn't spit out anything.

I don't know how long I can carry this crime of destroying mountains and destroying families... But I have a hunch that it won't last long...

I touched the rosary in my hand and made a decision.

Under the clues that I deliberately revealed, Senior Brother Langya and Ya Jiu discovered my identity.I didn't dare to look at Ya Jiu's shocked and disbelieving eyes. Even Senior Brother Langya, who loved me the most, would rather perish with me, burning his own life to kill me.I hugged my brother's body and found that I had already started to go numb.Knowing that it is impossible for Bai Ze to be resurrected again, I still collected my brother's life soul, so let me be selfish... At least let me deceive myself that they didn't leave before the end came.

Crow Nine really started to resist, the moment I cut off Bai Li, I clearly saw the hatred in his eyes.Monstrous hatred.

I destroyed his home, I killed his friends and brothers, I destroyed everything he believed in.He rushed towards me crazily, and I was a little overwhelmed by his terrifying aura.If Qiao Jiashu hadn't tried his best to help me, maybe I would have died under his sword.This is probably the power of the sword that can kill Bai Ze.And I thought it was pretty good too.

Now I feel like I am in Shura Hell, and death is just a relief.

But he finally relented.I felt the change in his sword energy, he was reluctant to kill me.

The deep despair in his eyes made my heart feel like it was burning in a raging fire.How much I want to caress his cheeks and kiss his tears away, but unfortunately, I no longer have the qualifications.

I took him on one last trip.We sat on Bai He's back together, I lightly wrapped his sword around him, he was silent for a while, and then he laughed.I asked him what he was laughing at, and he said he was thinking about the past.

I tried to keep my eyes wide open so that no tears would spill from the corners of my eyes.Taking a deep breath, I said in a calm voice, "It's no use thinking too much."

He finally struggled when he knew I was going to throw him overboard.He is most afraid of the sea. He once told me that he almost forgot his own existence during the endless years in the sea.Such boundless loneliness is the most terrifying.But I didn't tell him, he won't stay in the sea for too long, I have reached an agreement with the master of the evil spirit palace, he will come to rescue you soon...

I will seal your memory, just like Master sealed mine back then.That way you won't be in pain.You will forget about me, and you will become the old chatterbox and hot-tempered sword spirit.In this life, I have failed you...

I have no way out, and the time to part is coming.You begged me hard, begging me not to abandon you.Your words are like countless knives, cutting your heart one by one.

But what can I say?I made a bet and I lost.There is only destruction around me, and I can only let go.

"Go...and never come back."

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Yajiu... I gave you this memory to let you know that I always have a place for you in my heart.You are the brightest light in my chaotic life, I have always liked you, always.Although I am constantly hurting you, time and time again.In the end, there was no way to express this feeling, and all I could say was sorry.

All of this is my own choice, and my whole life is an infinite superposition of mistakes.Don't be sad for my departure, it is actually my relief.

I have committed a lot of sins, and after death, I will never be reborn in the endless hell, but I am not afraid, I am only afraid that you will not be able to let go, and that you will keep thinking about why I did this to you for the rest of the time.

Now that you know everything, I hope you can let go of everything and be the carefree Yajiu you were before.Even if I am in purgatory, I will pray for you.