don't let me go

Lin Guo seemed to understand, but at the same time seemed to understand nothing.He spent a long time going over this passage in his mind, trying to sift out its clearest meaning.

During the process, he seemed to be in a daze, quietly hugged by Duan Xu, staring straight ahead in a daze.

Until this repeated screening was finally so clean that nothing could be screened out.

There are a few big characters shining brightly on the tip of Lin Guo's heart - Duan Xu doesn't care, Duan Xu likes him.

It is very difficult for Lin Kuo to understand this matter clearly, as if God suddenly said that he is the luckiest child in the world.

"Brother..." Lin Guo lowered his head subconsciously, pressed his chin on Duan Xu's shoulder, tentatively raised his hands slowly, and hugged him back.

Duan Xu smiled contentedly, and patted the back of Lin Guo's head with his big hand, "Understood?"

Lin Guo said sullenly: "Mmm..." The fiery breath sprayed on Duan Xu's shoulders, a little itchy, and Duan Xu couldn't help laughing even more happily.

"Would you like to stay with me then?"

It should be a question, but Lin Guo didn't even see the question mark.

I can only bury my head and say: "Well..." Halfway through the speech, I thought: "But, uncles and aunts... can't accept it."

"It's okay, I've tried my best to be a good son. Falling in love is my own thing now. You're falling in love with me, not with my parents." Duan Xu's attitude is very firm.

He knew from the beginning that one day, he would "go to court" with his parents, throwing everything away and talking about this secret that had been hidden for many years.

"So you agreed?" Duan Xu asked softly.

Lin Guo thought about it for a long time—aside from other things, Lin Guo didn't need to think about whether he wanted to fall in love with Duan Xu or not.Dream about it.

Since he was a child, he felt that his neighbor's elder brother was the best person to him. Later, during the two years when he lived in Duan Xu's house, he wanted to cling to this mature and steady elder brother all the time.

Even when he was young and ignorant, he hugged and kissed the person in front of him, and later when he was alone, he couldn't help blushing and laughing under the covers when he remembered what he had done back then.

"Lin Guo..." Duan Xu suddenly called his name seriously, and let him go, looking at him face to face, "Don't think too much about me, I will take care of the rest, you just need Think about it."

Lin Guo glanced at Duan Xu's eyes subconsciously, startled by the emotion inside, just about to move away but Duan Xu pinched his chin.

"Tell me, Lin Guozi, don't pretend to be dead."

"Brother..." Lin Guo opened his mouth inadvertently, and he called out a thousand times, and he was startled.

Duan Xu couldn't help laughing, "What about acting like a baby? Acting like a baby doesn't work, I have to make it clear to my brother today."

Lin Guo bit his lower lip, and squeezed out the word "um" from his throat.Just one word out of my mouth, I couldn't help but blush.

"Agreed?" Duan Xu asked in surprise.

"Yeah!" Asked again, Lin Guo felt refreshed now.

"Like me?" Duan Xu asked.

"Um……"

"When did it start?"

"A long, long time ago."

"How long ago?"

Lin Guo gritted his teeth, "Before you liked me."

Duan Xu made a long "oh" on purpose, and then said, "I've wanted to..."

"Stop talking bro!" Lin Guo interrupted him blushing, "I, I want to go to the bathroom, I'm going to the bathroom!"

In the evening, Duan Xulen said nothing to let Lin Guo go, he stuffed someone with a change of clothes and pushed into the bathroom.

He also stood outside the door and said "kindly", "Don't worry, I won't do anything to you."

Lin Guo really believed it.

He believed everything Duan Xu said unconditionally.

It was only when I came out of the shower to dry my hair that I thought of a problem. This house is exactly the same as the house Duan Xu rented when he was in high school—only one bedroom.

Lin Guo stared at the double bed for a long time.

It was more than half an hour after both of them packed up, Lin Guo looked at the time and told Duan Xu to go to bed early and to go to work tomorrow.

Duan Xu took his mobile phone away and forced him to the bedside.Lin Guo's legs softened and he sat down directly, Duan Xu laughed, "So cooperative?"

Lin Guo raised his head and puffed out his mouth to explain, "I don't."

"Why are you blushing?" Duan Xu pinched Lin Guo's face, leaned forward, and brought him down.

Putting his arms on the mattress above Lin Guo's shoulders, he lowered his head and kissed Lin Guo's lips, and asked hoarsely, "There is one more thing, you have to tell the truth to brother."

Lin Guo couldn't think of anything else that he didn't explain, so he pushed Duan Xu down, hugged him, and said angrily, "Well, I'll tell you everything."

In this posture Duan Xu was really afraid that he would be overwhelmed, so he smiled lowly, got up and took Lin Guo to lie down on the bed, leaving a lamp on the bedside table.

"That is, what happened the day you dropped me?"

Lin Guo's face instantly turned pale when he heard this.

Duan Xu immediately comforted: "Let's not talk about it now if we don't want to talk about it, in the future—"

"I don't want to say it." Lin Guo shook his head, "Brother, do you know something?"

what do you know?

Duan Xu didn't know whether to count the man's nonsense as "knowing something".

He didn't believe it at all.

"No……"

"After I moved to that place, there was a man who always stopped by my door." Lin Guo calmed down a lot when he actually talked about it, and his expression almost returned to normal, "I thought he was very strange, so I asked him if he wanted something from me. Is it? He suddenly introduced himself to me, saying that his name is Fu Chi, and asked me to call him Uncle Fu."

Duan Xu frowned suddenly, "Is he sick?"

Lin Guo smiled, "Yes, I also think he is sick. I asked him if he was sick, and stood at my door every day."

Duan Xu couldn't hold back and rubbed his head again, "I didn't expect it to be so fierce when I was outside."

"Then, he told me that an old friend of his used to live here, and not long after he moved out, the landlord rented the house to me.

He knows the ground, he used to run here when he had nothing to do, and now he can't change it, so he always runs here. "

Lin Guo pursed his dry lips, "He's kinda... taking care of me. We talked a lot. I know that the person who lived here before was not his ordinary friend, but a man he had liked for many years."

"Then that day..." Lin Guo continued: "At night, he drank too much. He knocked on my door, and I opened it because of the quarrel. Unexpectedly, as soon as I opened it, he threw himself on me."

Lin Guo couldn't help turning pale again when he thought of that time, "He gnawed on my neck while calling me "Cheng Cheng", I was terrified. "

Duan Xu's gaze moved involuntarily to Lin Guo's collarbone. He was lying on the bed right now, his clothes were piled up, revealing everything.

His eyes were dangerous, Lin Guo hurriedly pulled up his clothes.

"It's not mainly because of this that I went to you, but because I got into a fight with him.

His clothes were torn a lot during the beating, but he was still unconscious. I snatched the beer bottle from his arms and smashed it on his head. "Lin Guo is still a little scared when he thinks about it now, he almost killed someone.

"He only woke up when he was lying on the ground struggling. A big man, crying and telling me not to let your brother go, it will be too late when someone runs away."

Duan Xu thought, this is quite human.

"I don't care what nonsense he says, I'm afraid he's dead, and I'll never see you again. I'll go find you in the middle of the night."

Lin Guo said dryly, "I want to see you for the last time."

Duan Xu hugged him into his arms, kissed his hair, "Don't be afraid, it's over."

"Later, he didn't die. I ran back and found that he...was really woken up by a wine bottle from me. He was covering his head and was bandaging at the doctor's place." Terrified."

Duan Xu couldn't help but hugged Lin Guo and said several times: "Fortunately, you're fine."

Lin Guo raised his head to look at him, "It's also the first time I know homosexuality, Uncle Fu told me that it's innate, when he was not much older than me, he met the person he liked.

At first they lived well, but later their parents found out, and after their financial sources were cut off, they had no culture, and the fate of running out to make a living was worse and worse.

His boyfriend felt that there was no hope for life, so he left him and went home. "

Duan Xu said in a low "hmm", "You knew what was going on with you at that time?"

Lin Guo shook his head, Duan Xu, whose hair was rubbing against each other, was a little itchy, he said: "No, I don't know. It was because I fell asleep and didn't lock the door, and when I woke up, I found that Uncle Fu looked at me with a complicated expression.

He said that I was talking in my sleep, that I kept calling my brother, and kept saying "let him go, don't hurt him". "

Fu Chi wanted to understand what was going on in an instant.

Lin Guo is a little kid, and his speech is too straightforward and easy to understand.After chatting for a few days, you can find out that his three sentences cannot be separated from "my brother". Fu Chi had teased him before, saying that your brother is so sacred, can you stand up to your chanting?

Hearing those dreams, he understood everything.

This kid probably likes his brother, maybe his brother doesn't like him, otherwise he would keep talking in his sleep.

Fu Chi stood there for ten minutes and listened to the phrase "let him go" no less than twenty times.

After waking up, Fu Chi told Lin Guo that if there was anything to let go, he would like it if he liked it.

Duan Xu took a deep breath, "Don't let me go, how can you let me go."

Duan Xu was indeed late the next day.

Since entering college, I have never slept as soundly as I did last night.A night without dreams, close your eyes and open them again - you will be late.

Lin Guo stared blankly at his brother's busy work like a gust of wind with every movement, and he left within a few minutes.

Before leaving, he kissed him on the forehead—this was the slowest movement this morning.

"Eat breakfast at the gate of the community, and then go to work after eating." After the instruction, the door was closed, and the person disappeared.

Lin Guo lay down for 10 minutes before getting up, and his working time was much more free than that of Duan Xu.

Sitting on the bed, I stared blankly at the strange wake-up environment for a while, then got out of bed and washed slowly.

I wanted to say it last night, Duan Xu's toiletries are too complete.It was like waiting for him to be caught.

But he didn't let Duan Xu down, he really didn't have the willpower to reject his brother.

What kind of card is required to enter and leave this community, otherwise you have to swipe your ID card all the time.He remembered that Duan Xu said that there was a spare for that card, and he put it in——

Nightstand?

Lin Guo squatted down to open it, but couldn't find the access control card, but saw a box of things that made people blush and heartbeat.

Thinking "Anyway, there is no one at home", Lin Guo bit his lower lip and took out the box, opened it and took a look, then quickly stuffed it back out of embarrassment.

How could Duan Xu...how could... even prepare this thing.

But nothing happened last night. If something happened, Duan Xu might not be late for more than a while today.

It took more than half a year to decorate the new house and remove formaldehyde.During the two days when he was busy moving, Lin Guo didn't have any special feelings, but on the first night when he officially moved in, he couldn't fall asleep anyway.

Not long after lying down, he sat up again, looked around, and was dragged back to bed by Duan Xu.After a while, repeat the above action.

After a few times, Duan Xu lost his temper, turned over and pressed on Lin Guo, "Energetic?"

Lin Guo was a little shy, but couldn't hold back the corners of his mouth, "I'm a little... a little excited."

Duan Xu knew what he was excited about. This feeling of being at home suddenly made him very excited.

But he still wanted to tease Lin Guo: "Huh? Brother, help you calm down?"

His original intention was purely "amusement", but he didn't want Lin Guo to actually take the initiative to kiss him, and his limbs were also attached to Duan Xu's body with dignity.

Not afraid of death, said: "Okay..."

Now Duan Xu's original intention can't be pure anymore.

Lin Guo was probably stimulated by the concept of "home" that night, and he actually persisted until the end to stay awake.

There were fine beads of sweat on his face, but his eyes were still half-opened, and he smiled and said to Duan Xu: "Brother, I seem to be dreaming."

Duan Xu still couldn't hold his breath, and said with a low smile, "Silly boy."

When he got off the ground, he kept his hands on Duan Xu's shoulders, and said in a soft voice: "Brother, no. My legs are weak, I can't walk anymore..."

Duan Xu pinched his nose, "Not honest yet?"

Dishonesty of course has a dishonest solution.

Of course Duan Xu couldn't just watch him stay up all night excited like this, and simply do it again in the bathroom.This time I was completely honest, people fainted when they came out.

During the Chinese New Year this year, Duan Xu finally stabilized and brought his parents over.

He also said hello in advance, saying that he would be with Lin Guo.

The old couple didn't understand this ambiguous statement at first, they just wondered why their son was hanging out with that kid again.

It took two days to live here before I realized something was wrong.

The first thing wrong is that there are three bedrooms in the house, but two young men who are in their prime want to sleep in the same room.

Even if they were like this in the past, but it was forced by conditions at that time, what is it now?

So this matter was quickly brought to the table.

That afternoon, Duan Xu asked for leave to stay at home, just to spend the afternoon confessing to his parents and expressing his attitude clearly.

Lin Guo's eyelids kept twitching when he was busy in the barber shop, and he didn't know what was going on at the time.

Duan Xu's mother's attitude was very extreme, she almost shouted to Duan Xu to drive Lin Guo out, saying that it was because this kid didn't learn well outside, and ran back to spoil her son.

"Mom, listen to me first." Duan Xu was very calm, probably after years of practice in the workplace, "No one can lead me down in this matter, it's innate."

"Some people are born to like the opposite sex, and a small number of people are born to like the same sex. I happen to be in that small group, and so is Guozi." Duan Xu said.

Duan Xu's mother shook her head violently and pointed at the door: "No, Duan Xu, let me tell you, my mother doesn't allow it. We all know that you have your own ideas since childhood, but there is no need to discuss this matter.

No way, Duan Xu, mother's attitude is here, I can't watch you fooling around with a man. "

Duan Xu's father lowered his head and held the teacup tightly, looked up at his son's expression, then lowered his head and sighed softly.

"Why are you sighing, it's useless at all. Say something quickly and scold your son for nothing." Duan Xu's mother slapped him hard on the shoulder.

Duan Xu's father covered his shoulders, "What do you want me to say about the child? After scolding, Xiao Xu will be able to like women?"

"No, Duan Xu, today you have to drive that wild boy away. I knew he was not doing his job for a day, didn't he run away then?

What are you doing back now?Seeing you have a good life to cheat money?And then hook up with you by the way, see if you follow him?

I think you are a fool, you Duan Xu, if someone hooks up with you, you will leave with him, what the hell? "Duan Xu's mother got angry.

Duan Xu didn't speak again from just now, and waited until his mother was tired of scolding, and then slowly said: "It's useless mother, I know this is hard for you to accept. But as a son, what I should do is already Try to do your best.

Start a family and start a business, the industry has already started, the family... Now He Guo also has a family. "

"What nonsense are you talking about?" Duan Xu's mother snapped.

Duan Xu continued: "It's just that the inheritance of the family cannot be done."

"No, Duan Xu, you are being fooled by that wild boy for a while now, you drive him away, and after a year, look at you, you will be able to talk to a girlfriend for sure."

"It's not like that, Mom." Duan Xu remained calm, "Natural. To put it bluntly, I'm not interested in women by nature."

Whether he has it for other men, he doesn't know.But I have a lot of love for Lin Guo.

The debate didn't start to feel like a truce until the evening. Duan Xu talked all afternoon, and his mother finally listened to the phrase "naturally born", and was busy asking how to cure it?

rule?

This is not a disease, where can it be cured?Go to some informal venue, aversion therapy?

When Lin Guo opened the door and came in, the living room was in a mess.

Before he could ask what happened, Duan Xu's mother picked up an ashtray and threw it at Lin Guo.

Duan Xu rushed over, hugged Lin Guo, and hit him on the back.

Lin Guo was terrified, "Brother? Does it hurt? What, what's the matter? Auntie, don't be angry, I will...I'll change it if I did something wrong. Brother, are you alright?"

Duan Xu's mother sneered: "Change? What are you going to change? I want you to leave Duan Xu now, are you willing?"

Lin Guo is not a smart person, but he is not stupid either.He naturally understood such clear words, he looked at Duan Xu standing in front of him, and heard him say: "Mom, I've said it all, he got angry at me, he was forced by me."

"Duan Xu! You've been fooled by lard. You, you want a girlfriend who can give birth to you. You want this... such a person, can he give birth to you?"

Duan Xu turned his head and looked at Lin Guo, "It's okay, don't be afraid, brother is here."

"You still protect him at a time like this?" Duan Xu's mother was so angry that his seven orifices were filled with smoke.

In the end, I couldn't understand this matter, and Duan Xu felt that he wanted to explain it clearly in the afternoon, or he thought it was easy.

After all, these things are too difficult for the older generation to understand.

Duan Xu's attitude is too firm, even the older generation can't speak against him.

If the two parties disagree with each other, they will let it go for the time being.

The new year passed smoothly, but Duan Xu's mother was anxious to go back in the third year of junior high school, saying that seeing Duan Xu and Lin Guo together here was an eyesore.

Duan Xu sent some more money to his parents' card. Although he had been making frequent transfers over the years, this time he felt guilty and almost transferred more than half of his savings.

At night, Lin Guo was half asleep and half awake and asked, "Brother, will you break up with me because of the child?"

Duan Xu was about to fall asleep at first, but he was refreshed with just one sentence.He said in a deep voice: "Speak nonsense to me again, and I will shut your mouth."

"But... Auntie must really miss you having a child." Lin Guo always felt sorry for Duan Xu's mother.

Duan Xu knew that he could not solve the problem with his mouth.

Half an hour later, Lin Guo was almost out of breath, pinching the bed sheet weakly with both hands, "Don't..."

"You give my brother a baby."

Lin Guo was confused, "Why should I..."

"Shh...it will definitely work, I will work harder."

Although he knew that his brother was playing tricks, Lin Guo couldn't do anything about it, and the strength to resist had long since dissipated.

To ask is to regret, knowing that Duan Xu dislikes him very much, and he doubts their relationship.

In the next few years, Duan Xu's mother would often call to ask about Lin Guo's whereabouts, and whether Duan Xu had any plans to find a girlfriend.

Later, when he really asked about the child again, Duan Xu touched Lin Guo's stomach while talking on the phone, and said no.

Lin Guo blushed with anger, and patted Duan Xu's hand.

Many years later, probably knowing how determined the attitude of these two people was, Duan Xu's mother had no choice but to let go.

In the end, I just said, if you can, adopt a child, and someone will take care of you when you get old.

Lin Guo was amazed by the softened tone of Duan Xu's mother, and after hanging up the phone, he lay on Duan Xu's lap and asked, "Auntie, why did you suddenly figure it out?"

Duan Xu touched his face with his hands, but kept looking straight ahead, the redness in his eyes did not dare to let Lin Guo see.

He said: "As a mother, I wish my child well."

Duan Xu's mother is a very secular person, a very ordinary woman at the bottom of society.

But for Duan Xu, this is always his mother.She is the most amazing woman in his world.

No matter how extreme she did, he could tolerate and forgive her.Just like when I was a child, it was inevitable that I did wrong and stupid things. My mother can tolerate and forgive her when she gets angry.

Lin Guo has no sense of experience with this sentence.

But he knew Duan Xu was sad.

"I wish you well, too."

"It's fine when you're with me."

After a few minutes, after Duan Xu's imperceptible emotions calmed down, he lowered his head and kissed Lin Guo on the lips.

"As a husband, I also hope that the fruit will be good."

-End of the full text——

The author has something to say: It's so sweet, I really have to rely on writing cookies to continue my life, otherwise how can I face a dog man.