[Qin Xiaoxian] Superior

"Where are you going?"

Zhang Jiutai looked at Qin Xiaoxian with serious eyes. It has been about a week since He Jiuhua's incident. Qin Xiaoxian has lost several laps of weight visible to the naked eye. All the flesh he had managed to grow before has disappeared. Now he is so thin that he can be blown away by a gust of wind. .

From that day on, he never smiled again.The wanton, happy and malicious ones, even the pretended smiles, never appeared again.

Mei Jiuliang was arrested and imprisoned for intentional homicide, but according to his mental condition, he was locked up in a mental hospital and could not come out again for the rest of his life.

The dust has settled, these days Qin Xiaoxian has been shutting himself at home, no matter who comes, he will not open the door, the last time Shaobing knocked on the door, the door would be smashed, and he refused to make a sound.

Everyone was worried about him, but fortunately he was still willing to communicate with Zhang Jiutai, which let them know that Qin Xiaoxian was fine... at least alive.

Qin Xiaoxian, who was pushing the suitcase, quietly looked at Zhang Jiutai who suddenly appeared at the door of his house, and said hoarsely, "Why are you here?"

"Probably, I feel a little sad." Zhang Jiutai smiled bitterly: "Every time this kind of heart pounding and uncontrollable sadness is because of you."

He thought it was probably because he liked Qin Xiaoxian so much that he could even predict the opponent's actions in advance.This kind of mood only appeared when Qin Xiaoxian and Mei Jiuliang were together and separated again, and when He Jiuhua had an accident last time.

It has nothing to do with him, but he cares about Qin Xiaoxian.

Qin Xiaoxian stood there, silent for a long time, and then suddenly said: "I'm going to go abroad, the resignation letter... I put it on the table."

"Where are you going?" Zhang Jiutai stared at him closely, "When will you be back?"

Sadness filled his eyes, and before Qin Xiaoxian could answer, he continued, "Are you going to abandon me again because of others?"

Qin Xiaoxian opened his mouth, but couldn't say anything.

In the end, he could barely call out the other party's name.

He has called this name for many years, as a classmate, friend, close friend, colleague...but he has never called it out as a lover.

"Xuan'er." Zhang Jiutai approached suddenly, hugged him and said, "Don't go, or I will accompany you, okay?"

"Let's go together, I will accompany you wherever you are going...we will settle down wherever you like." He almost cried as he spoke, "I will accompany you, I will wait for you."

"Jiutai..." Qin Xiaoxian sighed and said, "You like cross talk."

The reason why he became a cross talk actor is because a long time ago, the person who has been with him said that he likes cross talk very much, and cross talk makes people happy.

At that time, their eyes were shining.

But I like you more.

Zhang Jiutai didn't say this.

Because he knows Qin Xiaoxian too well, he can see the firm emotion in Qin Xiaoxian's eyes.

He could only step back and let the other party leave his arms.

It's not that I don't want to stay, it's because I care too much, so I'm cautious, so I can't bear to persecute, so I retreat again and again.

Afraid that he will be tangled, afraid that he will be irritable, and afraid that he will be in pain.

"Everything is wrong, but I don't know when it became like this." Qin Xiaoxian lowered his head, the broken hair on his forehead covered his eyes, making it difficult for people to see his emotions clearly.

"Actually, I have some regrets. If I didn't know Mei Jiuliang, if I didn't join the Deyun Society, everything would not be like this, right?"

Zhang Jiutai suddenly lost his strength.

It is because of him that I know Mei Jiuliang, and it is also because of him that I joined Deyun Club.So Qin Xiaoxian also regrets getting to know him, right?

He dared not ask.

"When you arrive, remember to send me a postcard." After being silent for a long time, Zhang Jiutai said, "At least, I want to know that you are fine."

He let go again.

"Eat more, don't always stay up late, don't think too much, don't wear short-sleeved clothes in the winter...I'll take care of things here for you, and I'll talk about Brother Meng for you." Zhang Jiutai stepped back. Leaning against the wall a few steps: "I only have one request, you must take good care of yourself."

"I……"

"You are not in good health, so don't torment yourself." Zhang Jiutai said: "I let you go, in exchange, you must be happy."

happy.

Qin Xiaoxian looked at Zhang Jiutai quietly, his eyes were confused.

"I know it's hard, but I'm not reasonable." Zhang Jiutai said stubbornly, "Qin Xiaoxian, you have to be happy."

Because only in this way can I feel that it is worth letting you go.

"Jiutai." Qin Xiaoxian stretched out his hand and grabbed his sleeve, "Don't be sad."

I'm not sad.

Zhang Jiutai wanted to say this, but he was crying uncontrollably, which made him choked up and unable to open his mouth.

"Actually, I'm not reconciled, Qin Kaixuan." Zhang Jiutai slowly squatted on the ground, "I'm really not reconciled."

"It was me who made an appointment with you to go to a school, it was me who made an appointment with you to become a cross talk actor, and it was me who made an appointment to travel with you."

But it wasn't him who was with him.

Now, he is ready to leave by himself, to a far away place.

I once held the boy's hand, watched him drink milk tea and sat under the tree with a heartless smile, deliberately pretended to forget about his birthday, and then wiped cream on his face when he was not prepared...

He walked into Qin Xiaoxian's life step by step.

Even before he fell in love with Qin Xiaoxian, he had thought about the future many times, every scene and every scene had Qin Xiaoxian.

Qin Xiaoxian looked at him for a long time, then squatted down and hugged Zhang Jiutai, "I will be back, I will get better."

"If you are willing..." He hesitated for a long time, and then said, "Please wait for me for the last time."

Qin Xiaoxian didn't know what kind of mood he was holding to say this sentence, even after he said it, he felt very regretful, but looking into Zhang Jiutai's eyes, he seemed to think it wasn't that bad.

"You..." Zhang Jiutai looked at him, his voice trembling.

"I'm leaving, Jiutai." Qin Xiaoxian got up and pulled him up, "Send me off, you took me to school before."

"Okay." Zhang Jiutai didn't continue to ask, but drove him to the airport in person.The place Qin Xiaoxian is going to is Iceland, he wants to see the world of ice and snow.

"It's so far."

As the plane took off slowly, Zhang Jiutai stared at the blue sky and muttered to himself, "It's so far away."

When will you come.

Zhang Jiutai thought.

The change of time and environment is the best way to heal a person, maybe he should have left with Qin Xiaoxian back then, so that they would not have such an ending.

But there is no regret medicine.

All they can do now is look forward to the future, and leave everything else to time.

He only hoped that one day in the future, he would meet Qin Xiaoxian with a bright smile unexpectedly, and reunite after a long absence.

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