Rikov

The lover who unilaterally left without telling you is a willful and insecure brat who hasn't come to you for so many years, and you foolishly waited for him all the time.

Forget it, and keep all the things from the time when we lived together, what are we doing with them?What if he doesn't come back?What if he was already in love with someone else?Are you still waiting you big fool.

Jiang Ge had a lot of words in his mind, and he wanted to say them but couldn't. In the end, what came out were tears.

Xue Yiyang saw that he suddenly scolded himself, and then his eyes turned red as soon as he pursed his lips. He immediately knew that this was a signal that Jiang Ge was about to cry, and immediately panicked, "What, what's the matter, why are you crying?"

Jiang Ge was also surprised by himself. He may not have cried for four or five years. He couldn't remember the last time, so he wiped his face fiercely and said, "I'm angry."

"Why?" Xue Yiyang stretched out his hand to help him wipe off his tears.

"I'm angry with myself." Jiang Ge pursed his mouth, tears fell down again.

The person in front of you, how much he loves you, didn't you know it very well at that time?Why doubt it?

Xue Yiyang hugged Jiang Ge gently, rubbed the hair on the back of his head and said, "I'm also angry with myself."

Jiang Ge looked up at him with teary eyes, Xue Yiyang smiled and kissed his forehead.

When he was with Jiang Ge at first, he knew the gap between himself and Jiang Ge.

Jiang Ge is a young master who grew up in a honey pot. He lives alone in a duplex villa. He has never had to worry about food and clothing since he was a child.

And he is just a college student from an ordinary rural area. He grew up in a single-parent family. His mother put in a lot of effort to send him to college, so he was educated since he was a child to study hard and grow up so that his mother will not suffer.

After being admitted to the University of Business, he originally wanted to choose a major in literature that he was interested in, but in order to meet his mother's expectations, he finally chose business.

Usually, he also has a harder life than the average classmate.Most of the living expenses are earned by himself. Apart from tutoring, distributing leaflets to attend classes on behalf of others, and even setting up street stalls with classmates, he has done everything.

Until he received Jiang Ge's part-time job as a tutor, the salary was double that of others at the same time. If it hadn't been introduced by the tutoring center, he would have suspected it was a scam.

Before coming to the door, he had made a lot of assumptions, maybe he was a rebellious boy living in such a luxurious house, maybe he was a rich second generation who was wayward because his father was rich, in short, he must be a difficult and troublesome character.

But he didn't expect that the boy who opened the door was a very well-behaved boy, wearing a simple T-shirt, and his hair was not as colorful as he imagined. When he looked at him, his eyes were very pure, and his smile could even be said to be a little cute.

At that time, Jiang Ge leaned against the door and said with a smile: "Mr. Xue, hello, my name is Jiang Ge, and Ge is the lattice."

Later he discovered that Jiang Ge seemed to be a little talkative.In class, he always has a lot of questions to ask and a lot of things to tell him.

Once Jiang Ge asked him, "Mr. Xue, why do you think people are born? Maybe some people don't want to be born at all. After all, no one has the option of 'I don't want to be a person' before birth."

Xue Yiyang remembers saying at the time: "It's not just you, many people have raised this question. Perhaps it can be said that theists are happier because they can expect the gods to give them answers."

"But for atheists like you and me, you can only enlighten yourself in another way. Since you have been born, there must be some meaning. If you find the meaning of existence, you may not be entangled with this issue anymore."

"Is that so..."

At that time Jiang Ge fell into thinking.

For the first time, Xue Yiyang felt that the young master who grew up in the ivory tower might feel lonely because he was the only one in the tower.

He admitted that he fell in love with Jiang Ge unconsciously.

Jiang Ge is simply a light, illuminating everything around him.

The part-time job that also had to get up early on weekends became less uncomfortable. Every time he saw Jiang Ge rubbing his sleepy eyes and opening the door for himself, he would feel soft in his heart.When it comes to going back to school to take classes that don't interest me, it seems to be less resistant.

The difficult life seemed to have hope, and the light made him find his own direction, and he was no longer walking alone in the dark.

Until they arrived in city b and chose to live together.

Jiang Ge never looked at the price when buying things, and he would never let Jiang Ge, who was still a high school student, pay the bill, so he insisted on buying those big and small things. When the bank card balance gradually decreased, he began to feel anxious .

If he continues to be an ordinary office worker, the promotion salary may only increase by a few hundred yuan.To buy a house that can accommodate the two of them in Dingchuan, which is developing rapidly, he will have to bear decades of mortgages.Not to mention that Jiang Ge likes to buy things that are not necessary, and the life of two people also costs money...

Money is a vulgar thing that makes everything a reality.

He didn't want Jiang Ge to lower his standard of living just because he was with him. Before Father Jiang came, he had already planned it in his heart for a long time, and it was a lifetime plan.

He can't regard writing as leisure and elegance after work, he has to rely on it to make money, he has to stand out, and he has to be famous.

He can't let Jiang Ge live in such a narrow rented room with himself for the rest of his life, he wants to let Jiang Ge live as freely and happily as before, and be able to paint his favorite paintings for the rest of his life.

He had planned everything, but he didn't expect that he would ignore Jiang Ge's feelings because of these.

Although the two of them slept in the same bed every day, Jiang Ge felt uneasy because he didn't know how busy he was.When Jiang Ge was at school, he would feel sad because of a phone call he hung up, and would be afraid of other people around him, and even more afraid that their relationship would deteriorate.

After Jiang Ge left, he slowly figured out these things.

And in the past few years since he left, he has been thinking about it.

In the beginning, he kept the rented house in City B, because he was afraid that Jiang Ge would find it empty when he returned.Later, when his mother fell ill, he had to return it, but he couldn't bear to throw away anything belonging to the two of them.

My mother once said that he is a nostalgic person, nostalgic too much, so if he falls in love with someone, he will never forget it.

Xue Yiyang felt that this was not a bad thing.

As long as you find the right person.

"I don't live here," Xue Yiyang twisted a hot towel for Jiang Ge to wipe his face, "I only come here occasionally to see, and usually live in the studio."

Jiang Ge's eyes were dry from crying, and after applying it for a while, he calmed down a little, and said, "Even the bathroom is very similar."

"You never thought about it... What if I don't come back? What if you didn't meet me that day?" Jiang Ge put down the towel, looked at Xue Yiyang in the mirror and asked.

"Maybe I have thought about it," Xue Yiyang said, "I almost thought that you didn't want to see me anymore, or that you had fallen in love with someone else, so after meeting you in Dingchuan, I didn't dare to continue looking for you."

"I'm a coward, right?" Xue Yiyang smiled, "I always think that if I become more famous, let everyone know who I am, so that when you are in the crowd, you will definitely be able to find me. turn up."

Jiang Ge froze for two seconds, then suddenly turned around and hugged Xue Yiyang's neck.

Xue Yiyang only felt that Jiang Ge's kiss was very aggressive, like a cat pretending to be a tiger with its teeth and claws, kissing aggressively.

It's very quiet here, so quiet that the gasps of the two people and the friction of skin contact can be heard very clearly.

Jiang Ge put his hand into Xue Yiyang's shirt, the temperature of the other's skin made him feel hot all over, and he could clearly feel the texture of Xue Yiyang's back muscles.

He was pushed against the sink by Xue Yiyang, and the marble touched his skin, making him feel a little cold.

"Sorry," Xue Yiyang said, biting his earlobe lightly, "There seems to be nothing to lubricate here."

"That……"

Before Jiang Ge could say a word, Xue Yiyang had already changed his position, and turned on the shower switch, and the warm water poured down on his head, completely drenching both of them.

Jiang Ge reached out to unbutton Xue Yiyang's shirt, but Xue Yiyang grabbed his hand and led him down.

"Actually... water is fine too..." Jiang Ge said.

Xue Yiyang only hesitated for a moment, and then began to expand him.

It was indeed a bit difficult to go in. Jiang Ge seemed not very familiar with the standing posture, so the whole person was very tight.

While massaging his waist, Xue Yiyang whispered in his ear: "Babe, relax a bit, I'm going to be pinched to death by you..."

Unexpectedly, Jiang Ge became even more nervous after speaking, and Xue Yiyang almost surrendered as soon as the tunnel shrank.

He took a deep breath, picked Jiang Ge up, and stepped into the bathtub.

The water in the tub was still warm and big enough for two seated adults.It's just that it was more difficult for Jiang Ge to "sit". Because of his weight, the thing penetrated deeper, and he couldn't help snorting softly.

Xue Yiyang asked: "Does it hurt?"

Jiang Ge shook his head.

So he withdrew slightly, and then slowly entered with Jiang Ge.This kind of action allowed the warm water to enter, so it became smoother, and Jiang Ge was not so nervous.

After going back and forth several times, Jiang Ge finally found the feeling, and started to move along with it...

Xue Yiyang looked at Jiang Ge who was sitting on top of him, he tilted his head slightly, panting while moving, Xue Yiyang couldn't help biting Jiang Ge's nape...

Jiang Ge knew that he didn't sleep for a long time, because when he woke up, he saw that it was still dark outside. He glanced at his phone, it was four o'clock in the morning.

There was a slight discomfort in the back, but it didn't stop him from standing up and walking to the window.The curtains were not drawn firmly, and the road outside the window could be seen. There were no lights other than street lights, and there were only occasional vehicles passing by, making slight noises.

This kind of scene reminded him that when he was alone in the north, he suddenly felt a little lonely, so he gathered up his pajamas and got back under the quilt.

The part he opened just now was a bit cold, but it warmed up when he moved it to the other side.

Xue Yiyang seemed to feel his approach, and reached out to take him into his arms.

Jiang Ge leaned on his chest and closed his eyes.