unforgiving

world d (nine)

Margaret knocked on the cigarette case, lit a slender women's cigarette, and after taking a deep breath, exhaled a puff of smoke, and she said to her son: "You used to keep saying that you love Qi Shu , I have been in love for more than ten years, didn’t I still have Leslie? I thought it would be the end of the world to be separated from your dad, but what happened? But when we really left, the sun rose as usual and the earth turned as usual. You are still living well so far. Don't be stupid, you are no longer a child of three or four years old."

Adam and Margaret fell silent together, apparently recalling Adam's promise when he was still in kindergarten: "I will only marry once in my life, that is, me and the person I love, and we will never be separated. "

"The will is very firm, but it's a pity that the ability to choose is not enough. You can't always tell what you really want."

It's like a bear picking sticks, looking long and wide, picking one and throwing one away, always wanting the biggest one, and finally getting lost in the cornfield.

"This time I figured it out, really, Mom, I want Leslie."

Seeing the red-eyed son like the last trapped beast, Margaret felt uncomfortable.She has to be strong for a lifetime, thinking that without her husband, she can still give the best to her son. She has considered so much for him, lest he be cold, thirsty, or hungry, and finally realizes that it is her who is so considerate. No matter what you do, you want to put your son first, and you really hurt your son.

Margaret closed her eyes, was cruel, and said what she had prepared a long time ago: "But Leslie doesn't want you anymore."

This is the real reason why Margaret persuaded Adam to divorce. Maybe in the eyes of others, she is a person who can sacrifice her son for the development of the group, but she knows in her heart that if Leslie still loves her son at all, then Even if she turned against the Qi family, she would help her son win Leslie back.

But...it's too late.

"There are only two things in this world that you can't keep, my dear Adam, one is time passing by in a hurry, and the other is letting go of someone who will never love you again." Forcing to stay will only increase the pain, Nothing else.

Adam remained silent all the time, as if he had returned to his childhood, knowing that he was powerless and futile, but still wanted to persevere stubbornly.

Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, Margaret told herself from the bottom of her heart that Adam had already developed such a character by her, and she could only bite the bullet and support him, she said: "I know why you are angry, yes , That's right, Mother Qi and I both know that you lost him. Because of your efforts to get him back, we didn't tell you to save face for you. But you know, Was it not Qi Shu who was taking care of you after you fell into a coma, but Leslie?"

"I-I don't understand what you're talking about."

"No, you understand, you just don't want to face it, and avoiding it won't solve the problem. You and Qi Shu met Leslie at the same time, but you recognized the wrong person; many years later, he and Qi Shu met again I fell in love with Leslie at about the same time, you got him first, but you didn't cherish him, and mistakenly thought that you didn't love him; now, Leslie chooses Qi Shu, he is very happy, but you cling to him , reducing the good impression you have left in his heart over and over again, do you have to exhaust all his gratitude to you to be happy?"

Adam's eyes were already bloodshot, and he felt that his internal organs were squeezed together. The discomfort was indescribable. He didn't shed tears, because those tears turned into blood and dripped cleanly from his heart.His lips trembled, he wanted to open his mouth a few times, and finally said: "But letting him go is really painful."

"I know." Margaret put her arms around her son, trying to comfort him. She stroked his forehead and said over and over again, "I know, I know."

It's really painful, but no matter how painful it is, you must let go. Some poisons can only be ushered in a new life if they are completely released.

"I regret it, Mom, I really love him, but he doesn't believe it, what should I do?"

Margaret didn't give her son any advice this time, because she didn't know the answer to this question. Her own love life itself was a mess. The only love was given to Adam's father, who was hysterical in her The man who cried and cried and exhausted the last trace of affection with her, now the two of them live like sworn enemies, and the king has not seen the king for many years.

She often thinks that if she didn't take the wrong step back then, if she divorced quickly after she made a mistake, maybe she could still be friends when they meet again now.However, the words come again, isn't it more cruel to be friends with someone you love deeply?

The next day, Adam, who hadn't slept all night, made his own decision, divorce.

In the coffee shop again, Adam and Gu Yuangui were still the only two people, Adam's haggard eyes were covered behind sunglasses, he said: "If I agree to sign the divorce agreement, will you be able to believe that I love you? "

Gu Yuangui looked at Adam blankly. He could feel the overwhelming despair coming from Adam. He didn't know what new tricks Adam was playing, and he had no position to stand for Rice. Li is soft-hearted, because in many cases, soft-heartedness is the greatest injustice.So he said: "What if I believe that you love me now? What if I don't believe that you love me?"

The person who has really been waiting for your words has disappeared.

But you still can't even tell him from me.

"You're right, it doesn't make any sense anymore." Adam smiled wryly, "In order not to make myself look too ugly, I think it's better for me not to talk and just bury my head in signing. There are some treaties, I want to discuss with you, do you think it's OK?"

"What's your problem?" As long as Adam really wanted to sign, Gu Yuangui's attitude would naturally not be so confrontational, because it was unnecessary.

"I'm a downtown park apartment, I think it should be left to you. Don't refuse me, it's not a breakup fee, but, your mother lived there until she died, you said, you lived in it when you were a child There, you and your mother love that apartment, and I think it should belong to you.” There were so many reminders telling him that Leslie was someone he met when he was a kid, and he was too foolish not to go ponder.

Gu Yuangui did not refuse either, the apartment was not a problem for him or Adam in terms of money: "Thank you."

"Just be happy." Adam smiled with relief. From the moment he opened his mouth, he was anxious, afraid of being rejected, afraid that the other party would not like him, and afraid that the other party would misunderstand him. I understand that wanting to please someone is such a feeling.How had Leslie come here for the past ten years?

"Leslie felt very happy."

Gu Yuangui chose a vague third person to answer this question. Leslie's love is very pure. When he didn't know who Adam was taking him as a substitute, he really thought that he had found his soul mate for a lifetime, and he was willing. He paid for Adam, even when he knew that Adam was just using him as a substitute, he didn't hold any resentment, he was just angry.

The agreement was signed, and since then they have been separated from each other, and each has a happy life.

"Can we still be friends?" Adam looked expectantly at Gu Yuangui who had got up and was about to leave, but he couldn't help but want to get close to him.

Gu Yuangui shook his head cruelly: "I don't think it's necessary."

People who have truly loved deeply cannot continue to be friends after breaking up. That in itself is a kind of secondary injury in disguise, whether it is to Qi Shu or Adam.

It was Adam who watched Gu Yuangui's back leave, and felt desolate in his heart.

He used to love him, and he loved him, but now... Love is not a panacea to cure everything, and many injuries cannot be offset by just saying "I love you".

Not continuing to hate and hurt each other is probably the best ending for the sentence "loved".