Bohemia

Dongzi and Yan Huan went out.

Before leaving, Yan Huan watched him hug his daughter again. Dongzi lowered his head and rubbed the baby with the stubble on his chin childishly. Yan Huan wanted to laugh when he saw it.

In his heart, the past few years have not moved forward.Dongzi is still the original him, but he has become a father.

The two hooked their shoulders together, and Dongzi smiled and said, "Look, there are wrinkles around the corners of my eyes."

Yan Huan said, "Me too."

Dongzi said: "You have a fart, and your face is so tender that you can pinch water. Hey, where is your...boyfriend?"

In fact, seeing that Dongzi had a family, Yan Huan didn't know what to say about himself, but thinking of Xie Xiunan, the corners of his mouth couldn't help but curl up.Dongzi understands so well. Seeing Yan Huan's small actions, he understood clearly, and said with a smile, "Why did you find a foreigner?"

Yan Huan said, "No, Chinese is more fluent than me."

Dongzi: "Hahaha, this is the same."

The two left the community, Dongzi drove the car, Yan Huan got into the co-pilot, and said, "You already bought the car."

"It's not a good car, it's just for transportation." Dongzi said.

Yan Huan looked at the steering wheel and suddenly said, "Drive it for me."

He can drive, but has never taken a driver's license test.In Yan Huan's own words, the driver's license test is a waste of life.Dongzi hit him with his fist and said, "You don't have a book yet, do you?"

Yan Huan sneered, and said: "You can open it when you are a teenager, and you need a fart."

Dongzi thought for a while and said, "I'll prescribe it for you when I get back. I'll go to the hospital first."

Yan Huan and Dongzi knew that they still had to go to the hospital.

Before he came, Dongzi had already told him about it, and both of them knew that Yan Huan's mother might not have much time.

"I'm already unconscious." Dongzi rolled up the window and smoked a cigarette, "Lung cancer, advanced stage."

"Yeah." Yan Huan didn't have any idea about cancer, he only knew that if he got cancer, he would die.

"Medical expenses?" Yan Huan looked at Dongzi.

Dongzi said: "Auntie has a little savings, but not much, and things didn't get better later on."

"Ah."

"Yan Huan..." Dongzi turned the steering wheel, and the two drove on another road under the night, "If you came back earlier..."

Yan Huan thought, maybe he had this chance.When he was in Beijing during the Chinese New Year, he made a phone call, but he didn't listen to her very much, and after that, he had no chance.Thinking about it now, the last thing she said to herself was to tell him to wait.

But he didn't wait.

Yan Huan put his hands in his pockets, lowered his head, and remained silent for a long time before saying, "It's nothing, it's all fate."

His life was bad, and his mother's life was even worse.In the face of death, saying anything is superfluous.But he still doesn't like her, can't love her, and can't forget how she treated him in the past.

Maybe there is no right or wrong in this, but Yan Huan can't pass his own test.

He dislikes hospitals very much.

I don't like the doctor's mask and white coat, and I don't like the smell of disinfectant in the hospital.Dongzi was familiar with it, so he took him to the inpatient department and greeted the nurses on duty in front of him.

A few nurses sat there, all staring at Yan Huan.

"The patient's family, her son." Dongzi said.

A nurse said, "Hey, it's finally here."

There seemed to be a little pity in her tone, but it didn't seem to be. Yan Huan felt that she was too sensitive.She took Yan Huan to a ward inside, opened the door, and Dongzi whispered behind Yan Huan, "Are you okay?"

"I'm fine." Yan Huan said after a pause.

He took a deep breath and entered the ward, where he saw the woman sleeping there, motionless.

"Just a few days." The nurse said, "Families need to be prepared."

Dongzi said, "Yan Huan, then I'll go out and wait for you."

"Yeah." Yan Huan looked at her without blinking, and said like sleepwalking.

He sat beside her, silent, thinking about it, but he still couldn't connect the thin woman in front of him with the mother in his memory.He remembered that she was unhappy, but alive.He likes to raise his eyebrows when he talks, and slowly he will smoke and drink when he is alone. When he scolds him, he depends on his mood and scolds him with anything, calling him cheap, saying he is here to collect debts, and saying that he wants to kill him.

The results of it……

She could only sleep here in the end.He remained motionless, his flesh and blood disappeared little by little, leaving this world little by little.

Yan Huan said, "I'll come back and take a look at you."

He lowered his head, not wanting to see his mother's shriveled face again, and said, "I don't know if you want to see me, but it doesn't matter, anyway, that's it."

"I'm doing okay. I can't die from hunger, and I don't have much ability. I just live. I have visited many places, and the people in each place are different."

"There's also something about homosexuality." When Yan Huan said this, he smiled self-deprecatingly, "Maybe I just can't change it, and now I like another man again."

He looked at the white wall, and finally said: "That's it, I hope you will be happy in your next life, marry a good husband, and have a happy family."

A few days later, Yan Huan's mother passed away.Dongzi and Xiaozhen were busy with him, and over the years, all the unhappiness in his heart had no object to resent.

"What are you going to do next?" Dongzi asked.

Yan Huan said: "It's rare to come back, let's stay a few more days."

Dongzi said, "Come to our house for dinner."

Xiaozhen seemed relieved, and said, "Yes, you're welcome, what would Yan Huan like to eat?"

Yan Huan shook his head and said, "I'll go home and pack my things."

There wasn't really much to clean up either, he left almost nothing there.But that place is always the place where he has lived for more than ten years, and he has to go.Yan Huan went upstairs, opened the door, and the room was very dark.He walked along the corridor in the dream and pushed open the door.At this moment, the dark room appeared in front of his eyes again, more than half of the wallpaper on the wall was peeled off, Yan Huan opened the window, and only a little sunlight came into the room.

At this time, Xie Xiunan called him, and Yan Huan answered.

"Hello?" Xie Xiunan said, "Yan Huan, are you okay?"

Everyone seems to have to ask him that question again.

Yan Huan smiled, sat on a chair with his back to the window, and said, "I'm fine."

"My mother passed away," he said.

Xie Xiunan said after a long time, "Address."

"What?" Yan Huan didn't respond.

Xie Xiunan said seriously: "Are you a fool?! Give me the address, and I'll fly there right away."

Yan Huan was a little amused, and said, "I told you, I don't want you to come over."

"Yan Huan!"

"I can do it myself," he said. "I don't want you to meddle in this matter."

An inexplicable anger suddenly surged in Yan Huan's heart, he couldn't tell why, but after hanging up Xie Xiunan's call, he felt as if he was going to cry in a second.

no……

He was still sitting in the chair, with the sunlight behind him, his shadow stretched out in front of him.

He shouldn't get angry at Xie Xiunan, he should find a chance to apologize to him next time.

However, after a while, when Yan Huan wanted to call Xie Xiunan again, he still failed.

Yan Huan simply lay down on the small bed in the corner again, and saw a familiar black spot on the ceiling.He suddenly felt cold, curled up his body, and slowly fell asleep like this.

At night, Dongzi called him.

"Yan Huan."

"Yeah." Yan Huan opened his eyes, "I'm sorry... I seem to have fallen asleep."

"It's okay." Dongzi smiled, "I'll come pick you up."

"Row."

The sky was getting dark, and the window that was open during the day looked like a monster's mouth. Yan Huan walked over and looked outside.He saw shadowy street lamps, trash cans that had been accidentally kicked over, and an old man hobbling across the street corner.

He was still uncomfortable, for no reason.

But Yan Huan didn't understand what it was for.

After a while, Dongzi came, Yan Huan closed the window and went downstairs with him.

He called Xie Xiunan again, this time he was even more speechless, Xie Xiunan turned off the phone.