Embroidered Pillows and Paper Tigers

On the way home, they didn't take a taxi, and the two walked out for a while.

Shen Yan still returned to silence, and even seemed a little preoccupied. He was wondering why he would react that way when he touched Li Shi'an's eyes just now, and why he felt fascinated, but at the same time very disturbed.

Li Shi'an thought that he hadn't recovered from the awkwardness of the previous quarrel, so he planned to enlighten him: "Why were you so angry that day?"

Shen Yan originally tried his best not to think about it, but who knew that Li Shi'an would bring it up.

Although the two reconciled, Shen Yan felt uncomfortable when he thought that next semester would be divided into classes, and that they would be separated after high school graduation. He said, "I don't know what kind of feeling Li Shi'an has."

Li Shi'an is a troublesome person. After guessing that Shen Yan didn't want to be separated from him next school year, he decided not to give up until he got an answer. He touched Shen Yan's shoulder affectionately and said, "Tell me, what are you angry about? Is it because I don’t take the Academy of Fine Arts exam?”

He didn't have a high degree of prescription and didn't wear glasses. His eyes stared straight at Shen Yan and waited for his answer. The ignorance and anxiety that had gathered in Shen Yan's heart intensified again, and he turned his face away and let out a "hmm".

"Why are you so angry that I didn't take the entrance examination for the Academy of Fine Arts?" Li Shi'an pushed forward, cheerfully waiting for Shen Yan's answer.

In the beginning, he wanted to make friends with Shen Yan. If Shen Yan could reciprocate his equal affection, he would be satisfied. Those small entanglements of Shen Yan and his tolerance are nothing, as is the case with any relationship, friendship Nature is no exception.

But Li Shi'an obviously didn't notice that Shen Yan's feelings for him were going in another direction, even Shen Yan himself might not have noticed.

Shen Yan was looking for a way to stay with Li Shi'an for a long time.

"You don't want to take the Academy of Fine Arts, have you thought about what to take?"

Li Shi'an shook his head: "Our family has a small factory, except that I inherit it or sell it. My dad wants me to learn management. I don't have any special expectations for which school to take. I probably just want to do my best to pass the exam."

Shen Yan, who had been depressed all the time, thought it was Li Shi'an himself who didn't want to be admitted to the Academy of Fine Arts. After receiving this answer, he asked expectantly, "What about you? What do you think?"

"Of course I want to enter the Academy of Fine Arts." Li Shi'an said, but it was useless, he didn't even have the courage to ask Li Qishan.

Shen Yan suddenly became emotional: "Then why don't you fight for it?"

Li Shi'an and Shen Yan are quite familiar, so he felt that there was nothing bad to say, so he told Shen Yan: "What should I say? In my family, my father and I have lived together for many years. He has spent most of his life in that factory. Do not want?"

"Depending on each other is one thing, but it's another thing to go against one's own life wishes and continue other people's dreams." Shen Yan grabbed Li Shi'an's thin coat, "Is your pursuit not important to you? If it is important, You should at least try."

What Shen Yan said was reasonable, but Li Shi'an could imagine Li Qishan's reaction when he heard that he was going to be admitted to the Academy of Fine Arts. He would never want to see that gloomy expression on his father's face.

So he jerky broke away from Shen Yan's hand and shook his head.

Shen Yan was very disappointed with Li Shi'an's reaction, but he is the kind of person who doesn't want to give up when he sees a glimmer of hope. He feels that as long as Li Shi'an doesn't think about not taking the Academy of Fine Arts, then Li Shi'an may change his mind.

Li Shi'an obviously didn't want to talk to Shen Yan about this topic anymore, he lost the ease and joy he usually had when getting along with Shen Yan, and walked forward in silence.Very helpless, but also very hesitant.

"Life is still very long. As a person, you can't live as a continuation of others. Even if you can do it now, can you guarantee that you won't regret it for the rest of your life?" Shen Yan said loudly behind Li Shi'an.

There is only one life, Li Shi'an doesn't know these truths, he may regret it, he may hate Li Qishan, but those are things for later, far less important than the problems he is facing now.

The problem now is that Li Shi'an doesn't have the courage to mention this to Li Qishan at all. He can't let his father down, he wants to be worthy of that "sensible".

Li Shi'an didn't stop walking, Shen Yan hurriedly chased after him.

The few contacts he had with others in his short life left him speechless, and in a panic, he actually yelled out what was in his heart: "I want to be in the same class with you next semester, and I even want to be close to you in college." One point, I’ve seen it, Xmei is only 23 kilometers away from my target university, just take a bus. I don’t have any other friends, only you.”

After hearing this sentence, Li Shi'an stopped unconsciously. Shen Yan is really not a very good lobbyist, and he can't say any earth-shattering truths, but the last stupid sentence is really touching. .

What kind of fool would be optimistic about the distance between two schools in advance in order to be with friends?Student Shen Yan is really a big baby.

Li Shi'an hesitated for a while. He turned his head and saw the red-faced Shen Yan looking at a loss in the night wind in late May, spring and early summer, and thought he was cute and silly.

The street lights were soft, and Li Shi'an suddenly remembered Shen Yan who was completely different from today on that snowy night. How did Shen Yan that night attract him?

Because of that dance, Li Shi'an saw the bondage and struggle in the dance, and he felt the resonance.To put it simply, he felt that Shen Yan was the same as him, they were both suffering from some invisible constraints in life.

The "pain" of youth often seems too pretentious, especially for a young master like Li Shi'an who has no worries about food and clothing, can he say this to Zhu He who would spend a dollar in half?Can you tell this to Lao Xie, who was admitted to the hospital because of his own obesity gene, who was unable to lose weight and took too many diet pills?

He can't, this kind of emotion can only be digested by himself.Until he meets someone he can talk to, and that person encourages him to go for it.

Li Shi'an's eyes were a little hot, he thought about it, and felt that maybe he should fight for it, just fight for it, if Li Qishan disagrees, it might not be too late for him to give up, and he is worthy of his insistence on his hobby for almost ten years.

Shen Yan was still ashamed of those blurted words just now, those words were not like what a boy said to another boy, it was almost like a couple confessing their love.He felt that these words were probably the limit of his life. If Li Shi'an didn't agree, he might hate Li Shi'an for the rest of his life.

At this moment, Shen Yan saw Li Shi'an's lips move, he almost held his breath, his eyes opened wide, but he heard Li Shi'an laughing in a sly way: "Student Shen Yan, I didn't expect you You are so deeply in love with me!"

"..."

Shen Yan didn't feel like being teased by Li Shi'an, but was more flustered by the rumors, blushing and rushed to the front.

Li Shi'an laughed as if he had succeeded in a prank, then took a few steps like an octopus, jumped onto Shen Yan's back and stuck to it, and shouted, "Say, when did you plot against me? What's the matter?" Purpose!"

"Let go," Shen Yan, who was suddenly attacked from behind, frowned, "Come down for me! Li Shi'an!"

"Good idea!" The juvenile's cheerful laughter sounded on Xilaixi's way, and Li Shi'an circled him, "Go, go back and show you a place!"

The so-called place actually refers to the study room at home. It is a bit difficult to say that it is a study room, because there is not even a decent bookcase.

There is good light in the room.When the door is opened, the first thing that catches the eye is the large and small paintings that cover the entire wall. Most of them are copied, and the sketches are mostly portraits. Books about management are all piled up on a desk by the window, without any sense of existence.

Every corner of the room is full of Li Shi'an's breath, Shen Yan feels that walking into this room feels like stepping into Li Shi'an's spiritual realm, he can imagine Li Shi'an's appearance when he painted those paintings, quiet and profound, not even the sunlight can disturb him he.

Shen Yan didn't understand Li Shi'an's real purpose for bringing him back, looking back at Li Shi'an who was leaning against the door, his eyes were full of doubts.

"I'm going to give it a try and tell my dad that I want to take the X beauty exam."

He heard Li Shi'an say.

From this day on, the two returned to before the quarrel, doing homework together every night, ordering takeaway, watching a movie together when there was not much homework, and their relationship tended to be better than before the quarrel.

It was the same at school. Every morning, Li Shi'an and Shen Yan could be seen entering the classroom with their shoulders together, at noon they went to eat together, and in the afternoon they went home together.

The so-called "hook shoulders and backs" is precisely Li Shi'an hanging on Shen Yan's body like a cramp.

When I went to the cafeteria for lunch at noon that day, because the seats in the cafeteria had been occupied by people, the four of them were together in pairs, Li Shi'an and Lao Xie, and Shen Yan could only be with Zhu He.

Zhu He was happy to be with Xueba. He wanted to discuss with Shen Yan a problem in physics class in the morning. After obtaining Shen Yan's consent, he took out his mobile phone. At this moment, Shen Yan saw Li Shi'an without looking up. He naturally put a piece of wax gourd into Lao Xie's bowl.

"..."

Shen Yan stared angrily at Lao Xie's generous back, staring so hard that his eyes almost glowed green, as if the position that Lao Xie took originally belonged to him.

Dinner is included in the make-up classes with Li Shi’an. Li Shi’an eats two extremes, either very rough, a piece of bread can be counted as a meal; , he stopped eating.

When Shen Yan was there, Li Shi'an always ordered food at the private restaurant outside the community, so he never ate bread with Li Shian, and the restaurant has always been very good, so for the time being, he didn't find anything wrong with Li Shian's eating. He doesn't eat leeks, and he doesn't find that he doesn't eat winter melon.

"If you don't want to eat, don't order it, prodigal son." Shen Yan murmured to himself.

At this moment, Lao Xie, who took out his mobile phone, raised his head when he heard these vague words, and happened to see Shen Yan with green eyes, he was startled, followed Shen Yan's eyes, but only saw Lao Xie's Wall of flesh.

This is?Zhu He didn't understand for a moment.

The "prodigal son" classmate Li Shi'an suffered an inexplicable disaster. Naturally, he would not order dishes that he did not eat. To be honest, he did not know how to get into the dinner plate with the coquettish and independent winter melon.

It was said behind the back that Li Shi'an sneezed heavily without warning, and when he raised his eyes and saw Shen Yan and Zhu He looking this way, he grinned, while Lao Xie, who had been sprayed with food scum all over his face, raised his head silently.

"Li Shi'an!"